Traveling down my body, I know he’s going to find me already wet and ready for him to enjoy. Teasing me with his fingers, lingering at the band of my shorts, I can feel his smile on my stomach, knowing full well what he’s doing to me. He pulls my pants and panties down in one swift move. Mixed with the cool air hitting my bare skin, I moan in anticipation.
He wastes no more time as he licks me from back to front. Kissing, sucking, licking. When I feel his finger enter me, I know it’s not going to take long for me to spasm. My moans are getting louder and my breathing heavy. He adds a second finger, which is all it takes to push me over. When I climax, I feel Case cover my mouth with his to quiet me. I ride out my orgasm, kissing him back.
“Fuck,” I giggle, turning my head to the side when I’ve come down from my high.
“You’re a moaner,” he says, placing another soft kiss on my lips. This only makes me laugh more.
“I guess so,” I shrug, looking back over at him.
“What do you mean, you guess?”
“I mean that no one else has ever done that to me.” I feel my cheeks redden as I look into his face, biting my bottom lip nervously.
He reaches up and strokes my cheek with the back of his fingers. “Well, I’m honored.” I start laughing again, burying my face in his chest. “And you have a dirty mouth,” he adds.
“Because I said ‘fuck’?”
“Because you totally ate your own juices.”
“Ew! Don’t say ‘own juices!’” I complain, shoving his shoulder. “That makes it sound so much worse than it is.” He’s laughing hysterically, lying on his back now. “You totally ruined it.”
“Baby, I just gave you the best orgasm of your life. I didn’t ruin anything,” he says with a cocky look on his face and a raised eyebrow.
“A little cocky, are we?”
“After the sounds that came out of you, I don’t think you can deny it. Hell, I wish the guys were still here as witnesses.”
“Don’t you dare tell them!” I shout as I shift to straddle him and cover his mouth with my hands.
“Lily, you know I’m joking. I’d never tell them about this.” His face turns serious as he tucks my hair behind my ears.
“I know,” I say, bending down to kiss him again. This time it’s my turn to be in control. I can feel him hard underneath me. My nakedness mixed with him in only basketball shorts doesn’t leave much to the imagination. I sit up and shift so I can pull his shorts down, and he kicks them off the rest of the way.
I turn back to face him again, grinding against him. Although I haven’t fully seen him yet, I can feel him, and he feels good. “Mmm,” I hum as I close my eyes, sliding back and forth on him. He reaches up and cups my breasts again.
“You are beautiful,” he muses sweetly.
I slowly open my eyes and meet his stare. “I want you,” I admit.
“Lily…” He trails off. “I don’t think we should.”
Trying to make my point, I spread my legs more and grind harder, staring at him with honesty and lust.
His eyes darken as he looks at me. “Fuck…” he sighs, closing his eyes.
Reaching between my legs, I guide him to my entrance and push down in one movement. Holy fuckballs that hurt! Being a virgin and not knowing what size you are putting into you...yeah, I don’t recommend it.
He grabs my hips to keep me from moving. His eyes are looking right into mine now. “We don’t have to keep going.”
“I know, but I want to,” I grit as I start moving, pushing him in and out, up and down in small movements. The more I move, the better it begins to feel, but it still hurts.
When he reaches forward and starts to rub where we are joined, it makes my already sensitive body feel everything that much more. It doesn’t sting anymore and begins to feel good.
In one movement, Case has picked me up and shifted me to be on my back with him on top, still inside of me. “I’m going to come,” he says as he thrusts into me again, this time hitting a whole new spot.
“Case,” I whimper.
“Hold on for me,” he says, kissing my neck. He pushes in and out a few more times before pulling out of me with a grunt. I feel a wet warmth hit my stomach, and I know why. Oh, fuck. We didn’t use a condom.
His fingers find my sensitive area and lightly rub to make sure I’m getting my full ride. With that, I forget about our mistake as he takes me on another high.
But when I come down, my eyes shoot open. “We didn’t use a condom, Case,” I whisper.
“I know. That’s why I pulled out,” he says, getting up and grabbing some tissue to clean off my stomach.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t even think about it. You just felt so good, and I was so caught up in the moment. I’m so sorry, Case. I totally ruined this,” I confess, covering my eyes with my crossed arms.
“Don’t do that, Lily. You didn’t ruin anything. This was amazing.”
I slowly lower my arms, peeking up at him. “It was?”
He grins and kisses me again. “Yes. It was. So, the only thing that’s going to ruin it will be if you turn on me.” He is nuzzling into my neck now.
“That tickles!” I yell, squirming to get out of his hold.
“What? This?” he asks while doing it again, poking my sides.
“You’re going to make me pee! And that will ruin this! Stop!” I yell again as I kick to try to get away.
“You got me there. Go pee,” he says with his hands up in surrender, smiling at me.
I go to the bathroom and, well, pee, cleaning myself up before I walk back out. Case has his shorts back on and has made us a pallet on the floor to sleep on. The sight makes me smile. This is good.
I reach for my shirt to put back on when I feel Case grab my wrist and pull me down into his lap. “What do you think you’re doing?” he asks, kissing my wrist.
“Getting dressed.”
“No.”
“Case,” I say, pulling away from him a little. “I need to get dressed.”
“No,” he says again, pulling me in tighter.
“And why not?” Raising an eyebrow, I ask, laughing at his childish tantrum.
“Because I like you naked.”
“Spoken like a true man,” I deadpan.
He laughs and turns my face to look at him again. “Seriously. You are beautiful, Lily. I want to look at you forever, touch you always and be wrapped up in you every second of every day.”
“Wow,” I say, giving him a peck on the cheek. “That’s a little strong for me. I mean, just a week ago you called me a dork and made fun of my hair,” I add sarcastically.
“Stop talking, woman, and come here,” he says, pulling me to lie down next to him as he curls around me.
“Why do I have to be naked but you get to be dressed? I didn’t even get a chance to look at Pedro. That’s not even right!”
“Did you just call my penis Pedro?” he asks, laughing.
“Yeah. You know, from Varsity Blues.”
“Only you can call him that.”
“Deal.” I smile. “So…”
“So what?”
“Strip!”
“No! He’s not saluting now; it’ll be very disappointing.”
“Whatever, cheater,” I laugh as I curl into his warmth. I am all of a sudden very tired, and I feel sleep pulling me under while I’m still smiling. This feels good. This feels right.
4
Lily
When I wake up, there’s a smile still on my face. I stretch my tired muscles, continuing to smile as I look over to see a sleeping Case next to me. I place a small peck on his shoulder before getting up to head to the shower. When I come back out, he’s still asleep on the floor, looking so peaceful. I get tingles just thinking about what happened last night.
I can’t help myself; I have to take a look at him. Him, meaning Pedro. I kneel down next to Case and gently pull back the blanket. Then, I’m disappointed when I remember that he didn’t strip and is still wearing shorts.
They have shifted down slightly. If I am gentle, maybe I can look without him noticing…
I’m biting my bottom lip while watching as I pull the band of his pants down little by little. Almost there… “What are you doing?” I jump a mile high and let go of his pants, making the elastic snap down on his body. The sound makes me frown in disappointment. I was so close...
“What are you doing?” Case asks again, this time with a smile from my reaction.
“Trying to get a peek at, you know, Pedro,” I confess, feeling embarrassed from getting caught.
“Well, he is awake…” He trails off, grabbing my hand and putting it right on his hard dick. “I think he’s excited to be formally introduced. He didn’t have any manners last night. Sorry about that.”
I look up, giving him a smirk because we both know it was me and not him who didn’t have manners last night. “I want to see.”
“Then look.” He shrugs and puts his arms behind his head with a sigh and satisfied grin.
I assume my previous position and am just about to pull his pants back when he grabs my wrist. I freeze as my eyes shoot to his. But he’s smiling.
“Wait. Why do you have clothes on?”
“Seriously?” I ask with a raised eyebrow, putting my other hand on my hip.
“Yeah. I told you I like you naked.”
“I got in the shower and I didn’t know how long you were going to sleep, so I put my shirt back on. I’m not wearing pants or underwear if that makes a difference, you perv.”
“Let me get this straight. You woke up, took a shower, put clothes on and then tried to look at my junk without me knowing, and you are calling me a perv?”
“Yes,” I say with a nod.
“Ok, as long as we are on the same page.” He leans back again, letting go of my wrist, and shrugs again. “But I want you naked,” he adds.
“For the love!” I huff as I pull off my shirt. My wet hair hitting my back makes me cold and my nipples harden.
Case sits up on his elbows, looking at me with hungry eyes. Now I want to be covered up, and not because I’m cold, but because I suddenly feel very self-conscious. “Damn. You are perfect,” he says, looking straight at my chest.
“You know, I’d believe it more if you were looking at my face and not my cold boobs.”
“Do you need me to help you warm them up? Because I can do that,” he says, reaching out to touch me.
I smack his hands away. “Don’t you dare. This is my turn. I get to look and touch you.”
“Fair enough,” he says, leaning back, then shoots back up again. “Wait. Did you say touch?”
“Yeah, since you’re awake now, I’m definitely touching him.”
“See? Perfect,” he says while lying back, for now the third time. This time I show no mercy as I rip his shorts down and smile.
“Damn, woman! You could have killed Pedro!”
“I would never…” I laugh, then my eyes look down. Holy fuckballs. “That was inside me?!” I screech with wide eyes.
Case sits back up again, laughing at my reaction. “He’s happy to meet you too. And yes, he was inside you. You ok, by the way? I should have asked. I didn’t hurt you, did I?” This time a sincere look has replaced his cocky grin.
“No. I’m fine.” I can’t take my eyes off of it. Him. Pedro. “Wow.”
“Ok, now you are making me feel weird. Appreciated and like a god, but weird.”
“Sorry. I just never…” I trail off again. Apparently, I’m unable to form full sentences when Pedro is in the room. I shake my head and look up at Case. “Last night was incredible.” I lean over and kiss him on the lips. “Can I touch him now?”
Case laughs again, throwing his head back. “Yes, you can touch him.”
I move my body between his legs. I’m still on my knees, and when I reach out and touch him, it’s the warmest, softest, hard thing I’ve ever felt. I stroke him a couple of times without thinking. “Uh, Lil, if you don’t stop doing that, it’s going to go off.”
I ignore him and lean down and kiss him on his tip. “Lil…” he warns again.
I kiss down his shaft, and then I run my tongue from the bottom up, ending with my mouth around his head.
“Damn, Lily,” he hisses.
I find a rhythm of stroking with my hand and moving him in and out of my mouth. I feel Pedro hit the back of my throat and keep going. I hear Case let out what sounds like a growl at the same time I feel him swell more. Without warning, there is hot liquid squirting into my mouth. I don’t even think about it as I slide my mouth slowly off of him and swallow down everything that has filled my mouth. Did I just swallow come? I think I might puke.
I smile up at Case, lean over and kiss him. I kiss him long and hard. When I pull away, I say the first thing that comes to mind. “Now you’re tasting your own juices,” I declare with a head nod and smirk.
“You are one sick girl,” he says, grabbing me to lie down on his chest. I lie there for a second, smiling.
“Can I go brush my teeth now?” I ask.
“Let’s both go do that,” he says, taking my hand and walking with me to the bathroom.
We both decide that we’re starving, so we get dressed and head upstairs, where his mom is in the kitchen drinking her coffee and reading the paper. “Good morning, Mrs. A. How are things?” I ask, leaning in to give her a hug.
“Same old stuff around here. You keeping my boy in line?” she asks in her thick Italian accent.
“I try, but you know how he can be,” I say, glancing back at Case with a smile.
“Yes, I do,” she laughs. “What are you two doing today?”
“We’re going to go get some breakfast, and then Rachel has to get home for a wedding,” he says.
I can feel the color draining from my face. “Did you seriously just call me Rachel?”
The look on his face says it all as he closes his eyes, realizing his mistake. “I’m so sorry Li…”
“I should slap you right now. And I would if your mom wasn’t in the room,” I interrupt. “Let’s go, I’m hungry,” I add as I turn to leave.
“What did he just do?” his mom asks, looking confused by my reaction.
I stop and turn. “He just called me Rachel,” I say, putting my hands on my hips. I’m so pissed and hurt I think I’m seeing red. At least I’m not crying, yet. I turn to leave again, but stop short. “I’ll be in the car when you’re ready, Mitch.”
As I’m closing the door, I hear his mom yelling at him in Italian along with a smack. “Stop hitting me, Ma!” I hear him yell as I close the door. I love his mom.
Before I even have the car door closed, Case is right there pulling it back open. “I’m so sorry, Lily. I don’t know why I said that.”
“Because you still have feelings for her,” I say, looking straight ahead out the front windshield.
“That’s just it; I don’t. Last night was amazing, and now I... I’m so sorry, Lily. Please look at me?” he pleads. The second I turn my head and look up at him, a tear falls down my face. Stupid tear of betrayal.
“Is this what you want to see? How you hurt me? Because there it is.” I’m getting louder the more I confess as tears keep falling one right after the other. “I thought it was going to be different, you and me. Now I know I’m just another one of the many. You can now add ‘fucked a virgin’ to your long list of things you’ve done when we play Never Have I Ever.”
“Lily, that’s not fair. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you. It was different. You have to believe that.”
“I don’t have to believe shit, Case. I can’t even look at you right now. How am I supposed to believe anything you say?”
“Please,” he pleads.
“I think I should just go home now,” I say as I get up, pushing him out of my way as I walk back inside to get my bag.
Back in the safety of my car, I pull away and see Case standing there watching me leave. Why doesn’t he stop me? Why didn’t he fight for me more? I guess
I was right; I was just another girl. Nothing special.
Once I’m in town, I pull over into a parking lot. “FUCK!” I yell, hitting my steering wheel. “Fuck, fuck, fuck!” I bury my head in my hands and sob, my heart completely broken. Shattered into a million pieces.
Me: I need you. I fucked up. Bad.
Lola: I’ll be there in 10. XO
5
Lily
“What a dick! I never really liked him,” Lola tells me. She never holds back her feelings, and this isn’t a time she tries to change.
“You say that about everyone, Lo,” I deadpan.
“Maybe, but I’m serious. He always had a dicky-ness to him.”
“Did you just make up a new word?” I laugh.
“Maybe.” She shrugs. “I can’t be the first person to use it though.”
“Probably not. And you’re right. He does,” I say, closing my eyes and lying back on my bed. “But, Lo, for a little bit, he wasn’t a dick. He was actually really sweet when it was just us.”
“Lillian Marie! That’s your name!” she yells at me. “And he used a different girl’s name after your amazing night of him being so sweet,” she adds, sounding like she’s going to hurl at any minute.
“It was my first time, Lo,” I whisper, rubbing my hands over my face.
“I know,” she says, softening her hard exterior. She lies down next to me and takes my hand. “I’m sorry it ended like that.”
“What’s wrong with me, Lola?”
“Guys are douche holes and you aren’t.”
“Lo?”
“Yeah.”
“Thanks for always knowing the perfect thing to say.”
“That’s what I’m here for,” she comforts, nudging her shoulder into mine. I push her back, and we go back and forth until we are both laughing hysterically. Why it’s so funny is beyond me, but at that moment, it’s exactly what I need and my best friend knows it.
“Ugh! I have to get ready for this wedding.” I rub my eyes, knowing that they are going to be all red and puffy from crying.
“I’ll help you if you want. I can do your hair and makeup.”
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