by Sharon Lee
"So I didn't go to school," she finished tonelessly. "My mother taught me how to read; and when I joined Liz's unit she beat Trade and basic math into my head. Don't need a fancy education to get by in the Merc. Guess that's why I never learned the right way to learn a language. Doing the best I can. Sorry it ain't good enough."
Val Con was standing very still, eyes on her face, his own features holding such a scramble of expression that she sat down-hard-and clamped her jaw against the sudden surge of despair.
Now you've done it, you prize loobelli, she told herself, and swallowed hard, waiting for him to turn and go.
"Miri." He was on his knees before her, hand outstretched, but not touching.
"You understand now?" Her voice was a husky whisper; his face swam, unreadable, before her eyes.
"Yes." He moved his hand slowly, keeping it plainly in sight as if she were some wild thing he wished not to frighten, and gently stroked his fingers down the line of her jaw. "I am sorry, cha'trez. I was stupid."
The tears spilled over. "No, I'm stupid. Told you so."
"You did," he agreed. "And I wish you will soon stop feeling it is necessary to lie to me." He brushed as her wet cheeks with his fingers. "There is a great difference between education and intelligence, Miri. You are not stupid. Normally." He offered her the slightest of smiles. "And-normally-I am not stupid. But everyone makes mistakes, I am told."
Her lips twitched. "I heard that."
"Good." He sat back on his heels, eyes serious on her face. "Having now made our mistakes, let us consider what may best be done to rectify them." One brow slid up. "Does your head hurt very badly?"
She blinked. "Who said anything about my head hurting?"
"I still get a headache when I try to translate from one language to another," he said. "Speak to me in any tongue I know, and I will answer in that tongue. Ask me what a word in one language means in another, and it may take me hours to decide." He paused to push the hair out of his eyes. "Will you do something for me, cha'trez?"
"Do my best.
"That will suffice," he murmured, reminding her so forcefully of Edger that she laughed. He glanced at her from under his lashes before adding his own grin. "Are you comfortable here? Would you prefer to go inside?"
"I'm fine," she said hastily, visions of Zhena Trelu dancing in her aching head. She crossed her legs and tried to look alert. "What's the job?"
Val Con was rummaging in his pouch. "It is only to help me think more properly about the best way for you to learn this tongue . . ." His hand moved sharply, and her eyes followed the movement, seeing that he had flung several objects to the ground.
"Close your eyes!" he snapped, and she did, instantly. He slipped two fingers under her chin and raised her head until her closed eyes were directed to a point slightly over his head.
"Keep your eyes closed," he said more gently, "and tell me what you saw just now on the ground."
Her brows twitched. "Starting nearest you and moving east: credit card-metallic orange with three skinny blue stripes-covering one corner is a wholebit. Then there's a flat white pebble the size of two bits together, a cantra-piece-obverse: the linked stars. Nearest me is the ship's key; there's a stylus next to that, then a short wire twisted like a corkscrew; a piece of paper with writing on it-don't know what language, but it looks like your hand-then back to the credit card." She paused, then nodded. "That's it."
There was a silence, lengthening.
After a time she said, almost hesitantly, "Val Con?"
"Yes."
"Can I open my eyes?"
"Yes."
She found him looking at her closely, the expression on his face a mix of amusement, wonder, and-anger? Before she could be sure, it was gone; he was lifting a brow and nodding downward.
She glanced at the jumbled arrangement and grinned, the ache in her head suddenly less acute. "Didn't miss one. Thought I'd be outta practice."
The second brow rose to join the first. "Dumb, Miri?"
"But there ain't anything to that!" she protested, genuinely startled. "It's a gag-a memory trick. Anybody can learn it-got nothing to do with brains."
"I see. A useful gag, eh?" He scooped the stuff up and dumped it haphazardly into his pouch. "How long can you retain it?"
"Depends. That batch'll probably fade out by the end of the day, unless you want me to remember it longer. Better tell me now if you do, though, 'cause I've gotta-" She moved her hands in one of her shapeless gestures. "It's kinda like putting a sticker on the memory, so I remember not to forget it."
"I see," he murmured again, apparently finding nothing the least confusing in this explanation. "Can you do the same with sounds? Put a tag on them so you do not forget?"
She shook her head. "It works better if I can see what I'm supposed to remember-either a picture, or a pattern, or written down." She bit her lip. "That's why I'm having so much trouble with this gibberish? 'Cause I can't tag sounds? Can't figure out how it looks?" She seemed inclined to blame herself severely.
Val Con shook his head, smiling. "Most people pay more attention to one set of-input-than the others. I, for instance, happen to key to sound. I rarely forget a piece of music I've heard, or a word. It seems a natural inclination: For some reason I decided that sounds were more important than anything else." His smile widened. "And so, when I became a cadet I suffered through hours of remedial work until I finally learned to tag a visual pattern and call it back."
He shifted, staring sightlessly at the scraggly grass between them. Miri waited, aware that she was tensing up again; she jumped half a foot when he moved his head to look at her.
Concern flickered over his face, and he leaned forward, grasping her arms lightly. "Cha'trez?" He moved his fingers, lightly massaging. "So tense, Miri. What is wrong?"
She shifted, not sure if she wanted to escape his touch. "Zhena Trelu-" she began.
"Will wait. She was upset when she spoke to me, and I think it might be good for her to have some quiet time, as well." He sat close to her on the grass and took her hand in his.
For some reason, that increased the tension. "Why're you doing that?" she snapped.
"It gives me joy to touch you," he said softly. "Shall I not?"
Yes, she wanted to yell, you should not! You should bloody well go if you're going and before things get any worse, or . . .
"I'm scared," she told him, finally identifying the emotion.
"It is not comfortable to be afraid," Val Con allowed gently. "Do you know what it is that frightens you? It may be something we can resolve."
She took a deep breath, fingers tightening around his. "I'm afraid of being stuck here-by myself."
"Ah." His eyes were troubled. "Will I abandon you, Miri?"
"How do I know what you'll do? Month ago I'd never clapped eyes on you. It'd make a hell of a lot more sense for you to get out on your own, though, wouldn't it? Be able to learn faster, move around more, settle in quicker, better. You're a Scout; I ainnothing-"
"No . . .Miri." He lay a light finger across her lips. "I am not a Scout. Not now. Now I am a man who is trying-with the help of his partner and his friend-to insure that a long and joyful life will be possible together. A partner who," he added, mouth twisting slightly, "is afraid that he will run from her."
There did not seem to be anything to say to that, and the silence grew taut between them.
"Unless," Val Con murmured, "I am being sent away?"
She jerked as if he had slapped her. "No!"
"Good," he said, squeezing her fingers. "Because I am not certain that I would behave-with honor-in such a case." One brow slid up. "I would be lonely, too, do you think?" He sighed as he read the answer in her face. "Ah, I do not get lonely . . ."
Miri looked down at their entwined fingers, took a deep breath, and looked up. "Val Con?"
"Yes."
She took another breath. "I'm new at all this stuff. Not just the Scout-type things-all of it. Being partners. Being married. Never
had a partner. Never wanted one." She tried a smile and caught the glimmer of his, answering. "Takes some getting used to," she concluded. "I'm sorry-"
But what she was sorry for was drowned in a bark of welcome as Borril hove into view. He was with them in a thrice, flopping to his side and whuffing, yellow eyes rolling in anticipation of a fine session of ear-pulling.
Miri and Val Con exchanged glances and began to laugh.
"Dog," Val Con said, yanking hard on a ridiculous ear, "I venture to say you were well indulged before we came here. But now that you have three pairs of hands to command, you've become insupportable . . ."
VANDAR:
Springbreeze Farm
Val Con entered the room with unnatural scuffling to avoid startling the aging woman, and bowed when she looked up.
"Zhena Trelu?"
She smiled, relief washing her face. "Cory," she said, using the short form, as she had been doing since their second day with her. He had raised a brow at the first usage but had not protested, and Cory he had become.
"Did you find the child?" she asked him. "Is she all calmed down? I'm sorry I upset her-likely I was a bit sharp myself-but that girl has the wind's own temper with her!"
The man's brows pulled together slightly as he moved farther into the room. "Only noise," he said in his laborious Benish. "Like Borril. Sees something, maybe bad-makes noise. Maybe bad something goes away . . ." He perched on the arm of Jerry's reading chair, eyes intent.
Zhena Trelu sniffed. "Bad! Meri knows I'm not going to hurt her."
Cory moved his shoulders. "Here, things are not home. Miri is-" He sighed sharply, tipping his hands out toward her in a gesture she had come to know well the last five days.
"She's homesick, you mean. Misses her home." She drank down rest of her tea and set the cup aside. "Of course she is, poor child. I'll try to be more patient with her, Cory. You tell her that for me, will you?"
"Yes." But still he waited, watching her.
"What else? Are you hungry? I made you some sandwiches-they're on the kitchen table. You know where the milk is."
From the floor at her feet Borril gave vent to a heartrending groan. Cory laughed, then looked up again.
"Zhena Trelu. I ask-for Miri. Is there in your house-these . . ."
He swept a slender hand at the book-covered wall-Jerrel's books, mostly; dusty since his death. "For childs?"
"Children," she corrected, "Might have a few around from when Granic-my son-was a little boy. Why?"
"For Miri," he said. "To learn the words."
"Books to help her learn words?" she repeated. "But you're doing so well!"
"For Miri, Zhena Trelu," Cory told her for the third time.
She sighed. "You're a patient boy. All right, I'll look around and see if I still have any of Granic's old books."
He tipped his head. "Soon, Zhena Trelu?"
"Well, I-" She bridled, staring at him. He met her eyes calmly, his own a clear and bottomless green.
After a moment, Zhena Trelu sighed and pushed carefully out of her chair. "All right, Cory," she said, with a touch of acid. "Soon."
After supper, Zhena Trelu left the two of them to clean up and went to pursue Granic's old storybook collection through the attic, grumbling audibly as she went up the skinny stairs.
Miri ran water into the sink and started to wash while Val Con cleared the table. She turned her head to smile at him. "I feel better," she said, which was not quite a lie. She did feel better-a little. The headache was gone, which was a big plus; but she was still as jumpy as a Merc without kynak.
Val Con finished the glass he had been drying and set it aside. "After we are done with this, if you like, I can show you a way to make living here-easier, perhaps."
She looked at him doubtfully, not sure that she really needed to learn something else right now; and he tipped his head, catching her eyes on his.
"I promise not to give you a headache," he said solemnly. She gave a wan grin. "Okay," she said. "What the hell."
Brrrinngg!
Miri whirled, ready to charge, staring at the black box on the opposite wall. Until that moment it had always been silent.
It repeated its shrill noise, and Val Con had his hand on it; then he was lifting the top part away and bringing it to his ear.
"Zhena Trelu's house," he said carefully in Benish.
A pause filled with tiny crackles, then a woman's voice spoke, high-pitched in amazement. "What? Who is that? Where's Estra?"
Val Con sighed gently. "Zhena Trelu's house," he repeated clearly. "Cory. Attic."
There was another pause on the line, and he turned to look at Miri, standing tense by the sink. He wrinkled his nose, which made her laugh, and then the voice on the phone was spouting more questions.
"Cory? What are you doing there, Cory? Where are you from?" The amazement had been replaced by avaricious curiosity.
Gossip, Val Con thought darkly and withheld another sigh. "Work. Home. Who is that?"
"What!" the voice exclaimed, though it apparently did not expect to be answered, because it rushed right on. "This is Athna Brigsbee. You tell Estra that I'm on the phone and want to talk to her right away."
"Stay," he said, as if she were Borril, and let the receiver down to dangle by its cord. Leisurely he went down the long hallway, up the stairs, and to the thin attic stairway.
"Zhena Trelu?"
There was a thump and a rustle from above. "What?"
"Athna Brigsbee on the phone to talk to you right away."
"Wind take the woman!" Zhena Trelu grumped, and Val Con grinned. "Tell her to hold on, Cory. I'll be there soon."
"Yes." And he was gone, soundless, down the stairs and back to the kitchen.
"Hold on," he told Athna Brigsbee. "Zhena Trelu is here soon." He let the receiver back down without waiting for an answer, picked up his towel, and began drying the mountain of clean dishes Miri had produced.
By the time Zhena Trelu reached the dangling receiver, it was making indignant noises, which the two diligent workers at the sink seemed not to hear.
"Young man? Young man! Pick up this phone, young man! Just what do you think-"
"Hello, Athna," Zhena Trelu said, unable to resist a grin at Cory, who raised a brow and continued drying dishes.
"Estra? Well, thank goodness! I was terrified. That rude man . . . Who is he, Estra? I asked, of course . . ."
I just bet you did, Zhena Trelu thought. "Cory and his zhena are helping me out around the place. You know it's been threatening to fall down around my ears these last couple winters. Thought I'd get everything all lined up and then maybe sell it, come spring." She stopped, surprised at herself.
"Well, that's lovely for you, dear," Athna Brigsbee said. "I know how hard it's been for you to keep everything up since poor Jerrel passed on." Zhena Trelu gritted her teeth: Jerry and Athna had not been the best of friends.
"But tell me about them, Estra," the voice in her ear continued. "Where are they from? I asked Cory, but all he said was 'home.'" She gave a shrill little laugh.
Good for you, Cory, Zhena Trelu thought. "They don't speak Benish very well. They're refugees-survivors of that volcano and earthquake they had over in Porlint last year."
"But, Estra," Zhena Brigsbee protested, "when I talked about how we should all get together and do something about those poor people right after the disaster you were-well, I won't mince words. You were cold, Estra. And now to take two refugees into your house-and they don't even speak the language!"
There was a pause that Zhena Trelu spitefully refused to fill, then Athna took up her thread again, voice lowered. "Are you sure they're married, Estra? The stories I've heard! People taking refugees into their homes who turn out to be thieves, or murderers . . ."
"Meri and Cory aren't thieves," Zhena Trelu snapped. "And I sincerely doubt they're murderers. Just a young married couple that happened to need help the same time I needed help, so we're helping each other." She took a breath, trying to force t
he irritation down. "Athna, I really am going to have to go."
"Of course! But we must get together-say on Artas? I'll bring a nice scuppin salad and some brownies, and the four of us can have a lovely dinner and a nice talk-it's been such a long time, Estra! Well, I won't keep you any longer-I'll see you on Artas, for dinner. Take care of yourself, dear." The line went dead, leaving Zhena Trelu gasping in outrage.
Athna Brigsbee was coming to visit in two days? There was no stopping her, of course. That sharp nose smelled gossip, and she would not rest until the ferreted out every bit of information possible about Cory and Meri and then did her best to make that information known throughout Gylles and the neighboring county.
Zhena Trelu returned the receiver to its hook, turned toward the sink-and gasped as she saw the young couple as a stranger would see them.
Meri was putting away pans while Cory finished the drying, both dressed in the tight-fitting leather garments that were the only clothes they owned. As Zhena Trelu watched, Meri picked up the heavy iron skillet and bent to put it into the oven. The zhena tried to imagine the expression on Athna Brigsbee's face, were she presented with such a spectacle during her visit, and was almost tempted to allow the situation to continue.
"Meri," she said, shaking herself and moving toward the stove and the tea kettle. "Cory."
They turned to look at her, the girl drifting closer to the man's side, eyes great and gray in her thin face.
"Winter's coming," Zhena Trelu said, trying to talk slowly enough for Meri to understand, "and you're going to need warmer clothes. We'll go to town tomorrow and buy you something nice. Better clothes," she added, as she saw Cory's irrepressible eyebrow slide upward.
