“I think her cruel words were almost exactly those. I did not hope for a minute that those horrible lines in the newspaper were false. I thought they must be true, and I was mad, Edward––I was mad; for utter despair came to me with the knowledge of your death. I went to my own room, and put on my bonnet and shawl; and then I went out of the house, down into that dreary wood, and along the narrow pathway by the river–side. I wanted to drown myself; but the sight of the black water filled me with a shuddering horror. I was frightened, Edward; and I went on by the river, scarcely knowing where I was going, until it was quite dark; and I was tired, and sat down upon the damp ground by the brink of the river, all amongst the broad green flags and the wet rushes. I sat there for hours, and I saw the stars shining feebly in a dark sky. I think I was delirious, for sometimes I knew that I was there by the water side, and then the next minute I thought that I was in my bedroom at the Towers; sometimes I fancied that I was with you in the meadows near Winchester, and the sun was shining, and you were sitting by my side, and I could see your float dancing up and down in the sunlit water. At last, after I had been there a very, very long time, two people came with a lantern, a man and a woman; and I heard a startled voice say, ‘Here she is; here, lying on the ground!’ And then another voice, a woman’s voice, very low and frightened, said, ‘Alive!’ And then two people lifted me up; the man carried me in his arms, and the woman took the lantern. I couldn’t speak to them; but I knew that they were my cousin Paul and his sister, Mrs. Weston. I remember being carried some distance in Paul’s arms; and then I think I must have fainted away, for I can recollect nothing more until I woke up one day and found myself lying in a bed in the pavilion over the boat–house, with Mr. Weston watching by my bedside.
“I don’t know how the time passed; I only know that it seemed endless. I think my illness was rheumatic fever, caught by lying on the damp ground nearly all that night when I ran away from the Towers. A long time went by––there was frost and snow. I saw the river once out of the window when I was lifted out of bed for an hour or two, and it was frozen; and once at midnight I heard the Kemberling church–bells ringing in the New Year. I was very ill, but I had no doctor; and all that time I saw no one but my cousin Paul, and Lavinia Weston, and a servant called Betsy, a rough country girl, who took care of me when my cousins were away. They were kind to me, and took great care of me.”
“You did not see Olivia, then, all this time?” Edward asked eagerly.
“No; I did not see my stepmother till some time after the New Year began. She came in suddenly one evening, when Mrs. Weston was with me, and at first she seemed frightened at seeing me. She spoke to me kindly afterwards, but in a strange, terror–stricken voice; and she laid her head down upon the counterpane of the bed, and sobbed aloud; and then Paul took her away, and spoke to her cruelly, very cruelly––taunting her with her love for you. I never understood till then why she hated me: but I pitied her after that; yes, Edward, miserable as I was, I pitied her, because you had never loved her. In all my wretchedness I was happier than her; for you had loved me, Edward––you had loved me!”
Mary lifted her face to her husband’s lips, and those dear lips were pressed tenderly upon her pale forehead.
“O my love, my love!” the young man murmured; “my poor suffering angel! Can God ever forgive these people for their cruelty to you? But, my darling, why did you make no effort to escape?”
“I was too ill to move; I believed that I was dying.”
“But afterwards, darling, when you were better, stronger,––did you make no effort then to escape from your persecutors?”
Mary shook her head mournfully.
“Why should I try to escape from them?” she said. “What was there for me beyond that place? It was as well for me to be there as anywhere else. I thought you were dead, Edward; I thought you were dead, and life held nothing more for me. I could do nothing but wait till He who raised the widow’s son should have pity upon me, and take me to the heaven where I thought you and papa had gone before me. I didn’t want to go away from those dreary rooms over the boat–house. What did it matter to me whether I was there or at Marchmont Towers? I thought you were dead, and all the glories and grandeurs of the world were nothing to me. Nobody ill–treated me; I was let alone. Mrs. Weston told me that it was for my own sake they kept me hidden from everybody about the Towers. I was a poor disgraced girl, she told me; and it was best for me to stop quietly in the pavilion till people had got tired of talking of me, and then my cousin Paul would take me away to the Continent, where no one would know who I was. She told me that the honour of my father’s name, and of my family altogether, would be saved by this means. I replied that I had brought no dishonour on my dear father’s name; but she only shook her head mournfully, and I was too weak to dispute with her. What did it matter? I thought you were dead, and that the world was finished for me. I sat day after day by the window; not looking out, for there was a Venetian blind that my cousin Paul had nailed down to the window–sill, and I could only see glimpses of the water through the long, narrow openings between the laths. I used to sit there listening to the moaning of the wind amongst the trees, or the sounds of horses’ feet upon the towing–path, or the rain dripping into the river upon wet days. I think that even in my deepest misery God was good to me, for my mind sank into a dull apathy, and I seemed to lose even the capacity of suffering.
“One day,––one day in March, when the wind was howling, and the smoke blew down the narrow chimney and filled the room,––Mrs. Weston brought her husband, and he talked to me a little, and then talked to his wife in whispers. He seemed terribly frightened, and he trembled all the time, and kept saying, ‘Poor thing; poor young woman!’ but his wife was cross to him, and wouldn’t let him stop long in the room. After that, Mr. Weston came very often, always with Lavinia, who seemed cleverer than he was, even as a doctor; for she dictated to him, and ordered him about in everything. Then, by–and–by, when the birds were singing, and the warm sunshine came into the room, my baby was born, Edward; my baby was born. I thought that God, who raised the widow’s son, had heard my prayer, and had raised you up from the dead; for the baby’s eyes were like yours, and I used to think sometimes that your soul was looking out of them and comforting me.
“Do you remember that poor foolish German woman who believed that the spirit of a dead king came to her in the shape of a blackbird? She was not a good woman, I know, dear; but she must have loved the king very truly, or she never could have believed anything so foolish. I don’t believe in people’s love when they love ‘wisely,’ Edward: the truest love is that which loves ‘too well.’
“From the time of my baby’s birth everything was changed. I was more miserable, perhaps, because that dull, dead apathy cleared away, and my memory came back, and I thought of you, dear, and cried over my little angel’s face as he slept. But I wasn’t alone any longer. The world seemed narrowed into the little circle round my darling’s cradle. I don’t think he is like other babies, Edward. I think he has known of my sorrow from the very first, and has tried in his mute way to comfort me. The God who worked so many miracles, all separate tokens of His love and tenderness and pity for the sorrows of mankind, could easily make my baby different from other children, for a wretched mother’s consolation.
“In the autumn after my darling’s birth, Paul and his sister came for me one night, and took me away from the pavilion by the water to a deserted farmhouse, where there was a woman to wait upon me and take care of me. She was not unkind to me, but she was rather neglectful of me. I did not mind that, for I wanted nothing except to be alone with my precious boy––your son, Edward; your son. The woman let me walk in the garden sometimes. It was a neglected garden, but there were bright flowers growing wild, and when the spring came again my pet used to lie on the grass and play with the buttercups and daisies that I threw into his lap; and I think we were both of us happier and better than we had been in those two close rooms over
the boat–house.
“I have told you all now, Edward, all except what happened this morning, when my stepmother and Hester Jobson came into my room in the early daybreak, and told me that I had been deceived, and that you were alive. My stepmother threw herself upon her knees at my feet, and asked me to forgive her, for she was a miserable sinner, she said, who had been abandoned by God; and I forgave her, Edward, and kissed her; and you must forgive her too, dear, for I know that she has been very, very wretched. And she took the baby in her arms, and kissed him,––oh, so passionately!––and cried over him. And then they brought me here in Mr. Jobson’s cart, for Mr. Jobson was with them, and Hester held me in her arms all the time. And then, darling, then after a long time you came to me.”
Edward put his arms round his wife, and kissed her once more. “We will never speak of this again, darling,” he said. “I know all now; I understand it all. I will never again distress you by speaking of your cruel wrongs.”
“And you will forgive Olivia, dear?”
“Yes, my pet, I will forgive––Olivia.”
He said no more, for there was a footstep on the stair, and a glimmer of light shone through the crevices of the door. Hester Jobson came into the room with a pair of lighted wax–candles, in white crockery–ware candlesticks. But Hester was not alone; close behind her came a lady in a rustling silk gown, a tall matronly lady, who cried out,––
“Where is she, Edward? Where is she? Let me see this poor ill–used child.”
It was Mrs. Arundel, who had come to Kemberling to see her newly–found daughter–in–law.
“Oh, my dear mother,” cried the young man, “how good of you to come! Now, Mary, you need never again know what it is to want a protector, a tender womanly protector, who will shelter you from every harm.”
Mary got up and went to Mrs. Arundel, who opened her arms to receive her son’s young wife. But before she folded Mary to her friendly breast, she took the girl’s two hands in hers, and looked earnestly at her pale, wasted face.
She gave a long sigh as she contemplated those wan features, the shining light in the eyes, that looked unnaturally large by reason of the girl’s hollow cheeks.
“Oh, my dear,” cried Mrs. Arundel, “my poor long–suffering child, how cruelly they have treated you!”
Edward looked at his mother, frightened by the earnestness of her manner; but she smiled at him with a bright, reassuring look.
“I shall take you home to Dangerfield with me, my poor love,” she said to Mary; “and I shall nurse you, and make you as plump as a partridge, my poor wasted pet. And I’ll be a mother to you, my motherless child. Oh, to think that there should be any wretch vile enough to––But I won’t agitate you, my dear. I’ll take you away from this bleak horrid county by the first train to–morrow morning, and you shall sleep to–morrow night in the blue bedroom at Dangerfield, with the roses and myrtles waving against your window; and Edward shall go with us, and you shan’t come back here till you are well and strong; and you’ll try and love me, won’t you, dear? And, oh, Edward, I’ve seen the boy! and he’s a superb creature, the very image of what you were at a twelvemonth old; and he came to me, and smiled at me, almost as if he knew I was his grandmother; and he has got FIVE teeth, but I’m sorry to tell you he’s cutting them crossways, the top first instead of the bottom, Hester says.”
“And Belinda, mother dear?” Edward said presently, in a grave undertone.
“Belinda is an angel,” Mrs. Arundel answered, quite as gravely. “She has been in her own room all day, and no one has seen her but her mother; but she came down to the hall as I was leaving the house this evening, and said to me, ‘Dear Mrs. Arundel, tell him that he must not think I am so selfish as to be sorry for what has happened. Tell him that I am very glad to think his young wife has been saved.’ She put her hand up to my lips to stop my speaking, and then went back again to her room; and if that isn’t acting like an angel, I don’t know what is.”
CHAPTER XIII. “ALL WITHIN IS DARK AS NIGHT.”
Paul Marchmont did not leave Stony–Stringford Farmhouse till dusk upon that bright summer’s day; and the friendly twilight is slow to come in the early days of July, however a man may loathe the sunshine. Paul Marchmont stopped at the deserted farmhouse, wandering in and out of the empty rooms, strolling listlessly about the neglected garden, or coming to a dead stop sometimes, and standing stock–still for ten minutes at a time, staring at the wall before him, and counting the slimy traces of the snails upon the branches of a plum–tree, or the flies in a spider’s web. Paul Marchmont was afraid to leave that lonely farmhouse. He was afraid as yet. He scarcely knew what he feared, for a kind of stupor had succeeded the violent emotions of the past few hours; and the time slipped by him, and his brain grew bewildered when he tried to realise his position.
It was very difficult for him to do this. The calamity that had come upon him was a calamity that he had never anticipated. He was a clever man, and he had put his trust in his own cleverness. He had never expected to be found out.
Until this hour everything had been in his favour. His dupes and victims had played into his hands. Mary’s grief, which had rendered her a passive creature, utterly indifferent to her own fate,––her peculiar education, which had taught her everything except knowledge of the world in which she was to live,––had enabled Paul Marchmont to carry out a scheme so infamous and daring that it was beyond the suspicion of honest men, almost too base for the comprehension of ordinary villains.
He had never expected to be found out. All his plans had been deliberately and carefully prepared. Immediately after Edward’s marriage and safe departure for the Continent, Paul had intended to convey Mary and the child, with the grim attendant whom he had engaged for them, far away, to one of the remotest villages in Wales.
Alone he would have done this; travelling by night, and trusting no one; for the hired attendant knew nothing of Mary’s real position. She had been told that the girl was a poor relation of Paul’s, and that her story was a very sorrowful one. If the poor creature had strange fancies and delusions, it was no more than might be expected; for she had suffered enough to turn a stronger brain than her own. Everything had been arranged, and so cleverly arranged, that Mary and the child would disappear after dusk one summer’s evening, and not even Lavinia Weston would be told whither they had gone.
Paul had never expected to be found out. But he had least of all expected betrayal from the quarter whence it had come. He had made Olivia his tool; but he had acted cautiously even with her. He had confided nothing to her; and although she had suspected some foul play in the matter of Mary’s disappearance, she had been certain of nothing. She had uttered no falsehood when she swore to Edward Arundel that she did not know where his wife was. But for her accidental discovery of the secret of the pavilion, she would never have known of Mary’s existence after that October afternoon on which the girl left Marchmont Towers.
But here Paul had been betrayed by the carelessness of the hired girl who acted as Mary Arundel’s gaoler and attendant. It was Olivia’s habit to wander often in that dreary wood by the water during the winter in which Mary was kept prisoner in the pavilion over the boat–house. Lavinia Weston and Paul Marchmont spent each of them a great deal of their time in the pavilion; but they could not be always on guard there. There was the world to be hoodwinked; and the surgeon’s wife had to perform all her duties as a matron before the face of Kemberling, and had to give some plausible account of her frequent visits to the boat–house. Paul liked the place for his painting, Mrs. Weston informed her friends; and he was so enthusiastic in his love of art, that it was really a pleasure to participate in his enthusiasm; so she liked to sit with him, and talk to him or read to him while he painted. This explanation was quite enough for Kemberling; and Mrs. Weston went to the pavilion at Marchmont Towers three or four times a week without causing any scandal thereby.
But however well you may manage things yourself, it is not always
easy to secure the careful co–operation of the people you employ. Betsy Murrel was a stupid, narrow–minded young person, who was very safe so far as regarded the possibility of any sympathy with, or compassion for, Mary Arundel arising in her stolid nature; but the stupid stolidity which made her safe in one way rendered her dangerous in another. One day, while Mrs. Weston was with the hapless young prisoner, Miss Murrel went out upon the water–side to converse with a good–looking young bargeman, who was a connexion of her family, and perhaps an admirer of the young lady herself; and the door of the painting–room being left wide open, Olivia Marchmont wandered listlessly into the pavilion––there was a dismal fascination for her in that spot, on which she had heard Edward Arundel declare his love for John Marchmont’s daughter––and heard Mary’s voice in the chamber at the top of the stone steps.
This was how Olivia had surprised Paul’s secret; and from that hour it had been the artist’s business to rule this woman by the only weapon which he possessed against her,––her own secret, her own weak folly, her mad love of Edward Arundel and jealous hatred of the woman whom he had loved. This weapon was a very powerful one, and Paul used it unsparingly.
When the woman who, for seven–and–twenty years of her life, had lived without sin; who from the hour in which she had been old enough to know right from wrong, until Edward Arundel’s second return from India, had sternly done her duty,––when this woman, who little by little had slipped away from her high standing–point and sunk down into a morass of sin; when this woman remonstrated with Mr. Marchmont, he turned upon her and lashed her with the scourge of her own folly.
“You come and upbraid me,” he said, “and you call me villain and arch–traitor, and say that you cannot abide this, your sin; and that your guilt, in keeping our secret, cries to you in the dead hours of the night; and you call upon me to undo what I have done, and to restore Mary Marchmont to her rights. Do you remember what her highest right is? Do you remember that which I must restore to her when I give her back this house and the income that goes along with it? If I restore Marchmont Towers, I must restore to her Edward Arundel’s love! You have forgotten that, perhaps. If she ever re–enters this house, she will come back to it leaning on his arm. You will see them together––you will hear of their happiness; and do you think that he will ever forgive you for your part of the conspiracy? Yes, it is a conspiracy, if you like; if you are not afraid to call it by a hard name, why should I fear to do so? Will he ever forgive you, do you think, when he knows that his young wife has been the victim of a senseless, vicious love? Yes, Olivia Marchmont; any love is vicious which is given unsought, and is so strong a passion, so blind and unreasoning a folly, that honour, mercy, truth, and Christianity are trampled down before it. How will you endure Edward Arundel’s contempt for you? How will you tolerate his love for Mary, multiplied twentyfold by all this romantic business of separation and persecution?
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