by Bianca
I looked at the time to see that it was eleven in the morning. There was a slight knock on the door and Trevor came in with a towel wrapped around his waist, and water beads were flowing down his body. He knew what he was doing because I had been hornier than ever being here with him. Trevor had a very hard body, and it was sexy. He deserved to be on his own calendar, showing off his body. Looking at him up and down, I wondered what our child would look like. We were both chocolate, so being dark-skinned was inevitable, but I wondered would our child have either of our full lips or his wide-set nose and dark eyes or my cheekbones.
“Why are you coming in here half-naked?” I asked him.
“I don’t know. Hoping to entice you or something,” he said and chuckled. “Nah, I came down here to get your lotion. It smells good.”
“It’s Berry. You like smelling like a woman?”
“Like you,” he replied, and I rolled my eyes toward the floor because he had been making me blush a lot this week.
He sat on the bed and started rubbing the lotion all over his body. Was it crazy to wish that you were something inanimate, like lotion?
“Lawrynn, we never talked about your parents. Where are they? What do they do for a living?”
Laying my head back on the pillow, I sighed and asked, “Do we have to talk about it?”
“Yes. I would like to know about my child’s grandparents,” Trevor replied.
I closed my eyes and sighed. I hated talking about my parents. I didn’t hate them per se, I just could do without talking to them or about them. I spoke to both of my parents maybe once every couple of weeks, just to let them know that I was doing fine. I was going to put off on telling them that I was pregnant because I didn’t need the stress.
“Hello. Lawrynn, are you with me?” Trevor said snapping his fingers.
“Lucas and Florence Barksdale divorced the very first day I went to college. Figured that I was old enough to handle it, but I wasn’t. My mom moved to South Carolina, the house my grandfather left her when he died. Luckily for her, she didn’t sell it like my father wanted her to or she would have been on the streets. My dad, his new, young wife, and other kids live in Savannah, Georgia. Never even knew there was a problem between the two. They looked happy every day. If you look at the pictures, the body language said they loved each other. So, when they announced the divorce, I was extremely shocked. Extremely. The divorce wasn’t easy either. My dad took everything away from my mom. Everything. That’s why she ended up in South Carolina. My mom was a housewife, and my dad is a lawyer. He’s the reason I became a lawyer and why it also pains me to take on these rich ass clients trying to keep their money from their wives. It pains me. Some days I want to quit because it hurts to do that. He’s the reason I used men for all they had to give: sex and money. Alton was the first attempt at me trying to date in years and look where that got me. I don’t trust men.”
I opened my eyes, and the tears slowly rolled down the side of my face, and Trevor was looking at me with hurt in his eyes, and that’s what I didn’t want. I didn’t want him to feel sorry for me. It is what it is.
Placing his hand on my exposed thigh, he said, “Baby girl, I am so sorry. I never knew. I mean… are you close to them? How often do you talk to them?”
“Once every two weeks. It’s like I harbor resentment for my mom for staying, and I harbor resentment for my dad for taking everything away from my mom. Starting a whole new life with another woman like my mother never existed. It was a whole lot. I have so much mental baggage that if you decided to pack up and leave this kid and me, I wouldn’t be—”
“Aye, don’t say that. I’ll never abandon you, nor my kid, Lawrynn. Don’t even fix your lips to say that again. We are going to get through this together. We are going to be the best parents we can be to this baby. I understand why you don’t trust me and I’m sorry your father is a piece of shit. If your mother needs something, I can take care of it. Are you helping take care of her?”
“Yes. I send her just enough money to pay the bills and get groceries. Ever since y’all’s rich friends been coming my way, I’ve been able to send a little more. Some of those men are so mean and nasty that I be ready to jump on them myself. Anyways—”
Knock! Knock!
We were interrupted by a couple of knocks on the door.
“Come in,” Trevor said.
“Mr. Spencer, the doctor is here,” the butler said from the door.
“You can send her back.”
Moments later, Dr. Walker came in the bedroom rolling a machine. She greeted us both and then looked at Trevor sitting on the bed in his towel. He walked into the closet and got my robe out of it and put it on. He came back out and stood at the head of the bed.
“How are you feeling today? I’ll check your ankle, and then I’ll do the ultrasound,” she said.
I was so anxious to hear my baby’s heartbeat. She said my ankle was healing perfectly and I should be able to walk on it soon. She raised my shirt up and started rubbing the gel around on it. She pressed the probe against my abdomen and started moving it around.
I looked at Trevor, and he was smiling and recording on his phone at the same time. As soon as the doctor left, I got a notification on my phone. I picked it up and looked at it, and my heart melted. It was a collage of the ultrasound and a video of the machine our kid’s heartbeat was coming out of.
@ArchitectTrev: I can’t believe that God has blessed @LawTheLawyer and me this way. Hearing my unborn’s heartbeat made me feel something I ain’t never felt before. My eyes are literally misty as I type this. All I can say, son or daughter, is that your mother and I are already in love with you. You’re going to be well taken care of. I can’t wait to watch you grow in your mother’s belly. I can’t wait until she pushes you out. Just know that your father is going to be there every step of the way. You’ll never have to question the love I have for you or your mother. I’ll never leave either of you.
-Trevor Spencer.
I couldn’t stop wiping my tears away. I’m not sure if it was because of the hormones or what, but I was uncontrollable. I had to read it again, and now there were already a thousand comments on it. It was a whole bunch of ‘congratulations’ and a lot of hating ass comments as well. Russ, Kriss, Trena, and of course, Jasmine, commented.
@RussThaEngineer: Congrats y’all! I can’t wait to be a godfather again. Lawrynn, you deserve this.
@KrissSpencer: OMGOSH! Lawrynn, I am crying real tears right now. I didn’t think @ArchitectTrev was capable of saying anything nice like this. Bestie, you really deserve this type of happiness in your life. We have dreamed and talked about this moment for years now. First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes the baby in the baby carriage. Trevor that rock better be BIG! I mean it!
@JassyLove: LMFAO! Imagine getting on the internet and claiming a baby that you don’t even know is yours. You wanna be a daddy that bad?
@TrenaSpencer: Trevor? Is this really you? Being nice? Being moved to tears? Wow. Lawrynn is a gem if she made you feel these things.
I was going to continue to read the comments when Trevor came and took my phone out of my hand and placed it on the nightstand. He placed his hands on the side of me and stared down at me. I licked my lips in anticipation of his kiss, and he dipped his head and placed his lips on mine. It was a few pecks before he started kissing me sloppily. He cupped my face as the kiss intensified. He pulled back and was breathing heavily. We only caught our breaths for a few moments before he slithered his tongue back into my mouth. Trevor tugged at the bottom of my large shirt and pulled it over my head. My breasts were easily accessible because since I’d been laying in this bed, I hadn’t been wearing any bras.
“God, you look beautiful,” he whispered.
“You’re just saying that, Trevor,” I responded shyly.
“No, I’m not.”
He dipped his head and took my right nipple in his mouth and started sucking on it lightly and it felt so damn good. He start
ed alternating between the two, and my breath was caught up in my throat.
“Oh my gosh,” I whispered.
He kissed down my stomach while looking up at me. He pulled my panties to the side and started kissing up and down my bikini line before nibbling on my lower lips. He ran his tongue down my slit before dipping his thick, warm tongue inside of me.
“Baby fatherrrr,” I moaned.
He continued to ease his tongue in and out of me, and I kept trying to close my legs around his head, but he wasn’t allowing it. He kept my legs pried open, and it was killing me. He started eating her so nastily that I could hear all the smacking sounds. I was getting ready to come, and he knew it, so he flicked his tongue across my bud as fast as he could.
“Yessssss, oh my Godddd…” I moaned as I released all over his mouth.
He rubbed his lips all around my hole, getting my juices all over his face. He kissed up my stomach again until he got to my lips. We tongue wrestled for a minute before I pulled away from him.
“You want me to suck your—”
“Whenever you’re ready for that, baby mom, I just want to please you, right now,” he assured me.
He opened the robe and removed the towel away from his waist. He placed his mushroom sized head at my opening and eased inside of me. We both let out moans of pleasure as he thrust all the way in me.
“Damn, girl,” Trevor moaned. “Baby mama, you got some good stuff girl.”
He thrust in and out of me slowly, and it felt so good that I ended up coming before he was ten strokes in.
“Look at you, creaming up my mans already. This feels good to you? You like this speed?”
I nodded my head because I could no longer form words. He picked up a little speed, but the way he kept staring down at me had me feeling uneasy, so I closed my eyes. I didn’t know what he was thinking, and I’m not sure I wanted to know what he was thinking. I just wanted to enjoy this moment.
“Hey, open your eyes, baby. I want you to look at me as I come inside you. Your body is beautiful. You’re beautiful, Lawrynn.”
“Trev,” I whispered.
“Lawrynn,” he whispered back. “Give me another one, baby.”
I arched my back so I could come even harder. When I gripped his arms, he pulled his bottom lip in between his teeth. I knew that he was getting ready to come.
“Come for me, Trev! Come inside of me.”
I clenched my muscles around him, and I could feel him releasing inside of me. Once he was flaccid, he fell next to me, trying to catch his breath.
“That was so good, baby.”
“Yes, yes it was.”
Surprisingly, he wrapped his arm around me and cuddled up with me with no words spoken between us. Pretty soon, we were taking an afternoon nap.
2 months later
It’d been two months since Lawrynn’s accident and she’d still been living there with me. It’s crazy because I hadn’t even gotten tired of her. After she was healed, she tried to pack her things and go home, but I begged her to stay, and reluctantly, she did. What I had learned about her in these two months, was that she’s an onion. I had to peel her back layer by layer before I got to her core, and sometimes I thought I was halfway there, and other times, I felt like I hadn’t gotten anywhere. She still didn’t trust me, and she was scared to let herself be extremely vulnerable with me. She still slept in the guest bedroom, and I slept in my own bedroom. We still had mind-blowing sex though, and when I say mind-blowing, it’s better than I could imagine. We could fall asleep in my bedroom while I’m rubbing her little bump and when I woke up, she would be gone. I didn’t know what to do, to be honest, but I’m not going to give up on her.
I had been busy since early this morning, and I hadn’t had time to look at my phone, but I was thinking about the mother of my child, so I decided to take a break and text her.
Me: Hey, how’s work going? I miss you. What would you like for dinner tonight? Would you like to go out? How’s the baby?
Lawrynn: Work is busy, and it doesn’t matter to me. We could go out since I been working my tail off for these last couple of months. The funny thing is, I haven’t been getting a lot of douchebags lately. I have been getting a lot of sweet women coming in, and it warms my heart. You wouldn’t have had anything to do with that, would you?
Me: Of course not… I’ll make reservations for Sadies. I’m happy that we get to go out tonight instead of eating in.
Lawrynn: Great. See you tonight.
I slammed my phone down on my desk and started rubbing my temples.
“Everything okay?”
I looked up to see Spence standing in the door. He didn’t ever knock, but if I didn’t knock on his door, he would be mad.
“Can you knock?”
“No. What’s wrong?” Spence said and walked over to my desk and sat down.
“It’s Lawrynn, man. She… I… don’t know. I keep telling her that I miss her, and she doesn’t reply to it. She brushes it off. She won’t sleep in the same bed as me. I know that she’s an onion, but I don’t know what else to do to prove myself to her. I want her… to be more than just my baby mother.”
Spence raised his eyebrow and smiled. “Sound familiar?”
“Huh?”
“I asked you if that sounded familiar. Didn’t you use to do that to women?”
“This different, Spence.”
“How so?”
I twisted my lips up because I couldn’t think of a difference.
“Exactly. You got her living up in there with you with no type of commitment. She’s not your girlfriend or any of that.”
“Hell, what’s understood ain’t got to be explained. I mean, we are sucking on each other’s bodies. We don’t use protection anymore. That sound like a girlfriend to me, Spence.”
“Okay, Trev. You got all the answers. Just know… you keep beating around the bush; you’ll be watching another man raise your kid.”
“Over my dead body…” I spoke through gritted teeth.
“Well, grow the hell up and say what you mean and mean what you say,” Spence said. “Also, have you gotten your speech ready? The banquet is in a few days, and—”
“Haven’t thought about it, but whatever. I’ll get it done.”
“Uh-huh,” he said and walked out of my office.
Later that evening.
I was sitting across from Lawrynn, taking in her beauty. I didn’t know why I didn’t see the beauty in her from the very beginning. It had to be because of the way she came on to me, wanting to have sex, and I wasn’t really used to it. I mean, I was used to women throwing themselves at me, but not as strong as she did. I guess I could understand now. She wanted to always be in control of the situation, so she wouldn’t get her feelings hurt.
“Why are you staring at me like that?” she asked.
“No reason. Can I ask you something?”
“Yeah, sure?”
“How would you feel about being Mrs. Trevor Spencer, one day?”
She almost choked on her food, and I picked up my water and handed it to her. After she got her choking under control, she looked at me and her eyes glossed over a little.
“What are you asking me, Trevor?”
“Right now, I’m asking you to be my woman. My girlfriend. My lady. I want to take care of you, mentally, physically, and emotionally. I know I haven’t always been easy to get along with and I’ve said some mean things to you that I shouldn’t have said to a woman. I’m interested in getting to know you every day for the rest of our lives. I’m prepared to do what I have to do to get you to love me back.”
“Love you… back?” she whispered.
“Yes, love me back, Lawrynn. I love you, and you don’t have to say it back, right now. I just want you to know how I feel. I want you to be comfortable with me. Vulnerable with me. I promise to never take it for granted. I know it’s hard for you to trust me, but I’m willing to work for it. Anything you need me to do, I’ll do it.”
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nbsp; She didn’t say anything, but she offered me a smile, and I guess that was a start. The place we were at had a live band, and once we were finished eating, they started playing one of my favorite songs, “Forever My Lady,” by Jodeci. I stretched my hand across the table to ask for a dance. She stood and smoothed her dress down. I pulled her close to me, and we started swaying to the beat of the music.
“So, you’re having my baby…” I started singing, and she started laughing.
“Trevor, I’m scared. What if you wake up in eighteen years, not wanting to be married to me anymore?”
“Lawrynn, why are you worried about eighteen years from now, today? Let’s just live for today. Let me love you today. Let’s worry about tomorrow, tomorrow, and let’s worry about eighteen years from now, eighteen years from now. You are not your mother, and I am not your father.” I pressed my stomach on her bump. “I am this kid’s father, and I am a thousand percent sure that I am not going to leave this child. I know that these words don’t mean anything to you, but I’m going to be here to show you, okay?”
She nodded her head and laid her head in the crook my neck. She had on a short dress that stopped in the middle of her toned thighs. I placed my hand on her thigh and started rubbing it up her thigh. We were in our own private section, so I wasn’t worried about nobody seeing us. I rubbed my thumb across the seat of her panties, and I heard her gasp. It didn’t take much to get her wet, and I loved that about her. I eased my fingers in her panties and inside of her hole and started to ease my finger in and out of her. The way she whimpered as she clung tightly to me, turned me on to the max. She moved my finger out of the way and pushed me back to my seat. When I sat down, she got on her knees in front of me and unzipped my pants. She fished for my rod through my hole, and she started kissing on him.
