“That’s exactly what I’m trying to tell him,” Eva said.
There was a silence.
“How did he die?” Eva asked.
“I’ve told you. Bergur died of exposure. He was eight years old. We got separated. I was found. His body was never found. Maybe you did dream about him. It doesn’t matter, don’t get all excited about it. Tell me about yourselves instead. What are you both up to these days?”
“Could he have drowned?” Eva Lind asked.
Erlendur stared at his daughter. She knew he didn’t want to discuss the matter any further but she did not let that deter her. She stared back defiantly. Sindri looked down at the table between them.
“Sindri told me it was one of the theories,” she added, “that he heard when he was out east.”
Sindri raised his eyes. “Loads of people know the story out there,” he said. “People who remember the whole thing.”
Erlendur did not respond.
“What do you think happened?” Eva Lind asked.
Erlendur still did not reply.
“It was dark,” Eva said. “I was in water. At first I thought I was swimming but this was different. I never go swimming. Not since I was at school. But all of a sudden I was in water and it was incredibly cold…”
“Eva …” Erlendur looked pleadingly at his daughter.
“You told me I could tell you my dream another time. Have you forgotten?”
Slowly Erlendur shook his head.
“And a boy came towards me and looked at me and smiled and he immediately reminded me of you. I thought at first it was you. Were you alike?”
“So people said.”
Anyway, we weren’t swimming or in a swimming pool,” Eva said. “We were just in some kind of water that changed into mud and slime. Then the boy stopped smiling and everything went black. I couldn’t breathe. Like I was drowning or suffocating. I woke up gasping. No dream’s ever affected me like that before. I’ll never forget it. His face.”
“His face?”
“When everything went black. It was …”
“What?”
“It was you,” Eva Lind said.
“Me?”
“Yes. All of a sudden it was you.”
No one spoke.
“Was that after Sindri had told you about the bogs?” Erlendur asked with a glance at Sindri.
“Yes,” Eva said. “How did your brother die? What about the bogs?”
“Did he drown?” Sindri asked.
“He may have drowned,” Erlendur said in a low voice.
“There are rivers running into the fjord,” Sindri said.
“Yes.”
“Some people say he must have fallen in one of them.”
“That’s probably one hypothesis. That he fell in the Eskifjordur River.”
“But there’s another, worse one, isn’t there?” Eva Lind said.
Erlendur grimaced. An old memory resurfaced in his mind of men trying to save a horse that had wandered too far into the bog. A great big beast that belonged to a man from the village. The horse floundered around, sending up a spray of mud, but the more it thrashed, the deeper it sank until only its head remained above the surface, its flaring nostrils and frenzied eyes that slowly, inexorably vanished into the mire. It was a horrific sight, a horrific death. Every time he thought of Bergur the image entered his mind of the horse sinking deeper and deeper into the bog until it disappeared.
“There are boggy areas up on the moors,” Erlendur said at last. “Quagmires that can be dangerous. They freeze over in winter, but every now and then there’s a thaw. The ice may have cracked and Bergur may have fallen through and got stuck. That’s one theory because we never found his remains.”
“So the ground swallowed him up?”
“We searched for weeks, months,” Erlendur said. “Local farmers. Our friends and relatives. It was no good. We found nothing. Not a single trace. It was literally as if the ground had swallowed him up.”
Sindri contemplated his father.
“That’s what people said.”
No one spoke for a long moment.
“Why is it still so hard after all these years?” Eva asked.
“I don’t know,” Erlendur said. “Because I know he’s still up there somewhere lost and alone, with nothing to look forward to but death.”
They sat in silence for a long time and the only sound was the howling of the north wind. Eva Lind stood up and walked over to the living-room window.
“Poor little boy,” she said into the cold winter’s night.
When they had gone, he sat down in his chair again and a sentence from Elias’s exercise book came into his mind; a little comment or thought that Elias had written on its own at the bottom of a page, as if he had noted it down on the spur of the moment. Perhaps he had meant to ask his mother.
How many trees does it take to make a forest?
24
Erlendur woke from a dreamless sleep. A book about avalanches in Iceland lay open on the bedside table. More books were piled beside it: Icelandic novels, descriptions of arduous journeys over mountain tracks, folktales and legends, ghost stories and travellers” tales from days gone by, but mostly tragic accounts of death and destruction in extreme weather conditions. Valgerdur had asked if these accounts he revered so much dealt only with death and injury. Erlendur said that on the contrary many of them told of miraculous rescues, and the apparently limitless capacity and endurance of people who survived the most extraordinary ordeals. That’s the point of the stories, he said. That’s why they’re so relevant.
He admitted that they contained few laughs, though he did find the occasional glimmer of wry amusement amidst all the trials and tribulations. Before going to sleep he had read an account in a parish register from 1847 that told of a farm labourer who went far into the mountains in search of sheep, having been warned of the danger from avalanches. When the labourer did not return at the appointed hour, two men were sent out to look for him. After searching for some time they saw that he had probably fallen over a snowy precipice into a large gully that was by now almost entirely full of snow. The men scraped away at the snow with their hands and after they had dug down about four feet they uncovered the soles of the labourer’s feet. Assuming he must be dead, they ceased their digging and returned to the farm, but when they reported their discovery, there was a commotion. The farm people would not have it that the labourer’s death was beyond doubt, and ordered the pair back up the mountain, this time armed with a shovel, some Hoffmann’s drops and camphor oil. When they dug the man out of the snow, it transpired that he had been trapped head-down in the drift, was still very much alive in spite of everything, and “came out talking furiously’.
Erlendur smiled to himself as he got out of bed and put on some coffee. Sigurdur Oli phoned and they had a brief conversation about the knife from the recycling depot. Anyone from the school could have removed the knife from the workshop, assuming it came from there in the first place, as there was a steady stream of pupils, teachers and other staff through the classroom. Egill was right, the carving knives used at Icelandic schools were identical, and it was uncertain whether they would be able to find any evidence to link the knife to the attack on Elias. The employee who discovered it had been using it at work and claimed that it was so shiny when he found it that someone must have cleaned it before it ended up in the scrap-metal bin.
The phone rang again. This time it was Elinborg.
“She’s been found,” she announced without preamble. “The missing woman.”
“Who?”
“The missing woman. Exactly where I said we’d find her. On Reykjanes. In the lavafield south of the aluminium plant.”
The police forensics team were standing over the body, well bundled up in thick down jackets. A tripod supporting two arclights lay on its side with the bulbs smashed, where it had blown over. Erlendur had driven the Ford along the old track as far as he dared before getting out and walking the
last stretch. The place was known as Hraun, a short distance from the aluminium plant at Straumsvik. The lava shoreline was indented here by small coves full of sharp skerries. Snow fell in intermittent flurries and an angry sea crashed on the rocks. Erlendur was aware that this used to be a landing place for rowing boats and noted the outlines of ruined walls, which were all that remained of the old fishermen’s huts and sheds.
The corpse had been washed up in one of the coves. Although the official search for the woman had been called off some time ago, a small team of voluntary rescue workers from nearby Hafnarfjordur had been on a dawn exercise, combing the beaches south of the aluminium plant, when they stumbled across the body. Elinborg was talking to members of the team in one of the patrol cars that had made it all the way down to the sea. An ambulance and two other police cars were parked a short way from the corpse, their headlights illuminating the narrow cove, the breakers on the beach and the figures stooping over the body.
Elinborg stepped out of the car when she saw Erlendur approaching.
“Has someone let the husband know?” he asked, stopping.
“I gather he’s on his way.”
“Is it definitely her?”
“There’s no question. We found her ID. Aren’t you going to take a look at her?”
“Yes, in a minute,” Erlendur said, taking out a packet of cigarettes and lighting one. He had dreaded this moment. It would be the first time he had seen the woman and he wished that it had not been like this, as a corpse on a Reykjanes beach. He remembered their last telephone conversation. He had been a brute. He regretted it now.
The Hafnarfjordur district medical officer had been summoned to sign the death certificate. When he had finished examining the body, he walked over to them.
“Can you see any injuries?” Erlendur asked.
“No, not at first sight,” the medical officer said.
The phone calls had been so brief, so truncated. Erlendur wondered if he could have responded differently. Could he have helped her? Ought he to have listened to her better?
“I’m only here to sign the death certificate,” the medical officer said. “The police pathologist will have to determine the cause of death.”
They saw a jeep approaching. Erlendur flicked away his cigarette butt. The jeep stopped by the squad cars and the woman’s husband jumped out and started running towards them.
“Have you found her?” he called.
Erlendur and Elinborg exchanged glances. The man’s path was blocked by police officers.
“Is it her?” the man yelled, staring over towards the body. “Oh my God! What has she done?”
He tried to push past them but the police officers held him back.
“What have you done?” he shouted in the direction of the body.
Erlendur and Elinborg stood motionless in the cold, their eyes meeting. The man turned to Erlendur.
“Look what she’s done!” he shouted in utter despair. “Why did she do this? Why?”
The officers led the man aside and tried to calm him.
Erlendur stood in the shelter of a large police vehicle with Elinborg and the medical officer. His thoughts went out to the woman’s children and former husband. He knew that the more time that elapsed after her disappearance, the more their fears for the worst had grown, and now their worst nightmares had been realised.
Erlendur had told the husband about the phone calls and had no idea what to do about that now that she was dead. He felt it was probably best to maintain a discreet silence about them. He heard her voice, heard her desperation and fear and that strange hesitancy, the half-finished sentences that made it hard for him to know what she wanted of him. He sighed heavily and lit up another cigarette.
“What are you thinking?” Elinborg asked.
“Those bloody phone calls,” Erlendur said.
“From her?” Elinborg asked.
“They keep preying on my mind. The last time I spoke to her I was … I was a bit sharp with her.”
“Typical,” Elinborg said.
“I could tell she was suffering but I had the feeling that she was playing some kind of game with me. I didn’t give her enough time. I’m such a crass idiot”
“You couldn’t have changed anything.”
“Excuse me,” the medical officer said. “When did you talk to her?”
He was an older man with whom Erlendur was slightly acquainted.
“Yesterday evening,” Erlendur said.
“You were talking to that woman yesterday evening?”
“Yes.”
“That’s strange.”
“Oh?”
“That woman hasn’t been phoning anyone recently.”
“Really?”
“And certainly not yesterday”
“I’m telling you, she’s called me several times over the past few days.”
“Of course I’m just an ordinary doctor,” the medical officer said. “I’m no expert, but it’s out of the question. Forget it. She’s unrecognisable.”
Erlendur ground his cigarette under his shoe and stared at the medical officer.
“What are you saying?”
“She’s been in the sea for at least two weeks,” the medical officer said. “It’s out of the question that she could have been alive a couple of days ago. Totally impossible. Why do you think they haven’t let her husband see her?”
Erlendur gazed at him, speechless.
“What on earth’s happening?” He sighed and started to walk towards the woman’s body.
“You mean it wasn’t her?” Elinborg said, following on his heel.
“What… ?”
“Who else could it have been?”
“I don’t know.”
“If it wasn’t her who called, who was it?”
Erlendur looked down at the corpse with utter incomprehension. It had been badly battered during its stay in the sea.
“Who was it then?” he groaned. “Who is this woman who’s been calling me and talking to me about… about… What was it she said? I can’t do it ?”
The man who had first complained about the scratches on his car was voluble on the subject of the indifference shown by the police when he originally reported the vandalism. They could not have been less interested, merely wrote a report for the insurance company, and he had heard nothing since. He phoned to find out what progress they were making in catching the bastards who vandalised his car but could never get to speak to anyone who had a clue what was going on.
The man ranted on in the same vein for some time and Sigurdur Oli could not be bothered to interrupt him. He was not really listening; his thoughts were preoccupied with Bergthora and the issue of adoption. After exhaustive tests it had emerged that the problem lay with Bergthora. She could not have children, although she yearned to with all her heart. The whole process had put a severe strain on their relationship, both before they discovered that Bergthora could not have children — after bitter experience and countless visits to specialists — and, not least in the aftermath. Sigurdur Oli felt sure that Bergthora had not yet recovered. He himself had come to the conclusion that “since that’s the way it is’, as he put it to Bergthora, perhaps they should accept the situation and leave it at that. The subject had raised its head again when he came home from work yesterday evening. Bergthora had started saying that, as Sigurdur Oli was well aware, Icelandic couples mainly adopted from South East Asia, India and China.
“I don’t spend as much time thinking about it as you do,” he said as carefully as he could.
“So you don’t care then?” Bergthora asked.
“Of course I care,” Sigurdur Oli said. “I care about your feelings, about our feelings. I just…”
“What?”
“I don’t know if you’re in any state to make a snap decision about adoption. It’s a pretty big step.”
Bergthora took a deep breath.
“We’ll never agree on this,” she said.
“I just feel we
need more time to recover and talk it over.”
“Of course, you can have a child any time you like,” Bergthora said cynically.
“What?”
“If you had the slightest interest, which you never have had.”
“Bergthora.”
“You’ve never really been interested, have you?”
Sigurdur Oli did not reply.
“You can find someone else,” Bergthora said, “and have children with her.”
“This is exactly what I mean. You’re not… you can’t discuss it reasonably. Let’s just give it time. It won’t do any harm.”
“Don’t keep telling me what sort of state I’m in,” Bergthora said. “Why do you always have to belittle me?”
“I’m not”
“You always think you’re somehow better than me.”
“I’m not prepared to adopt as matters stand,” he said.
Bergthora stared at him for a long time without saying a word. Then she gave a wan smile.
“Is it because they’re foreign?” she asked. “Coloured? Chinese? Indian? Is that the reason?”
Sigurdur Oli stood up.
“We can’t talk with things as they are,” he said.
“Is that why? You want your children to be Icelandic, do you?”
“Bergthora. Why are you talking like this? Don’t you think I’ve … ?”
“What?”
“Don’t you think I’ve suffered? Don’t you think I was upset when it didn’t work, when we lost the ba-‘ He stopped.
“You never said anything,” Bergthora said.
“What was I supposed to say?” Sigurdur Oli said. “What is it that I’m always supposed to say?”
He started out of his reverie when the man raised his voice.
“Yes, er . . . no, sorry?” Sigurdur Oli said, adrift in his own thoughts.
The owner of the vandalised car glared at him.
“You aren’t even listening to me,” he said in disgust. “It’s always the same story with you cops.”
“I’m sorry, I was just wondering if you saw who did this to your car.”
“I didn’t see anything,” the man said. “I just found it scratched like that.”
“Any idea who could have done it? Someone with a score to settle? Local kids?”
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