Contents
Cover
About the Book
About the Author
Also by Lesley Pearse
Title Page
Dedication
Acknowledgements
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Chapter Thirty
Chapter Thirty-One
Copyright
About the Book
Ellie is a sweet-natured brunette, generous of heart with a sparkling smile and an accent which reveals her East End background. Bonny is beautiful and spoilt, with cascades of blonde hair, the brightest pair of blue eyes and a mouth like Cupid’s bow.
The two girls meet in London at the end of the war when, seduced by two American airmen, they pool their wits and resources and set off to make a living on the stage. Set against the hardship and austerity of post-war Britain, and the glamour and ruthlessness of life in variety theatre, their story is one of sacrifice and burning ambition. But most of all of a powerful friendship that lasts against all odds.
Lesley Pearse was born in Rochester, Kent, but has lived in Bristol for over twenty-five years. She has three daughters and a grandson. She is the bestselling author of nineteen novels, including Ellie, Georgia, Tara, Camellia and Charity, all five of which are published by Arrow. She is one of the UK’s best loved novelists with fans across the globe and sales of over three million copies of her books to date.
Also by Lesley Pearse
Georgia*
Tara*
Charity*
Camellia*
Rosie
Charlie
Never Look Back
Trust Me
Father Unknown
Till We Meet Again
Remember Me
Secrets
A Lesser Evil
Hope
Faith
Gypsy
Stolen
Belle
* Also available in Arrow Books
For Hilda Sargent and Rowneen Phillips, two very different kinds of women, but both formative influences in my youth.
Hilda, my stepmother, was a tough old bird, but it was she who encouraged my love of books, taught me self-reliance and a great deal more. Rowneen was a friend’s mother, a lady who knew how to love, laugh and make the world a brighter place. Sadly they both died in 1995, within days of one another. I remember them with a smile.
Acknowledgements
Malcolm Golding for his brilliance with computers and his patience while he brought me into the twentieth century, and apologies to Sheelagh for making her a temporary grass widow.
Jack Hatt in Amberley, Sussex for his help in recreating the past glories of Amberley Station, and Mary Taylor in Rushington who gave me so much information about the war years in Sussex.
Finally, Peter Marsh for his knowledge of the fire service, and for his stoic endurance and help with my research while I lived, breathed and slept the war years.
Chapter One
Stepney, London, 1939
‘’Ere, Poll! Your bleedin’ ‘Elayna’s broke the bog seat again,’ Edna shouted indignantly from the bottom of the stairs. ‘She might have a name like an effing duchess, but she don’t sit on the khazi like one.’
Polly Forester paused in searching her daughter’s long, dark brown hair for nits, and half smiled.
No one ever called Ellie by her real name, ‘Helena’ – which was intended to be pronounced in the Greek way, with an ‘a’ sound – not unless they wanted to tease or ridicule her. Edna Ross, their garrulous and often fearsome neighbour, loved to bawl it out as the ultimate, affectionate insult, always adding an extra ‘a’ or two for special effect.
‘’Ow can you be sure it weren’t Wilf?’ Polly shouted back good-naturedly. ‘’E’s got an arse like a rhinoceros!’
‘’Cos ’e’s bin down the pub all bleedin’ day,’ Edna shot back. ‘An’ I ’opes ’e stays there all bleedin’ night too.’
‘I’m sorry, Ed,’ Polly called back, spluttering with laughter. ‘I’ll fix it later.’
‘Don’t matter.’ Edna’s indignation was gone now, replaced by wheezy laughter. ‘Just tell our Ellie if she’s goin’ to live wiv toffs, she’s got to be’ave like one.’
It was four in the afternoon, August 31st, 1939. On any other warm day, Alder Street, Stepney would be ringing with the sound of children’s voices, skipping ropes thumping on the pavement, balls thudding against walls and women gossiping on their doorsteps. But an unnatural, eerie silence had fallen over the street in the last hour, as children were called in to prepare for evacuation tomorrow.
‘Ave I got nits?’ Ellie asked, wincing as her mother scraped the fine-toothed comb through her hair.
Ellie was described as ‘a big girl’ by her neighbours, a kindly euphemism for ‘fat’. At twelve she was almost as tall and several inches wider than her dainty mother. She escaped being labelled ‘plain’ simply because of her exuberant personality. Her dark eyes sparkled with ready laughter, wide mouth constantly curved into a smile, and she had the ability to make all those around her laugh too.
But anyone seeing Ellie straight-faced, without witnessing her infectious jollity, could be excused for considering her appearance unprepossessing. Black hair, a sallow big face, too fleshy to see if there might be interesting cheekbones beneath it, a nose too small to add any definition. In a worn, striped, cotton dress, long since outgrown, her puppy fat was all too apparent, buttons strained at the chest, sleeves tight, and the short skirt emphasising dimpled knees.
‘Can’t see any, ducks, but I’d best make certain,’ Polly replied, moving her daughter closer to the window for a better view. Ellie’s long, glossy hair was perhaps her best feature and it was a matter of pride to her mother to keep it that way. ‘We don’t want yer new uncle and auntie to think all us cockneys are lousy, do we?’
‘Can’t I stay with you, Mum?’ Ellie twisted her head so she could see her mother. ‘You’ll be so lonely all on your own.’
‘You must go.’ Polly’s mouth smiled but her eyes were bleak. ‘I’d rather be lonely than worrying about you being ’urt.’
Ellie desperately wanted to find some joke to lighten the mood, but for once nothing came to her. ‘I’ll be scared you might cop it,’ she blurted out. ‘Wot if one of them bombs gets you?’
Polly sighed deeply. All her thoughts were channelled into getting Ellie away to safety, drilling her on how to behave and making the most of this opportunity. Until now she hadn’t even considered the danger to herself.
‘There ain’t gonna be no bombs,’ Polly said with as much conviction as she could muster. ‘That’s just scaremongering to keep us on our toes.’
‘You ain’t scared then?’ Ellie slid her arms round her mother, leaning on her shoulder.
Ellie had never seen her mother scared. She might be small and slender but she could chase rats out of the outside lavatory with a broom, stand up to the often formid
able actors and actresses at the Empire Theatre in Holborn where she worked as a dresser, and take Edna Ross in her stride.
‘Only of not seeing you each day.’ Polly hugged her daughter fiercely, fighting back tears. ‘But it’ll all be over by Christmas, you’ll see. Maybe I’ll be able to get a better place for us while you’re gone. Now get yer bits and bobs together and we’ll go up Auntie Marleen’s, she said you could ’ave a bath. She’s got some supper for us an’ all.’
This unexpected treat wiped out Ellie’s fears of separation. She disengaged herself from her mother’s arms, her customary wide smile splitting her face in two.
‘Wot, in that posh place? You said you wasn’t never going there!’
Marleen was Polly’s oldest and best friend, but from what Ellie had overheard, Marleen had a new fancy man her mother didn’t approve of, and until now she’d refused to take Ellie to see Marleen’s flat.
‘Even I can change my mind for summat special,’ Polly sniffed, turning her head away and wiping her damp eyes surreptitiously. ‘Besides, Marleen loves you and she’d be mad if she didn’t get to say goodbye.’
Polly sat down at the chair by the window as Ellie went into the bedroom to get ready. The forced gaiety she’d been keeping up all day was wearing thin. She was sending Ellie away for more than just her safety: Polly hoped a new home in the country would give her daughter all the things she couldn’t even dream of supplying. But for twelve years Ellie had been the centre of her world. How was she going to cope without her?
There was nothing in the small room to reassure Polly that she hadn’t failed her child. Two worn fireside chairs, a rag rug on bare boards, a small table with one leg supported by a wedge of cardboard, and on the mantelpiece, two plaster dogs with chipped ears flanking a clock which had long since stopped working. Just looking out of the window was enough to depress her further. The terraced street was so narrow, the sun rarely penetrated it. Soot-ingrained brick, so many windows broken and the panes replaced by cardboard or rags. Edna and Iris were gossiping in one patch of sunshine, headscarves tied over their curlers. Old Mrs Schoebl was sitting in her doorway, legs splayed wide, revealing an inch or two of long pink drawers, her head nodding sleepily down on to her chest. Normally the sound of children playing drowned the hum of sewing machines from the workshop at number 21, but now it filled the air like a swarm of bees. Two boys were sitting listlessly on the doorstep, their haircuts making them look like a couple of convicts. As Polly watched, Alf Meeks came into view, his rag-and-bone cart piled high with goods. Even his horse looked defeated, plodding wearily towards the yard further down Alder Street.
Polly was still a very pretty woman. Not even twelve years in Alder Street had dulled the shine in her coppery, naturally curly hair, or banished the poise and grace of the dancer she’d once been. Although she was thirty-seven, men still cast covetous glances at her trim figure, her upturned nose with its sprinkling of freckles, and wondered why the little widow hadn’t remarried.
She had moved into these two tiny rooms above Edna and Wilf Ross when Ellie was born, a desperate, temporary measure. She’d been optimistic then, believing the good times would come back, but before long she realised she was trapped, just as all her neighbours were. Jews, Poles, Irish and native Londoners, their customs and beliefs might vary, but poverty united them all. Whole families huddled in tiny, damp, squalid rooms, on a relentless treadmill of hard work for poor wages and no hope of anything better.
It was for Ellie’s sake that Polly hadn’t stopped trying to make the best of things. She’d learnt to live with the stink of the outside lavatory, the mess that Edna left in their shared kitchen. To eke out her meagre wages from the theatre she often prepared a meal for her daughter and pretended she’d eaten hers earlier, or put up with the cold all day and lit the fire only minutes before Ellie came in from school. Mice overran the house; there were bugs in the walls. In summer they stifled in the heat, but winters were an endurance test. Making pretty curtains didn’t disguise the mould growing on the walls, or the rickety furniture. Only Ellie’s presence made it a home.
How was she going to face this place without Ellie? They had shared everything – from the bed, to gossip, chores and laughter. What purpose would there be in her life now?
Polly had seen for herself today that she wasn’t alone in loving Ellie. All morning there had been a steady stream of neighbours calling at number 18 to say goodbye to her, many of them bringing small gifts. Old Mrs Schoebl, the Polish woman from across the street, brought a few sweets. Ossie Freidburg brought a length of red flannel for Polly to make into a nightdress and Mrs Green, who ran the paper shop on the corner, offered a couple of comics for the journey.
Ellie was such a gregarious and warm-hearted child, that she assumed her neighbours’ kindness was extended to every other mother and child in the street. She had no idea that she’d won a special place in people’s affections.
Humour was the traditional way in the East End of dealing with the grimness of life. ‘If I couldn’t have a laugh every day I’d sooner die’, was a remark heard constantly, and Ellie made them roar with laughter. Whether she’d become a comedienne through her close contacts with comics at the theatre, or simply to rise above her size and situation, Polly didn’t know, but Ellie’s ability to mimic and entertain was appreciated by everyone, from her schoolfriends, to the oldest residents in Alder Street.
Ellie was an observer. Whether she was sitting on a bus, in a shop or just in a room full of people, she listened and stored away information. Later she would re-enact the characters she’d studied with faultless precision, using the simplest props like a headscarf or a pair of glasses.
‘You should put your Ellie on the stage,’ Edna often said to Polly when she’d had a few gins. ‘She ’ad me laughin’ fit to bust.’
Polly was never sure how she should react to this. She felt Ellie was destined for it, believed she had the raw talent to succeed, but yet she knew the pitfalls of such a life first-hand. So she took the easy way out, a smile which could either be translated as acceptance, or as disbelief. She never let on that Ellie’s birth had finished her own career on the stage, or showed how hard she found it merely to dress entertainers, when once she had been out there in the footlights.
*
‘I’m ready!’ Ellie said from the doorway. Polly turned at her daughter’s voice and for a second caught a glimpse of how Ellie might look once she’d lost her puppy fat.
With the light slanting over Ellie’s shoulder, Polly could see there were high cheekbones and her own delicate, pointed chin buried beneath surplus flesh. Ellie’s eyes were glorious, deep pools, so like her father’s. That wide mouth, with a slightly protruding bottom lip, hinted at sensuality and her small nose was perfectly shaped.
Polly wasn’t quite comfortable with this sudden flash of Ellie as a woman, especially on the eve of evacuation. Guilt stabbed at her as she remembered she hadn’t yet got round to broaching that awkward subject of menstruation.
‘You don’t need a towel.’ Polly took the dingy thin grey one from beneath Ellie’s arm, shamed as much by this symbol of their poverty as by failing to have seen how fast her daughter was growing up. ‘Marleen’s got plenty. Just take your cardigan in case it’s cold when we come ’ome.’
Polly swiftly ran a comb through her hair and put on a little lipstick. She was wearing her one and only decent dress, a pale blue crêpe that Marleen had given her. If only Ellie wasn’t going away tomorrow, having the night off from work would’ve been a rare treat. As it was, she felt more like crying than pretending this was a celebration.
Ellie would have walked right past the Gray’s Inn Road mansion block. Polly grabbed her arm to stop her.
‘Is this it?’ Ellie asked, looking up at the elaborate red brick Victorian facade with awe.
Polly nodded, smiling at her daughter’s expression. Polly had seen smarter places in her time, but today she saw it through Ellie’s eyes.
The ste
ps were white marble. A red patterned carpet, similar to the one in the Odeon, softened their footsteps as they plodded up the stairs to the second floor. Maybe it hadn’t been repainted in years, perhaps the tenants weren’t as aristocratic as those it had been designed for, but compared to 18 Alder Street it was a palace.
‘Hello, darlings!’ Marleen said as she opened the door, her theatrical greeting matching her appearance. She wore a vivid green and orange long kimono, and her hair was dyed a deep, dark red, arranged in loose curls on the top of her head. ‘Come on in, Cyril’s just left.’
Ellie felt rather than saw her mother’s warning finger on her lips, and smiled to herself.
Although Ellie was young, she knew a great deal more about adult relationships than her mother realised. An intuitive and observant child, she could work out for herself exactly how Marleen, who was too old now to dance, managed to have such smart clothes and live in a place like this.
Marleen and Polly had been friends since joining the same dance troupe at seventeen. Ellie sensed, when the two women spoke of those days, that her mother’s past was almost as racy as her friend’s. She had seen photographs which gave a glimpse of this thrilling, glittery world. Showgirls in spangled costumes and feathered head-dresses, the pair of them in short ‘flapper’ dresses and beaded headbands on the arms of men in evening dress, always exuding an aura of glamour and sophistication.
Ellie had to assume, though neither Polly nor Marleen could be drawn on the subject, that it was her birth which finished her mother’s ritzy life. Maybe if Polly had married one of those suave gentlemen instead of Tom Forester, they might be living in one of those big houses she saw in the background of those pictures.
*
‘What’cha think of it then?’ Marleen asked as she ushered them along the wide, carpeted passageway into her sitting-room.
Ellie stopped short at the door, gasping in admiration. ‘Cor, it ain’t ’alf nice, Auntie Marleen,’ she said. ‘It’s like a palace.’
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