Betterton, Thomas, 8, 124
Bible, The, 20
Boone, Christopher, 113
Bowie, David, 4–5
Boyle, Charles, 64
Brahms, Johannes, 147
British Empire, 21, 31
Britten, Benjamin, baron, 147
Broad Street, Oxford, 12, 97, 131, 152
Caedmon, 62
Cambridge, University of, 100
canon law, 16, 18–19, 168, 181
Catullus, 12, 19
Central Military Hospital, Prague, 109
Chance, David, 39, 69–70, 78
Charles I, King, 131
Chichester, West Sussex, 127, 143
Christminster, 12, 87–93, 88
Coetzee, J.M., 25, 49
Disgrace, 25
Colvin, Sir Howard, 131
Daily Telegraph, The, 36, 73
Da Vinci, Leonardo, 139
Vitruvian Man, 139
D’Israeli, Isaac, 65
Dobson, Zuleika, 86
Downton Abbey, 166
Dryden, John, 26–27, 101, 111, 128, 151–152, 160–161, 162, 164, 171
sons of, 27
Duncan-Jones, Katherine, 130
Eagle and Child, Oxford, 178
East, Henry, 43, 77, 79–81, 83
Ede & Ravenscroft, Oxford, 83
Edinburgh, University of, 80
Eisner, Didi, 9, 53–54, 77, 98, 104–105, 107, 114, 138
excellence of, 105
Eisner, Hans, 53
Elgar, Sir Edward:
The Dream of Gerontius, 55
Eliot, T.S., 61, 67
English College in Rome, 16, 73, 185
Elizabeth II, Queen, 84
Essen, Odette van, 77, 110
Ferrar, Nicholas, 67
Fielding, Henry:
Tom Jones, 8
Finch, countess of Winchelsea, Anne, 134
Findlay, Mrs, 72
Fogarty, Canon Thomas ‘Dermod’, vii, 3, 16–17, 18–19, 20, 22, 25, 31–41, 43, 44–47, 49–50, 61, 67–68, 69, 71–74, 77, 78, 104, 116, 118, 136–37, 138, 144, 146, 147, 159–160, 163, 165, 171, 177, 180–182
and abuse of the confessional, 20, 28–29, 34, 41–42, 73–74, 147, 171, 185
and Bernard, passim
and the English College at Rome, 16, 73, 185
appearance, 16
death, 137–138
obituary, 165–167
Font-Romeu-Odeillo, France, 75
Fortescue, John, 114, 115, 118, 119
Gipps, Richard, viii, 78, 144ff
email from Stephen Bernard, xi
Gjielo, Ola:
Dark Night of the Soul, 10, 132, 176
O Magnum Mysterium, 10, 21, 74, 132, 148
God, passim
Godchester, Bill, 79, 83
Godolphin, Sidney Godolphin, first earl of, 8, 9
Greek, 49
Green’s, Mayfair, 95
Grenadier, Knightsbridge, 95
Haddon, Mark, 25, 113–114, 127
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night–time, 25, 114, 183
Haggard, H. Rider:
She, 31
Hedge, Jerry, 59
Heyshot, Alice, 86
Hollinghurst, Alan:
The Swimming-Pool Library, 37
Hommes International, 34
Holmes, Sherlock, 114
Hume, David, 86
Ingamells, Andrew, 100, 128
Italy, 54
Jackson, John, 99–100
Jasperson, Pip, 148
Jerome, Sister, 34
John, Mother, 38
Johnson, James, 77, 106–107, 129
Johnson, John, 99
Johnson, Samuel, 64 [sic]
Josephus, 111
Joyce, James, 25, 164
Finnegans Wake, 25
ketamine, 7, 112, 114–120, 154–156; see also Bernard, Stephen Fortescue, John
King Edward VII Hospital, Midhurst, 23
King, William, 64–65
Lamb, Charles, 138, 160
Lamb, Mary, 138
Latin, 17, 18, 19, 32, 44–47, 49, 125, 146, 168, 169, 175
Lawrence, T.E., 52
L’Estrange, Sir Roger, 111
Lintot, Bernard, 13, 66, 77, 101–102, 106, 110–111, 112, 132, 159, 161–162
Little Gidding, Cambridgeshire, 67
Liverpool, 14, 134
London, 63, 80, 134
London Bridge Street, 133
London Gazette, The, 124
Malone, Edmund, 13, 133, 150–152
Malone Society, The, 160
Malory, Sir Thomas, 98
Marlborough, John Churchill, first duke of, 8–9, 68, 125
Martial, 17, 19
Martyrs’ Memorial, Oxford, 10, 130
McFergus, Fergus, 77, 110
Mendelssohn, Felix, 55–56, 175
Michelangelo, 85
Midhurst Grammar School, Midhurst, 23
Midhurst, West Sussex, 28–29, 32–41, 44, 51, 62, 127, 170, 178–179
Mlynar, Karol, 149–153
Moya, Hidalgo, 100
Mulgrave, Sunny, 77, 108–109; see also Normanby, Richard; Normanby, Hattie
Murdoch, Iris, 130
Murphy–O’Connor, Cardinal Cormac (formerly bishop of Arundel and Brighton), 36, 135–158, 185
failings of, 36, 158, 185
Negus, Richard Frederic, 51–53, 54
Newman, Cardinal John Henry, 19, 157
and the ‘English spring’, 157–158, 179
Norfolk, dukes of, 28–29
Normanby, Hattie, 63, 108
Normanby, Richard, 77, 108–109; see also Mulgrave, Sunny; Normanby, Hattie
Nowell, Alexander, 99
Oates, Titus, 26
Old Parsonage Hotel, Oxford, 173, 178
Orwell, George, 165
Oscott, Birmingham, 157
Ovid, 49
Oxford, 24, 59, 63, 102, 118, 124, 127, 128, 129, 130, 133, 156,
Oxford, University of, 10, 14, 41, 42, 48, 50, 53–54, 68, 78, 79, 83–84, 94, 98, 99, 100, 110, 150, 160, 173, 176, 178, 182
Balliol College, 130
Blackwell Hall, Bodleian Library, 50, 76
Bodleian Library, 10, 12–13, 42, 50, 76, 97, 111–112, 121, 124, 129, 132, 133–134, 139, 141, 142, 156, 159, 160, 163, 174, 176, 183,
Brasenose College, 98–100, 101
quincentenary, 100
Christ Church, 51–52, 54, 85, 87, 93, 94, 108, 138
Clarendon Building, 97
Hertford College, 141
St John’s College, 53, 130–131
The Queen’s College, 79
The Taylorian Institute, 178
University College, 40, 100–101, 118
Worcester College, 11–12
Paris, 51, 59, 96–97, 134
Pemberton, R.A., 77, 81–82
Pevsner, Nicolas, 29
Pilsdon Manor, Dorset, 39, 60–61, 67
Pole, Blessed Margaret, 28, 170
Pontius Pilate, 173
Pope, Alexander, 26–27, 74–75, 101–102, 128, 161, 162, 164, 171
Dunciads, 8
The Works of Alexander Pope, 112, 142, 162
Powell, Philip, 100
Prague, 51, 59, 131, 134
Praxiteles, 16
Prior, Peter, 51–52, 57–58, 59, 81
Repton, Anne, 77, 135, 138–139
Rex, Darius, 80
Richardson, Samuel, 25, 49
Clarissa, 25, 49
Roman Empire, 20
Roman Catholic Church, 17, 18–19, 20, 23, 24, 26, 27, 28, 29, 38, 45, 47, 67, 70, 74, 135, 136, 137, 158, 168, 169, 171, 178–179
Royal Military Academy, Sandhurst, 82
Roubiliac, Louis Francois:
Alexander Pope, 74
Rowe, Nicholas, 49, 111, 124, 162
The Fair Penitent, 163
The Plays and Poems of Nicholas Rowe, 49
Rugby, Michael, 37
Ruskin, John, 53
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Scott, Tom, 94–96
Selden’s Map of China, 76
Shakespeare, William, 49, 130, 162
The Rape of Lucretia, 49
Sherborne School, Dorset, 14, 38, 39, 43, 51, 53–54, 55–57, 60, 61, 67, 80
Sidney, Sir Philip, 95
Simon (SCR steward), 153
Spenser, Edmund, 95
St Aubyn, Edward, 25, 49
Some Hope, 25
St Giles, Oxford, 9, 10, 12, 153, 178,
St Margaret’s Convent School, Midhurst, 29, 35, 38
St Mary’s Presbytery, Midhurst, 23, 29, 33, 34, 35, 37, 39, 43, 44–47, 62–63, 178–179
St Peter’s Basilica, Rome, 45, 179
Steele, Daphne, 100, 149
Stoppard, Tom:
The Invention of Love, 81
Stoughton, Kathleen, 61
Swift, Jonathan, 26–27, 164, 171, 182
Tagus, Frederick Wyndham, marquess of (also known as the earl of Sanford), 77, 84–87
Tatler, The, 86
Tennyson, Eleanora, 104–106
Thatcher, Margaret, baroness, 116–117
Times, The, 4, 82, 117
Times Literary Supplement, The, 13, 23, 64, 97, 126, 135, 156
Timmins, Charles, 40, 78–79, 98, 102–103, 115
Tonson the elder, Jacob, 13, 24, 68, 111, 161
Tonson the younger, Jacob, 13, 111, 161
University Church of St Mary the Virgin, Oxford, 174
Upstairs Downstairs, 166
Van Dyck, Sir Anthony, 85
Vickers, Sir Brian, 130
Victoria, Queen, Empress of India, 84
Villefranche de Conflent, France, 75
Walcott, Sir Derek, 98
Walton Street, Oxford, 10, 11
Warneford Hospital, Oxford, 117
Waugh, Evelyn, 164–165, 171–172, 182
Wilson, A.N., 130
Wodehouse, P.G., 164–165, 171–172, 182
Wren, Sir Christopher, 100
Yeovil District Hospital, 57–60
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