by Delisa Lynn
“Zander, this is beautiful, why would you want to leave this place?” I say, as I see the back. There’s a barn and a huge pool. The barn door is open, but I don’t see any animals. “Do you have animals other than the berry living on this farm?” I giggle.
“Nope, just little Berry. Eventually, I will, but for now, I am content without them. Unless you want some, I can have them here tomorrow.”
“You could get a horse or two. Maybe a few chickens.”
“Anything you want. I’ll get, just say the words.”
“Swim with me, we haven’t swam together since your graduation party.”
“Ahh, you remember shooting me down that day, don’t ya?”
“I always shot you down. You don’t want me; you can’t be with just one woman, Zander Kelley.”
“That’s where you are wrong, my love. I want you, all of you, today and every fucking day. Come with me.” He demands as he pulls me to the pool.
“Are we skinny dipping? Because I didn’t bring a suit.”
“Strip. Better yet, I’ll help you.”
Feeling him so close to me, makes me want to wrap my arms around him and never let him go. He lifts my dress above my head and yanks my bra off. Then he kisses my neck and pulls his boots off. Standing there in nothing but my thongs and stilettos has me so fucking wet. I want him to fuck me so bad. The hell with swimming, I want to feel Zander deep inside of me. I watch as he takes his jeans off. Commando, just the way I like it. I lick my lips, as I pull at the corner of my mouth with my teeth.
“You like what you see? You want to taste me, Audrey; it’s been far too long.” He grins
“Hmm, I do. Here though?” I stutter.
“Trust me, doll, no one will see us except for Berry.” He replies as he rips my thong off. “Those were in my way.”
I drop to my knees in front of him, his pretty penis is staring me in the face. He places his hands in my hair; I take his length in one hand as I massage his balls with the other. I place my lips around the head of his glorious cock. I move my mouth all the way down the base. His hands start tugging and fisting through my hair.
“That’s it…show me how much you missed me.” He groans. “Enough, I have to be in your sweet pussy, you can suck me later. Right now, I need to fuck you hard.” He orders. I can feel my pussy clench at his words. I bend over on my hands and knees, and I wiggle my ass in his face.
“You like what you see?” I giggle.
“I do, but turn over. I want to look at you while I come in my pussy. You hear me mine.”
I turn over and lay on a towel that was next to the pool, I’m wondering if he had this planned. He kneels in between my legs. He lifts one leg up and places it on his shoulder. I’m so wet and ready for him. I want to grab his ass and push him into my opening.
“Still on the pill? If not, too bad because I am not wearing a condom.”
“Ye…Yes, I am.” I gulp, remembering the last time we were together and thinking about Blossom being conceived bringing tears to my eyes.
“What’s wrong sweetheart?” he asks concerned.
“Oh, nothing. I’m okay. I’ve missed you is all.” I lie, well not really, because I did miss him.
As he enters me, I let out a moan. He is even bigger than I remember. He doesn’t ease in, he pushes in me so hard that I scream–a joyful scream.
“Oh, Zander. God, I’ve missed you so fucking much.”
“Mmm, that’s what I like to hear. Tell me how much you missed me.”
“So much, oh God. Fuck me harder please.” I beg as I could feel his rhythm increase and his thrust getting harder.
“No fucking way I am lasting long. I can’t, I have to come in you baby.” He breathes.
“Come in me Zander, please give me all of you.” I beg as I feel my pussy wrap around his throbbing cock, I could feel his juices running through my core. He fell onto my chest. His breathing is so heavy.
“Amazing is all I can say.” He mumbles. “Now let’s swim.”
“So you make love to me and then want me to swim.”
“Yep, get in the water now.” He orders.
“Okay, when did you become so damn bossy?” I ask.
“That’s the only way I can get what I want. Would you have gotten in if I had just asked you too? No didn’t think so.”
“You’re still an ass.”
“An ass that you love.” He says as he pulls me close to him. “Tell me you will stay. I can’t let you walk out of my life again. The last five years have been so fucking crazy.”
“Zander, I can’t. There is just too much that we don’t know about each other.”
“What would you like to know? I haven’t had a relationship ever. I have only been fucking a few girls here and there. Always with a condom. Never in my bed. Anything else?”
“It’s not that, I just can’t. Can we please drop this for now?”
“Yes, but you will tell me what the deal is eventually. You aren’t leaving until you do.”
“Let’s go shower, I’m really tired.” I say as I walk out of the pool. I can’t tell him about Blossom. I have never told him about my mother and his father. All this is the reason we can’t be together. How the fuck do I tell him.
Walking in the house, I see that it is perfect. It’s bigger than it looks from the outside. We walk in through the back door, into the kitchen. There’s an island right in the center along the wall is two double ovens. The stove has a grill in the middle. This is every woman’s dream kitchen. Walking into what looked like a game room, I can see that he must have had help decorating everything.
“Okay who is your decorator?” I question.
“My mom helped me decorate everything. You like it?”
“I love it, this is a beautiful place. Are you sure you want to move?” I tease.
“Depends, on where you want to live.”
“Please show me to the shower.” I beg.
“This way, baby.” He says as he takes my hand and leads me up the stairs. We walk into a huge master suite, there is a huge king size bed. Then I see the closet. It’s bigger than my bedroom. There are suits of every color on one side of the closet then the other side—there are jeans, polo’s, and Henley’s. Then I see his boot collection. He has more boots than anyone I know.
“Zander, your closet is bigger than mine.”
“A man of my stature has to look good at all times, ya know.”
“Oh please, you are so full of yourself. After I shower, we will talk. There are things you should know, if we are going to make this work.” I say as I motion my hands between the two of us. “If you hurt me, I swear to God, I will chop your balls off myself.”
“Christ, woman, I would like to keep those. And if you want me to keep pleasuring you the way you like, then you want me to keep them too.”
“Like I said, you hurt me and they are gone.” I snicker. “Now shower with me.”
“I will clean the other closet out for you tomorrow and there is also a spare bedroom you can make into an office. We can put your condo up for sale. Unless you just want to rent it?”
“Zander, I told you we have to talk. There are things you don’t know.”
“Audrey, there is nothing in this world that is going to keep us from being together. What is so bad?”
“Fine, you want to know now? My mother, you know the one that gave birth to me and hated me, because I wasn’t your father’s child.”
“Whoa, wait. My father’s? Explain this better, baby.”
“Ugh, my mom was in love with Dexter. They were together before he went into the Army and met your mother. That’s why I wasn’t allowed around y’all when we were younger. My mother hates your mom and dad now. I guess they were supposed to get married and he came back engaged to your mom. Then she met my dad and ended up pregnant with me and has hated me ever since.”
“Baby, that’s not your fault. Or mine. Why would that stop us from being together? I love you Audrey and nothing will cha
nge that. I have wanted you for so damn long. You can’t keep pushing me away. I know you want me as bad as I want you.”
“God, Zander. I do, I really do. But I am so fucking scared. We are like dynamite, we can explode at any time and then my heart will be shattered. It took me five fucking years to tell you this.”
“It’s fine that was between our parents not us.” He says as he pulls me into his arms.
“No, no, no. That’s not all. You will hate me for what I am about to tell you. I was so scared I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to tell you then Ian showed up. I had went shopping and bought you a hat. I even bought new lingerie hoping that when I told you, you would want to make love to me again. Then he showed up. I tried to get away; I tried not to hurt her. Zander I tried, I wanted her so bad. She was ours and she died. All because of that stupid fucker chasing me. I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you before. I didn’t know how. I was so scared; you are the only one that knows. I haven’t told anyone. A part of me died that day when they removed our Blossom from me.” I cry. I’m shaking so bad and I can see the tears forming in Zanders big brown eyes.
“Audrey, are you saying you were pregnant with my child, when you fell down the steps. You never fucking told me?” He questions as he sits on the bed. His face is pale white and his fists are clenched.
“Yes, I was going to tell you that night. Then Ian showed up and fucked everything up. I could feel her inside of me. When I was sick and thought it was food poisoning, I went to the Urgent Care and found out. I didn’t tell anyone because I wanted to tell you first.”
“When you kicked me out of the hospital room, you couldn’t have told me then? You were all alone, you just lost our baby and you didn’t think to fucking tell me? How the hell could you keep something like this from me Audrey Renee? She was my child too. How far along were you?”
“I tried so many times, it never seemed right. I was a little over twelve weeks. I still have the ultra sound picture. I carry it with me. Zander, I loved Blossom, it broke me. I couldn’t even think straight after I left the hospital. I wanted to tell you then too. But you were doing your own thing. Then you moved out.”
“You could have made time to tell me that, when that son of a bitch forced himself in our apartment, that you were carrying my baby. The baby we made together the first time we made love.”
“I’m so sorry. You will never forgive me. I’ll call a cab to take me to my car. I am so sorry that I’ve hurt you the way I have. Please know, I love you more than anything, and I always have. I knew we couldn’t be together, we just won’t work together.”
“You aren’t going anywhere, now sit back down. This stops right now. You will no longer run from your feelings. You will no longer run from me. I am very disappointed in you. You know you can tell me anything. You chose to keep this from me. I hated leaving you alone, had I known you were pregnant I would have never left. Tatum didn’t even know?” he questions.
“No one knew besides the nurse and doctors at the hospital. But no one else. Every year on that day, I put a message in a balloon and send it through the air. I know that she knows we love her. In every letter I tell her about you too.”
“Audrey, how have you managed to go through all of this alone?” he asks as tears streamed down his cheeks. It’s killing me seeing him so upset and crying. Zander doesn’t cry.
“I had to. I couldn’t bring myself to tell you. My father would have killed me himself if he knew—not because of you but because I let Ian in. Zander, I tried getting away from him, I really did. I knew if I played along with his stupid ass, I could get away. Once I started running down the stairs, I grabbed my stomach and told him, and he started yelling and cussing at me. I haven’t seen him since then, but if I ever see him again, I may need bail money because I will kill the bastard.”
“Oh trust me. He will pay for what he has done. Audrey, look at me, baby. I love you. We will get past this. Please don’t ever keep anything from me again. You have to promise me.”
“I love you and I promise I won’t. Can I take a shower now?” I ask, as I walk into the bathroom.
Zander and I had a great weekend. I love his house and Berry is so lovable. We are going to his parent’s house for dinner today then to pick up my car. I’ll also have to go by my place and pick up some things. It feels so good to tell someone about Blossom. I can see the hurt in Zanders eyes though. I swear I thought he was going to hate me. I’ve decided that I will not run anymore. He loves me and I know he will be here for me always.
“I’m going to tell my parents about the miscarriage. That way when I go to jail for murder, they will understand.”
“Zander, what if they hate me for it? I didn’t even tell Ta and she is my best friend. Hell she doesn’t even know that we slept together. She will be very upset with me.”
“Oh well, let her be. They all need to know. You will tell your parents also. That bastard needs to pay for what he did. I will make sure he does, if it’s the last thing I do. I love you. My parents love you and so does Tatum. So don’t think they will hate you. Come here.” He orders has he wraps his arms around my waist.
“Goddamn it, why do you have to be so sexy and demanding?”
“That’s just the way I am. I told you, you aren’t going anywhere.”
“As long as you are by my side, I can do this. I still don’t know about telling my parents though. That can wait.” I breathe, knowing my dad will have a stroke when he finds out.
“I will always be by your side. From now on, it’s you and I. Well, and Berry.” He winks.
“That damn dog woke me up licking my toes. I guess I had better get used to her. Huh?” I laugh.
“Oh, baby, that wasn’t Berry that was me.” He smirks.
“Whatever, I know it was her, you big dork.”
“We better go—Mom and Dad are dying to see you again. She’ll be mad if we are late.”
We leave for Zander’s parents, I start to I feel nervous. I’ve known them all my life, but telling them that Zander and I are together scares me. I hope that Mr. Kelley doesn’t judge me because of mother. There is no way in hell that I have turned out to be like her. I haven’t even spoken to her in years. She stayed away the first few years, then she started calling around my senior year.
Dad and mom told me that if I didn’t want anything to do with her, that would be fine. So I asked her to stop calling me. Once the phone calls stopped, letters started coming. I didn’t reply to any of them. I know that I should forgive her and move past this but she hurt me for many years. I lost all this time with the love of my life because I was so insecure from her negativity.
Pulling into the driveway, I can feel my stomach fall to my toes. Zander looks at me and squeezes my hand. Looking into his big mocha eyes, makes me feel safe. As long as he says it will be okay then it will be okay. I see Evan and Tatum sitting on the porch. She looks so pitiful, I can’t believe that bastard Thayer tried to kill her. I know she is going to be upset with me once she finds out I kept my pregnancy from her. I lean over and kiss Zander. All the love I have for this man that I’ve kept bottled up for so long is coming out full force. I need him to know how much I love him.
“Zander, are you sure about this? I think I will tell Tatum first, if that’s okay?” I ask as we walk toward the house.
“It will be okay. Yes, you can talk to her first. I’ll sit with Evan and not say a word to my parents until you talk with my sister. Look at me, we are in this together.” He says as he kisses my cheek.
“I know—I love you, Zander.”
“That’s my girl, tell me again. I love hearing those words come out of your mouth.”
“I love you. I will never push you away again.”
“Hey, y’all. Is it official?” Tatum grins.
“Sis, your friend here finally realized what a catch I am.” Zander laughs
“Tatum, can we go out by the barn and talk?” I ask as I grab her arm that wasn’t in a sling.
“O
f course, Zander keep my man company.” She laughs.
“It won’t take long; I just want to tell you about something that’s happened.”
“Whoa, do I need a drink for this.” She teases.
“Actually, you may need a new best friend when we finish. Just let me get it all out then you can kill me when I am finished. Okay?”
“Kill you? What did you do sleep with Evan?”
“Hell no, you know I would never do that. However, I did sleep with Zander five years ago when he was staying with me at NYU. Actually, the weekend when you were there and I thought I’d gotten food poisoning. I found out I was pregnant. I didn’t get a chance to tell Zander. I wanted to tell him, but he was here and Ian showed up. Then I fell down the stairs, I knew Blossom was gone.” I cry.
“This happened five years ago? I am just now finding out. Why would you keep this from me? From Zander—he was the baby’s father. You never told him.” She seethes.
“I didn’t tell anyone. I just told Zander a few days ago. I hated myself for letting Ian chase me out of my apartment. He scared me and all I was thinking about was getting away. Then trying to get away, I tripped and then there was blood everywhere. Ta, my baby died inside of me. Then they removed her as if she was never there. Please don’t be mad at me. I know I should have told you. I just didn’t know how.”
“So that’s why you were so distanced from all of us? Blossom? Was the baby a girl?” she sobs.
“I’m not sure. It was too soon to tell. I called her Blossom. I loved her so much already. I had just bought maternity clothes that day. I’d even looked at the baby store getting ideas. I had everything planed out to tell Zander when he got home. But I never got that chance.” I explain.
“Come here, I can’t hug you like I need too. I hate this stupid brace. I think we should put Ian in the cell with Thayer.” She hisses.
“God, I love you Tatum. Please know I didn’t mean to hurt any of you all by doing this. I will never keep anything from you. By the way, I am moving in with Zander and Berry. He insists that I do. I’ve loved that man half my life.”
