by Brian Moore
The Doctor’s
Wife
Brian Moore
Farrar, Straus and Giroux • New York
Copyright © 1976 by Brian Moore
All rights reserved
First printing, 1976
Printed in the United States of America
Designed by Cynthia Krupat
Library of Congress Cataloging in Publication Data
Moore, Brian. / The doctor’s wife. / I. Title.
PZ4.M81QDOC3 / [PR6063.06] / 813’.5’4
76-21294
For Jean
The Doctor’s
Wife
Prelude
• The plane from Belfast arrived on time, but when the passengers disembarked there was a long wait for baggage. “This plane is full seven days a week,” said a chap who stood beside Dr. Deane watching the first suitcases jiggle down the conveyor belt. “It’s the best-paying run in the whole of the British Isles,” the chap said. Dr. Deane nodded: he was not a great one for conversation with strangers. He saw his soft canvas bag come down the ramp looking a bit worn at the edges, and no wonder. It had been a wedding present from his fellow interns twenty years ago. He picked up the bag, went outside, and took the bus to Terminal II to catch the twelve o’clock flight to Paris. It was raining here in London. It had been very blustery when he left home this morning, but the weather forecast had predicted clear skies over the southeastern part of the British Isles. In the airport lounge, after being ticketed and cleared, he decided to have a small whiskey. It was early in the day, but he thought of the old Irish licensing law. A bona fide traveler is entitled to a drink outside normal hours.
On his way to the bar, Dr. Deane stopped at the newsstand and, after browsing, bought the Guardian and a copy of Time magazine. He then went and stood, a tall lonely figure, at the long modern bar. “John Jameson you said, sir?” the barman asked, and found the bottle. When Dr. Deane saw the amount of liquid poured in the glass, he remembered that he was in England. “Better make that a double,” he said.
“A double, very good, sir.”
He tasted the whiskey. Over the intercom a voice announced flights to Stockholm, Prague, and Moscow. He still found it odd to think that people could walk out of this lounge and get on planes for places which, to him, were just names in the newspaper. When he had finished his whiskey, he took two Gelusil tablets. He had ulcers, a family ailment, had had two bleeds over the years, and was supposed to be careful. Lately, he had been the opposite. Of course everyone at home drank more these days. It was to be expected.
When his flight was called, he was one of the first to board the bus that took the passengers out to the waiting aircraft. On the bus, he unbuttoned his fly-front raincoat, revealing a green tweed suit, a yellow shirt, and a green tie. The colors made his face seem failed and gray. His wife liked to choose his clothes for him. She had no taste. He knew this, but did not argue with her. He was fonder of peace than she.
Ahead, like wound-up toys, a line of planes crawled toward the takeoff point. Dr. Deane watched a huge American jet begin its lift-off into the rain-filled sky and wondered if he himself were taking off in the wrong direction. And then, with a rush of engines, his own plane was airborne and he was watching the English countryside below. If you could call it countryside. So many more houses and roads and people than at home. Fifty million on this island and less than five million in all of Ireland.
The plane came through rain and cloud to the clear skies predicted in that morning’s forecast and, after a while, the stewardesses came around selling cigarettes and drinks. He ordered a Haig and noted that, duty free, it cost a quarter of what he had paid for the Jameson in the airport bar. Unbuckling his seat belt, he lifted the glass, looking at the pale yellow of the Scotch. His wife was dead against his making this trip, needle in a haystack, wild-goose chase, all the clichés she had in that head of hers. He had warned her to tell nobody, but perhaps that was asking more than she had in her. He looked down, saw that the plane was already over water, and craned his head back trying to catch a glimpse of the white cliffs of Dover. The stewardesses were coming up the aisle again, bringing trays of cold lunch. He thought of the letter that had turned up in Paris two days ago, a letter from the American, addressed to Sheila, in care of Peg Conway. His tachycardia began. It’s just nerves, my heart’s all right. I’m all right. I’m going over to see Peg and to talk to that priest. To see what I can find out.
The stewardess leaned in from the aisle holding a plastic tray on which were a plate of cold meat, a cream puff, and a green salad. “Are you having luncheon, sir?”
Dr. Deane did not feel hungry but there was his ulcer to be fed. He accepted the tray.
•
Peg Conway, a small woman, came in again from the front hall of her flat to stand like a child before Dr. Deane’s lonely height. Old-fashioned, he had risen from the sofa as she re-entered the living room. “Please don’t get up,” she reassured him. “Here it is.”
Dr. Deane turned the letter over in his hands, noting the American airmail stamps, the address to which it had been sent:
MME SHEILA REDDEN
C/O CONWAY
29 QUAI SAINT-MICHEL
PARIS, 75005
FRANCE
Faire suivre, s.v.p.—
Urgent. Please forward
And the address from which it had been sent:
T. LOWRY
PINE LODGE
RUTLAND, VERMONT 05701
U.S.A.
“You’ll see that it was posted in Vermont on the second. That’s four days after they were supposed to leave Paris.”
Dr. Deane lowered himself back down on the worn brown velvet sofa. He tapped the envelope on his knee.
“Why don’t you open it?” Peg said.
He smiled nervously, and looked at the letter again. “Ah, no, I don’t think I should do that. It wouldn’t be right.”
“It’s an emergency, after all.”
“I know.”
“Look,” Peg said. “She’s supposed to be in America. Well, is she? Look at the date on the envelope. If he wrote her that letter, it means they’re no longer together.”
“Not necessarily.” Dr. Deane lit a Gauloise from a crumpled pack. “She might have got cold feet that night, then joined him later.”
“After the letter was posted?”
“Exactly.” He inhaled and blew smoke through his nose.
“I thought doctors didn’t smoke nowadays.”
“I backslid.”
“So, what’s your next move?”
“I was thinking,” Dr. Deane said. “It’s just possible she’s with him now, at that address in Vermont. I might try ringing her up.”
“You mean, ring up America? That Pine Lodge place?”
“Yes.”
“You’d rather do that than open the letter?”
“Yes.”
“Well, all right, then,” Peg said. “It’s an idea. Look, I’ll go and get supper started. That way you won’t be disturbed if you do reach Sheila. The phone’s over there.”
“I’ll find out the charges on the call, of course.”
“Don’t worry about that.”
He stood up as she left, then heard her shut the kitchen door with a loud noise, indicating that he would not be overheard. A big tabby cat came stalking in from the hall, arching its back, then leaning against his trouser leg. He looked again at the address on the envelope, and went to the desk where the phone was. Through Peg’s French windows he could see the Seine far below, winding through the city; to his left, the floodlit spire of the Sainte-Chapelle behind the law courts, and, downriver, the awesome, sepulchral façade of Notre-Dame. To look out at a view like this, so different from any view at home, to pick up the tel
ephone and speak words which would be carried by undersea cable to that huge continent he had never seen. It was as though he were not living his own life but acting in some film, a detective hunting for a missing person or, more likely, a criminal seeking to make amends to his victim. And now, dialing, and talking to an international operator, within a minute he heard a number ring, far away, clear and casual as though he were phoning someone just down the street.
“Pine Lodge,” an American voice said.
“I have a person-to-person call from Paris, France,” the operator said. “For a Mrs. Sheila Redden.”
“I’m sorry, we don’t have anyone registered by that name.”
Dr. Deane cut in. “Do you have a Mr. Tom Lowry there?”
“Sir, hold on, do you want to make that person-to-person to Mr. Lowry instead?” his operator asked.
“Yes, please.”
“Thank you. Hello, Vermont? Do you have a Mr. Tom Lowry there, please?”
“Okay, hold on,” the American voice said. “Tom? Paris! Take it on two.”
“Hello”—a voice, young, very excited.
“Mr. Lowry, I’m Sheila’s brother and I’m calling from Peg Conway’s flat in Paris. My name is Owen Deane.”
“Oh.” The voice went cold. “Yes?”
“I’ve been trying to get in touch with Sheila. I want to talk to her about some money I’m supposed to send her. Is she there?”
There was a moment’s hesitation. “I’m sorry, I can’t help you.”
“I’m calling because there’s a letter here from you, addressed to Sheila. We thought she was with you. Naturally, we’re worried about her.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Well, look, if you know where she is, would you please pass a message on to her? Would you tell her to ring me collect in Paris at the Hôtel Angleterre? I’ll give you the number.”
“I’m sorry. Goodbye,” the boy’s voice said. The receiver clicked.
Dr. Deane stood, holding the phone, his heart starting up with the tachycardia that had affected him ever since this business had started. He put down the receiver, saw his pale face in the mirror, and, again, thought of what she had said to him that day. Forget me. I’m like the man in the newspaper story, the ordinary man who goes down to the corner to buy cigarettes and is never heard from again. To think it was only four weeks since she came here to Paris to start a perfectly ordinary summer holiday. She came to this flat, she stood in this very room. His eyes searched the mirror as though, behind him, his sister might reappear. But the mirror room gave him back only his own reflection, his Judas face.
Part 1
Chapter 1
• Put your things in the spare room, Peg had written, and make yourself at home, because I won’t be back till six. Sheila Redden let down her heavy suitcase and felt under the carpet runner on the top step of the stairs where Peg’s letter said it would be. She pulled the key out, put it in the lock, and the door opened inward with a groan of its hinges. As she bent again to pick up the suitcase, a big tabby cat bounded past her, skipping into the flat. Would that be Peg’s cat? Mrs. Redden went inside, calling “Puss, Puss,” although Puss wouldn’t mean much to a French cat, she supposed. Weren’t French cats called Minou? She went into the front hall, still calling “Puss, Puss,” damned cat, but then she saw it, very much at home, lapping water from a cat dish in the kitchen. So that was all right. She took off her coat.
It was quiet here: this far up, the street noises blurred to a distant monotone. In the living room, thinking of the great view there must be, she unlocked the middle set of French windows and stepped out onto the narrow balcony. Below her, the Seine wound among streets filled with history no Irish city ever knew and, as she looked down, from the shadowed underside of the Pont Saint-Michel a sightseeing boat slid into sunlight, tourists massed on its broad deck staring up in her direction. If they saw her, she would seem to them to be some rich French woman living here in luxury, right opposite the Ile Saint-Louis. The sightseeing boat slid sideways, as though it had lost its rudder, but then, righting itself, went off toward Notre-Dame in a churn of dirty brown water. Mrs. Redden leaned out over the iron railing to look down six floors to the street, where white-aproned waiters, tiny as the bridegroom figurines on a wedding cake, hurried in and out among sidewalk tables. Into her mind came the view from her living room at home. The garden: brick covered with English ivy, Belfast’s mountain, Cave Hill, looming over the top of the garden wall, its promontories like the profile of a sleeping giant, face upward to the gray skies. Right opposite her house was the highest point of the mountain, the peak called Napoleon’s Nose. She thought of that now, staring out at Napoleon’s own city. L’Empereur on his white charger Marengo, riding into the Place des Invalides, triumphant after Austerlitz; clatter of hoofbeats on cobblestones, silken pennants, braided gold lanyards, fur shakos, the Old Guard. Napoleon’s Nose. And this. She stepped inside again, closing the big windows, going to the front hall to get her suitcase. But then—it put the heart across her—heard someone moving about inside the flat.
Burglars. Or worse? Ever since the bomb in the Aber-corn, anything at all made her jump. She stood mouse quiet, listening, until, oh, God, thank God, she saw who it was. A girl moving about in the spare room.
“Did I scare you?” the girl asked, discovering Mrs. Redden and the look on Mrs. Redden’s face.
“No, not at all.”
The girl, a Yank by the sound of her, had on blue jeans and a peasant blouse you could see through. A big backpack sat open in the middle of the spare room. The girl picked up a comb, a hairbrush, and some makeup things. “I was supposed to be out of here an hour ago, but I got tied up on the phone. You’re Peg’s friend from Belfast, right?”
“That’s right, yes.”
“I’m Debbie Rush.”
“Sheila Redden,” Mrs. Redden said, and there was one of those pauses.
“So,” the girl said. “How are things in Belfast?”
“Oh, the usual.”
“It must be rough, right? Are they ever going to settle that mess?”
Mrs. Redden smiled what she hoped was a friendly smile. Yanks. Kevin had an American aunt who was over on a visit from Boston last summer: she would wear you, that one. Of course, this girl probably worked with Peg. That would be it.
“I guess you’ve just got to get the British out of there,” the girl said.
Mrs. Redden did not honor this with an answer. “Do you work in the office with Peg?” she asked.
“At Radio Free Europe?” The girl began to laugh. “No way. I’m a friend of Tom Lowry’s. He’s a friend of Peg’s and, when there was a foul-up on my charter flight home, he spoke to her and—she’s really nice—she let me crash here until you came.”
At once Mrs. Redden felt guilty. “I’m putting you out, then?”
“No, no, it’s all right. I’m going to a hotel tonight and tomorrow I get a flight, I hope.” The girl hoisted the backpack, wrestling it onto her back. Her breasts stood out under the sheer blouse. Mrs. Redden helped straighten the backpack on the girl’s shoulders.
“Oh, thanks,” the girl said. “I’m glad I’m going downstairs, not up. How about those stairs?”
“Good for the figure,” Mrs. Redden said.
“Yes, right.” The girl, gripping her backpack straps, turned and marched like a soldier into the hall. Mrs. Redden hurried to open the front door. “Well, it was nice meeting you,” the girl decided.
“I’m sorry to be putting you out like this.”
“No, no, have a nice vacation. See you.”
Mrs. Redden, holding the door open—she didn’t want to close it until the girl had gone, it would seem rude— watched the blond head bobbing down and around and down and around, until the staircase was empty.
•
Four hours later, when Mrs. Redden and Peg Conway were celebrating their reunion with dinner at La Coupole, two homosexuals, coming through the restaurant, stopped, stared at Mrs. Redden,
whispered to each other, then bowed to her in an elaborate manner.
“You don’t know them, surely?” Peg asked.
“No, of course not.”
“They must have taken you for someone else.”
“Or maybe they think I’m a man dressed up in a frock.”
Peg laughed. “You’re mad, why would they think that?”
“On account of my height. The way I stick up out of this banquette.”
“When are you going to get over that notion about your height?”
“You never get over it,” Mrs. Redden said.
“Speaking of queers”—Peg Conway began to laugh again—”I wonder what ever happened to Fairy Rice?”
“Wasn’t he the end?” They laughed together, remembering: he had been a fellow student at Queen’s who wore a sweater as long as a short dress and sat in the front row at lectures, polishing his fingernails with a chamois nail buffer. “His old mum died,” Mrs. Redden said. “I saw the death notice in the Belfast Telegraph a couple of years ago.”
“Do you remember her haunting the Students’ Union, waiting to give him his lunch in a picnic basket?”
They laughed.
“I heard he went to England,” Mrs. Redden said.
“Fairy did?”
“I think so.”
“Tell me,” Peg said. “Have you and Kevin ever thought of emigrating?”
“Oh, Kevin would never leave Belfast.”
“Why not?”
“It would mean starting all over, working up a new practice. Besides, he never wants to travel. It’s taken me two years to get him to join me on this holiday in Villefranche.”
“I remember he used to like a good time, though,” Peg said. “The races, do you remember?” As she said it, she saw him, Sheila’s big lump of a husband, standing in the members’ enclosure at the Curragh, a reserved-stand tag in his buttonhole, lifting his field glasses to look down the track.
