by Tia Siren
“I’m not going anywhere, Hanna, and I need you to understand that. When we were negotiating this and I told you I couldn’t leave you if you got pregnant, I meant it.”
“I know.”
“I want to be around for you and this child. I want to help you out and be a father. I had an incredible role model for that growing up, and I know I’d be a damn fine one. I know you feel alone right now, but you’re not. Not while I’m here. Not ever again if you don’t want to be.”
“I know,” she whispered. She finally turned her hand over and entwined our fingers. I knew I had her attention. I knew she had heard the words come out of my mouth and was accepting all of it.
“Is there anything I can do?” I asked.
Her eyes scanned the horizon while the cogs of her mind began to turn. I was begging her to give me something to do. Anything to do. I could go track down her brother or stand up to her father. I could tell her mother to shut up or whisk her away with me. I could carry her upstairs and put her in a bath, or I could hold her hair back while she got sick.
But what she asked me for was something I wasn’t sure I could provide.
“Make me feel loved again, Kason,” she said.
Her head whipped around to me, and I saw that same look I’d seen so many times over the past few weeks. I saw that wanton look and watched her nipples pucker underneath the baggy shirt she was wearing. I saw her eyes rake over my body and felt her hand tighten around mine. I wasn’t sure I could give that to her. I wasn’t sure if this was the best time to give her that, so I hesitated.
“Hanna, don’t you think we should do something else? Go get you some food or take a little nap or something?”
“Please, Kason,” she begged. “I know, now more than ever, what my body wants and needs from me.”
I’d never been able to resist a begging Hanna, and as soon as the plea flew from her lips, I was done for. I nodded and urged her to get up. Then I picked her up in my arms. We walked into the house and found it completely empty, so I carried her up the stairs and into her room. She nuzzled her face into my neck, and her nose was sniffling with her tears. My heart broke for her while my pelvis churned for her body. I laid her slowly down on her bed and peeled back her layers until she was completely naked for me. Then I shed my layers for her while she lay spread out for me.
In a few months, her body was going to be round with my child. In a few months, her breasts would grow and her womanly scent would change. Her sex drive would peak and her nipples would grow into full-sized bites I’d never want to stop sucking on. My dick stood at attention for her while I crawled up her body, and the moment my lips connected with hers, I felt the electricity between the two of us shiver through my body.
“I missed you so much,” Hanna said into my mouth.
“Holy hell, I missed you, too.”
Our teeth clattered and my hands slipped around her. We couldn’t keep our mouths off each other. I nipped at her shoulders and her breasts, and she bit into my arms and my neck. Her moans and groans were better than anything I could’ve conjured in my mind, and when I buried my head between her legs, she wrapped her hands in my hair like the good little girl she was. She bucked and arched into me, desperate to get my tongue exactly where she wanted, and the moment my lips connected with her swollen clit, she was absolutely done for. She shook and trembled while her orgasm crashed over her and her juices slicked my face. She tasted like heaven and honey, and I knew in that very moment that I didn’t want to let her go.
I was in this for the long haul, and she was just going to have to deal with that.
I let her heave and pant in the sunlight streaming through her windows before I slowly gathered her up in my arms. I sat in a chair in the corner of her room, and she straddled my lap. When my dick slid effortlessly into her tight, swollen pussy, I knew this was where I wanted to be.
“Dear god, Hanna,” I said.
“You feel so good, Kason,” she whispered. Her lips peppered my neck and her body rolled into mine. Her tits brushed my chest while I marked her body for the world to see. Her arms brought me closer than I’d ever felt before. I ran the palms of my hands up her back and cloaked her body with my arms. She was soft to the touch and warm with desperation. When her rolling became bounces on my hips, I knew she was getting close.
“Kason. Please,” she said through whimpers.
I braced myself against the chair and started meeting her thrusts. I pumped my hips up while her tits flailed in my face. When I caught one of her nipples, her head lobbed back. I grabbed her plump little ass and thought about how it would grow for me in the months to come. She squealed in delight when I got up and barreled her back onto the wall. I captured her lips in a hot, needy kiss. Then I wrapped my arms beneath the crooks of her legs.
“Kason,” she said.
I folded her legs up and braced my hands against the wall until I knew she couldn’t move. Her entire pussy was bared to me and her juices dripped down my balls. All she could do was moan in ecstasy while I pumped my hips into her body. I could hear the wet slapping sounds of our skin together, and her jaw unhinged in glorious pleasure. When my balls pulled up into my body, I knew this was it.
I knew I wouldn’t have another woman as long as I lived so long as I could have Hanna. She was pinned to the wall with her knees to her chest, and when her pussy began to flutter around my dick and her eyes rolled into the back of her head, I bit my teeth down on her breast and groaned.
“Hanna. Oh, Hanna. You’re so incredible.”
Her pleasure was silent while her body shook against the wall. When I was done pumping myself into her, I slowly slid us to the floor. Our juices dripped onto the carpet of her bedroom and my dick was still sheathed within her warmth, but when I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close, she buried her panting face into my neck.
“I’m not going anywhere,” I whispered in her ear. “I’m on your side, Hanna.”
“Please don’t leave me,” she said. She was still trembling in my arms, so I stayed kneeling on the ground, holding her until she finally came down from her high. I ran my fingers through her hair and held her close to my body. When she finally moved and I slid out from between her legs, I helped her steady herself on her feet.
“I’m not. I’m not going anywhere. How are you feeling?” I asked.
She smirked. “So much better.”
“So, here’s the plan,” I said. “I came into town to tell you I have your internship ready for you. We were going to fly out on Monday and you would start as soon as we landed. That offer is on the table, now more than ever, if you want it.”
“You…want to fly out Monday?” she asked.
“Yes. We can leave then if you’d like. I’ve prepared a room in my house for you to stay in until campus opens, but if you want to do your classes online, you can just stay in my home. I meant it when I told you I wasn’t going anywhere. Your desk is right outside my office door, so I’ll be right there if you need me for anything.”
“Kason,” she said, “that—”
“Come with me, Hanna. We’ll pack up your stuff, or you can leave it here and we’ll get you new stuff,” I said.
“I... Monday?” she asked.
“Or tomorrow. Or a week from tomorrow. Or a week from Monday. I don’t care. Just come with me, Hanna. Come live with me, come work for me, and come finish your degree.”
“I don’t want to be a burden on you, Kason.”
“That is the last thing you could ever be to me, Hanna,” I said.
“I never meant for this to happen, I swear it,” she said.
“I know.”
Finally, she nodded. A smile crossed her lips, and I couldn’t help but pull those plump beauties into mine for a kiss.
“Monday it is,” I murmured.
We cleaned ourselves up and I strode back over to my house. I still had to fill my parents in on what was going on, and in the meantime, I needed to talk to her parents about the plans we�
��d just made. They needed to understand that she was pregnant with my child and that I held a certain amount of weight in their conversations now. If Hanna wanted to come with me, then that was what was happening. No amount of respect I had for their family would keep me from taking care of the woman carrying my child.
But I owed Marcus more than that, so when I got home and realized my parents still weren’t back, I tried calling him.
I called and I called and I called, and he simply shot me to voicemail every single time. He was screening my calls, and while I couldn’t blame him, he was also being very childish about this. I needed to talk to him as a man, not as a friend, and he couldn’t even be bothered to pick up his phone and have an adult conversation. I was experiencing my best friend’s deepest downfall as a human being, and it was making me very upset.
But, at the same time, I didn’t really know what to do.
So, I sat and I waited. My parents would be home eventually, and after my mother’s jovial surprise regarding my presence, the three of us had to have a very serious conversation about what was going on and what that meant for both of our families.
And, hopefully, Marcus would eventually return my calls.
Chapter 33
Hanna
After not hearing from Marcus for a couple days, I just decided to go there myself. This was getting out of hand and we needed to talk, but I knew if I called before I came over, he would just act like a child and leave before I could get there. I understood he was angry, and he had every right to be, but there needed to be some form of acceptance…even if he couldn’t forgive me.
But I hoped he would anyway.
I parked my car at his apartment complex and went to go knock on his door. Even though he was everywhere sometimes, he had a steady apartment on the other side of the city. I knew that was where he would be. I banged my fist on the door and demanded he open it. After a bit of hesitation, the door finally flew open.
“What do you want?” he spat.
“Marcus, we need to talk.”
“Not really. I think everything that’s been done has been done.”
“But no one has said anything. You need to grow up and I need my big brother.”
He looked at me hard before he finally relented. He stepped to the side and let me in. I knew I had made progress. So long as he didn’t throw me out by my arm after we talked, I would consider this as a step in the right direction. The truth of the matter was that I loved my brother and I thought he would be a wonderful uncle to the child I was growing. For the love of everything, I was carrying his best friend’s child. I was sure he would want to be a part of this child’s life while he or she was growing up.
We sat on his couch. I tried to stay strong, but when he finally looked over at me, I lost my emotions again. Tears formed in my eyes and Marcus shook his head, but when they started flowing down my cheeks, my mouth ran away from me.
“Marcus, please. I’m so sorry this happened, and I can’t imagine how you feel right now—”
“No, you can’t,” he spat.
“But I’m pregnant. With Kason’s child. And you have to let that sink in and you have to digest it because in a few weeks, I’m going to be more petrified than ever and I’m going to need you. Dad isn’t talking to me and Mom won’t shut her face about baby clothes and I just want my brother around.”
“So you’re keeping it? With all the potential you have in life and after all the time you’ve spent in school? You’re just going to…throw it all away and be like Mom?” he asked.
“Yes, Marcus. I’m keeping the baby. And as far as my schooling goes, in a few days I’m going to call the university and see about classes I can do online that will enable me to still graduate in June. Kason’s still giving me the internship—”
“Of course he is,” Marcus murmured.
“—and he’s paying me for it. We’re leaving tomorrow.”
“Wait. What?” Marcus exclaimed.
“Do I have your attention now?” I asked.
Marcus’s eyes were wild but his jaw was shut, which meant I had his attention. Tears slipped down my neck, and I tried to reach out for his hand. I was surprised when he allowed me to take it. Marcus didn’t need to know any of the details about how I had originally wanted Kason to father a child with me and all that. All he needed to know was that I was keeping this child, finishing my education online, and taking a plane tomorrow with Kason to go start my paid internship.
And I needed him to listen and be on my side.
“Dad won’t even talk to me, Marcus,” I said. “Please, just talk to me.”
“I just can’t believe you two did this.” He shook his head. “Kason fucking made me a promise that he’d stay away from you.”
“Marcus, I’m not a little girl anymore. I’m not your geeky sister who’s being picked on by high school bullies. I don’t need saving and I don’t need protection.”
“Seriously, Hanna?”
“I meant that I don’t need you shielding me from the world. Kason and I made the decisions we did together despite the attitude you fed us. And you have to accept that.”
“How the hell could you let this happen? Don’t you know what condoms are?” he exclaimed.
“It’s not anyone’s fault. I missed taking my pills a few days because I was wrapped up in the parties and the reunions and the whirlwind romance of it all. I was headstrong about having a child whether or not the father stuck around, and during all of this I realized the beautiful human being Kason had grown to be. I’ve gotten to know him, Marcus. Really know him. Then, just as I was getting my head out of the clouds, I realized the mistake I’d made. Before I knew it, I went to go take my pill and I was four days behind.”
“Jesus, Hanna!”
“Marcus, just listen for once,” I said. “I took all four of them the moment I realized what had happened, but I did that because I knew how you would react. I did that because Kason and I had an agreement. An agreement for me to stay on my pill and keep using protection so we wouldn’t wind up in this situation. And I failed him. And it killed me when I realized I had. I was hoping it would sort of work like the Plan B pill, but all it did was make me sick.”
I sighed, and Marcus pulled his hand from mine. It was true. All of it. Kason had gone from a man I wanted to get pregnant with to a man I’d grown to respect. He really was a gentleman. He took me to dinner and found a way for me to open up, and by my willingness to open up he was able to convince me to simply keep enjoying him. He showed me it was possible to cultivate the type of trust and love two people needed in order to be dedicated enough to raise a child, and I believed him.
I believed him when he told me he was sticking around, and I believed him when he told me he would do whatever it took to protect me and this child.
Before I could reach out and grab for him again—to pull my brother back to me and try to convince him to understand-- he scooted closer to me and put his arm around my back.
“They made you sick?” he asked in a low voice.
“Yes,” I said. “Very.”
“Why didn’t you come talk to me?” he asked.
“Because you were too busy sniffing us out and yelling at us every time Mom brought up me having kids.”
“I just…can’t get over the fact that you slept with my best friend. I mean, there’s like, what, a decade’s difference in age?”
“Twelve years,” I said.
“Great,” he murmured.
“Marcus, to be honest? I’ve always had a thing for Kason. He’s always been very attractive and he was always around and I didn’t stand a chance. Every time he came back with a little bit more muscle, it just revived—”
“All right,” Marcus said as he held up his hand. “That’s enough of that.”
“I care about Kason, Marcus. He’s a good man,” I said.
“So, you’re really keeping this baby?” he asked.
“I’m not a little girl anymore, Marc. And you need to stop
treating me like one.”
“Then you need to start acting like an adult. You need to talk to Kason and figure out what the hell he’s going to—”
“I already have.” I grinned. “We’ve already talked and come up with a plan. I believe it’s you who’s dodging all his calls.”
I knew from the look on his face that I had backed him into a corner. Yes, he’d been blindsided, but I was now pregnant when I no longer had any intentions to be. This hadn’t been planned even if it had once been planned before, and I needed someone to try and understand the situation before Kason and I left for San Francisco.
“And you’re sure you just want to…toss everything away? Your med school plans? Your future career? Anesthesiology? All of it?”
“I’m not sure why you have it in your head that a mother can’t go to med school, but I have thought about this, yes.”
“It’s going to be hard, Hanna,” he said.
“But not impossible, and you talk like it is.” I put my hand on his arm, and he pulled me in for a hug. It felt so good to have my brother hug me after everything that had happened. I broke down sobbing on his shoulder. He rubbed my back and tried to calm me down, and once I had collected myself, I sat back and he took my hand.
“I can do this. I’m going to finish my degree online, and the great thing about online courses is that I can get all the work turned in before I have the baby. I’ll graduate and work as Kason’s secretary while taking care of the baby until I’m comfortable enough with a nanny coming in, and then I can go to med school. Yes, it’ll be hard, but with Kason’s support and your support, I’ll be all right.”
