I said, “Tell her what?’’
Brenda grinned and said, “Tell her what it’s like to have real sex for the first time.”
I said, “But, Brenda, it can’t be quite what you have said. You both have children.”
She exclaimed, “Oh, children! Ronin, I have not been taking the mating potion! There wasn’t a reason to expect that I should.”
I said, “Brenda, do you mean that you could get pregnant from our lovemaking just now?”
She nodded.
I said, “If you did, would it be so bad? Is there any reason for shame if you do? Or would you not want it?”
She said, “My Lord, if you want me to have a child for you, I will. Gladly. I don’t feel a need to have more children, but if you want them, I will be honored to have them for you. But, I’m getting past the age for that. It’s possible, but it won’t be for very many more years.”
I said, “Brenda, I don’t know what any of us will do about children, or when. I do know that I will have children with the girls, but if you get pregnant, I will love the child we have very much.”
She kissed me and said, “You are a wonderful man. But, to be sure, I will start taking the mating potion until you tell me to stop. Since my first husband didn’t make love that way, I never needed it before. Oh, but you asked how Alice and I had children. Yes, very occasionally, our husband would get right to the edge of his climax as I tried to pleasure him, and then he would insert himself at the last instant. Not often, but every few years, perhaps. On his birthday or at times like that. Wow, is Alice in for a surprise!”
I said, “Brenda, one more question. What if I said, ‘Brenda, come over here and suck my cock?’”
She laughed and said, “Is that the kind of thing that you’re likely to say?”
I said sheepishly, “Well, it could happen.”
She said, “Oh good. You say that, and I’ll run to you and fall to my knees and suck you until you explode in my mouth. But, you’re so big. I don’t know if I can. Oh, of course I can if I try. Anyway, yeah. If that’s what you want, say it just like that.”
Chapter 15 - The Fifth Woman
We untangled ourselves from the chair where we sat together and Brenda ran off to find a clean dress, while I put my pants back on. My shirt had stayed on the whole time. When I was dressed again, I went to find the others. I had taken Dawn to Harmony’s old room, so I headed there. Alice met me in the hall.
She said, “Ronin, Dawn was very upset. Val is with her. She is damaged from her experience. Val thinks that she will be fine. She says to tell you that she may need you later, but not right now. Whether she comes down to dinner or not is to be seen.”
I said, “I wish that none of you were harmed by those men. Alice, should we go and talk about things?”
Alice nodded, and I led her back to the sitting room where Brenda and I had been. After the door was closed, we took our seats in the chairs facing each other.
I leaned forward and reached for Alice's hands and she placed them in mine and I said, “Alice, Brenda has explained to me about widow-wives, and I want you very much, if you want me.”
Alice said, “My Lord, if you will take me, I am already yours.”
I said, “I want you very much. There is already a connection between us. I feel it. I hope that you will too. Alice, I will never force anyone in any way, but I love you. I meant what I said in the street.”
She said, “You mean about us being your women?”
I said, “If it wasn’t too presumptuous of me. It’s what I felt, so I said it without regard to the consequences or what you might think of it.”
Alice smiled and said, “It thrilled me. My Lord, what did Brenda tell you about our first husband?”
I said, “She told me that you were mated to him when you were twenty two. That he was thirty years older. She said that he was a kind man, but perhaps not so young as might have made you happier. Oh, I shouldn’t have said that. That probably isn’t what she meant. Forgive me.”
Alice smiled and said, “Ronin, let’s be frank. Like Harmony is. Let’s say what is plainly what.”
She took a deep breath and then said, “Ronin, he was a fine man. But, last night, when I saw you, and then had my hand on you, and even before that, when I was in the wagon with you, I knew that I would love you, and that you would love me in ways that I had never experienced. And, after what happened today, I am yours, body and heart, and I will be your widow-wife and do everything I can to show you my love.”
I said, “Alice, but are you attracted to me in a way that makes you want me to make love to you?”
She said, “With every fiber of my womanhood.”
I said, “Alice, Brenda and I made love already. But there were some misunderstandings and difficulties.”
Alice grinned and said, “Because she had never seen a penis bigger than my finger?”
I smiled and said, “Well, yeah. And her expectations were different than mine.”
Alice said, “Because she had never seen what a girl feels like when she has an orgasm that she didn’t give herself with her own fingers?”
I said, “Well, yeah.”
She said, “And did you fuck her senseless like you did Dawn last night?”
I said, “Well, yeah.”
Alice exclaimed, “That was so arousing. I had a small orgasm, just watching you. I ran home and worked myself up while I dreamed of you. IN the bath, I pretended that I was so used it, and acted like I was calmly coaching you, but part of the time, while I only had one hand on you, I had the fingers of my other hand under my dress. Ronin, I was dying!”
I said, “But now, we can be together, and I can give you what you want. Brenda said that as my widow-wife, I’m responsible for your sexual pleasure, as well as your other needs.”
Alice beamed, “That’s that way it works alright.”
I said, “But Brenda said that you are only used to it once a month.”
Alice said, “And you expect it to be more than that? How many times did you make love today?”
I said, “Twice. So far.”
She said, “So far.”
I said, “Brenda told me that with her that I should be um, very forthright about my desires.”
Alice smiled and said, “I’m intrigued. What does that mean?”
I said, “Well, all of you are different, I know that, so just because Brenda says one thing, that doesn’t mean that it would be the same with you, but I love you so much, and I am feeling like I have some desires toward you, and I don’t know quite how to approach you yet.”
She leaned closer to me and said, “Oh? Well, tell me exactly what Brenda said she wants from you.”
I said, “Well, um …”
Alice said, “Exactly what did she tell you?”
I took a breath for courage and said, “Well, she told me that whenever I wanted her, that I should be forceful and say, ‘Brenda come here and let me fuck your ass’.”
She said, “Her ass?”
I said, “No, I mean, she said that, but she meant just making love from behind, not anything else. We were very clear about that.”
Alice said, “Well, Brenda does find that to be the only way that she had any pleasure from sex. But, yeah, I think that would be nice. I mean for you to just tell us what you want us to do. I’ll do anything you want. Just like that. Anything at all. As much as you want. Yeah. As much as you want. Um, Ronin, do you really love me?”
I said, “Alice, I really do. There is something between us, even if you don’t sense it yet.”
She said, “Oh, I sense it. I sense it strongly. I sensed it when Lucy told us that we would be yours if we wanted to be. She said that of all the widows, or even other girls in the village, that we were the only two that she would let near you. It was funny. She made it clear that she felt that the decision for all of us was hers. But it seemed right.”
I said suddenly, “Lucy! We need Lucy!”
Alice said, “I think
that we can figure this out without her.”
I stood up and said, “No, for Dawn. Lucy can help Dawn!”
I rushed from the room, back to where Val was sitting with Dawn. I opened the door quietly, but quickly, and when she saw me, Val said, “She’s sleeping. She is having a hard time.”
I said, “We need Lucy. Lucy can talk to her. Remember how she talked to all of us at the river? Lucy can help Dawn.”
Val said, “I think you’re right. I have been looking for an answer, but all I can do is comfort her.”
I said, “I’ll run to the farm and get her.”
Val said, “Send Harmony.”
I left the room and called for Harmony. She was standing in front of me a moment later. I explained the situation, and instead of rushing off as I expected, she grabbed my hand and dragged me to the sitting room.
She said, “Alice, give us just a moment,” and she closed the door behind us.
Going to the chairs that were still arranged facing each other and sitting down, she took my hands in hers and looked into my eyes.
She said simply, “Let’s call her.”
I thought that I knew what she meant, and we quickly closed our eyes and looked for Lucy.
Harmony said, “Of the four of us, I have the strongest connection to her. You have the next strongest. She loves you. Look for a ribbon that leads from both of us, away from Val and Dawn, toward the farm. Or wherever Lucy is. Yes. I think that’s it. Follow it. That’s her. That’s definitely her. Now, how can we call her? You got Val’s attention, and she knew that it was you that did it. Find a way to call Lucy.”
I thought for a moment. I found the chord of connection between Lucy and I, and I very carefully, very gently, tried to pull on it. Just very slightly, watching my image of Lucy closely for signs that she felt me. Nothing happened at first, so I pulled just a very little bit more firmly. I had no real reason to think that this would work. On the other hand, why wouldn’t it? I had influenced Val across the connection, why not Lucy? I kept up the tentative pull on the chord, and after a few seconds, I sensed Lucy start to move. At first, she moved away from me, and I got nervous and pulled harder. Lucy still didn’t immediately come in my direction, but a minute later, she did. Slowly at first, but then more quickly.
Harmony said, “I think that at first, she went to get other clothes on before she left the house.”
I said, “Oh, of course! That must have been it.”
She was probably running now, and I eased up on the force of my pull.
Harmony said, “I’ll run out and meet her. And tell her what happened. I’ll be back as soon as I can. But, you are right. She can help Dawn. She will show her the truth and help her forget the lies that are upsetting her. I’ll be back soon.”
Harmony jumped out of her chair, and when she was out of the room, Alice came back in and sat with me again. I could see the concern on her face.
I said, “Lucille can help Dawn. Harmony and I needed a minute to figure out what to do. She has gone to bring her aunt here. What were we talking about?”
Alice said, “Talking isn’t important. Stand up and let me undress you. You need clean clothes.”
Alice spoke so softly and tenderly. It was instantly comforting. I let myself be undressed and led to a lounging sofa where Alice had me lie face down. And then she started to massage me. She started at my neck, and worked her way down. This was very different that the healing massage that I knew about. This was relaxing and peaceful. This could have put me to sleep. This made me feel loved. She continued to rub my muscles for several minutes, but before long I turned over and faced her.
I said, “Alice, that feels wonderful. But, Lucy will be here soon, and we will have to stop then. Alice, do you want to give it a try before she gets here?” and I glanced down toward my lap.
Alice looked to where I gazed and smiled. I was semi-rigid, and Alice reached down and put her hand around my shaft, stroking it slowly. Without a word, she stood up and removed her dress and set it aside. She was beautiful. I let my eyes do the talking, appreciating her body to the full. And she noticed the effect it had on my groin.
She smiled and lifted a leg to straddle me where I lay on the couch, and taking hold of me with her hand to guide me, she put her entrance directly over the head of my penis. She lowered herself slowly. I gasped as I felt the first touch of her wetness at the very tip of my manhood…and so did she. She opened her eyes and smiled at me and lowered herself very deliberately, keeping eye contact with me the whole time. As I began to penetrate her, her eyes went wide and she smiled even more. Slowly she went, a fraction of an inch at a time. Down and down over me. I could feel more and more of my length squeezed tightly, heated by her body. It seemed to take forever, and I loved every second of it. All the way down, Alice breathed deeply, and even moaned now and then.
Still staring deeply into my eyes in wonder she said, “Ronin, that feels so good. Oh, thank you for being so patient. I’m almost there.”
A few seconds later, her mound pressed against my body, and I was all the way in. Alice closed her eyes now and sat mostly still. Then she started to move, just a little. She moved in small circles, stirring her insides with my shaft.
I ran my hands up the tops of her thighs and said, “Alice, lie down here in my arms.”
She slowly moved forward, lying herself down on my chest with her legs on each side of my hips, my penis filling her completely. I put my arms around her and held her to me in a loving embrace.
Alice drew a deep breath and exclaimed quietly, “Oh, what are you doing? What is happening?” and then she shuddered in what might have been a very small orgasm, or the start of one.
I continued to hold her very close and kissed her cheek and neck, starting to rock my hips very slowly, riding in and out just an inch or two at each thrust. It was slow and sensuous, and I held her against my chest.
I whispered, “Alice, be mine. I love you. I will always love you. I have always loved you and have waited for you to come to me. Be mine, Beloved.”
Alice started to weep, but even so, she matched my rhythm, rocking herself slowly on top of me.
She said, “Oh no. No, what’s happening? Master, no.”
Her words said no, but she clearly wasn’t asking me to stop what I was doing.
She said again, “What’s happening to me? What’s happening? Master? Ronin? What is happening?” and she cried in my arms.
She cried through her arousal, tears running onto my chest where her head lay against me.
I said, “Alice, what do you mean? I’m making love to you. I love you. I want you to love me.”
I wasn’t using any persuasive magick, or anything like that. I was simply holding her and loving her.
She said, “No. No, what? But Master, how? But I love you! No, we can’t.”
I asked tenderly, “We can’t what? We can make love. You are my wife now. What can be wrong. You told me before that we can love each other. We are just loving each other because I love you.”
She wept, “No, but no. Not like this. I said that we could have sex. That you could fuck me and let me please you. What’s happening? Why am I climaxing?”
Alice raised herself on her arms and starred at me, and then burst forth in orgasm. When it was over, she lay back down on my chest and cried some more. I could tell that she was still enjoying what we were doing and that even though she was crying, it was from some inner conflict, not because she was unhappy with what was happening.
I continued rolling my hips, thrusting very gently as I held her against me again and whispered, “Alice, do you love me?”
She cried hard and said, “No. Of course I do. How can I not? I am yours heart and body. No, I love you with everything that I am. I am yours and always have been. Master what’s happening? Why?”
I said tenderly, “Alice, I love you. Be mine.”
Alice nearly screamed and grabbed me tightly and squeezed my neck, gasping, “Master, fuck my pussy! I lo
ve you! Oh, fuck me more. I love you so much,” and she started to kiss my face all over frantically. She said, “Yes I love you. Yes, I do love you. I have always loved you. You were always my husband. I was a virgin this morning. I was. If this is love then I have never had it until now. And if this is making love, I have never done it until this moment. Master, do you hate me because I didn’t wait for you? Because I was unfaithful? I didn’t mean to. I swear, I never meant to hurt you!”
I said in a whisper, “Alice, shush now. Quiet. Of course I don’t hate you. Or blame you for anything. It’s not like that at all. Neither of us knew. But now we are together. Alice, do you love your daughter?”
She said, “I do. She is a wonderful girl and I love her.”
I said, “And so will I as her father if she will accept me as such. I’m glad that you have had her. I’m happy that you had your first husband to take care of you until now. I owe him a debt. I am very grateful. Brenda said that he was a fine man.”
She said, “He was. I was happy for the most part. Oh, Master, fuck me again!” and she shuddered in yet another orgasm.
I said, “As often as you want it. But rest for a minute. Rest now in my arms. Good. Let me feel you pour your love into me. Let me feel your heart and your breath. Let me hold your beautiful body against mine and know that you love me.”
Alice began to calm herself, and she stopped crying, and held me tightly.
I said, “Darling, Harmony and Lucy will be back now. We need to get dressed and we can talk more later. Is that OK? I don’t want to stop holding you, but we need to see what we have to do right now. Is that OK?”
Alice melted into my chest for a second and said, “Of course. Of course. Yes, we have to get dressed. Yes, Ronin, I love you.”
I said, “And I love you.”
The two of us started to get up and get dressed in clean clothes that Alice had brought for me, and we talked a moment while I pulled them on.
I said, “Alice, will you tell me what you were feeling? When you were crying as we made love?”
She helped me into my shirt and said, “Ronin, I had never felt like that before. In so many ways. My first husband was so much older than I was, and especially as time went by, I think that I didn’t know what the kind of love that I feel from you was. I felt like I was dying as you held me. And I didn’t know that you would truly love me. I am a widow-wife. And sometimes, that is a second-class wife. I didn’t expect that you would love me like this. And you were so tender. And I never knew that lovemaking could be so tender, and so intense, both at the same time. It made me afraid.”
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