by Jo Beverley
What was he thinking? Was he thinking as she was of fire, of greater fires? Or was he bowed by regret?
She made herself speak with quiet firmness. “Con, let me up.”
He shuddered, looked at her, then quickly pushed away and rose, grasping her hand to pull her to her feet as he had that first day on the headland. Her legs failed her for a moment and she leaned back against the door. He was still holding her hand, looking at her as if seeking something to say.
What was there to say, particularly with a witness?
What would have happened if there hadn’t been a witness?
For a moment, unworthily, she thought of it, the pleasure of it. She thought how it might have broken his commitment to another.
Then he shuddered—like a horse, with every inch of his body—and let her go. He turned to his friend. “Destroyed enough for your liking?” It sounded a little hoarse, but it was probably more than she could manage just yet.
“Sorry about that,” de Vere said, like someone who’d knocked a cheap vase off a table. Or was he apologizing for watching?
“Perhaps it’s a useful release.” Con walked over to pick his jacket up off the floor and shake it free of wood chips. “I’m sure Crag Wyvern can provide plenty of things to smash.”
They were both ignoring her. Was it a type of courtesy? If they didn’t look, it hadn’t happened?
Or was it an insult? Ignore the convenient drab.
Had she just been assaulted, or had they exposed a deep, forbidden passion?
Curiosity or passion, she wanted him. With a shivering ache and a hollow need, she wanted Con. If it weren’t for Lady Anne she’d shed all pride and restraint and beg him to take her to his bed, even if it was only to be once. Like him she wanted to do what they had done eleven years ago, and do it this time with adult bodies, with knowledge, strength, and will.
And heart. And heart. But that was her secret to keep.
“I was sobered by something indestructible, actually,” de Vere said.
His tone shocked her back to sanity. She focused to see him step back and gesture at the heap of broken wood and twisted metal. She pushed off from the door to stagger to the wreckage to see what was there.
A body?
Some new bizarre device?
She saw the glint of gold at the same time de Vere said, “Your missing money, I assume, my lord earl.”
She halted and looked down at twisted metal and splinters of wood and the gold coins spilling beneath them. Some of the splinters were parts of the shattered chests that had contained the gold.
Oh, God. No chance now of claiming it for David. She’d not be able to stop him risking another run, and Gifford would be watching and waiting. . . .
But Con had promised protection.
She remembered to breathe. Con had promised protection. But could even the Earl of Wyvern stop the law if David was caught red-handed?
Chapter Eighteen
“We were lovers when we were fifteen.”
Con was lounging in the enormous, steaming Roman bath, Race nearby. They both had their heads resting on the curved edge, looking up at the domed ceiling that contained yet another picture of a dragon claiming a bound woman.
It looked like the same bound woman. Same model for everything, including the waxwork on the rack. A beautiful young woman with a lush body. Generous thighs. Big breasts. Long, tawny hair. He wouldn’t mind lying here enjoying her charms, but not while she was screaming for help and being impaled by a dragon.
A shame to ruin a piece of art, but it was going to have to be painted over.
Susan wasn’t that lush sort of woman. She had all the right curves now, but she wouldn’t be as soft. He was sure of it. Too much time spent climbing cliffs and swimming.
Did she ride? He didn’t know. . . .
He’d wanted a bath for the past hour, but they’d had to deal with the gold first. He’d thought it best not to spread the word, so he’d summoned only Diego to help carry it up and cram it into the safe in the office. It hadn’t all fit, so he had a bundle wrapped in a towel, and stashed in one of his drawers here.
Susan had disappeared and it was doubtless just as well. What was there to say about that kiss?
There was a great deal to think about it, but he couldn’t bear to. Not yet.
When they’d finally finished, he’d remembered the Roman bath and told Diego to see if it could be used. So here they were, soaking together like warriors of old after battle.
It was heaven marred only by the persistent image of Susan in the water with him instead of Race.
And, of course, by the complete insanity of that kiss.
That damnable, betraying, annihilating kiss.
Race hadn’t said a word about it, so in the end Con had felt he had to say something.
“I guessed,” Race said. “Pretty good going at that age, especially for her.”
Con wanted to defend Susan’s virtue, but it had happened. And happened again since with other men, apparently. He hadn’t forgotten that. He was trying to pretend it didn’t matter. He remembered Nicholas saying something a couple of years back about the unfairness of holding women to a tighter virtue than a man was willing to accept.
There seemed to be an instinct to it, though.
He wondered if she were quietly raging at the thought of him in the arms of other women. In other women. It had mostly been a utilitarian use of whores.
It doubtless didn’t bother her.
They were just friends, after all.
He laughed and it bounced around the tiled room.
“Life is damned funny at times, isn’t it?” Race said idly. His eyes were shut and he looked blissfully relaxed.
Race was a friend, but more in the manner of brothers-in-arms than friends who shared intimate matters. In better times he could imagine talking about Susan with Van or Hawk, and even with a Rogue, but he’d not expected to be doing it with Race.
The Roman leaders had shared baths like this. Had it loosened their tongues? He amused himself by contemplating the effect on British politics if the powerful in London met naked in hot, communal water.
“She always was an unusual female,” he said. “She was raised by her aunt and uncle at the manor house, but she’s actually the daughter of the squire’s wayward sister and the local smuggling master, Melchisedeck Clyst.”
“Wonderful name.”
“It’s not uncommon hereabouts. He was transported a few months ago and apparently his lady went after him.”
“Wild blood on both sides,” Race remarked. “With a tendency to abnormal constancy.”
“Lady Belle? She’s certainly constant. Constant to the exclusion of her children.”
“Children? How many did she have?”
“Three, apparently. Susan, David, and one who died young. Lady Belle treated Susan as just another girl, not even as a niece. Mel Clyst took a sort of interest.”
He found himself telling Race about the time Mel Clyst had warned him off his daughter.
“I suppose she never told him then,” Race said.
Con lapsed into silence, studying the fact that he’d never imagined that Susan would tell anyone, never mind Mel Clyst. Despite her behavior and her motives, he’d taken for granted that the friendship between them had been real, and therefore she wouldn’t spitefully get him into trouble.
Of course, if she had, it might have ended with them married, which would not have fit with her plans.
She’d apologized today.
And meant it, he thought.
As he’d already accepted, most people came close to doing regrettable things in their lives. And the difference between did and almost did was often accident, or even weakness and cowardice.
Something inside him was cracking painfully open. He wanted to hold it closed with his bare hands, as he’d seen dying men trying to hold their innards in.
“Lucky you didn’t get her with child,” Race said.
“Very, though
I was too callow to give it thought then. Astonishing to think about, having a ten-year-old child.”
Children.
He’d never thought of children, though he’d assumed they would follow marriage. Now, however, he could almost picture them. Sons at Somerford, playing in the woods and valley as he, Van, and Hawk had played. Daughters too, perhaps, enjoying the freedom Susan had enjoyed . . .
He realized the children in his mind were his and Susan’s, the daughters slim, agile, and adventurous.
Friendship.
What mad fool had talked about friendship?
“A ten-year-old,” he said again, grieving a little for that nonexistent child.
“And a half dozen others by now, no doubt,” Race teased.
Con splashed him, too lazy to have even a playful fight over it.
How strange life was, though. Paths taken, often for little reason, and others left behind.
He’d joined the army at Hawk’s suggestion. Hawk had wanted to escape his unhappy family. He’d suggested that Van and Con join with him. Still raw from Susan, Con had agreed. He had been a second son who needed a profession, and one that would keep him far away from Crag Wyvern and Susan Kerslake seemed ideal.
Van had been an only son like Hawk, but with a loving family. He’d had more of a struggle, but he’d always been wild, and eventually his parents had let him go.
So they’d made plans to buy commissions in the same cavalry regiment, but in the end, Con had chosen the infantry. If he was going to do this, he was going to do it properly, and the infantry were the meat of the British army, where steadiness and discipline were key.
He’d served his country, mostly in ways he could be proud of, but all the same, his reasons for joining the army had been rooted in cowardice. It had been a way to avoid future visits to Crag Wyvern.
Over the years he’d come to see that as stupid, to think that there had been nothing to fear.
Now he knew otherwise.
Three days, and they’d exploded into that kiss.
It was more a sizzling blur now than a memory. It had overtaken him like a fever or a storm, and if it hadn’t been for Race he’d have claimed her there on the stone-flagged floor.
If she’d let him.
Would she have been able to stop him?
Yes, he had to believe that, or he had indeed become the dragon.
He looked up at the damn rapacious dragon, then down at the one on his chest. At least it was just coiled there breathing fire.
“Dammit,” he said. “Tattooing should be illegal.”
Race opened his eyes, rolling his head sideways to look.
“It’s rather a fine specimen.”
“But permanent.”
“Quite a few men in the regiment got a tattoo after seeing yours.”
“Damned fools.”
“Thought of it myself, but could never decide what would be most suitable.”
“An angel, according to Susan.”
A deep bracket dug into Race’s cheek as he smiled. “Then I should have a contrast.”
“A devil?”
“Doesn’t appeal.” He looked like a beautiful, decadent angel, his blond hair curling around his face. “Are you jealous of me and the angelic Susan?”
“Not if you’re both behaving like angels,” Con said.
“Angels being pure spirits, without carnal inclinations?”
“Precisely.”
“I don’t think either of us is an angel, then.”
“Precisely.”
Race laughed softly. “What are you going to do?”
“I don’t know.”
Had he acted the dragon in the dungeon? Con wondered. Had he forced that kiss on her?
She hadn’t struggled until the end, but she hadn’t touched him, either. Even in the fever he’d noticed that. He hadn’t touched her at first except for his lips, as if that would keep him safe, though in the end he hadn’t been able to resist.
But she had.
Burning inside him like a twisted blade was uncertainty—had she hated every minute? Had she submitted out of fear?
Or worse, had she submitted because his first suspicions had been right and she still wanted above all to be Countess of Wyvern?
Out on the cliffs he’d been sure that wasn’t the case.
Back inside Crag Wyvern suspicion stirred.
Race waved his arms, creating sinuous snakes in the water. “Did you see Miss Kerslake’s face when she saw the gold?” he asked.
Con looked at him. “No.”
Race’s slight smile was angelic—if one remembered that the devil was a fallen angel. “She was devastated. She wanted that money.”
It hit Con as a new betrayal. He could think back and see Susan staggering forward from the door to look down at the gold. Race was right. She’d been sallow with shock.
“Have you seen any evidence of her searching this place?” Race asked.
“Yes,” Con said flatly, refusing to show how much it hurt. “Of course, that’s why she’s here playing housekeeper. It’s hardly her calling in life.”
Friends.
Friends did not steal from each other.
Criminal on her father’s side. Whore on her mother’s.
He stood, and water streamed back into the bath. “Blood will out.” He forced himself to speak lightly. “It should be interesting to see what she’ll do now.”
“Try to seduce you, perhaps,” Race said with a beatific grin. “Yet more theatrical entertainment!”
In preference to bloody murder, Con climbed out of the bath and wrapped one of the huge linen towels around himself. Normally he emerged from a bath feeling relaxed and soothed, but not this one.
He stalked into the bedchamber, where Diego awaited, politely bland, a clean nightshirt in hand. Con kept the towel. Despite everything, the thought of Susan seducing him had him hard.
Lady Anne.
He pulled Lady Anne up in his mind like a shield. Her sweet smile, her gentle blue eyes, her easy conversation about light topics, or more earnest talk of serious causes—education and the plight of the elderly poor.
What charitable causes did Susan support? All her efforts were lavished on a bunch of thieves and murderers.
Even for her elderly poor, Lady Anne wouldn’t steal. She wouldn’t involve herself in smuggling, not even to fund a hundred schools. She certainly wouldn’t invite a worthless officer to her bed on a whim.
Race emerged from the bathroom, also wrapped in a towel, looking very like an effete angel.
A dangerous misapprehension.
How extraordinarily difficult it was to know what people were really like.
“That bath disgorges through a gargoyle?” Race said.
“Apparently.”
“Let’s go out to watch.”
“Watch water? The deadly tedium of Crag Wyvern has struck already, has it?”
“Perhaps I simply want to get outside.”
Race’s words hit home, but Con said, “It’s dark.”
“Not entirely. The sun’s down, but there’s still light.”
Yes. In this case, Race’s instincts were sound. “Clothes,” he said to Diego, flinging off the towel. Race grinned and went off to dress. Con wondered what would happen if he met a maid on his way.
He suspected Race would be delayed.
Sensible Diego brought just drawers, breeches, and a shirt. Con dressed quickly, then pulled on his boots. “Watch from one of the arrow slits and I’ll wave when we’re in position. Then pull the plug. And ring the bell, I suppose.”
“Sí, señor.”
Con smiled as he left. Diego lapsed into Spanish when Con did something boyish. It seemed to indicate that he was pleased.
Boyish. How long since he’d felt a touch of the boy?
Mere hours. In the garden, pelted by cool spray. Susan laughing . . .
Damn her.
He collected Race, obviously uninterrupted by rapacious females, and led the way
outside.
The sun was down, but pink streaks still shot through a vast shell of pearly gray sky, and light danced on the water, turning it into a blushing opal. The fishing boats were in now, but a mass of screaming gulls circled Dragon’s Cove. Doubtless some fishermen were gutting their catch and tossing the scraps to the birds.
It was deeply beautiful and wholesome. And Crag Wyvern deliberately shut this kind of vision off. The garden was lovely, but it was inside and, in a way, artificial. The outer world was blocked off and could begin to disappear even from memory. The old earl had had a fear of the outdoors. No wonder he’d gone mad.
Yet Susan had chosen the Crag for many years, first as secretary, then as housekeeper. No wonder she’d become a conscienceless thief.
A breeze danced up, chilly in his still-damp hair, but alive and free. Even the scrubby headland had its charms, scattered with wildflowers. When he looked away from the sea, the Devon countryside spread in shades of green and brown from woodlands, hedges, and fields, dotted with church spires, each marking a village, a community.
“A sweet place,” Race said. “Shame about the house.”
“You think I should have it torn down?”
“It’s a tempting notion.”
“Indeed. But then I’d have to build something else, and even with that gold, I can’t afford it.”
“You could invest in smuggling.”
“No. Come on.” He led the way around to the north of the house.
This was the bleakest face of Crag Wyvern. All four walls of the house were the same flat stone broken only by the arrow-slit windows, but the north always looked grimmest. Perhaps it was the almost perpetual lack of sun. Could dark gather in stones like damp and moss?
“It does look remarkably like a stark fortress from out here,” Race said. “Has it ever withstood an attack?”
“Yes, as it happens. During the Civil War. The earls of Wyvern were staunch royalists, and a Parliamentary force marched here but failed to take the place. It was halfhearted, though, in part because my direct ancestor, the then Sir John Somerford, was high in the ranks of Parliament. We’ve tended to take opposite sides all along.”
