by Delisa Lynn
“Evan, next time we have sex, we have to be careful,” she whispers.
“There will be a next time?” I ask, kind of shocked. Maybe it’s the damn wine talking.
“Of course. I love you, and Liam isn’t coming back, but if he does, I will go back to him. I hope you know that.”
“Okay, let’s talk about this later.”
I lead her out the front door and take her to the café, hoping she’ll sober up. I don’t like seeing her like this.
When we enter the café, she’s so damn giggly. She’s much more talkative than normal. She seems so happy. I know she’s happy because she’s not pregnant. She’s not ready to be a mom, and when she will be ready, it won’t be me she’s having a baby with.
We order our food. She drinks several cups of coffee and seems to be sobering up.
“I want to go to Paris. Do you want to go?” she blurts.
“Well, that sounds fun. Yes, eventually I would like to go. We just talked about this a couple months ago, Lila.” I sip my coffee.
“I know, but I just wanted to make sure you remembered.”
“Yes, and I would love to go to Paris with you. Maybe in a few years.”
She laughs and starts eating her BLT. This girl can eat a pound of bacon and want more. Where it goes, I have no clue. She’s super thin. After we finish eating, I take Lila back to the loft.
“Okay, what movie will it be tonight?” I ask as I throw some popcorn in the microwave. She plops down on the couch and flips through the channels. Then she bursts out laughing.
“What’s so damn funny?” I ask as I walk into the living room. Then I hear it. Fucking Brody has some chick in his room. Her moans are loud and fake as hell.
“Ahh, let’s go to my room. No movie tonight.”
I grab Lila’s hand, walk to my room, and kiss her. She kisses me back, but I still feel bad.
She looks at me and says, “It’s okay. You can kiss me whenever you want, Evan.”
“Oh, I can? I’m glad you said that, because I want to kiss you again.”
I push my lips onto hers. I can feel the heat from her body on mine. I turn her around so that when I push her to the bed, her back lands on the mattress.
“I’m going to change into something more comfortable. Do you want something?” I ask as I grab a pair of sweats from the dresser.
“Yes, just a t-shirt.”
She starts taking her clothes off. When she pulls her shirt above her head, I can see her nipples through her pink lace bra. She slides her pants down. She’s wearing a pair of pink lace boy shorts that match her bra.
“Jesus, Lila, you’re killing me.” I laugh and walk into the bathroom to change.
“No way, mister. Get back out here. Sit on the bed now, please.”
“Damn, you’re sexy when you’re bossy.”
“Pants off and lie back,” she says as she helps pull my jeans down.
She giggles. “Commando? Hmm…I like that.”
“I like what you’re wearing too, although you’re pretty damn sexy in my t-shirts.”
I pull her on top of me. She still has her bra and panties on, but I’m butt ass naked. I start kissing her and working my way down to her heat.
“I like how wet I make you,” I say as I pull her panties off. She’s not just wet. She’s dripping wet.
“I like how wet you make me too! Now, let me do what I was planning to do.”
She sits up and pushes me back on the bed. She kisses my chest and makes her way down. Then she takes my length in her hand and licks the tip. I throw my head back and groan.
“Do you like that?” she asks. She licks the precum off of my shaft.
“Hmm, I do…”
She wraps her lips around my dick and sucks it full force. I wrap my hands in her hair and push her head further down. I know she can’t take the rest of my length. Well, that’s what I thought, but she surprises me. She makes a humming sound in her throat and takes my entire length. My balls tighten, and I know I’m getting ready to release. She must know it too. She starts sucking harder and faster.
“Holy. Fucking. Shit,” I roar as I rock my hips into her mouth. Every ounce of me drips down her throat. She releases my dick from her mouth with a popping sound.
She winks at me. “I love you, Evan.”
“I love you, Lila.”
Chapter Twenty
Eleven Months Later
Evan
Lila and I have been seeing each other for almost a year. The army and Liam’s family still aren’t sure what happened to him. The army sent a letter saying he was missing, along with ten other soldiers. I feel so bad. I know Lila still misses him and loves him. She’s been so strong about everything. We had a great summer together. We went on a road trip to Pittsburgh. We even went to Utah and spent time with my dad. He’s doing better, even though he misses my mom.
“Hey, love. Are you ready? Our flight leaves in an hour,” Lila says as she walks out of the kitchen.
“Yep, I’m all packed. Are you ready?”
We’re flying to her parents’ house for Thanksgiving. Everyone in her family is going to be there. Her parents, her brother, and The Ellis’. She planned a huge shopping trip with Addison, and I’m going fishing with her dad and brother. I’m definitely nervous. I have a huge surprise planned for Lila when we return to NYC. Brody and Nikki helped me plan everything. Yes, they’re back together.
Lila and I rent a car and drive to the Carls’ place. I want to get her dad alone so I can ask him if I can marry Lila. I know it’s kind of old-fashioned, but I wouldn’t feel right popping the question without his permission.
When Lila and I get there, Eric and Addison are already there and so is Ashton. I finally get to meet the jerk. He’s actually a nice guy. His wife seems nice too. All the girls go to the kitchen, and all of us guys go to the family room to watch TV.
“So, Evan, Lila tells me you are graduating next year?” Mr. Carls says.
“Yes, sir, I will. I already have a job at a small law firm. I’ve worked there on and off the last four years.”
“That’s great, son. I really like that you and Lila are both into law.”
“Yes, I like that too, sir. Maybe, someday, she and I can open a practice together,” I say, hinting at what I want to ask him later. He just smiles and continues watching TV.
***
Dinner was great. Now all the ladies are going shopping and us men are going fishing. This is the day I want to ask her dad for permission. I just hope Lila’s dad won’t kill me for asking to marry his daughter.
We’ve been on the boat for about two hours. I haven’t caught many fish since my mind is clearly on other things. I cast my rod out and clear my throat. There is a lump the size of Texas in it. I look at Mr. Carls. He is a good fifteen inches away on the other side of the small boat.
“Sir, I wanted to ask you a question,” I say to Ray.
“Of course. Ask away, kid.”
“I would like to ask Lila to marry me. Is that okay with you, sir?”
I’m a nervous fucking wreck. My palms are sweating. I can feel sweat beads on my forehead. He just stares at me without saying a word. Oh fuck, he’s going to throw my ass overboard.
“Well, Evan, if you love her, and I mean really love her, then that’s fine by me, son. Welcome to the family,” he says, shaking my hand. Thank you, Jesus! For a moment there, I saw myself floating in the water.
“Thank you, sir. That means a lot.”
He laughs. “Let’s get back to the house and see what damage those girls did to my wallet.”
He wasn’t joking when he said they’d do damage. The girls bought so much stuff. I’m tired and ready to go home. I need to do this while I can. Lila isn’t ready to go, but I have to work all weekend. Well, she at least thinks I have to work all weekend. We say our goodbyes and fly back to NYC.
***
Once we land in New York, I grab our bags and walk Lila to the limo.
“Um, Evan?
A limo?”
“Yes, come on. You’ll love it, I promise.” I grab her hand. We get into the limo and everything—the music, the flowers, and the wine—is perfect.
“I want to ask you a question. I know it’s been a rough and crazy road, but it’s led us to this moment. I love you with all of my heart and I can’t see my life without you. I would be a very happy man if you would be my wife. Be my forever, Lila?” I open the ring box. I worked my ass off to pay for this ring.
“Yes! Yes, Evan, I will! Oh my gosh, I love you so much. It’s beautiful. Thank you, baby.” She kisses me.
“I have our entire night planned out. I hope you love it!” I pull her in for a hug.
“How did you do this?” she asks with a concerned look.
“I did have a little help.” I wink.
***
The hotel room looks great. Audrey decorated it and bought Lila some new lingerie. I have to give it to Audrey, she did a fantastic job. There are pink rose petals everywhere. She even bought two bottles of Lila’s favorite wine along with chocolate-covered strawberries and marshmallows.
“This is so beautiful. I can’t believe you did all this for me,” she says with tears in her eyes.
“Hey, what are the tears for? I will do anything for you, always!” I wipe her tears.
I start kissing her and taking her clothes off. God, I’m the luckiest bastard. Every inch of her is beautiful. I start at her neck and work my way down her body.
“Oh, Evan, I need you inside of me. Please, take me now.”
“Baby, I will. Trust me. I want to remember this night forever. I want to savor every minute.” I’m ready to be inside of her, but I want to touch and kiss her all night. I’m just getting started.
“Tell me how much you love and want me, baby,” I say as I slide a finger in my future wife’s wet heat.
“I love you so fucking much. I want you to fuck me hard. I want all of you inside of me,” she says as she pushes herself into my hand.
“You ready for me, baby? You ready to have all of me in that sweet pussy?”
“Oh, Evan, I am. Please, give it to me. I can’t take it anymore. Make love to me.”
I don’t bother using a condom. She’s on the pill, and hell, she’s going to be my wife. I kneel between her legs and guide myself in her. She moans. I pull out and insert just the tip. She moans again.
“Quit teasing me. I want you to fuck me nice and hard,” she begs.
“Oh, my girl likes it nice and hard, does she?”
“Yes, you know I do!”
I give it to her nice and hard, just as she begged. God, I love making love to her. She does things to me that no woman ever has. We make love for hours in different positions. As we come together, I feel closer to her than I have ever felt.
“I want to call Ads and Nik, but I think I’ll wait ‘til morning. I just want to sleep in your arms.”
I kiss her. “I will hold you all night, my love. Get some sleep, darlin’.”
***
We wake up to bad news. Addison was shot. She’s in critical condition. Lila is flying back home, and Brody and I are going back to California tomorrow. I’m so worried about Lila. I don’t want her to go alone, but I need to take care of some things at work. I call Nikki. She’s leaving Ohio to be with Lila.
I go to work and do everything I have to do. Then I fly to California. When I get to the hospital, Lila thinks I’m Liam, for whatever reason. I’m not sure if she’s delirious from the stress or what.
“Baby, it’s me, Evan. I’m here now.”
“Oh, Evan, she’s dying. What am I going to do without her?”
God, I wish I could take this pain away from her. I feel so bad.
Not too long after I arrive, they turn the machines off. Addison is gone, and Lila loses it.
***
It’s been three weeks since our engagement and since Addison died. Lila has been so distant. All she does is cry. She won’t eat or sleep. I worry about her so much.
She’s going home for Christmas, but I’m going to Utah. I hate that we won’t be together, but she needs to be with her family and friends, and I need to be with my dad. He hasn’t been doing well.
When it came time, Lila and I go our separate ways. My dad is so happy to see me, and my grandparents even drive out to spend the weekend with us. Seeing all of them is great. Lila texts me and says that she and her mom are shopping for wedding things. I told my family about the engagement. My dad is thrilled, but Gran? Well, she still has a soft spot for Tatum, who is still with Thayer.
I’ve been back in New York for a few days and I can’t get a hold of Lila. I call her mom and she informs me that Liam is alive. The army has found him. He’s not injured too badly. He’s been in a hospital in Colorado.
I take the first flight that I can to go get my fiancée, but I’m too late. He has her back. He and I fight, and she and I argue, but he has always had her. She was never mine. She was just borrowing me so she could push me away when he returned. She warned me, but I didn’t listen. I thought, after I asked her to be my wife and she accepted the ring, that she was mine.
“Lila, I love you so much, baby. Are you just going to throw away everything we have to run back to him? You’ve been with me all this time. I’m the one who has been here for you through everything, not him!” I say as I grab her arm
She wipes her tears. “I told you I would go back to him. He has my heart. I can’t throw away what I have with him. He loves me more than anything, and look what he’s been through. There’s no way I can leave him.”
“What the fuck can I do to change your mind? You are my fiancée, Lila. I need you. You can’t leave me like this. You are ripping my heart out of my chest.”
“Evan…please. I can’t do this. I will go back to New York with you, but I’m coming back here.”
Fuck. I lost Bryn, Tatum, and now Lila. Everything is messed up. I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life. Everyone I want wants someone else.
Lila and I fly back to NYU. She gets all her stuff together. I’m angry and hurt. Brody and Zander try to comfort me, but it doesn’t work. She tells me over and over how sorry she is. How the hell is that supposed to make everything better?
“Lila, please be with me one last night. Let me love you one last time, baby,” I say as I hug her tightly. I need her. I want to fuck her so bad and show her how much I love her, how much I’ll miss her.
“It will only hurt you more. I love you so much, but I know it’s killing you to watch me go. I can’t hurt you anymore.” She kisses my lips.
“Be with me. Let me love you tonight, and I will let you go and be with him. Just give me this. Please.”
“Just tonight and I’m going back.”
I push my lips onto hers as hard as I can. She moans. I start undressing her. She wraps her legs around my waist, and I push her against the wall as she reaches down and unbuttons my jeans. She takes my length in her small hand and I groan.
“I love you so fucking much, Lila. I always will,” I say as I run my tongue down her neck. I carry her to the counter, take the rest of her clothes off, and position myself between her legs.
I kiss her lips and work my way down to her breasts. I rub her left nipple between my fingers as I suck her right one. She’s so ready for me. She throws her head back and says, “Now, Evan. I want you inside of me now.”
I can’t, not just yet. I have to savor every last minute with her. She puts her hands between her legs and starts massaging her swollen bud. She’s so fucking sexy. I grab her ankles and scoot her halfway off the counter. I kneel and replace her fingers with my mouth. She tastes so sweet and salty.
“Oh God, Evan. Right there. Please don’t stop,” she begs as she pushes my head further into her sweetness. She’s already come several times. I’m so goddamn hard. I want to be in her so bad.
“You ready for me, baby?” I ask as I kiss her neck. She grabs my head with both hands and pushes her lips onto mine. She sucks
my lower lip between her teeth and digs her nails into my back.
“Now, Evan. I want to feel all of you.”
She reaches down and guides me inside of her. She tightens around my swollen cock. I want to make love to her all night long. Each thrust brings back all the wonderful memories we’ve shared, all the times we’ve made love in the last year, all the little trips we’ve taken. I spent the last year of my life loving this woman, and tonight is our last night together. Tears well up in my eyes. I let them fall. I pull out, knowing I’ll come at any moment.
“I love you so much. I love the way you make love to me. Please come inside of me. I want all of you tonight. Let me have it all,” she says as she cries with me. I guide myself back inside of her and give her a couple thrusts. I can feel every drop exploding inside of her. We’re both panting. I lay my head on her chest and cry like I’ve never cried before.
“I hate seeing you like this. Please know it’s hurting me to do this to you.”
“I know. You have to follow your heart, and you were never mine,” I say as I pull my jeans up.
“Stay with me tonight. Just hold me.” She kisses my neck.
I run my hands through my hair. “Okay, I will.”
I’m a wreck. I hold her in my arms all night long. I get up early in the morning, run to the café, and get her a BLT. Then I leave her a letter. This will be the last I’ll see of the woman who borrowed my heart.
Chapter Twenty-One
Evan
I haven’t seen Lila in four months. She has a life with Liam now. Brody called me to tell me that Lila’s father passed away. I know I shouldn’t go, but I need to. Nikki and Brody will be there, so I figure it will be okay. I need to pay my respects and get on with my life.
Yep, I can do this. I get ready and fly to Cali. I arrive a little early, so I go to Addison’s grave and leave flowers. I really liked her and I knew that she was all for Lila and me being together.
