Hidden in Sight

by Julie E. Czerneda

  “I don’t know you. I don’t know either of you! Did you think you could simply lie to me all this time, call yourselves friends—” He spat again, as if the word seared his mouth. “Did you think you could insinuate yourselves into my family? Do you dare believe I won’t kill you for this?”

  Well, yes, I had hoped for better, I sighed to myself, but there was nothing to reason with in his contorted face.

  If I was babbling in my distress, Paul might have turned to ice, unmoving and silent. I couldn’t tell if he breathed. Had he’d lived out this scene so many times in his imagination nothing Largas said now could touch him? Or was he mesmerized by the hate in the other Human’s eyes?

  It didn’t matter. We couldn’t stay here. Paul was right. Only fools would waste the chance to escape whatever doom our attackers planned. But we stood, frozen, as if the binding of betrayal was somehow stronger than that of love.

  I should have known Paul would break free first. Muttering curses, no few involving blue blobs and empty brain-cases, my Human took Largas’ arm in a grip from which the other couldn’t fight free, using that hold to pull his protesting father-in-law over the vines and toward the back wall.

  I loped behind, hopping over damaged vegetation and shattered pots without a word, knowing where Paul was taking us. He’d insisted on hidden exits in our office and home. Here, as well, there was a doorway leading to a secret passage, with a fueled and ready aircar concealed at its end. Where he thought we’d go after that, I didn’t know. No where on Minas XII—not any more. This world belonged to Joel Largas and his kin.

  When we stopped for Paul to enter the codes releasing the camouflaged section of wall and opening the revealed door, I moved to one side and cycled, flowing among my wounded plants, assimilating any still-living cells into more of myself. When I had enough, I cycled . . .

  ... and, under the hate-filled gaze of her dear friend, Joel Largas, Esolesy Ki sat on the floor and proceeded to tuck bits and pieces of dying leaves between her scales, one at a time.

  It seemed, I sighed to myself, as fitting a way to say good-bye to my greenhouse, this form, and this life as any.

  Otherwhere

  “THEY must have died in the explosion, Eminence.”

  The figure in black and chrome raised a brow and waited.

  The Kraal officer standing before her shivered. Her quarters were set several degrees below ship norm. Convenient. In this instance, however, she judged his reaction to be other than physical. “We will scour the wreckage of all three buildings again, Eminence, look for any trace—”

  “No.” Pa-Admiral Mocktap tapped the tabletop dismissively. “Port Authority will be watching each incursion site. The risk of exposure has grown unacceptably high. If you concur, Your Eminence,” she added more temperately, as if realizing speaking out of turn at this table was unwise.

  The figure nodded, once, then spoke, her voice velvet over steel: “A search for remains serves no purpose. Their deaths were not part of my strategy.”

  The Kraal officer did his best to hold his face expressionless, but the tattoos curling over his forehead compressed. The beginning of a disapproving frown.

  “You doubt me?” The steel more prominent.

  Another officer, standing to one side and behind, dared take a step to bring himself level with the one being questioned. A request. She raised her brow again, this time in invitation. “What is it?”

  “Your pardon, Eminence, but our orders did include the execution of Paul Ragem.”

  Thin lips stretched in what might have been the faintest of smiles. “Did they?”

  “I swear it.”

  “Did you succeed?” At his flush, she lifted a finger dismissively. Offended pride was tiresome. “They’ve left the system sometime in the last few hours. A report on all outbound traffic, immediately.” The two officers touched fingertips to their tattooed cheeks and left the room.

  “Minas XII is a busy port.” Mocktap commented dryly. The Kraal leaned back in her chair, abandoning her rigid posture now that subordinates of indirect affiliation were no longer present to notice and report. Ephemerals—pathetically worried about the signs of age and its consequence. The previous Mocktap to hold the rank of Admiral had been the same, until assassination ended her concerns. “I’ve checked the time frame,” Mocktap continued. “Over seventy departures were listed with Fishertown Port Authority. Let alone what’s not on that list. This is a Fringe system, after all.” An unspoken, possibly automatic challenge. Kraal nobility expected results and detested failure. Irrelevant.

  Where will you run, Youngest? Not home. I haven’t left you that option. “Make sure our list is complete. When I see the destinations of those ships, I will know where they have fled.”

  11: Freighter Night

  THERE had been times, innumerable ones at that, during which I was convinced my reason for being was merely to provide a hearty laugh for the Cosmic Gods, should such deities exist. At others, I’d been just as sure they ignored me completely. Esen who?

  Both were the misconceptions of youth, I decided, spitting a morose bubble from my swim sacs and watching it float by my oculars. Whatever forces shaped this particular universe were neither ignoring me nor amused.

  They were out to get me.

  “Esippet.”

  It had been so peaceful while he was pacing around the compartment. I twitched a forelimb—hopefully sufficient reaction to reassure Paul about his flawless pronunciation of my formsake’s name without encouraging conversation. It wasn’t. “Don’t you ignore me, Es! Where in the Sixty Frozen Hells of Urgia are we going?”

  While it was gratifying on some level to have my friend and partner finally take an active interest in events, since that implied he might also take responsibility for doing something about them, shouting at me was hardly necessary. I turned color, knowing the e-suit would express the purple hues of dignified displeasure quite efficiently, if with less than perfect tonal accuracy. One could only do so much with plas, syntha-cable, and a color wheel.

  My Human wasn’t color-blind, just persistent. “You aren’t the only one less than happy at the moment, Fangface,” the Human reminded me, crouching for a better look inside my helmet. As if he could read an expression from folded mouthparts and a rosette of shiny oculars. “It isn’t helping having you wait it out as—as seafood.”

  My purple morphed to a furious red without any conscious thought on my part. “That’s disgusting,” I informed him, feeling the translator in my e-suit turn the vibrations from my pre-gills into something Paul could hear. “I am not food of any sort!” Well, perhaps the Ycl and multiple denizens of this form’s home planet might argue that point, but the Human was being deliberately offensive. The Oieta was a fine form, dignified and expressive. Well, to be honest, the suit diminished those characteristics somewhat. But it did enhance others.

  For instance, my present self, Esippet Darnelli Swashbuckly—the latter two names being those Lesy had picked for me from her favorite Oietae novel during my first excursion to the oceans of Oietai Tierce—gained significant stature from the suit. I was the same height, standing, as Paul, though more slender. Inside the suit, my Oieta-self was no more similar to his preferred seafood, Mendley Shrimp, than the Human was to a Terran platypus.

  I supposed there were some similarities in design. My tender body was protected along back and sides by a flexible segmented shell, though mine was encased within a thick, soft integument studded with chromatophores and bioluminescent glands, as one would expect in a species reliant on visual signals.

  I possessed delicate, long antennae and twenty-three sets of gill-fringed legs, the first eighteen being swimmerets while the lattermost and larger pairs were for walking. Preceding them all were several highly functional appendages: three pairs of specialized arms, each with a comb on the inner surface of their second joint so I could groom any part of me that required it. Handsome, fastidious beings, the Oietae. The combs were also very useful when it came to u
rging delectable living things toward the filtering brushes lining my mouthparts.

  From the outside, thanks to the suit, I appeared to be something significantly different—almost humanoid, if you overlooked a few oddities. There was that smooth bulge where a spine should be and my wonderful antennae, presently imprisoned down my back in long, immobile tubes. The suit did a better job of accommodating my arms, having supple sleeves fitted to my clawtips. All three pairs of arms. There was, however, a distinctive flare of material, forward-directed, extending from under my lowermost arms, down both sides of my slim torso, to the bottom of the suit. My remaining appendages had to be fitted in somehow, with room to move. The swimmerets needed to keep beating—the suit recycled water over my gills, so there was no need to augment the mechanics, but it felt more natural to breathe on my own.

  Moving I couldn’t do on my own, being completely adapted to a marine lifestyle. So any independently mobile Oieta-suit came with an antigrav unit, allowing me to float a very small amount above any surface. The sleeves covering my lowermost and strongest pair of arms ended in telescoping poles that I could use to push myself along.

  Or to poke an obnoxious Human in the ribs. “Not seafood,” I stated firmly. “And we’re going to Prumbinat. I told you before we boarded.”

  “You didn’t tell me why.”

  Another advantage of the suit was being able to magnify the images reaching my oculars. Too much! I hastened to reduce my view to a close look at Paul’s face, rather than into his pores. “You’re still upset about having to squeeze into one of these, aren’t you?” I’d considered it a very clever idea—two suited Oietae casually boarding a freighter. What could be less like a Human and Lishcyn fleeing for their lives?

  He ran one hand through his hair, as if I needed him to point out the streaks of bright yellow-green now lacing its black. At least his skin had kept its light tan color—where it wasn’t pink from scrubbing. “Be grateful you can’t smell,” Paul said, mildly enough. Our present accommodations didn’t include luxuries like ’fresher stalls. The Human had compulsively rinsed himself and his clothes using the outlet for drinking water. Several times, in fact.

  I still thought it had been a brilliant plan. Paul had worn an artificial gill, so his lungs could exchange gases with the fluid inside the suit. But there had been one, small miscalculation. That fluid, though vital and pleasantly tasteful to my Oieta-self, had turned out to react in various unfortunate ways with Human physiology. And so quickly, too. “Well, you’ve stopped vomiting,” I offered helpfully.

  He gave me that look. “Esen. Please. I didn’t argue your choice of transport, or the suit—”

  “Because I was right,” I said, wishing I could preen myself properly with one of my lower arms. “Right, right, right.”

  For some reason, Paul ran one hand over his face. Perhaps he felt an urge to preen for me. “How long are you planning to use this form?” he surprised me by asking.

  I blew another bubble and watched it float by my face. Maybe he’d be quiet if I ignored him.

  “Esippet?”

  Or maybe not. “Yes, Paul?” I asked.

  “Damn it, Esen-alit-Quar!” His voice was inconsiderately loud. “I need you. Do you understand me? You can’t be like this. You can’t—” The Human’s lips shut tight and he seemed to study me. Something in his expression changed. I didn’t bother trying to interpret it. “Maybe you have to be. At least for now. Forget I asked.”

  “Of course,” I agreed, going back to semi-morose bubble gazing while contemplating the Cosmic Gods, aware but not acknowledging that Paul had returned to pacing our compartment.

  As long as he left me in peace, he could do as he pleased.

  Our escape from the greenhouse was well-timed. A series of explosions ripped the warehouse apart moments after Paul piloted the aircar out of its hidden hangar. As we sped away, my Human glanced at me and shook his head once, eyes somber. I understood. The explosions were too well-timed. They’d wanted us out and on the run, not dead. Whoever they were.

  My scales became swollen and refused to relax again.

  We couldn’t discuss our next move, not in front of our passenger, bound and silent behind us, his eyes boring holes into our backs. Not that there was much to discuss, I thought. I could call up the list of ships fin-down, legally and otherwise, from memory, and saw only one choice. I couldn’t go home, if the word applied to Picco’s Moon and Ersh’s corpse. Largas knew we’d planned to go there. Paul couldn’t go home, if the word still applied to Botharis and the family who thought him dead. Kearn knew he lived, and we couldn’t know if he watched for Paul’s return.

  Above all, we couldn’t risk any ship controlled directly, or indirectly, by Largas Freight.

  Last, but not least, I wouldn’t go to any system containing a member of Paul’s Group. Something I hadn’t told my Human yet. I didn’t expect him to be happy about it, especially when he knew why.

  I finally believed in the Prime Law. No one outside our Web could be trusted. Ersh would have been proud.

  I didn’t like remembering. I liked watching bubbles released from my swim sacs as they floated past my oculars. I didn’t like the pensive glances Paul gave me. I liked it much better when he stretched out on the floor to sleep. Or pretend to sleep—it didn’t matter to me which, as long as he refrained from conversation.

  I very much liked my suit. It made me tall and graceful. It protected me from the filth of this cargo compartment. It nourished and cleaned me.

  Paul should have endured his. Then he’d be safe from all harm. To be safe meant to stay hidden. I knew what mattered. Stay hidden; stay safe. If we were hidden, everything would be fine again. In the suit, no one would be able to see what he was or know his name. He should try again.

  I couldn’t disturb his sleep. Sleep was important. I’d been trying to sleep since the freighter went translight. I’d found a spot between a rack and a pair of tables, where I could lean my lovely suit against the former, and push with my poles against the latter. Oietae are rocked to sleep by the waves of their home ocean—well, those who did wilderness swims were. Urban dwellers managed nicely by clinging to the vibrating rope of their choice.

  No matter how I tried, the rocking was never right, either too rough or too frequent or too . . . I was growing exhausted. It was most annoying.

  I’d been wrong. How odd. Paul wasn’t asleep. He was standing in front of me, a lump of netting in his hands. His face was weathered ice, chipped into a down-turned mouth and grieving eyes. He didn’t speak, becoming busy with the net and some cable, so I kept trying to rock myself.

  Then I wasn’t rocking—I was rising in a most alarming manner. Before I could do more than flail my poles and flash red with indignation, the Human deposited me into his net. The last desperate movements of my arms tangled me in the dreadful device. I gave up and lay still, peering up at him. “I’m sorry you vomited in your suit,” I said very clearly. “But that’s no reason to take your revenge on me.”

  “Shhh.” He shoved the mass of net and suit that was me away from him. I swung toward the ceiling, slowed, then swung down and past him, the water in my suit sloshing as inertia fought momentum. He gave me another, gentler push, let me pass, then another, even gentler.

  “This is nice,” I admitted, fading to amber.

  “I’ve had practice,” he said quietly. “Now, shhh. You’re so tired I’m afraid you’ll blow a hole in the deck soon.”

  I clenched my swimmerets, courses of yellows playing over the suit. Laughter. “Silly Paul. I won’t do that. I’m safe now.”

  “How so?” Softer still.

  “I’m hidden—right here. Look. You can’t see, see—” for some reason I was finding it hard to concentrate. “Me. You can’t see me, can you?”

  Push and swing. “Does that make a difference?”

  “Yes. No. Yes.” I would have kept this going but lost track with the next upswing. “You should put on your suit. I like my suit.”
/>   “The suit keeps you hidden,” he repeated cooperatively.

  I flashed a contented amber. “Oh, the suit does much more than that, silly old Human. Put yours on—it’s so much better in the suit.”

  “What’s better, Es?” I cringed at his tone, its bright edge of suspicion. Ersh used it too.

  This body wanted to curl up suddenly. I tried not to let it, to keep relaxed and enjoy the motion. I could fall asleep so easily, if he’d stop talking.

  I thought he had, and let myself drift. The swinging slowed without Paul pushing, but continued to soothe.

  Until the swinging stopped with a jerk. I focused on the Human, now leaning over me. His suit trailed from his hand. “Oh,” I said happily. “You’re going to put it back on.”

  “I think one of us blissed out of our gills is enough.” His voice was an odd mix of frustration and pity. I didn’t like the sound of it at all. I didn’t like stopping either, and tried to get the net swinging again by wriggling. He tossed his suit behind him and reached for mine. “Hold still, Es. I’ve figured out the adjustments from mine—”

  If I hadn’t been wrapped in the net, I would have been able to defend myself. As it was, I made Paul’s misguided attempt to sabotage my suit as difficult as possible, managing to hit him with my head twice, the second time drawing a pained, “Oof! Es, will you stop that!” from the Human.

  But it didn’t stop him.

  There was no way around it. We had to leave Joel somewhere. It didn’t help that Minas XII was showing her finest fall colors, namely the black of storm clouds and the white of a too-early snow. I waited for Paul, not knowing what to do, not knowing what a Human as old and angry as Joel could withstand.

  I did know how dangerous he would be to us both, now. It made me wish for a form that could weep.

  The storm was moderate by local standards, meaning you were judged moderately insane to be flying in it. Couriers stayed in the air, for-hires did not. Port Authority would play it safe. I didn’t think our attackers would.