Love Songs from a Shallow Grave
( Dr.Siri Paiboun - 7 )
Colin Cotterill
Colin Cotterill
Love Songs from a Shallow Grave
1
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DR SIRI
I celebrate the dawn of my seventy-fourth birthday handcuffed to a lead pipe. I'd had something more traditional in mind; a few drinks with my new wife, some gay mo lum music on the record player, shellfish plucked fresh from the Mekhong. But here I am in Hades and not a balloon in sight. My ex-room-mate, a grey-faced youth in his early twenties, is chained by the ankle to the far end of the same pipe. They dragged the boy in during the night and we struggled to communicate. We scratched for words to share. But, as soon as he understood that we were different animals in the same abattoir, tears of despair carved uneven grooves down his bloody cheeks. I could do nothing but sit back against the flaking plaster and watch the life drain from him. He didn't live to greet the new day. When the sun finally sneered through the wire mesh of the window, it cast a shadow like a fisherman's net across the body. The corpse lay trapped, expired from the effort of untangling itself from all this unnecessary misery. But his soul was free. I envied him that. I am Dr Siri Paiboun, the national and only coroner of the People's Democratic Republic of Laos, a medical man, a humanitarian, but I'm still unable to summon an appropriate emotion. I listened through the night to the sobs and screams of my unseen neighbours. I didn't understand the words they cried but I knew people were being killed all around me. I scented their essence and saw their fleeing spirits. I am well aware that I will soon be joining them. Yet the overriding thought in my mind is that I didn't have the foresight to say goodbye or thank you to the people I love. That sounds corny, I know, but what's wrong with corny? It has its place.
I wonder whether they might know instinctively. Really. I wonder whether they've been able to see through this crusty, annoyingly stubborn exterior to the warm and fluffy Siri that nestles barely visible inside me. If only I could squeeze the hand of Madame Daeng one final time, ruffle the newly permed hair of Mr. Geung, sniff the cheeks of Nurse Dtui and her milk-scented baby, and slap Inspector Phosy on the back. If only I could raise one last glass with my best friend, Civilai. But those opportunities will never come. The amulet that protected me from the malevolent spirits was ripped from my neck, stolen by one of the teenaged guards. I am exposed. Once the ghosts are aware their enemy is unprotected, they will circle me like hungry jungle dogs and close in for the kill.
All things considered, at this almost final analysis, I am stuffed.?
The woman read from the carbon copy in front of her. The sheet was of such proportions as to defy filing and of such poor quality that it was almost inevitable the words would be sucked back into the fibres like invisible ink returning whence it had emerged. The clerk had a pleasant voice, soothing like honey balm, and the two old men opposite stared at her luscious lips as she spoke.
"Of course, it isn't finalised," she smiled. "But it will certainly read something like this." She coughed. "The People's Democratic Republic of Laos would have it known that Dr Siri Paiboun, National Coroner, Hero of the revolution and lifetime member of the Communist Party, passed away on the second of May, 1978. Dr Siri had fought tirelessly and fearlessly for the revolution and was — "
"Fearlessly first," one of the men interrupted.
"I'm sorry?"
"It would be better to have 'fearlessly' before 'tirelessly', then nobody would be in doubt he'd not been tired out by the lack of fearing."
"Absolutely," the second man agreed.
"What? Hmm. I'm not sure I understand that," the girl confessed and made a note on the pad beside her. "I'll mention it to Comrade Sisavee. It is only the first draft but, to tell the truth, we called you in to check on the factual, rather than the syntactical elements of the eulogy. We have people to deal with all the technicalities in later versions. I'll read on if I'm — "
"And, 'was struck down dead' has a more heroic ring to it," the second old man said. "That's factual."
"Struck down?"
"Rather than 'passed away'," he added. "'Passed away' makes it sound like bodily wind, a collection of stomach gases on their way out. Do you know what I mean? We're talking about heroism here. Heroes don't just 'pass' like flatulence in a strong breeze."
"With or without scent," added the second man most seriously.
The clerk glared from one old gentleman to the next, then back to the first.
"Are you playing with me?" she asked, sternly.
"Certainly not, sweet young lady," said the skinnier of the two men. He was bald as a boule with a long camel-like throat sporting an Adam's apple so large it might well have been Adam's original. "This is a most serious affair."
"No playing matter," agreed the first.
Still uncertain of her ground, the young lady pressed on. "The nation will never forget the contribution Dr Siri made to the development of this great nation, nor can — "
"That's two nations," said the bald man.
"Oh, do let her finish," said the other. "Didn't she tell you they have a department that handles syntax? Probably an entire ministry."
"The Ministry of Getting Words Right?"
"Or it could be a branch of the Ministry of Making Things Up and Bamboozling People."
The clerk was miffed. She slapped the paper onto the wooden table top and drummed her fingers on it noisily. She seemed to be wrestling down a darker inner person. Her voluptuous mouth had become mysteriously unattractive.
"I don't think either of you appreciate what a great honour this is," she said at last. Her eyes watered. "Anybody else would be proud. Dr Siri, I'm particularly disappointed that you would take all this so lightly. Given your record, it's a wonder your name is on the list at all."
Siri raised the thickets of coarse white hair he called eyebrows and scratched at his missing left earlobe.
"To be fair, you're not giving me much time," he said. "How can I take life seriously when I'm forced to squeeze all those remaining pleasures into a mere twelve days? And look at this. You're passing me away on my birthday, of all occasions. The happiest day of the year."
"That's odd, Doctor," she said through clenched teeth. "I thought I had explained myself very clearly."
"Tell him again," said ex-politburo member Civilai. "He's elderly."
"As I said," she began, slowly, "the actual date of your death will be filled in later."
"In the event of it?" Siri said.
"Exactly."
"So you aren't actually expecting me to…"
"No!"
The transparent north-eastern skin of her neck revealed an atlas of purple roads heading north in the direction of her cheeks. The men admired her composure as she took a deep breath and continued.
"You will pass away naturally, or otherwise, as your destiny dictates. At that stage we will delete your date of birth and substitute it with your date of death. When that happens we will issue the announcement. Is that clear now?"
"And I will become a hero," Siri smiled.
"It probably won't be instantaneous…in your case."?
The Department of Hero Creation, the DHC, was housed in a small annexe of the propaganda section of the Ministry of Information. Based loosely on a Vietnamese initiative already in place, the DHC was responsible for identifying role models, exaggerating their revolutionary qualities, and creating a fairy story around their lives. A week earlier, Dr Siri and Comrade Civilai had received their invitations to attend this preliminary meeting. They'd heard of the DHC, of course, and seen evidence of its devious work. Everyone over seventy who'd done the Party the great service of
staying alive was under consideration. If selected, school textbooks would mention their bravery. Histories would be written detailing their supernatural ability to surmount the insurmountable and carry the red flag to victory. Siri and Civilai could hardly pass up a chance to scuttle such a nefarious scheme.
"What is my case?" Siri asked.
"What?"
"You said, 'in your case', suggesting I have some flaw."
"Don't hold back," Civilai urged the clerk.
"It's really not my place to — "
"Go ahead," Civilai prodded. "We won't tell anyone."
She seemed pleased to do so.
"We are aware of the Doctor's…problems with authority," the clerk said. She was now ignoring Siri and talking directly to Civilai. "But history has a short memory. It has a way of smudging over personality faults, no matter how serious they might be."
"Voltaire said that history is just the portrayal of crimes and misfortunes," Siri said.
"And why should I care what a wealthy seventeenth-century snob aristocrat has to say about anything?" she snapped. "Don't you have thoughts of your own, Doctor?"
Siri smiled at Civilai who raised his eyebrows in return. The old friends were constantly on the lookout for fire, intelligence and passion within the system and, when found, it brought out their untapped paternal instincts. Wrong century, but most cadres wouldn't have known Voltaire from a bag of beans. Their early evening visit to the Ministry of Information had not been a waste of time after all.
Following a politburo decree, the words Minister and Ministry had been liberated from the dungeon of anti-socialist political rhetoric and new ministries mushroomed. There was infighting within each ministry as departments and sections vied for its own ministerial status. Everyone wanted to be a minister. The secretarial pool at the new Ministry of Justice had put in an application to become the Ministry of Typing, and the head clerk, Manivone, put her name down to become the Minister of Changing Ink Ribbons. Dr Siri had helped her with the paperwork and it had taken several bottles of rice whisky to get it right. Of course, they hadn't submitted the form. The system didn't have a sense of humour.
There was nothing inherently funny about the People's Democratic Republic of Laos in the nineteen seventies. The socialists had taken over the country three years earlier but the fun of having a whole country to play with had soon drained away. Euphoria had been replaced by paranoia and anyone who didn't take the republic seriously was considered a threat. Dissidents were still being sent to 'seminars' in the north-east to join the ranks of officials from the old regime who were learning to grit their teeth and say 'Yes, Comrade'. But Siri and Civilai, forty-year veterans of the struggle, were tolerated. They posed no threat to the status quo and their rants against the system could be dismissed — with sarcastic laughter — as senile gibberish. But there was nothing senile or gibberitic about these two old comrades. Their minds sparkled like a March night sky. Given a chance, they could out-strategise any man or woman on the central committee. To find a young crocodile with a good mind amongst that flock of flamingos was a rare delight to them.
"You're quite right, of course." Siri bowed his head to the clerk. "Forgive me. I'm prone, like many men my age, to presuppose that young people have no minds. I assume they'd all be impressed with my bourgeois philosophy. You are obviously a cut above the rest."
"And you aren't going to win me over with your flattery, either," she replied.
"Nor with pink mimosa, nor sugared dates, no doubt," Siri added. He thought he noticed a germ of a smile on her lips. "You really have to see the funny side of all this, you know?"
"And why is that?" she asked.
"You really want me to tell you?"
"Yes."
"Well, I'm tempted to suggest you fabricate people's experiences here. I noticed, for example, that your DHC has Comrade Bounmee Laoly charging into battle armed with only a machete at the age of sixty."
"A lot of people are still very active at sixty."
"I know that, but I also happen to know from personal experience he was already blind as a bat when he turned fifty. He couldn't find a machete, let alone brandish one."
She blushed, "I — "
"All we ask," Civilai took over, "is, should this great honour of herohood befall us — hopefully not posthumously — that we earn it from merit, not with the aid of major reconstructive surgery from Information."
"We'd like people to remember and respect us for what we are," Siri said.
"Warts and all," Civilai added.?
Siri and Civilai sloshed and slithered hand-in-hand through the rain to the ministry car park. A cream Citroen with a missing tail light and a sturdy Triumph motorcycle were the only two vehicles. They were parked in muddy water like boats. Drowning grass poked here and there through the brown gravy.
"Smart lady," Siri said.
"She certainly put us in our places."
"Nice lips."
"Exceptional."
"They did remain clenched when you mentioned your warts, though."
"They did."
Civilai opened the unlocked door of his old car and sat behind the steering wheel. Siri climbed into the passenger seat. They sat for a moment staring at the unpainted side wall of the building. As the concrete absorbed the endless rains, Siri fancied he saw the outline of New Zealand stained there, or it could have been a twisted balloon poodle. Following a disastrous year of drought, the farmers had smiled to see the early arrival of the 1978 rains. It was as if the gods had awoken late and, realising their negligence, had hastily attempted to make up for the previous year. The rain fell heavily and ceaselessly — three times the national average for April. The Lao New Year water festival celebrations — a time to call down the first rains of the year — were rained out. The earthen embankments of the new rice paddies were washed flat, the bougainvilleas had been rinsed colourless. The earth seemed to cry, "All right. Enough." But still it rained. It was nature's little joke. Like the Eskimos with their four million words for snow, the Lao vocabulary was expanding with new language to describe rain.
Today the water hung in the air like torn strips of grey paper.
"What is that?" Civilai asked.
"What's what?"
"That noise you're making."
"It's not a noise. It's a song. I have no idea where I heard it. I can't get it out of my head."
"Well try. It's annoying."
Siri swallowed his song.
"What do you think they've got on me?" he asked. "I mean, the DHC."
"Huh," Civilai laughed. "I knew it. You do want to be a national hero."
"I do not. I'm just…curious."
"About your warts?"
"Yes."
"Oh, where do I start? How about your abrasive personality?"
"Personalities change. And history has a way of smudging my character, don't forget."
"So I heard. All right…" Civilai beeped his horn for no apparent reason. "There's the spirit thing."
"How could they possibly know about that?"
"They probably don't know the specifics. Not that you actually chat with ghosties. I doubt they know that. But they must have heard the rumours. This is a small country. People like Judge Haeng must have accumulated a good deal of circumstantial evidence of your supernatural connections."
"But no proof. By its very nature he can't have accumulated evidence."
"No."
"Then they don't have anything."
"All right. Well, they probably don't like your Hmong campaign, either."
"It's hardly a campaign."
"You walked up and down in front of the Pasason News office with a placard saying 'WE NEED ANSWERS ON THE PLIGHT OF OUR HMONG BROTHERS'. People have been shot for less. You seem to have it in your mind that the government has a policy to intimidate minorities."
"It does."
"Well then. With that attitude I can see the central committee making little pencil crosses beside your name, can't you?"
"Things have to be sorted out before it's too late."
"You're right. If I were the Minister of Pinning Things Onto Chests I'd make you a Knight of the Great Order of Valour right away. Sadly, I'm just a retired has-been."
They sat silently for another moment, watching the moss grow.
"Thirsty?" Civilai asked.
Siri twisted around on his seat. The leather squeaked under his bottom.
"Perhaps just the one."?
To celebrate their impending hero status, Siri and Civilai partook of one or two glasses of rice whisky at a cigarette and alcohol stand behind the evening market. The proprietor was nicknamed Two Thumbs. A dull sobriquet, one might argue, no more spectacular than a fellow called One Bellybutton or Ten Toes. But Two Thumbs' uniqueness lay in the fact that both of his thumbs were on the one hand. Nobody could explain it. It was as if one of his thumbs got lonely in the womb and swam across the narrow channel of amniotic fluid to keep company with its twin. It was the talking point that attracted smokers and drinkers to his stall. There was nothing else remarkable about him. In fact, he was almost completely devoid of personality, as dull as laundry scum.
The drizzle continued to fall and the old grey umbrellas that offered respite from the hot sun did little to keep out the determined night rain. The straw mats upon which they would normally sit cross-legged had assumed the consistency of freshly watered post office sponges. So the old men each sat on small plastic bathroom stools with a third stool between them as a table. A fourth and final stool offered a perch for their bags and shoes. Two Thumbs sat on a regular chair with his cigarette display case parked upon two building blocks to his left, and his drink selection — actually rice whisky and slightly cheaper rice whisky — neatly displayed in the body of an old TV cabinet to his right. He sat watching over his three-umbrella establishment like a eunuch keeper of the crown jewels, silent and threatening.
"Tell me again why we come here," Civilai asked.
"The ambiance," Siri told him.
"Right."
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