Once they arrived at the hospital, everything happened quickly. Her mother’s physician had phoned ahead and the hospital staff was waiting for them.
Justine and Jack sat in silence until Dr. Franklin, the oncologist, appeared. His face was grim. “I’m afraid Olivia has a massive infection at the site of her incision,” he said.
“How could this be?” Jack demanded. “We were so careful. We followed all the instructions to the letter.”
“We probably won’t ever know the exact cause. Our biggest concern at the moment is to get her temperature down. We’ll be starting her on antibiotics intravenously.”
He left them, saying he’d be back as soon as Olivia had been admitted.
Jack was pale, the look on his face anguished. He seemed to blame himself. “I should never have gone out,” he said over and over. “Thank God you were there.”
The Christmas music playing in the background seemed incongruous, but it reminded her that she and Seth had planned to put up their tree this afternoon. Now the prospect of preparing for the holidays was the farthest thing from her mind.
“Mom’s going to be all right,” she said because she needed to hear it. Needed to say it.
“Yes,” Jack confirmed, but he didn’t sound confident.
While they waited for news, Justine phoned Seth to explain where she was. He assured her that he could easily keep Leif occupied and sent Olivia his best wishes.
When Dr. Franklin returned, his voice was grave. “Olivia is stable. As I told you, I’ve started her on a high dose of antibiotics. Her temperature is down a couple of degrees. We have her lying on an ice blanket, which has helped quite a bit.”
“Thank God,” Jack whispered again.
“Although she’s in stable condition, I don’t want to discount the seriousness of this infection. Another four or five hours, and we might not have been able to save her.”
Justine’s hand flew to her mouth.
“We’re going to fight this to the best of our ability. The problem, of course, is that Olivia’s immune system is already compromised. This isn’t something we can deal with overnight. She’ll probably be here for several days.”
Jack nodded. “I’d like to stay with her if I could.”
Dr. Franklin nodded.
When he’d gone, Jack turned to Justine and handed her the keys to his car. She stared at them, not understanding his intent.
“Take the car home,” he said. “When you come back, bring me a set of clothes.”
“But, Jack—”
“I’m not leaving Olivia again,” he insisted. “I’m never leaving her alone again.”
Sixteen
Shirley Bliss glanced out the front window. The street-lights had come on more than an hour ago. Tanni was late for dinner again, which wasn’t an unusual occurrence since she’d taken up with Shaw, the boy who seemed to have only one name. Shirley had met him once, briefly. Tanni was none too eager for her to talk to this young man, for reasons Shirley didn’t understand. It was times like this that she missed Jim the most.
Her husband had been close to Tanni, and their daughter had never recovered from his death.
Shirley would never recover, either.
It was almost a year now. A very difficult year.
As long as she lived, Shirley would remember that January afternoon, when the young officer from the Washington State Patrol rang her doorbell. She’d been in her art room in the basement, working on a new quilt, and the interruption had annoyed her. Jim, a pilot for Alaska Airlines, had left for the airport two hours earlier. He usually flew the Seattle-Anchorage route. As he often did, he’d taken his Harley-Davidson motorcycle rather than his car.
At first Shirley couldn’t figure out why there was a patrolman at her door. She had trouble taking in his words—that there’d been an accident and her husband had not survived.
Even then Shirley hadn’t understood. There must be a mistake, she’d said. Two hours ago Jim had kissed her on the cheek, not wanting to disturb her work, and set out for the airport. Two hours earlier, the man she’d spent twenty years of her life with had told her he’d see her the following night.
Now he was dead? It couldn’t be. It wasn’t possible.
The officer, apparently accustomed to this sort of reaction, had asked if there was someone he could contact on her behalf, a family member, a pastor or perhaps a friend.
Closing her eyes, Shirley tried to force her thoughts away from that horrible afternoon, a time that had forever changed her life and the lives of her children.
Of the three of them, Nick seemed to have adjusted the most successfully to the loss of his father. He was protective of both Shirley and his younger sister. He’d stepped into that role in a way that astonished her. Jim would’ve been so proud of their son. Over Christmas, when Nick was home from school for a couple of weeks, Shirley planned to talk with him about Tanni.
Tanni wasn’t the same after Jim’s death. Unlike her brother, she’d withdrawn from her friends and family, especially Shirley. In fact, Tanni seemed to blame Shirley for the accident; she’d said as much. If Shirley had made more of a fuss, perhaps Jim wouldn’t have bought that stupid motorcycle. Shirley should’ve insisted he take the car that afternoon. She should’ve known, should’ve stopped him, should’ve done something. On and on. That was pretty well the extent of any conversation with Tanni. Shirley had stopped trying to defend herself. There was no point. These days, their daughter was immersed in her art, spending hours alone in her room. She talked to Shirley as little as possible and refused to show her anything she’d drawn.
In the beginning, Tanni’s relationship with Shaw had encouraged Shirley. For the first time since her father’s death, Tanni had shown some enthusiasm for life. She had a friend, someone who was important to her. They’d met around Thanksgiving and been practically inseparable ever since.
Shaw always picked her up in front of the house and dropped her off there. Whenever he pulled up she shot out the door with barely a word and didn’t return for hours. That left next to no opportunity for questions. When Tanni did get home, she hated what she called “the inquisition” and ignored her mother completely.
“Just leave me alone.” That seemed to be her daughter’s mantra.
But Shirley couldn’t do that. Her fear was that in her vulnerable emotional state, Tanni would become physically involved with Shaw. Her imagination ran wild with distressing scenarios, from teen pregnancy to disease to substance abuse. Tanni was too young for such an intense relationship. Too trusting, too naive, too hurt.
Shirley felt helpless. Every time she tried to talk to her daughter, Tanni shut her out.
The phone rang, and it caught Shirley off guard. She reacted with a physical jerk, then reached for the receiver.
“Hello?” She hoped she’d hear her daughter, calling with a reason for being late. Or, better yet, a promise to get home soon.
“Is this Shirley Bliss?” It was a male voice, one she didn’t recognize.
“Yes,” she said anxiously. Her pulse raced. Worried as she was about Tanni, she was terrified that this stranger had bad news. After all, if it had happened once, it could happen again.
“Hello, Shirley. I’m Will Jefferson.”
The name seemed familiar, but she couldn’t immediately recall where she’d heard it before. Then it came to her.
“I hope you don’t mind my contacting you like this.”
She thought the new gallery owner sounded a little too smooth and polished. “What can I do for you, Mr. Jefferson?” She spoke in a businesslike tone.
“Please, it’s Will.”
Shirley rolled her eyes. “You called because…”
“I recently purchased the Harbor Street Gallery.”
“Yes, I know.” She was grateful the gallery had found a new owner and that there’d be an outlet for her work. Many of the local artists depended on the income generated there.
“I was told you’d be a good person to ta
lk to,” Will explained. “I’m interested in showing your work, of course, but I also have some ideas for renovating the gallery. I hoped we might have a chance to chat. I’d appreciate your feedback.”
“Yes, well…”
“I realize this is Saturday afternoon and it’s a very busy time of year, but I was hoping we could get together early in the week. Would that work for you?”
“I suppose.” Shirley raised her head as she heard a car door closing in the distance.
“How about Tuesday?”
“Ah, sure.” At this point she just wanted to get off the phone.
Will suggested they meet at the gallery and she noted the date and time on her calendar.
“I look forward to seeing you again,” Will said, as they ended the conversation.
She frowned. “Again?”
“Yes, we met briefly a couple of weeks ago when you picked up the check for the sailboat piece—the fabric collage.”
Oh, yes—they had met. Shirley remembered exactly what he looked like now. Will Jefferson was strikingly attractive—and his reputation had preceded him. Apparently he’d been born and raised in Cedar Cove and was a known ladies’ man, although he’d been back in town for only a few weeks. But she didn’t generally pay much attention to gossip; she preferred to form her own opinions.
The front door opened.
“I’ll see you later, then,” she said quickly.
“Great. Thanks, Shirley.” There was a significant pause. “I have the feeling we’re going to become great friends. See you Tuesday.”
“Goodbye.”
Shirley stared down at the phone as she hung up. Their conversation, however short, had left her with the impression that he had an elevated view of himself and his charms.
Tanni went directly to her room and closed the door.
Shirley followed and knocked politely.
“What?” her daughter demanded.
Rather than ask questions that would only be resented, Shirley took another approach. “Dinner’s ready.”
“I already ate,” Tanni said without opening the door.
“If you don’t mind, I’d like some company. Eating by myself every night is boring.”
Silence.
She waited several minutes and then, dismayed, walked back to the kitchen. Earlier that afternoon, Shirley had made a soup that had been one of Jim’s favorite’s—cauliflower, potato and cheese. It was the perfect meal for a cold winter night.
She ladled a scoop into her bowl, then sat down at the kitchen table. As was her practice, she bowed her head for a brief prayer, adding a request for help in reaching her daughter.
When Shirley raised her head, Tanni was entering the kitchen. Rather than reveal any satisfaction, she shook out her linen napkin and placed it on her lap.
“What’s that?” Tanni asked, gesturing at the Crock-Pot.
“Soup.”
“Well, duh, I can see that. What kind?”
At another time, Shirley would have reacted to Tanni’s rudeness; for now she’d disregard it. She knew its source, and knew it was more important to leave herself open and available. So she answered mildly, “The cauliflower recipe.”
Tanni’s eyes showed the first sign of pleasure Shirley had seen in weeks.
“Want to join me?” she asked, then instantly wished she could cancel the invitation. Anytime she showed any desire for her daughter’s company, Tanni withdrew.
“I said I already ate.”
“Sorry, I forgot.”
Her daughter lingered in the kitchen, which encouraged her. Shirley dipped her spoon into the soup, afraid to say anything more.
She couldn’t resist for long. “Did you and Shaw have a good time?” The question was a risk but Shirley hoped it was benign enough not to offend her daughter. She took another spoonful of soup—and did her best to ignore the hickey on Tanni’s neck.
Tanni shrugged. “I guess.”
She wanted to ask where they’d gone, but decided not to jeopardize this opportunity for communication.
“I was on the phone when you came in,” Shirley said pleasantly. “The man who bought the Harbor Street Gallery wants to meet with me next week.”
“I heard the gallery sold,” Tanni murmured. “What does he want to talk to you about?”
“The renovation he’s got planned. Apparently he’s interested in my ideas.”
“Oh.” Tanni pulled out a chair and sat down across from her.
Shirley tried to conceal her surprise—and relief. Then it dawned on her that if Tanni was willing to talk, it was probably because she wanted something.
“Do we have plans for Christmas?” she asked.
“Yes.” Shirley didn’t elaborate.
“Like what?” The question sounded more like an accusation than a request for information.
“Your brother will be home and—”
“Big deal.”
“And,” Shirley added pointedly, “we’re going over to see your grandparents.” Jim’s parents lived in Seattle, and Shirley felt it was important for their sakes, as well as Nick and Tanni’s, that they keep in touch.
“I can see them anytime,” Tanni protested.
“True, but unless you set a date, it doesn’t happen. They’re really looking forward to our coming.”
Frowning, Tanni glanced down at her hands; she seemed to be struggling, caught between duty and desire.
“Did you have someplace you’d rather go?” Shirley asked without censure.
Her daughter shrugged. “Shaw and I…” She didn’t complete the thought.
“Would you like to invite him to join us?”
Tanni raised her head. She seemed to seriously consider the question. “I might.”
“He’s welcome.”
“He’s talented, Mom.”
Shirley didn’t want to appear dense, but she had no idea how this supposed talent manifested itself. “In what way?”
“Art.” She sighed as if it should’ve been obvious.
That explained a great deal. Tanni was gifted, too, although she hadn’t let Shirley see her work in ages. No one was more surprised than Shirley when she learned that her daughter had won a local art competition. Tanni’s teacher had entered the drawing and hadn’t told her. Tanni had been upset, insisting the whole thing was “meaningless.”
“Would you like me to look at his work?” she offered casually.
Again her daughter mulled over the question. “He’s not ready yet, but I think he will be soon.”
“That’s fine, then. Whenever he’s ready.”
“The thing is…” Tanni paused.
“Yes?”
“The stuff he draws might bother you.”
“I can look beyond the subject matter,” she assured her daughter.
“Could you…” Tanni seemed uneasy about whatever she wanted to ask.
“Could I what?” Shirley pressed.
“If you think his work is good—and I do, Mom, I really do—could you talk to Mr. Jefferson about Shaw?”
Shirley needed a moment to make the connection. “You want me to find out if he’d be willing to display Shaw’s art?”
Tanni’s eyes met hers and she nodded.
“Well, if he’s as good as you say, I wouldn’t have a problem with that.”
Tanni smiled at her, something she hadn’t done in months. Granted, it was more of a quirk of her lips than a real smile. But it would do.
“So…you think he’s got talent.”
Tanni nodded.
“More than you?”
Her daughter hesitated and then responded without vanity. “No, but then he doesn’t have a mother who’s an artist or a dad who was really interested in art, so he hasn’t got that advantage.”
Her heart warmed at the acknowledgment—and at Tanni’s reference to her dad. She hardly ever spoke of him, let alone in such a natural, easy way.
“I’m teaching him everything I learned from you guys,” she was saying.
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In the early years, before Shirley had begun to work with fabric, her daughter would play at her feet while Shirley drew. She gave Tanni her first sketchbook when she was four and the girl had been drawing from that point on. Shirley was devastated when she’d learned that Tanni had destroyed those early sketchbooks after Jim’s funeral.
“I’m happy you’re teaching Shaw.”
“The relationship isn’t as one-sided as that makes it sound,” Tanni said, smiling again. Her fingers crept up to cover the hickey on the side of her neck. “Shaw’s teaching me quite a bit, too.”
That was exactly what she was afraid of.
Seventeen
The tension between Dave and Emily had escalated until he found it almost intolerable. Whenever he tried to talk to her, she acted as if he were invisible. As soon as he made an attempt, she simply walked into another room.
Although they were civil in front of the children, Emily avoided him as much as possible. She didn’t speak to him unless it was to answer a question, and then, only if others were present. Moreover, she’d answer it with the minimum number of words. Her blond hair taunted him. Still, Dave was reluctant to tell her the truth, fearing what that would do to their marriage.
Sunday morning’s sermon was the most difficult Dave had preached in all the years of his ministry. Afterward he knew, deep inside himself, that he’d let down his congregation, his family and, most important, his God.
By the time the church emptied, Emily had already taken the two boys home. Dave stayed behind, sitting in the front pew, feeling like a complete failure. He’d lied to his wife, misled his staff and tried to hold everything together on his own. He’d failed every person in his life.
The only thing to do now was admit to his shortcomings. This situation couldn’t go on.
Dave accepted what he had to do, but wasn’t sure how to do it. For a full thirty minutes, he sat there in church, pondering the conversation with Emily. Who would’ve guessed he’d have such a problem telling the truth?
He bowed his head and prayed, asking God to forgive him. When he finished, he left the church to seek forgiveness from his wife.
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