Josh brushed a strand of hair from her face and tucked it behind her ear. He leaned in and kissed her forehead. She wrapped her arms around him and hugged him, as she looked into his dark, loving eyes. Her body relaxed and her fear left her. How did he do that, just by looking at her. He always made her feel safe and protected. She stretched her neck and placed her lips on his. His body was warm and inviting. He licked across her bottom lip before holding it between his teeth and softly sucking it. Lisa loved when he was gentle and loving, just as much as she loved it when he was commanding and in charge. She parted her lips and slid her tongue across his as she ran her fingers through his soft, silky hair. He was the sexiest man she had ever seen. His hands rubbed and kneaded her back as they kissed. He was amazing, and he was hers.
“I need a shower before I go. Would you like to join me?” he asked.
“I wouldn't want you to go to your meeting dirty,” she said.
Josh slid from the bed and let the sheet fall, as he stood up. She watched his sexy, naked body as he walked to the bathroom. How did she get so lucky, she wondered? Just looking at his hard chest and chiseled abs sent a chill through her body. He was sweet, caring, and wonderful. The beauty of his perfect body was an added bonus. A bonus she appreciated as often as she could. Lisa stood up and followed him.
He was already standing under the warm water, when she reached for the shower door. Lisa slid in quietly. His eyes were closed as he let the water run down his body. Why that turned her on so much, she had no idea. Lisa ran her fingers up and down his chest slowly. She reached up, wrapped her arms around his neck, and pulled his lips to hers. He was driving her wild without doing anything. Her lips plunged against his as she claimed his mouth. Lisa felt the need to mark him as hers. A rush of need surrounded her and she wanted him bad. His wet hair felt amazing between her fingers. Josh eyes opened wide with shock.
“What's gotten into you this morning? I like this side of you,” he said.
“I need you, Josh,” she whispered into his ear, as she kissed his neck.
Josh pulled back and his eyes scanned her whole body.
“You are so beautiful.”
He kissed her neck and down her chest. His hand cupped her breast while his mouth claimed the other. His tongue licked and sucked her nipple as it hardened in his mouth. Her head fell back as she moaned. She arched her back, pushing her body into his touch. He made his way slowly to her other breast to show it the same attention. She kept her hands of the back of his head, holding him against her. His hand made its way down her smooth stomach and over her mound. He slid his fingers across her warm, wet path as his palm brushed against her clit.
“You're so wet and ready for me, baby,” he growled, which made her grab onto his neck.
Her hand made its way down his sculpted body until she reached his extremely hard cock.
“Shit, Josh,” she breathed, as she buried her face in his neck.
She gripped onto his shaft and began to stroke him. His breath escaped him in one long stream as he plunged one finger into her warm, wet pussy. She felt her body push against his hand, as he took his finger in and out of her, before adding a second finger. Lisa could feel the water slide off of them both together. She wanted him and wasn't about to wait. Something about that moment, she wanted him to take her hard and fast. His fingers drove deeper and harder into her as she released her moans.
“Oh, Josh, please.”
“What baby, tell me what you want. I want to hear you say it.”
“I want you. I need you inside of me now.”
She pulled him to her and tightened her arms around his neck as his mouth crushed against hers with need. He pushed his body against her as she went against the wall. She could feel how hard he was against her lower belly. Lisa felt herself squirm against him. She kept her arms around his neck and kissed him with all that she had. He grabbed her leg and pulled it up against his waist. Then he grabbed the other and picked her up to him. She held her legs around his waist with her back against the shower wall. The water splashed off of their heated bodies. She could feel the tip of his cock against her opening and waited for him to enter her. He continued kissing her and feeling her body. She moved her body over his tip, encouraging him to take her. It was like he was teasing her. She looked into his darkened eyes and felt the need pouring from him.
“Fuck. Me. Now.” she demanded.
Josh smiled at her as he plunged into her, taking her breath away. She held him tight and pulled her chest against his as he filled her. He felt bigger than before. She wanted every bit of him inside of her. Lisa needed him. He held her back against the wall as he fucked her hard. She slid up and down the wall. It was amazing. She knew she was going to shower with him more often. Lisa clutched his back in her hands as she let her head lean back. He pumped into her hard and deep.
“You feel so good wrapped around me. Do you know how good you feel? I don't think I'll ever get enough of you,” he moaned.
She gasped as he tightened his grip on her hips and thrust into her hard, as if his life depended on it.
“Yes, Josh, oh yes,” she moaned, as she bit her bottom lip. “Oh, Fuck, yeah.”
Lisa felt herself go over the edge, as she tightened around his cock over and over. He followed right behind her as he shoved her hard against the wall and thrust into her as deep as he could. He released into her over and over as he rode out his orgasm, with one hand behind her head against the wall. He leaned into her and held her there until their breathing returned to normal. Her feet slid to the floor as her legs shook. She looked into his eyes, as he held his forehead against hers.
“I am the luckiest man in the world,” he said with a smile.
She ran her hand down the stubble on his chin and smiled at him.
“That is something I could get used to,” she smirked. “It didn't hurt you did it?”
“It was well worth it,” he laughed.
When Josh left for his meeting, Lisa began to clean up the house. She was wiping the counter as she looked up at the calendar, confused. Her eyes widened. She finished what she was doing. Josh would be gone for at least another hour. She put on her shoes, grabbed her purse, and headed to her car. She had plenty of time before he would be home.
***
When Josh walked back into the apartment, everything was silent. He was in such a good mood. It was going to be a great afternoon. He placed the large bag he was carrying on the table just inside the front door. Josh was ready. It was time. He crossed the room and looked around the corner. He saw Lisa sitting at their table, with her back to him. Josh quietly walked across the room, went down on one knee, and began to speak. He saw her startle at his first word but kept going. There was no way he was losing his thought.
“Lisa, I love you with every single bit of me. I used to watch you sit on that porch for hours, as you watched me. It didn't matter what I was doing, you made it seem like it was the most important thing in the world. You were adorable. Who knew that silly girl would steal my heart?”
She looked down at the table.
“When Gavin called me that night and told me it was you in that fire, my chest tightened. I knew I had to be there. I enjoyed every moment of taking care of you and getting to know the real you. I appreciated every tiny second with you. I fought love, because I didn't want to lose anyone like I had lost my dad. You pushed past every wall I threw up. You asked me questions and cared about me. I blocked you and you pushed it aside. You jumped right in to help me with the business and never expected anything in return. I love watching you with my family. That day my brother asked you out, I thought he was a goner. I was so mad. I knew I didn't have any claim to you, but that didn't matter. It was then that I realized my feelings were so strong. He wasn't good enough for you. Heath wasn't good enough for you. I couldn't think of anyone that was good enough for you. There was no one who could take care of you and love you, not like I could.”
She still hadn't looked over at him, but he
kept going.
“When you told me you were moving out, I was crushed. I couldn't imagine being here without you. You belonged here with me. I saw that ad and those boxes on your bed and felt helpless. How could I get you to stay? In that fire, you were all I could think about. I remember being stuck and thinking that I had to make it out, so I could tell you I loved you. When I woke up and felt you there, I knew everything was going to be okay. I knew that whatever shape I was in, you would be there for me. You would help me through it. When the nurse told me that my wife was amazing and had not left the hospital for one moment, I knew you were mine. You would be mine forever. I love you more and more with each day that passes. I am still afraid of losing you. That part hasn't changed. I know that I want to enjoy every second I have with you. I will never regret taking that chance. You have changed me for the better. You deserve the best of everything. A man to protect you, care for you, show you how special you are, and put your needs before his. I am that man, Lisa. I want to be there for you until I take my last breath. I want to love you every moment of every day. Will you let me be that man for you? Lisa, will you marry me?”
Josh pulled out a box and opened it. Lisa turned to him with tears streaming down her face. She sat silent for what seemed like forever. Lisa looked into his eyes.
“You have no idea how many times in my life I have dreamt of you asking me that. I can't believe it is really happening.”
“Is that a yes?” he asked.
“I need to tell you something first,” she said, as tears continued to run from her eyes.
Josh saw how red and puffy her eyes and cheeks were. It hadn't just started. He realized she had been crying before he got there. He felt his chest tighten and a nervousness run through his body.
“Please do not tell me you are leaving. I am not letting you run from me. I won't let you do it.”
Lisa wiped the tears from her eyes as she tried to form her words. He could tell she was afraid of what she was about to tell him, and it scared the shit out of him.
“You know I was on that medicine after I hurt my ankle and things were super crazy. I was stressed out about going back to work. I wasn't sure if I was ready, but I knew I had to get back on my feet so I could get back on my own. I needed to get away from my feelings for you. When I got home from that flight, I didn't know what I was going to do, but I knew I couldn't work there anymore. I was nervous and scared. You remember that night right?” she asked.
“I remember that night very well. It was the best moment of my entire life. I had been so afraid that you were gone. Every single emotion I had seeped out me as I made love to you. There is not a single thing I would change about that,” he answered.
He leaned forward and took her hands in his. Where was she going with it? He couldn't figure out what she about to say. It was the best sexual experience of his life. He let out a long, slow breath as he braced himself for what she was about to say.
“I don't know if I can do this,” she said, as her hands shook in his.
“Lisa, I love you. I won't let you push me away. You can tell me anything. I won't be mad, I promise. Talk to me.”
“I started to work for you and got really into what we were doing. Then the fire happened and everything went crazy again. I was there with you, and all I could think about, was you waking up and getting better. When you came home, I wanted to take care of you. Then there was the wedding. I lost track of time and everything. Things were so busy. This morning, I was cleaning and realized something. I went to the store while you were gone.”
She stopped and looked down at her hands. He was about to lose it. The pressure was to much. He was proposing to her. It was supposed to be a happy moment, but he was scared.
“Okay, you went to the store. You're killing me here. Please tell me what you need to tell me.”
“I'm pregnant, Josh,” she said, as the tears spilled out of her eyes. “I'm sorry. I was on the pill. I didn't do anything to deceive you. I was on the pill. I feel so bad. You went to reach for a condom that night and I stopped you. It's my fault.”
She wouldn't look into his eyes.
“Do you regret that you're pregnant?” he asked.
Did she not want a baby?
“Oh no, not at all,” she said. “I don't want you to think that. I am very happy about the baby. I will raise this baby and give this baby the best life I can. I love the baby so much already. It's not that. I feel bad. You wanted to protect yourself and I stopped you. I had no idea this could happen. I feel like I put you in a position you didn't want to be in, and I am sorry for that. I promise you that I didn't think this could happen. I didn't think I could get pregnant. I love you, josh. I love you more than I ever thought I could love someone. You make me so happy. You make me feel like the only woman in the world. I don't want you to feel obligated at all. It was completely my fault. You can go back to your normal life. I can go and stay with Becky and Gavin until I get back on my feet. I feel horrible for putting you in a position you did not want to be in.”
Josh held his hand up to stop her.
“Are you saying that you don't want to be with me now, because you're pregnant?” he asked.
He stood up and looked down at her.
“This is my baby too,” he said, as she paced the floor. “Do you want to keep my baby from me? You don't want to be with me now?”
Lisa hurried to her feet and stopped in front of him. She put her arms around his neck and looked into his eyes.
“That is not what I'm saying at all. I love you Josh. I want nothing more than to have a family with you. I would love to raise our beautiful baby together. We have talked about wanting kids, but nothing about wanting them right away. I don't want you to regret being with me, and I don't want you to ever feel like I tried to trap you. I am happy about being pregnant with your baby. Even if you decide you don't want to be with me because of how it happened, I will still be happy about having your baby. I want this baby. It is a million times better that this is your baby. I want to be with you for the rest of my life. I have always wanted you. I want you to be with me because of your love for me. I needed you to know about the baby, before I agreed to marry you. I want you to be as big a part of our child's life as you want to be. I just want you to know that I don't expect you to if you don't want to. I don't want you to be responsible for something that I did. Please don't think I don't love you. I love you more than you will ever know. I want to be with you and our baby together.”
Josh could see in her face that she was aggravated with herself. He knew what she was saying and respected what she was doing. She didn't want him to feel negative feelings and was taking full responsibility. He loved that about her. Josh loved everything about her. He took her hands in his.
“I love you just as much as I did when I came through that door and dropped to one knee. Actually, I love you even more. Thank you for being honest with me, and thank you for giving me a choice. This day is turning out a million times better than I imagined. I love you and I love our baby. I have more than enough love for both of you. That night was so important to me. It was an amazing night. Now, when I think back of that night, it will be the best night of my life. Not only did I pour every bit of feeling I had out for you, but a baby will be a part of us because of it. I am so glad we had that night together. I have one question to ask you,” he said.
Josh went back down onto one knee and pulled out the ring.
“Lisa, will you marry me, have our baby, and spend the rest of your life with me?”
“Yes,” she said.
Josh slid the ring onto her finger and kissed her. Then he rubbed his hand on her belly and gently kissed it.
“You are going to have everything you can imagine. I am going to be the best daddy I can. I am going to make sure you are proud to call me your father,” he whispered.
Epilogue
The next several months went by quickly. Josh had a couple of doctor's appointments and was finally released to go
back to work. Lisa had appointments with her doctor, and Josh made sure to be at every single one. Josh offered to move anywhere she wanted, but she wanted to stay right where they were. They had plenty of room for their bundle of joy.
Josh's mom was so excited that she was finally going to be a grandma. She spoiled Lisa and the baby as soon as they told her. Lisa became a part of his family right away and was so happy. It felt so good to know they cared about her. She never knew a family could be so wonderful. His mom wanted to help paint and plan the decorations for the nursery. Lisa knew what she wanted, but let his mom help her with many of the decisions. Their baby was going to be so loved. Lisa knew that the guest room would be used by his mom often. She liked the idea of seeing her grandchild. Lisa let her change things around in the guest room, so that she felt comfortable staying over if she wanted.
Lisa planned a nice dinner for their friends and Josh's family to tell them about the baby. His mom kept it quiet until that evening. Tammy was thrilled that she was going to be an aunt and Jack was happy about the uncle idea. Their friends were excited for them. Julie loved babies and was excited when she heard the news. She made sure to text Lisa every day to make sure everything was going well. Julie made it very clear that she would be the baby's doctor. Becky was so very happy for her friend. She couldn't believe how everything was working out for them. They had both found the love of their lives. Heath was pretty quiet, but Lisa knew he was happy for her. John and Gavin said their congratulations. Ethan was his usual self. He made jokes about how much sleep they would lose and about all of the baby stuff Josh would have to buy.
Josh caught Ethan watching Julie during dinner as they sat across from each other. He wasn't sure exactly what was up between them, but he knew there was something going on. Josh was next to Ethan at the table, and out of nowhere someone kicked Josh in the leg hard. He looked up at Julie with a very stern look. Her eyes widened and she smirked and shrugged. She must have realized that she had gotten the wrong target. Josh knew that Gavin was going crazy watching Ethan flirt with his sister. Julie held her own and put him in his place. By the time dinner was over, Ethan was mumbling and mad. He told Lisa and Josh congratulations and walked out, shutting the door hard behind him.
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