It’s not Jeremy.
My heart thrashes out a nervous beat in my chest.
“Paul, what are you doing here?”
Suddenly I’m on the verge of tears, and I feel really stupid for getting emotional. I hold it in the best I can but my chin is quivering and tears warp my vision.
He’s wearing a gray pullover, worn jeans with holes in the knees, and boots. He looks so. Fucking. Good.
Hands in his pockets, he asks, “Can I come in for a minute?”
I steel myself with a deep breath and try to regain some composure as I open the door for him. He smells like coconut again when he passes me, and something else that I can’t quite place, but it’s so distinctly Paul that I get wobbly from wanting. It’s as if I were cast from a Jell-o mold. He wanders over to the couch, patting the seat next to him. I sit down and chew a corner of my thumbnail.
“I’m sorry for leaving so abruptly the other night,” he says. He sounds upset and maybe a bit sad. I want to comfort him because I’m feeling those things too. Only, there’s a touch of anger mixed in with those emotions that keeps me from wrapping him in a hug.
My foot bobs. I chew on the inside of my cheek; a nervous habit that sometimes leaves the skin raw and sore. I’m sad that he left, but I’m also mad that he left me hanging there like an idiot.
“Why did you leave?” I ask, words outlined in anger. He flinches and looks at his hands.
He has the decency to look ashamed. “Several reasons. One, I’m too old for you, and two, you’re my best friend’s daughter. Your dad has been there for me through every part of my life. We didn’t have the best upbringing. All we had was each other. When we got older your mom and dad paid for my contractor’s license when I was just starting out even though your dad was barely making minimum wage and taking care of a teen wife and an infant. How do you think they’d feel if they knew I was falling for their daughter? I’ve watched you grow up.”
He’s obviously struggling, and I don’t want to be the cause of his inner turmoil, but can’t help cling to the words I’ve been dying to hear. My voice wavers when I say, “Okay, one, I decide who’s too old for me, and two … you’re falling for me?”
He closes his eyes, leans back against the couch, and puts his hands in his hair. “Why do you think I moved away? I was falling hard and fast for someone I didn’t dare pursue. I had to get out of town as fast as possible before it was too late.”
I clutch my stomach, feeling as if I’d just dropped from a precipice I’d been hanging onto by my fingertips. “I thought you moved to be with another woman.”
His eyes flutter open and he looks at the ceiling, avoiding eye-contact with me. “The only woman I want to be with is you.” He reaches over, moves the hair off my shoulder, and runs a finger down my arm, making me shiver. “I’ve been sitting in your parking lot for an hour, trying to build up the courage to tell you that. When I saw you kissing that kid …” he swallows hard and clenches his teeth, the muscle rippling along his jawline. “It took all I had inside of me not to get out of my truck and pummel him. I don’t think I can bear to ever see you with anyone else.”
My heart jackhammers so loud and furious I can barely hear my own thoughts. I climb onto his lap, straddling his waist. “I don’t want to ever be with anyone else.”
I rock my hips against him. He holds onto my legs, lifting his groin to apply more pressure. I gasp at the sensation. We grind together, finding the rhythm that nearly sends me over the edge.
With one swift, effortless move, he lifts both of us off the couch. I wrap my legs around his waist and hold on, sucking on his ear lobe and kissing his neck as he carries me to my room. The bedside lamp is on. Normally, during sex, I’m more of a lights off kind of girl, but I want to watch this, witness the coupling I’ve been dreaming about since puberty. I’ve imagined this moment with him since I started masturbating and now I want to watch it all play out in real time, not missing a single moment.
He sets me down gently on the bed and climbs on top of me, propping himself on his elbows to hover over me. A lock from the coif of his hair hangs down, dangling between us. I reach up to smooth it back. His finger traces the curve of my cheek and chin.
I try to memorize everything about him, the strip of gray in the stubble under his lip, the slight downturn of his nose, the way one of his eyebrows sits just a little higher than the other. I want to hold onto it forever. The scar cutting into his left eyebrow, the slight lines around his eyes, and my god, those eyes. I’ve heard people compare him to Gerard Butler with Bradly Cooper eyes. Right now I can kind of see it.
“Your skin is so soft.” His low voice is just above a whisper. He kisses the corner of my mouth. “And you taste so good.” The way his lips just barely graze mine sends chills through me. We’re hardly touching and yet I feel him in every part of me. “I haven’t been able to stop thinking about how wet you got the night of your birthday. You smelled so sweet on my fingers. I’m dying to taste you.”
His words and the slow, sensuality of his voice opens a faucet inside of me and soaks my panties. It’s as if his words are a spell and he’s conjuring it out of me. I can’t take it anymore. Reaching up, I grab the sides of his face and push my lips against him. His mouth is so much bigger than mine and he’s forceful and demanding when he kisses me back. Though I’m no delicate flower, I feel dwarfed beneath him. Knowing that he can take whatever he wants from me, fold me in any which way he chooses, has me all kinds of wet.
I nibble and suck at his bottom lip, then bite him just a little. He lets out a lecherous grunt, and smiles hungrily around my wanting busy mouth as he grips the hem of my tank top, yanking it up and off of me.
He breaks away from our kiss to look me over. I’m not wearing a bra, which is unfortunate, because it would be one more thing to tease him with. That small disappointment is soon forgotten as his fingers tickle my stomach, bumping over my ribs up to my breasts. He kneads at them affectionately. Squeezing my nipple between his fingers, he sends a bolt of lightning through my bellybutton and deep into my groin. I don’t know if I’ve ever been this wet for anyone else before. This is just what Paul does to me.
As he sucks, pulling nearly the entirety of my small breast into his mouth, my eyes roll back in my head. I fist the sheets as his hands roam to the waistband of my shorts. He pulls them down to my ankles and with a flick of my foot, I kick them the rest of the way off. His exploration leads to the sensitive skin of my inner thigh. I spread my legs further apart, as far as they can go, opening myself up to give him plenty of access. He runs a wide, blunt-tipped finger over the wet fabric of my black lace panties.
As I relax into his capable hands, a surge of lubricant flows from me. He toys with the fabric edge around my legs before moving it to the side, exposing my pink, swollen folds.
He lets out an appreciative sound and says, “God, you have the prettiest little pussy I’ve ever seen.”
I gasp as he pushes a finger into me and then another, slow at first, then feverishly, causing delicious, sucking noises. He hooks his middle finger at the perfect angle to massage my most tender spot.
This is a man who knows his way around a female body.
Arching my back, he pushes his fingers deeper inside of me. I crave release, but before I get there he slips his fingers out, taking hold of my panties, ripping them off. He drops to his knees, pulling me toward him so my ass is hanging off the bed. He pushes my legs up, so that my knees are resting on either side of my face. With a flat tongue, he massages the sides of my clit without touching the too-sensitive mound—a trick the other men in my life couldn’t seem to learn. He’s not in any hurry. He’s here to please me, unlike my last boyfriend who’d been afraid of my vagina, having no idea what to do with it. No matter what I taught him, he continued to be in and out, only caring about himself.
Paul’s tongue dips in and out of my opening. I raise my head to see what I can. All these years, picturing him between my legs and finally, he’s rig
ht there. It’s better than anything I imagined. The way he touches me, the feel of his skin against mine, it’s all so real, as if I’m experiencing everything for the first time.
He pulls back to catch his breath, a string of my wetness and his saliva linking us together. He licks his lips, breaking the connection. His respite lasts only a second before he’s diving back in for more, lapping at my labia like a starving man. I hold my breath when his tongue moves further down my crevice, to my asshole. At first I think it’s a mistake, and that he didn’t mean to do that, but his eyes are open and he knows exactly where his tongue is and what he’s doing.
I suck in a surprised breath. Wasn’t expecting that. Luckily I’m very thorough when I wash.
My first instinct is to stop him. I’ve never had a man’s face down there before, and though his tongue is lush and he’s driving me fucking crazy and I’m more turned on than I’ve ever been in my entire life, I don’t know how to handle this.
“Whoa, wait,” I say, and start to scoot away from him, except he holds me by the legs so I can’t move.
“What’s wrong?” he asks.
“Nothing’s wrong. I just never had anyone’s tongue, there before.”
“It doesn’t feel good?”
“It feels amazing, it’s just … different.”
A lop-sided grin pulls at the corner of his mouth. His face inches closer and closer to me, tongue slowly extending from his mouth until the tip just barely touches my asshole again, sending shockwaves through me.
“I could stop, if you want,” he says.
I open my mouth to speak, but then he does something with his tongue that melts my brain and makes me forget everything I was about to say.
“Relax,” he says. Our eyes meet. God, he’s gorgeous. He strokes the insides of my thighs and says, “Don’t think about what I’m doing. Don’t think about anything. Just feel it. And if it feels good, let it happen. Trust me.”
I do trust him.
Nodding, I lay my head back and release my muscles from their rigid hold on my limbs and just enjoy him, what he’s doing and Oh. My. God. It’s everything. I had no idea being with someone could feel like this—and we haven’t even had sex yet!
I’m going over the threshold, I realize, and beg him not to stop. He works enthusiastically at my clit with his mouth, and tongue, sucking it between his lips, while two fingers from one hand drills into my pussy and his thumb from his other hand massages the outer ring of my asshole. I’ve never had anyone touch me there before either and I have to admit it feels pretty damn amazing.
I can feel my orgasm coming from a far-away place, rushing toward me at a furious pace until, like an earthquake, it hits me with full force. Sparks of glittery light flash in front of vision, and I’m thoughtless and dumb, temporarily insane, humping Paul’s face as this sensation rocks me to the point of blacking out.
I’m holding my breath the entire time, crying out. I have no idea how loud I’m being or if the neighbors can hear me, and frankly I don’t care because I’ve just been to another planet, another plane of existence.
When my orgasm finally starts to ebb, I’m left useless and shaking. I open my eyes and my vision is blurry. Paul has moved to my side, elbow crooked, resting his head in his palm and watching me with a teasing smile. “You okay?” he asks.
I can hardly get words out through my shattered breaths. “Holy shit.”
He laughs, and starts to say something else, but I’m peeling off his shirt and kissing him before he can speak. I can smell myself on his lips and it’s glorious and peachy-tasting, and I lick it up. Though I’d just had a life-altering orgasm and still have ringing in my ears from it, I’m ready for more. This thing, whatever it is that’s happening with me and Paul, it’s dangerous. It’s addictive.
I pull him to his feet, and his smile grows at my eagerness. I kneel before him and hook my fingers into the waistband of his jeans and pull them down to his feet, releasing him. Jesus, he’s big. Bigger than I’d imagined. How the fuck is he still single? This isn’t the type of fish one throws back. This sucker is the one you get stuffed and mounted on the wall to show off and brag about to your friends.
I run my hands up his long, tattooed legs. Gripping his steel-hard cock with both hands, he rolls his head back and lets out an approving groan. I practically have to unhinge my jaw like a snake to fit him into my mouth. Pre-cum drips from the spongy tip and I lick up every salty drop, massaging the cashmere underbelly of his beautiful prick with my tongue.
He holds the sides of my head, fingers wrapped around my ears and pushes deeper into my throat. My eyes water and drool leaks from the corners of my mouth as I swallow him down. As long as I relax my throat he glides in easily and soon he’s fucking my face with vigor and I’m loving every inch of him.
Just when we find our rhythm, he pulls out, and I take a long breath. He takes me by the armpits and hauls me back onto the bed. He kicks off his shoes and socks and climbs onto me. Watching my face, he slides into me, cautious, as if he’s afraid of hurting me. I’m stretched to my limit, but it’s good. Really fucking good.
Slowly, he picks up the pace until he’s using my shoulders for leverage to slam into me. Our skin slaps together with each forward thrust.
I’ve never been noisy in bed. I’ve always been skeptical of those who are. I mean, it can’t be that good, right?
Wrong. So very, very wrong.
Having him inside of me, stretching me, pulsing and aching for me, I can’t help it. I open my mouth and I’m calling out, “Oh, yes, fuck me! Harder, yeah, right there.” I’m making ridiculous noises that, in any other context, would be comical.
The dirtier my words, the more it seems to feed his lust. He flips me over onto my stomach, hips up as if I were a doll that weighs nothing.
He spanks me hard on the ass. I lurch forward and cry out.
“So you want to fuck, huh?” he says, tangling his fingers in my hair.
So he did get the text after all. I was starting to wonder if it went through.
“Yes, please fuck me,” I beg.
He spanks me again and I yelp and smile into my pillow. He’s so possessive in the bedroom. So unlike his normal demeanor and I’m loving this side of him. I can definitely get used to this.
I let out a long, loud moan when he enters me from behind. It’s always been my favorite position. The most direct path inside with the least resistance. As he drives into me, the head of his dick presses against my cervix, causing tendrils of pain with pleasure. The blinds are open in my room. I usually close them right before bed. Anyone looking in will see my sex face, but none of that matters to me right now.
The heady scent of sex fills the room, pushing me to the brink. My second orgasm rips through me with hurricane force. As my muscles start to contract around his width, Paul lets out a primal roar and unleashes his warm seed inside of me. We stay that way, locked together for several minutes as we come down. We’re breathing heavily. He’s draped over my back, kissing my spine, and then we collapse. He cradles me in a spooning position. I’m glad he can’t see the ridiculous smile I feel stretching my face.
He strokes my hair with his fingers, untangling the sweaty strands. “That was amazing,” he says.
I turn over to face him. His eyes are hooded, face groggy. “It was more than amazing.”
A stream of cum rolls down my leg and it hits me suddenly that we forgot to use a condom. I mentally make a note to get to the pharmacy in the morning for a morning after pill.
As I kiss his forehead, cheeks, lips, and chin, his eyes meld shut. He pulls me closer to him, and before I know it, I fall asleep in his arms.
4
I wake up the next morning to the droning buzz of my alarm clock. The room is filled with light without the blinds drawn and I’m completely naked. I’m still in the same position I was last night when Paul and I fell asleep together. Trying not to wake him, I peel his arms off of me and slide out of bed.
“Do yo
u have to go?” he mumbles to my back as I put on my robe.
I look over my shoulder at him. He has one eye open and his hair’s a mess. Utterly adorable. “Yeah, I have exams.”
He grumbles and sits up, looking around my room as if he just realized where he was for the first time. “Where’s all your stuff?” he asks.
“What do you mean? What stuff?”
He closes one eye and takes inventory of my belongings. “You have a full-sized bed, a table, and a lamp. Where’s your dresser and all your clothes? There’re no pictures on the walls, or things to decorate and make the space your own. You’re like a tidy homeless person.”
I smile, but he’s right. It’s been so long without acknowledging the things I like that I’ve managed to lose interest in and even forget everything other than school and Paul. “My clothes are in my closet.”
“In that shoe box?” he asks, frowning at my closet that’s just big enough to squeeze a body in. If it were anyone other than Paul I might’ve taken offence.
I shrug. “I don’t need much.”
Truth is, I can’t afford much, and I refuse to have my parents help me—not that they actually would. Even after loans, grants, and scholarships, being a student pays hardly anything at all. My part time job at the coffee shop around the corner from the campus pays just enough to cover utilities and food. I have to keep telling myself that someday, when I have my degree and the job of my dreams, all the struggle will be worth it.
“Hmm,” is all he says.
“I need to go get my shower,” I say, heading for the bathroom.
* * *
I’ve just started washing my hair when the sliding door to the shower opens. Paul steps in behind me, lacing his fingers with mine, and starts to work the shampoo into my scalp. When he’s done he takes my loofa and douses it in my green tea body wash, lathering it up before starting at my shoulders.
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