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by Roger Bruner




  © 2011 by Roger E. Bruner.

  Print ISBN 978-1-60260-962-4

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  All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced or transmitted for commercial purposes, except for brief quotations in printed reviews, without written permission of the publisher.

  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. Any similarity to actual people, organizations, and/or events is purely coincidental.

  Words to the poem “Sacrifice,” p. 29, and song lyrics for “God (Who) Never Stops Loving You,” p. 345 written by Roger Bruner. Used by permission.

  Published by Barbour Publishing, Inc., P.O. Box 719, Uhrichsville, Ohio 44683, www.barbourbooks.com

  Our mission is to publish and distribute inspirational products offering exceptional value and biblical encouragement to the masses.

  Printed in the United States of America.

  Table of Contents

  Act I

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Act II

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41

  Chapter 42

  Chapter 43

  Chapter 44

  Chapter 45

  Chapter 46

  Chapter 47

  Chapter 48

  Chapter 49

  Chapter 50

  Act III

  Chapter 51

  Chapter 52

  Chapter 53

  Chapter 54

  Chapter 55

  Chapter 56

  Chapter 57

  Chapter 58

  Chapter 59

  Chapter 60

  Chapter 61

  Chapter 62

  Chapter 63

  Chapter 64

  Epilogue

  chapter one

  Act 1

  Kim! Look out!”

  Aleesha’s scream almost gave me a heart attack as it split the early afternoon lull and reverberated throughout the Skyfly Departures Terminal at San Diego International Airport.

  Before I could figure out what I was supposed to look out for, my feet started sliding gracelessly across the floor. Was this one of those California earthquakes I’d heard so much about?

  But how could it be when I seemed to be the only object shaking or moving?

  As I teetered and tottered to maintain my balance, I felt like a pedestrian who’d stepped on an unexpected patch of icy sidewalk … and never stopped sliding.

  I didn’t have a chance to think about protecting the arm I’d broken in Mexico a couple of weeks earlier. I was too concerned with not breaking my neck this time.

  Just as I stopped skating out of control and started regaining my stability, I made the mistake of shifting my weight the tiniest bit. That motion offset my center of gravity just enough to make both feet shoot out from under me. Although Aleesha had gotten close enough to grasp my unbroken arm, she couldn’t hold on to it.

  I wish I could say her valiant effort served as a parachute slowing my fall, but truth be known, I probably more closely resembled a jumper whose chute has failed to open.

  From a speeding, out-of-control vertical position to

  splattered flat on the floor in 3.353 seconds. That would be a new record for any accident-prone eighteen-year-old. It was for me.

  “Ow.” Good girl, Kim. No cursing. God cured you of that in Santa María.

  I sat up and wiggled back and forth a time or two to make sure my most important body parts were still working. I focused on the expressions of concerned passersby to keep from having to look at Aleesha’s laughing face.

  As much as my body ached from the fall, this accident didn’t match bashing my head on a rock the first night in Santa María or breaking my arm the next day when I caught my toe in the cuff of my flared trousers and fell off the first rung of a short ladder. This spill had probably only added a bruised bottom—not a broken one—to my ever-lengthening list of minor mishaps.

  Although I was too sore, too shocked, and too aggravated to blush with embarrassment, I could feel that same quantity of blood flooding the surface of my face with righteous anger.

  “Stupid kids must’ve dropped dice or marbles on the floor,” I said under my breath, half-afraid their parents would overhear and cuss me out for stepping on their children’s toys. Parents could be strange the way they defended careless children. But only their own.

  I ought to know. Mom and Dad spent long years doing that for me before forcing me to take some responsibility for myself. Unfortunately, the lessons had been slow, painful, and not altogether successful.

  I looked around. No parents in sight. No kids, either. Thank You, Lord.

  What was I sitting on, though? It felt familiar. Like … pebbles.

  Giggling for all she was worth, Aleesha pointed to the

  washed-out looking denim tote bag that lay collapsed and lifeless on the floor beside me. Before leaving the village five hours earlier, I’d filled it about a third of the way with pea-sized pebbles.

  I’d planned to hand them out when I told the youth group at church about my mission trip. Our youth director, Pastor Ron, would appreciate the idea, even if no one else did.

  Besides that, authentic Mexican pebbles—I wouldn’t have to admit I hadn’t bought them—were cheaper than bringing everyone souvenirs. As if I’d had that kind of money. Besides, I hadn’t been anywhere that sold souvenirs.

  Except for the airport, that was.

  I had it all worked out in my head. I would talk about trusting God when minor things went wrong and seemed more serious than they were—I’d had plenty of recent experience with that—and I would illustrate by talking about the pebbles under my blanket the first night in the village.

  I looked in the bag. Nothing.

  I turned it inside out. Not one pebble … or one speck of pebble dust. Not even any regular dust. The bag couldn’t have been emptier.

  What it did have, though, was a triangular flap where two intersecting seams had torn—each one maybe two inches long.

  Okay, so maybe I hadn’t quite overcome a lifetime of carelessness during my stay in Santa María. I should’ve known better than to fill that denim tote with ten times as many pebbles as I needed. Each one had looked so tiny by itself. And what an idiot I’d been, making it twice as heavy as I could carry comfortably with my good arm.

  My good friend Neil had offered to help me with it—bless his heart!—but I figured anybody as scrawny looking as him wasn’t apt to be much stronger than I was. Besides, I’d already loaded him down with my other stuff. None of the other 143

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m members had brought four suitcases of items they didn’t need.

  Fortunately for Neil, I’d left as much stuff in Santa María as I could. Skyfly Airlines might legitimately charge me for an excess number of bags, but they couldn’t claim my luggage was overweight.

  Not this time.

  I’d half-carried, half-dragged the denim bag across the street and bumped it up onto the curb to get it into the building. Because my left arm was already killing me, I decided to try pushing the bag with my feet.

  My shoes had a slight point, though, and I might have pushed my cargo a little harder and faster than necessary. Truth be known, after making very little progress urging the bag forward with gentleness, I developed a good working rhythm kicking it with all my might.

  I didn’t notice the hole in the tote or the pebbles leaking out like spring water dribbling down a rocky mountainside. Then an extra good kick sent the bag scooting ten feet ahead of me, turning the dribble into Niagara Falls and carrying me along with it.

  Okay, so I should have noticed the bag getting light, lighter, lightest. I couldn’t have kicked it that far otherwise.

  But I hadn’t caught on yet. I thought I’d simply perfected my technique.

  So much for pebble-based preaching. Once again, God had used a Kim-tastrophe to teach me a lesson. He just hadn’t revealed yet what it was.

  “You looked silly trying to prance on those pebbles, girl,” Aleesha said somewhere between the chuckles and the guffaws. “I’ll have to teach you to do that right.”

  Her black face radiated the joy of her relationship with a Savior whose friendship meant even more to her than mine

  did, and that’s saying a lot. Our biracial sisterhood worked beautifully because Jesus was the most important person in my life, too.

  I was trying to make Him most important, anyhow. Especially after going on this mission trip and being reminded once more that the world didn’t revolve around me.

  “I could’ve done a fancy dance on those pebbles of yours,” Aleesha said as she reached down to help me up. “Come on, girl. Let’s get moving before the cleanup crew follows the pebble trail, catches up, and blames me.”

  I gave her a playful frown and then glanced back over my shoulder. She might have been teasing about blame, but two fellows with huge brooms and tiny dustpans were closing in fast. They were still maybe forty-five yards back, though. I couldn’t tell at that distance if they looked angry or just disgusted, and I didn’t plan to stick around and find out.

  I looked at Aleesha and held an arm out. Pull me up, would you?

  “No, girl.” She snorted. “Not that one.” I lowered my broken arm, and she rolled her eyes and shook her head. She might as well have added, “You dodo.” But she wasn’t like that.

  I held up the other arm, and she grasped it firmly. She was nonstop giggles as she uh-ed and oh-ed, pretending to struggle hard to pull petite, lightweight me to my feet. We stepped carefully to avoid any remaining pebbles and then took off running in the opposite direction from the pebble sweepers.

  I had no idea what Aleesha meant about doing a “fancy dance,” but I didn’t doubt her dancing abilities—on pebbles or anywhere else.

  “Anybody …” She looked at me and hesitated. “Anybody who’s halfway coordinated, that is, can dance on a good, clean surface. And any uncoordinated fool—nothing personal, girl—is

  certain to slip and fall on an unstable one.”

  I shrugged. She had me pegged accurately, even though I couldn’t imagine where she was going with this monologue.

  “But if someone can prance or dance on a loose surface”—she stopped to look back at the pebbles that had led to my, uh, downfall—”a layer of those little roly-poly critters, for example, she must be …” She paused and finished her sentence in the exaggerated, dignified tone of a famous actor-to-be. “She must be exceedingly talented.” A grin lit up her face. “Like me.”

  I looked at her with all the doubt I could muster. After two weeks of listening to her make the impossible sound not only plausible, but effortless, that was tough. I waited for her to laugh, but she didn’t.

  “So,” I said, “you’re saying African-Americans like you can prance on pebbles better than skinny white girls like me?”

  We both giggled. No two people could have had more fun coming up with outrageous, nonexistent racial differences.

  “Not at all, my dear Miss Kim. I’m saying we folks of color only prance on pebbles when no one else is around. We wouldn’t want word to get out that a few of us are just as uncoordinated as you.”

  I smirked.

  “Girl …” Her face softened the way it did when she was about to say something especially meaningful. Her dark brown eyes peered into mine as if she was looking for something, and she smiled as if she’d found it. “I was just messing with your head about ‘prancing on pebbles.’”

  I smiled.

  “Physically, that is,” she said. “But my dad talks a lot about something he calls a ‘Season of Pebbles.’ He says all Christians have them sooner or later, and I believe him.”

  “Huh?”

  I’d never heard of a “Season of Pebbles,” and Aleesha’s

  reference to her father as an active, ongoing presence in her life caught me off guard. She’d barely mentioned him before. So much for thinking I’d outgrown all of my racial stereotypes.

  “The worst troubles, problems, and challenges in life … they’re all pebbles that can make you fall. They’re peskier than real ones, though. Peskier, more dangerous, and almost too numerous to count at times. During a time of prolonged difficulties—”

  “A ‘Season of Pebbles’?”

  She nodded. “Those pebbles are there, ready to trip a Christian morally, emotionally, and spiritually. So ‘prancing on pebbles’ means ‘depending on God to stay upright.’” She paused, apparently giving her explanation additional thought.

  “More than upright, though. Prancing suggests forward motion. No matter how unbalanced you feel. So to take it to a deeper level, ‘prancing on pebbles’ means demonstrating the real meaning of ‘Victory in Jesus.’” She began humming the familiar hymn.

  “Like overcoming my problems in Santa María, you mean?”

  “Kim, as irritating as those things were, they were nothing compared to what I’m talking about. You never came close to falling there.”

  She smirked, and I chuckled.

  “Well,” she said, “except for the time you actually fell down.”

  “I’m not expecting anything major to happen for a while. No pebbles for me. I think God’s going to let me rest up from Santa María and live a normal life for a while.”

  “I hope you’re right, girlfriend,” she said as we hugged good-bye.

  chapter two

  Come on, Mom. Answer your cell phone.

  I was exhausted. My mother couldn’t pick me up soon enough. She thought Atlanta’s Hartsfield International Airport might have a cell phone waiting lot where people could park and stay in the car until a newly arrived friend or family member called to say she was waiting. That was supposed to lessen the congestion at Hourly Parking, not to mention saving the picker-upper a bit of cash. Great idea.

  Mom, I’m dying to tell you all about my trip. You won’t believe how much I’ve changed. I’ve really grown up.

  After spending the last of my change on a handcart, I piled it high with my four suitcases—and that well-worn denim tote bag a teammate had given me in Santa María. I’d have to use the bag for my object lesson instead of the lost pebbles. Unable to see around my pile of luggage, I kept my eyes on the overhead sign pointing to Passenger Pickup as I worked my way through the crowd.

  Okay, Mom, I’m ready and waiting. I’d tell you that if you’d just answer. So where are you? Don’t tell me you were wrong about the cell phone lot and you had to find a place in Hourly Parking. Dad will really razz you about that.

  Maybe I’d help him. That could be part of my “learn to get along better wi
th Dad” campaign. Wouldn’t that surprise him?

  Or—more likely—shock him. Mom and I usually sided with one another in disagreements with Dad.

  I hoped I could stay awake until she got here, though. Sure, I

  could put the passenger seat back and sleep the whole way home if I wanted to. Mom would understand. She’d probably expect it.

  But I had too much to tell her. I wouldn’t be able to sleep. Not for a while.

  Mom, I’ve matured so much since you last saw me. My two weeks in tiny Santa María have changed me totally, and responsibility is my new middle name. Isn’t that great? And won’t Dad be thrilled to see the positive changes?

  I snapped my fingers. I knew what I could do. Offer to drive. Mom hated Atlanta traffic, especially at and near the airport. Consideration like that would blow her mind. Of course, she’d realize I wasn’t in any shape to be behind the wheel of a car, but she’d appreciate the thought nonetheless. Yes, I’d offer to drive home.

  If Dad hadn’t surprised me by changing my flight to a nonstop, I’d probably be killing time at Dallas/Fort Worth now. He’d sounded genuinely disappointed about not being able to drive Mom to the airport, but he didn’t think he should postpone today’s meeting with the president of the university.

  Getting an appointment with Dr. Cutshaw sometimes took days, even for a tenured English professor like my father, and Dad’s need must have been too important to risk a delay. I hoped they were discussing something good. Something that would please Dad. He needed more joy in his life.

  Learning how much he looked forward to seeing me was sweet, though. I’d never seen much of his affectionate side until I called home about my broken arm. After that, he left several voice messages saying how much he loved me. Not only had I saved them, but they’d also already made me cry eight or ten times.

  Today.

  Dad and I were going to get along great now. I could feel it. How could God fail to bless such a righteous undertaking as

  drawing my family closer together?

  Mom, come on. My calls keep falling through to voice mail after the fourth ring. You can’t be on the line with somebody else, or I’d get your voice mail greeting on the first ring. Isn’t your phone working? Or has my phone flaked out?

 

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