by Ford, Mia
“Did she say anything? I feel really bad that I left you when things could have been bad.”
“It’s okay, thankfully it didn’t turn out that way anyway. My family definitely would have ripped me to shreds. I don’t think they would be very keen to hear that me and you… well, whatever it is… was.”
“Hmm, yeah. I got that impression.”
We stare at each other, emotions flowing deeply between us. I can see the intense hurt behind her eyes and I can feel the same inside too. Why does the woman I have to fall for be the one I definitely cannot have?
“So, I guess… we need to find some way to create a friendship, huh?” I smile awkwardly.
“I suppose so. I know it won’t be easy because we have to work together and stuff, but yeah…”
“Okay, so do we need to create ground rules? Something to make it simpler?”
“Yes. Definitely.” She nods fervently. “Things such as we shouldn’t ever talk about what happened again.”
“I agree. And we need to keep a physical distance as well. Touching you is hard.”
She gulps. If I look hard enough I’m pretty sure that I can see beads of sweat appearing. It’s really hard for me to stop my own feelings swirling when she looks all turned on like that.
“Yes.” Her tone is rasping now. “And we need to not… not be flirty and stuff.”
“I’ve been trying to do that,” I reassure her. “Sometimes I slip into it without thinking.”
That’s when I notice that we’ve somehow gotten closer together, like there’s a magnet pulling us in. I furrow my eyebrows trying to hide if I’m moving or not, but it seems to be a subconscious thing, like I can’t manage myself anymore. There’s something about Lexi that strips all the control out of my body.
“Yeah, I do things without thinking too.” She’s right in front of me now. Again, we’re back together. This is so fucking wrong, I need to pull back before we go against absolutely everything we just discussed. “But I will make much more of an effort to ensure it doesn’t happen again.”
She’s rasping, her breaths are hot and heavy, I can see her tumbling behind her eyes. I squeeze my fists tightly, trying to stop my body from doing what it so desperately wants to.
“Right, sure.” Is that even me speaking? I barely sound like myself. “So, just keep away and be quiet. That’s… that’s easy. All I have to do is not… not touch you…” My fingers are reaching out. “Keep away.”
I’m on another planet, my brain is flying, I can barely keep myself under control. My hands do the opposite of everything that I’ve just said and they grip onto Lexi’s hips and I drag her to me. I hold her close to my body, enjoying the feeling of her warmth all over me. She doesn’t pull away, that’s the hard fact I can’t shy away from. She’s still here, still with me, still looking at me with sheer love and desire in her eyes.
“What are we…” she starts to ask, but I don’t let her finish. I can’t help myself, so I crash my lips against hers and I silence her. Again, we’re in the exact position we shouldn’t be, but how can I stop myself?
My insides implode like a volcano erupting the wrong way. Lava swirls around, heating up every tiny part of my body, creating a desire so intense I almost lose my fucking mind. Fuck it, what does control matter when it felt this good? I pull Lexi tighter to me, needing to cling on to this amazing feeling forever.
The taboo nature of touching her overshadows everything else. There is no rationality anymore.
An inadvertent groan that flies out of her mouth rumbles in the back of my throat, shooting down to my cock. I twitch, itching to hop on the steam train towards the destination of pleasure.
“Oh, Cooper.” She tosses her head back while I move my mouth off from hers and kiss all over her neck and collar bone. Perspiration dots all over her skin and I take great pleasure in licking it all off. “Oh, wow.”
I grip my fingers onto the hemline of her sweet summery dress, desperately trying not to pull it up until I know for sure what was going on here. I had to hold myself back so I didn’t make any wrong moves.
But then she grabs onto my tee shirt and she yanks it upright, an animalistic growl flying out her mouth. It’s clear to me then that she wants this as much as I do and my mind goes completely blank. I shut off all thoughts, becoming a slave to the sensations instead. I pull that damn dress off of her.
“Oh, God, you’re so beautiful it hurts.” Her black and purple mismatching underwear makes her look like a goddess. She didn’t put it on knowing this was going to happen, which makes her look even better. Her eager fingers tug at my trousers, forcing them to fall to the ground, just where I want them. Any material between us is just in the way. “You’re so… so sexy…”
I press my body against Lexi’s and I push her back towards the table. Once there, I spin her around and I place her palms on the table. She lets out a little delighted squeal which makes my heart swell.
I kiss down the length of Lexi’s back, unhooking her bra on the way down, she lets it dangle, then shakes it off to the floor, before putting her hands back where I first put them, only this time further forwards on the table so her butt pokes out more, making me hard as a fucking rock. I need those panties down right now! I pull them down as I slide down and delight as Lexi kicks them away. Thank fuck she’s in this too!
I move further down her body, slowly sliding all the way to my knees. I use my nose to nudge her thighs further apart and I inhale deeply. “Fuck, Lexi, your scent is intoxicating. I need a taste.”
I nestle into her closer, allowing her wetness to soak the end of my nose. A storm brews in my stomach, I don’t know how much longer I can keep my cock in check before it explodes. She is too much.
I tilt my neck up and press my lips against her clit. She shudders violently, her whole body flips and reacts. I hear her hands slam hard down on the table, which she does again as I dart my tongue out. I roll it over and over her loving the way that she trembles. Her sweet taste is delicious, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get enough.
“Fucking hell, Cooper.” She rolls her hips, pushing into me, so I increase the pace. I grip her tighter, digging my fingers into her, as I lick her rapidly, relentlessly, hopefully sending her head spinning. “Oh, fuck.”
She tenses up. Her thighs stiffen and her core freezes. I suck on her nub, knowing that she’s getting nearer and nearer to the edge. As she twitches I can feel her tipping… tipping…
And then she falls. A guttural groan comes flying out of her mouth as she shatters and falls. I continue to run my tongue over her as she coats me in her slick desire. I keep moving and moving until eventually, she slumps forward on the table, panting desperately. “Oh wow, Cooper, that was… it was too much.”
But I’m not done with her yet. I rise to my feet and tease her entrance with my now very desperate cock. I wait until she’s recovered a little bit and she presses her ass into me. I sink deeply into her, gasping with glee as I do. Being with Lexi feels incredible, she really turns everything upside down. With every hard thrust into her, my head spins faster and wilder. This fucking woman is going to be the death of me. Every time our bodies clap together my head flies higher and higher. My vision has become blurry with it all.
My cock twitches inside of her as her walls clamp tightly around me, she’s desperately coaxing the orgasm out of me, and my God, I know it isn’t going to take me long. I’m already on the edge. My heart hammers violently against my rib cage, my breaths come out short and ragged, the storm becomes a swirling and twisting tornado, rocketing through my whole body at the speed of light. I honestly have no control.
Her skin, her hips, her tense thighs, the tightness of her core, it’s all too much for me.
“Oh, Lexi.” I lean into her, loving every moment of her. “Oh, shit, you’re too much…”
The heat swirls and blooms, the pleasure explodes from me into her. Lexi tosses her head back and screams, enjoying every moment of this just as much as I do. Ther
e’s something about this intense chemistry that we just can’t ignore, as proven by tonight. Fuck knows what’s going to happen after this moment though…
“Oh, Cooper, what am I going to do with you?” Lexi spins and wraps her arms around my neck. She leans into me and kisses me tenderly, making my heart swell with intense joy. “You are just too much.”
I hold her in a deep embrace as we both wait for out bodies to calm down. We pant together, probably head through the roller coaster of emotions together. This is a terrible mess, and it doesn’t matter how much we try to get out of it we keep digging the hole deeper and deeper.
“I don’t know, Lexi, I honestly have no idea.”
18
Lexi
“Okay, Lexi, you need to pull your head out of your ass now.”
“Huh?” I force myself to focus on the present moment. “Sorry, Krysten. I was somewhere else then.”
“Yeah, I noticed,” she replied wryly. “What’s going on? You’re ruining girl’s night.”
I shake my head, ridding my brain of all thoughts of Cooper. “Sorry, I’ll be more aware now.”
“Just tell me what’s going on. You’re obviously going through something. That’s what we’re here for.”
I dart my eyes between her and Flora, wondering if this is something I should share. I know that they won’t be happy with me, I’ve done the very thing I know I shouldn’t, but I do need to share with someone.
“You’re going to be disappointed with me,” I warn them both. “I’ve done something stupid.”
“If this involves Trent, I swear to God, I will lose my mind…”
“I promise you, Trent won’t ever be an issue again. You don’t have to worry about that.”
“So, if it isn’t Trent, then who is it? Is it another man? Do you have a boyfriend?”
The word ‘boyfriend’ tugs hard in my chest. Even though I promised myself and everyone else that I wouldn’t jump head first into another relationship, if it wasn’t for Cooper being who he is, we probably wouldn’t be going down that road now. I would certainly be in the head space of another relationship even if it wasn’t official.
“No, I don’t have a boyfriend, it isn’t anything like that. I had a… one night stand.”
“Ooh, okay so this is nice gossip. Go on, please tell me more.”
“It isn’t good. Not when you learn who it’s with.”
My friends both look at one another, fear crossing their expressions. The only problem is I know that look is going to get so much worse the moment that they learn the truth. I’m scared they might hate me, so I need to get it all out quickly. I need to rip it off like a band aid. I suck in a deep breath and blurt it out quick.
“I slept with my boss after a day of modelling.”
“Okay, what? There are so many things that I need to unpack in that, modelling?”
“Oh, it’s been a while, yeah I got asked to do some modelling shots for the company because one of the models didn’t turn up. It was like this weird country farm job. It was pretty cool though.”
“When are the photographs going to be out? I want to see them?”
“There’s a billboard out already and apparently in some magazines somewhere…”
“How did you manage to keep this from me? That’s insane. I don’t even know what to think.”
“Sorry, my life has all been really wild recently. Ever since I came back actually. I can barely think straight.”
“I bet! Well, as soon as we get out of here I’m going to search through all the magazines possible. I’m surprised that you haven’t done the same. If it were me, I’d have a copy in my bag to show everyone…”
“Krysten.” Flora touches her arm to stop her in her tracks. “This isn’t about that.”
“Oh right, I’m sorry, of course. So, you had a one night stand with your boss?”
My heart sinks, I was actually quite happy to accidently get off this topic. Especially when it involves talking about the modelling photos which I’m prouder of than I’m letting on.
“Yes, I had a one night stand with my boss. It was so stupid, I’m so scared I’m going to risk my job.”
“There’s no way that will happen. He can’t fire you, that’s sexual discrimination. You can go to court and everything. He was an active participant in it, just as much as you were. There’s nothing he can do.”
“No, no, it isn’t like that. I don’t think that’s going to happen.”
“Oh dear… do you actually like him?” My cheeks heat up, giving me away. “You do, don’t you?”
“I can’t.” I shake my head hard. “I really can’t like him.”
“Why? Because he’s your boss? So what? That just makes it really fun. You can like, hook up at work and stuff. Give him a blow job under the desk and things like that. It certainly passes the hours away.”
“You sound like this is something you’ve actually done.”
“It isn’t, but it’s every girl’s fantasy, isn’t it? To hook up with a super sexy boss. Is he hot?”
I slide my eyes closed, trying to keep the tears inside. “No, Krysten, you don’t understand.”
“What don’t I understand? Is there more to this? You know that you can tell me anything, right?”
I stare at both my friends, knowing that I’m about to change their opinion of me forever. “Just know before I say this that I didn’t know it at the time. I wasn’t aware until it was far too late…”
“He’s married? He has kids? He has a whole family that you knew nothing about.”
I didn’t really mean this to be a guessing game! “Yes, sort of.”
“Oh, God, that rat bastard. Do you want me to come to your work place and kick his ass?”
“No, I mean, his wife…” I gulp down the ball of sickness. “She isn’t alive anymore.”
“Oh.” I can tell that Krysten no longer sees the problem here. “Right…”
“It’s… Nora. He was married to Nora.”
“Your cousin, Nora? That’s insane! How did neither of you realize that?”
“Because I wasn’t really ever around when he was with her. I was all involved with Trent. I didn’t go to the wedding, I never made it to the funeral, we just haven’t really crossed paths.”
“But, I mean, you look a lot like her, right? Didn’t he figure it out?”
“Maybe that’s what drew him to me.”
As I say that, I realize how right that might be. Maybe he doesn’t actually like me for who I am, maybe the attraction is just a fleeting thing because it reminds him of what he’s lost. He does appear to like me for who I am, but there’s a very good chance that will all fall apart soon. He might well get bored.
“Oh, Lexi.” Flora speaks up now, her eyes full of wisdom. “That doesn’t sound like good news at all. I’m really worried for you. A situation like that can only end in a heartbreak.”
“I know.” I hang my head low. “But I stopped it as soon as I realized.”
“No, you didn’t.” Krysten can see right through me. “It’s happened since.”
“Fucking hell, yeah you’re right. It has happened since. Just as I told him it couldn’t happen again.”
“If your family finds out you will end up in so much shit.”
“Yes, I know. Don’t you think I know that?”
“Just when you’re making things up with them after Trent.”
“Thanks for that. Again, I know that. I’m very aware what’s going on here. I know the mess I’ve made.”
“You need to keep away, Lexi, you really do. I don’t want you to end up hurting all over again.”
The only problem is the more that people tell me this, the more I want him. The more I want to grab my cell phone and call him right now, to arrange for him to be at my apartment when I get home, so we can hop into my bed and do all kinds of nasty stuff to one another. There’s still so much that we haven’t yet done, that I want to.
“I won’t make the same mistake
again. I won’t. I’ll step away.”
“Don’t you think that getting another job is the best plan?”
“I know that this might sound like an excuse, but I really do like my job. It’s the first one that I’ve ever had where I feel like I’m doing something worthwhile. I’m in the middle of a fast-paced fashion company and although I was thrown into a role I wasn’t really prepared for, I’m good at it, I’m succeeding.”
“Is that just because you’re fucking the boss though?”
“Krysten!” Flora clutches her hand to her chest. “You can’t say that.”
“It’s okay, she can.” I shake my head sadly. “Maybe you’re right, Krysten, I don’t know.”
My agreement makes her recoil a little with her words. “I’m sorry, I don’t want to sound like I’m being a mega bitch, or anything, I just want to say it like it is so I can protect you.”
“I understand, I really do.” I drain the last of my drink. “But I think I’m going to go.”
“Oh, don’t do this, Lexi. Don’t pull back. Not when I’m just trying to help you.”
“I’m not, you’ve just given me a lot to think about.”
She swigs the remains of her drink back rapidly. “No, I’m not letting it happen. I’ve always regretted just letting you walk away last time. Neither me nor Flora fought hard enough for you. We should have forced you to keep in touch so we always knew what was going on with you, but we didn’t. We let you go and I feel so bad. I’m not going to let it happen again, even for a little bit. I’m your friend, damn it. I want to be there for you, so I refuse to let you walk away to mope. We’re all going to go, we’re going to head to the store and buy some magazines until we find your modelling photos. If they are as good as I’m sure they must be, then I’ll take back everything I just said because I’ll know that you are a kickass. I’ll even apologize to you.”
I could hold my ground now, refuse to play along and stomp off, but where would that get me? Nowhere. I don’t want to be alone and miserable, I want to enjoy my life.
