by Rachel Caine
CHAPTER ELEVEN
CLAIRE
The entire ride back to Founder's Square, Claire kept telling herself that Shane was all right. His skin was slick with blood from the bites, and he was pale and weak, but he was alive. And anything else could be fixed. Had to be fixed.
It had been only twenty minutes, maybe twenty-five, that he'd been in the draug's power. Michael had survived a whole lot longer than that, and he was just fine.
He's going to be all right.
But the way he was holding her felt . . . strange. Tentative. It was more than the weakness.
"Hey," she said to him, resting her head against his chest. His heart was beating fast, but it sounded strong and regular. "What happened in there?"
"Where?" he asked. He was with her, but he sounded . . . empty. Or at least, very far away.
"Where you were. " Still are.
"I'm fine," he said, which didn't answer her question at all. "You smell like gunpowder. "
"New perfume," she said, straight-faced. "Do you like it?"
"Edgy," he said, which was almost his old self, but phoned in, again, from a long way off.
"Shane-"
"I can't," he said, very softly. "I can't talk about it right now, okay? Just-leave it. "
She didn't want to, because the look in his eyes, the way he was holding her . . . It made her anxious all over again. It felt, somehow, as if they hadn't found him, or at least not in time. As if part of him was still trapped.
She just curled closer to him, willing him to be all right, and said nothing else all the way back. His body was there, solid and living, but there was something else that just wasn't there, and when she looked up into his eyes, she didn't see . . . didn't see Shane. Not completely.
"He okay?" Of all things, it was Monica asking that question, crouched awkwardly on her broken heels with her brother standing silently behind her. She looked as if she was actually, momentarily, interested. "I mean, Jesus, that's a lot of blood. "
"He's okay," Claire answered, when Shane didn't. His eyes were closed, but he wasn't unconscious; he was holding on to her tightly and shivering. "Just-he needs to heal, that's all. " Her voice shook when she said it, and Monica shot her a swift, mercilessly piercing look. There was blood in her hair, Shane's blood, drying in a stiffened patch.
"News flash, preschool, nobody's okay right now, and most of us didn't have that happen. " She stood up suddenly, her expression hardening, and tugged at her dress. "I came back here to get help, not to get dragged off to rescue your lame, limp ass, Collins. So you could be a little grateful. "
Shane slowly raised one hand, and . . . flipped her off. It was weak, but it was so very him that Claire almost cried.
Monica almost smiled. Almost. "Yeah," she said. "That's what I thought. Truce over, asshole. Next time I see you bleeding on the side of the road, I back up and run you over again. "
"Monica," Richard said, in a tone that said he'd had enough. More than enough. She shut up and pressed herself against the wall of the armored truck as it bumped and shuddered along. "Claire, is he still bleeding?"
"Some," she said. She could feel the slow trickle of it soaking through her clothes. "But not as bad. " That might have been wishful thinking, which was the only kind of thinking she could do right now. "Thank you. If you hadn't come with us . . . " I'd be dead. And Eve. And Shane. Maybe Michael, too, because he'd have tried to get us all back.
Richard nodded, not refusing the thanks but not making a big deal out of it, either; he just let it roll off him without really registering. "He's strong, Claire," he said. "He held on. That means a lot. "
"I never should have left him," she said. "Oh God, this is my fault, my fault. " She started crying, heavy, aching tears that pushed up from the core of her body. They tasted as salty as Shane's blood when she kissed his cheek and buried her face in the hollow of his neck.
She felt Richard's gentle touch on her back. "Sometimes things just happen," he said. "It's not right. It's not fair. But it's nobody's fault, Claire. So don't do that. Don't take it all on yourself. I promise you, it's the last thing he wants you to do. "
She nodded, but she didn't really feel it.
"About my sister," he said. "She was a sweet kid, you know. When she was little. Used to come home crying every day in first grade. Everybody hated her, because her dad was the mayor. So by second grade, she gave it right back. She started fighting back when nobody was coming at her. "
"Why are you telling me this?"
He shrugged. "I thought you should know she wasn't always . . . what she is. She was made that way. Not born. She can change. I'm hoping she will. "
"Yeah," Claire said. "Me too. "
Richard patted her on the shoulder again, and withdrew over to the wall of the truck.
Shane held on to her with desperate strength, all the way to Founder's Square.
Shane needed a transfusion.
When Theo told her, Claire burst into tears again, frantic ones. Eve hugged her from one side, Michael from the other, until she calmed down enough to listen to what Dr. Goldman had to say.
"He did lose a lot of blood," Theo said very gently, and captured her bloodstained right hand in both of his as he stood in front of her. She, Eve, and Michael were sitting in some antique white chairs in the anteroom of what had become Theo's makeshift hospital; as waiting rooms went, it was fancy, but cold. "The transfusion will help replace that volume quickly, and it will take about four hours; I doubt there will be any ill effects, though he may continue to have some weakness as his body recovers. I tested him, since the draug carry diseases at times, but it appears he is clear of that, which is a lucky thing. All he needs is blood for now, and rest. He should be better very soon, I promise you. " He was quiet for a moment, then said, "Has anyone told you how much of a miracle that is? That he, a human, survived?"
"He's strong," Claire whispered. She'd been saying it from the beginning, and had been confident, so blindly confident. But seeing him so pale and weak and shaking . . . that had terrified her.
"Yes, strong indeed," Theo said, and patted her hand before he let it go. "A fighter, as he always has been. Today that served him very well, but you must understand that he will require more than physical strength. Michael can tell you that, to a point, but there may be . . . other factors, for Shane. What little we know of draug encounters with humans tells us the humans are forced into a dream world . . . or nightmares. I do not know which Shane experienced. So be patient with him, and watch for signs of any . . . odd behavior. All of you. "
They all nodded. Eve's grip on Claire's hand was almost painfully tight, but she took a deep breath and eased up as Theo rose and walked away. "That's good news," she said, with forced cheer. "See? Transfusion fixes him right up. He's going to be fine, CB. Honestly. "
Eve was saying that as much to cheer herself up as to hearten Claire. Claire looked, instead, toward Michael. "How bad is it?" she asked. "Really. "
He didn't flinch from the question, but she'd seen his nightmares, and he knew it. "Bad," he said. "But vampires don't react the same way to the chemicals the draug secrete; we don't get the dream state that Theo was talking about. So we're awake, and aware, the whole time. Humans . . . I don't know what he was dreaming about, Claire. It could have been good. I hope it was good. "
"Have you talked about what it was like? To anyone?" She glanced at Eve, who looked away, lips compressed. Of course he hadn't. Eve would have been his listener, but there was a gap between them now that they had to shout across. Maybe it was smaller than it had been, but it was still there. "You should, Michael. It must have been horrible. "
"It's over," he said. "And I'm dealing. Shane will, too. " Because that's the guy code, Claire thought in mild disgust. Deal until you break into a million little pieces. "Come on. Let's go see him. "
She was almost . . . reluctant, somehow. Not to see Shane, but to see him so weak. But she
was relieved to see, as they entered Theo's ward room with its neat camp beds and sheets hung between, that Shane was one of two patients, and he looked . . . better. Theo, or someone, had cleaned him up, so he didn't look like he'd bathed in his own blood anymore. Even his hair was clean, though still damp.
There was a needle in his arm, and an IV stand with blood bags. Claire winced. She knew how much he hated needles.
She held his hand as she sank down in the chair next to him. "Hey," she said, and leaned over to brush his messy hair off his forehead. His skin was still ivory pale beneath the tan, but no longer that scary paper white. "Are you feeling better?"
"Yes. " He didn't open his eyes, but he smiled, a little. His hand squeezed hers a little. "You're here, aren't you?" That sounded like a blow-off question, but it wasn't, she realized. There was something else behind it.
"Yes, I'm here, I'm right here," she said, and kissed his cheek. His face didn't have the pinprick stings of the draug on it, but she'd seen them on his neck and chest-they'd suspended him in the water with his face up, the better to keep him alive while they . . . No, she really couldn't think about it. Not now. "Michael said you-you might have felt what they were doing to you. Did you? Feel it?"
He took a little too long to answer. It might have been weariness, or it might have been a lie. Very hard to tell. "Not so much," he said. "It was more like I was . . . dreaming. Or they were making me dream. "
"What kind of dreams?"
"I don't think-" He opened his eyes and looked at her, just for a second, then closed them again. "Claire, I don't think I can talk about it right now. "
That . . . hurt. It hurt a lot. She had a sudden dread that he was going to tell her something awful, like I dreamed I was in love with Monica Morrell and I liked that better. Or maybe . . . maybe just that he'd had some happy dream that didn't include her at all. Because she knew, oh yes, that Shane could do better than her; there were taller girls, prettier girls, girls who knew how to flirt and tease and dress for maximum success. She didn't fool herself about that. She didn't know why Shane loved her, really.
What if the dream had shown him that he really didn't need her, after all?
Michael leaned over to her and whispered, "We're going to leave you two alone, Claire. If you need us, you know we'll be close. "
She nodded and watched them go; Eve seemed reluctant, and she made a little call me gesture on her way out the door. Claire swallowed through a suddenly desert-dry throat and asked, "Why don't you want to tell me about it, Shane?"
"It might scare you," he said. His voice sounded thin, and a little shaky. "Scares the hell out of me. " After a short hesitation, he continued, "Some of it was good. The two of us, we were good, Claire. "
"Us," she repeated. The fist around her heart let up, just a little. "The two of us?"
"Yeah," he whispered, and she realized that there were tears forming at the corners of his tight-shut eyes. Tears. She caught her breath and felt a stab of real pain. "I just-it was good, Claire, it was really good, and I didn't want to-I don't want to-I don't know what I-"
He stopped and turned his head away from her, then rolled over on his side.
Hiding from her.
If it was really good, she wanted to ask, why are you crying? But she didn't, because she couldn't stand to see him hurt like this. She was overflowing with questions, all kinds of questions, because she couldn't understand how if something had been good it could do so much harm.
But he wasn't going to tell her; she knew that.
And maybe, just maybe, he was right that she shouldn't even ask. Not right now, when it was so fresh and raw, an open wound.
In the end, she snuggled in next to him, her warmth easing his shakes. Just before she drifted off to sleep, she heard him whisper, "Please tell me you're really here. "
"I'm here," she whispered back. Her heart ached for him, and she tightened her arms around him. "I'm right here, Shane. Honestly, I am. "
He didn't answer.
In the morning, Shane seemed . . . better. Quiet, and with a wary look in his eyes that scared her a little, but he looked good. The red marks on his skin were healing up, and the transfusion seemed to have done a good job of restoring his healthy coloring. Theo had insisted on adding glucose in the last hour, even though Shane had begun griping about having the needle in.
Claire had finally left him, but not alone; Eve had shown up bright and early, coffees in hand and balancing a small tray of baked goods. Shane had accepted the coffee, and had been eyeing the cookies as Claire finally left to visit the incredibly awkward chemical toilets and do what sponge bath she could with shower gel and a bottle of water. She felt better, too, for having done it. She'd slept unbelievably deeply, not moving all night; that had been the deadening effects of the adrenaline draining away, she guessed.
Shane hadn't said a lot to her this morning, but then, he'd just woken up. He will, she thought. He'll be himself again today.
She was on her way back to the room when Myrnin stepped out of one of the hallways, saw her, and stopped dead in his tracks. His eyes were wide and black, and his expression tense and cautious. "Claire," he said. "I hear he is better. " No question who the he was that Myrnin referred to, either.
"No thanks to you at all," she snapped, and started to bypass him. He got in front of her.
"Claire, I didn't-you must believe me, I never meant him harm. I thought . . . "
"You thought wrong, didn't you? You were willing to let my boyfriend die out there. Now get out of my way. "
"I can't," he said softly. "Not until you understand that I did not want him dead. In no way is that true. I believed he was dead already, and I tried to spare you the pain of-"
"Shut up. Just shut up and get out of my way. "
"No!" In a shockingly fast move, he backed her against the wall, hands braced on either side of her head as he leaned in on her. "You know me, Claire. Do you believe me so petty, so . . . pathetic that I would do this for selfish personal reasons? The draug are not to be played with. You've taken huge and violent risks, going back there, and you must understand that I am a vampire. It is not in my nature to be so . . . careless with my own safety. Not for a single human. "
She stared at him for a long few seconds, and then said, very quietly, "Including me?"
There was a flicker in his expression, a bit of agony, and he pushed off and walked away from her. She'd hurt him. Good. She'd meant to. "Yes," he finally said, sharply, and rounded on her from a few feet away. "Yes, even you. Stop thinking of me as some . . . personal tame tiger! I am not, Claire. "
"And I'm not your puppet," she said. "Or your assistant anymore. I quit. "
"It would not be the first time, would it?" Oh, he was angry now, eyes flashing with strobes of red. "If you are not adult enough to understand why I tried to minimize our losses, then I have no use for you, girl. Cling to your friends and your follies. I am done coddling you. "
She laughed. "Wait-you coddle me? Are you kidding? I'm the one who follows you around and picks up the pieces of crazy you drop all over the place, Myrnin. Me. You don't take care of me. I take care of you. And the least you could have done for me was to go back for Shane. But you didn't. "
The strobing faded away, leaving his eyes black and a little cold. "No," he said. "I didn't. And I didn't because in my experience, there's never been anything left to rescue. I couldn't allow you to see him like that, Claire, reduced to bones and blood. That was a kindness. "
She started to fire back at him, but couldn't find the words. He was serious about that. Very serious.
"Furthermore," he said, "I realized why they'd taken him. You didn't. "
"Myrnin, just-I don't know what you're talking about, but just-"
"They were using him to get to you, Claire. " He let her think about that in silence for a long moment, and then continued, "You are perfectly right to hate me. Feel free. But I am glad he is all right,
all the same. They were using him to lure you back, and it worked. Magnus wants you. You might give some consideration to that, because I think it is quite important. "
Magnus. Standing there, watching her. Waiting not for Shane, not for Michael, but for her.
Claire felt cold creep up her spine, and chill bumps shivered over her arms.
"Hey," Shane said. He was leaning against the doorway, looking almost back to his old self again; he had color back in his face, and he'd changed into fresh clothes-his own, brought back by Eve. She'd managed to grab his favorite ironic saying T-shirt; this one read ZOMBIE BAIT. "Are you two crazy kids fighting about me?" There was no amusement in his expression, Claire thought. "Because don't. Myrnin was right. You should have left me and called it good. "
"Shane-"
"You're mad because he did something smart, not because it was stupid. You came back, yeah, but you got help, and that was important. If you'd tried it alone, you wouldn't have made it, and you know that's true. He was right to run. " He sucked in a deep breath and met Myrnin's eyes squarely. "Thanks for making her be smart, too. Even if it didn't take. "
"Oh," Myrnin said, clearly taken aback. "Well, yes, all right. "
Claire stared at Shane. How could he say leaving him was smart? And yes, okay, she'd gotten reinforcements, and maybe that had been smart, but she'd have come back all alone, and he knew it.
"Hey," she said. "You'd have done exactly the same thing if it was me. "
"Yeah," he said, and shrugged. There was even an attempt at a smile. "But I never said I was smart, did I?" The smile-not convincing-didn't last long. "We can't afford to fight like this. Not right now. He's on Team Us. Don't kick him off. We don't have enough players on the field as it is. "
"You're seriously going to go with a sports analogy right now?"
"Yep," he said, and sipped his coffee. "Just like normal. " But there was a shadow in his eyes, a flash that made her wonder just how deep the fractures went inside him. "Theo cut me loose. I'm topped up and ready to go. "
Myrnin was watching him with a guarded expression, and then he finally said, "I suppose you need rest, then. "
"Not really. I slept, and I got a transfusion. I feel . . . pretty good, actually. " Physically, that might be true, but Claire doubted he felt at all good inside. She remembered that whisper in the dark. Are you really there?
Always, she thought. I'll always be here.
"Did you have some kind of mission you wanted to send us on?" Shane asked. "Seeing as how brilliantly the last one turned out?"
"The last mission killed enough draug to prevent their singing," Myrnin countered, "and we lost no one. "
"No thanks to you," Claire muttered. She saw his back stiffen.
"Oliver would like us to consider more . . . scientific approaches. I will need your assistance for that, Claire. I will expect you in the laboratory in-" He darted a glance from her to Shane and back again. "In your own good time. Good day. "
He clasped his hands behind his back and walked away. For the first time, Claire realized what he was wearing: crazy lab coat. Cargo pants. And his vampire bunny slippers, bedraggled but still flapping their red mouths with every step. She wondered if he'd just thrown it on, or if this time he'd dressed to make her think of him as . . . helpless. Inoffensive.
There was a lot more to Myrnin than just the pleasantly crazy mayhem; underneath it, there was calculation, and a cold, still monster that he kept mostly caged.
She didn't realize that she'd shivered, again, until Shane put his arm around her. He was warm now, and she turned and put her arms around him. She rested her head on his chest and listened to the slow, steady beat of his heart. Alive, alive, alive.
"Hey," he said, and tipped her chin up. "I didn't get to say hello properly last night. Sorry. Mind if I-"
She lunged upward and captured his lips in midsentence, and the kiss was fierce and sweet and hot. His mouth felt soft and hard at the same time, and he sank into a chair and pulled her onto his lap, which was a relief from standing on tiptoe to reach him. It was a long, needy, almost desperate kiss, and when she finally broke it, it was to gasp for air.
He combed through her hair with his fingers, gentle with the snags, and searched her face with a dark, intense stare. She didn't know what he was looking for.
"What is it?" she asked him, and put her hands on either side of his face. His beard was a little rough beneath her skin. He needed a shave. "Shane?"
"You seem so . . . " He paused, as if he couldn't really think of the word. A little line formed above his eyebrows, and she wanted to kiss it away. "Different," he finally said. "Are you? Different?"
"No," she said, startled. "No, I don't think so. How?"
"More . . . " He shook his head then, and kissed the palm of her hand without taking his gaze away from her face. "More real. "
That should have seemed romantic, but instead she felt another chill, a strong one. There was confusion deep in that stare, uncertainty.
Fear.
"Shane, I'm me," she said, and kissed him again, frantic with the need to prove it. "Of course I'm real. You're real. We're real. "
"I know," he said, but he was lying. She could feel it in the tremble of his fingertips, and the pressure of his lips when he kissed her back. "I know. "
She would have asked him right then what had happened to him, what those dreams had been, but a voice over her shoulder said, "I guess this means you're feeling better, bro. "
Michael was walking in, yawning, drinking a cup of something that Claire sincerely hoped was coffee. She'd seen enough blood in the past twenty-four hours to last a lifetime.
"Yeah," Shane said, and gave her a quick glance of apology as he moved her off his lap. "Better. " He offered a fist, and Michael bumped it. "Thanks for coming to get me. "
"Couldn't do anything else. " Michael shrugged. "Claire's the one to thank. She got us all together. Hannah deserves it, too; she didn't have to jump in, but she did. And I hate to say it, but you might want to thank Team Morrell. "
"Already did," Shane said, and frowned a little. "Uh, I think I did. Did I?"
"You did," Claire said. "It's okay. " But that worried her, too. Still, shock could make people lose memories, right? Not everything was suspicious. She couldn't think this way or she'd drive herself crazy. "Don't downplay it, Michael. You used yourself as bait for the draug. That's major. "
"Bait?" Shane repeated, and blinked. "What?"
Michael shrugged again and sipped his coffee. "Somebody had to," he said. "I'm their favorite flavor, and I'm fast. Made sense. "
"Makes zero sense for you all to risk your lives coming after me. How did you know I wasn't dead?"
"Even if you were," Michael said, suddenly completely serious, "we'd come back for you. I mean that. And it's my fault we left you to begin with. Claire didn't want to go. I had the keys, and I used them to drive off and leave you there. My fault. Nobody else's. "
"All of a sudden, everybody wants to take the blame," Shane said. "Thought that was my gig, man. "
"We can share. Many hands, lighter loads, all that crap. " Michael took another drink and changed the subject. "Eve brought my guitar. I was thinking of playing a little later if you want to chill. New songs rattling around in my head. I'd like an opinion. "
Shane flashed him one of those surfer gestures, middle three fingers curled in, thumb and pinkie out. "Shaka, brudda. "
Michael flashed it back and grinned. "Claire. Got something for you. " He pulled a chain over his head and threw her a necklace; she caught it and saw some kind of glass bottle, sealed, full of opaque liquid. "While I was playing my bait act, I scooped up some water from one of the pools. "
She almost dropped it. "Draug?"
"Nope. No draug in that pool. It was empty. Only one that was. " He shrugged. "Thought it might be important. Do your science-y stuff on it. Might be something that could help. "
She
shook the bottle, studying the contents, but it didn't tell her anything. It wasn't a big sample, maybe an eyedropper full. Enough, though. "Thanks. "
"Sure," he said. "Later. " He started walking.
"Wait," she said, and caught up with him. She lowered her voice. "Would you-would you kind of keep an eye on him the rest of the day? Make sure he's really okay?"
Michael studied her for a second, then nodded. "I know what he's been through," he said. "Well, some of it. So yeah. I'll hang close. You go do what you need to do. "
"Thanks. " She kissed him on the cheek. "And do me a favor. Make up with Eve, okay? I can't stand this. I can't stand seeing the two of you . . . "
"It's not up to me," he said, "but I'm trying. "
She went back to Shane and settled in on his lap again, arms around his neck. His circled her waist. "I thought you had to go," he said. "And don't think I didn't see you kissing on my best friend. "
"He deserved it. "
"Yeah. Maybe I ought to kiss him, too. "
Michael, on his way out, didn't even bother to turn around for that one. "Oh sure, you always promise. "
"Bite me!" Shane called after him. He was smiling, and it looked like a genuine one this time. That was good. He even turned to Claire and held on to it, though a bit of that shadow crept back into his eyes. That . . . uncertainty. "Not you. You, I was thinking more like kiss me. If that's okay. "
"Always," she said, and proved it.
Going into Myrnin's lab was a very weird and awkward thing; she'd normally felt okay around him, even when he was strange or psycho . . . on some deep, fundamental level, there had been some trust.
Not now. Not at this moment.
He looked up as she entered, and the hopeful look on his face smoothed out as he read her expression. "Ah," he said, in a neutral tone. "Good. Thank you for giving me your time. " That was way too polite for him, normally; it was as awkward as a schoolboy trying to remember his manners. "How is Shane?"
She skipped right over that, because the fact that he even said Shane's name made her angry. "Michael gave me this," she said, and showed him the vial full of liquid. "It's from one of the holding pools at the treatment plant. The draug were avoiding the water. "
Myrnin focused in on the vial, and as what she'd said filtered through whatever he had going on in his head, he snatched the chain away from her to hold it up to a bright, shadeless incandescent bulb. "Interesting," he said. "Thoughtful of him to retrieve us a sample. "
"Dangerous," she said. "He's lucky he didn't get killed out there. "
"Aren't we all. " Myrnin grabbed a test tube and carefully poured the contents of the vial in it. It was a meager amount, but he seemed happy enough. "Excellent. Excellent. A good start to our inquisition today. " He paused, then picked up a slender glass pipette and drew off a sample of the water to add to a slide, which he covered with a second glass plate and put under a microscope. "I've been thinking about binding agents. Alchemically speaking, our goal was transforming an object from one state to another-lead to gold, obviously, but many different-"
"We don't have time for alchemy," Claire said flatly. "Alchemy doesn't work, Myrnin. "
"Ah, yes, but I read-wait, I have it here somewhere-ah!" He shoved books around and came up with a piece of paper that looked as if it had been printed off a computer. "Alchemists believed it was possible to change the essential nature of a thing, and look, we were right. According to the Journal of Physical Chemistry, a very high-voltage charge conducted through water can actually bring about a phase transition, freezing diffusional motion and forming a single, stable crystal that-"
"I read it," Claire said. It freaked her out that he'd read it. Off the computer, not paper? Myrnin wasn't exactly the surf-the-Internet type. "It's interesting, but it takes a lot of power, and it doesn't last; plus, it's not a permanent phase change. As soon as you remove the current, water reverts to its liquid state. " But it was impressive that he'd found that, she thought; she'd considered it herself, because the idea of turning water into a solid was . . . exactly what they needed, actually. Just not with so much crazy power consumption.
"But it's a start, is it not?" Myrnin said. He bent over the microscope and clucked his tongue. "I am honestly mystified by how you humans get anything done with the primitive equipment at hand. This is useless. " He took the slide off and, before she could stop him, removed the glass top and licked the sample.
She fought the urge to gag. He didn't seem at all bothered. He stood quite still, closing his eyes, and then said, "Hmmm. A bit salty, bitter aftertaste . . . iron . . . hydroxide. " He smiled then, and looked at her as if he was quite proud of himself. "Definitely iron hydroxide. That is a binding agent, is it not?"
"You are insane," she said. "You can't go around . . . licking things that come out of a water treatment plant. That's just . . . unsanitary. "
"Life is unsanitary," he said. "Death more so, as it turns out. I don't believe that iron hydroxide has any effect upon me, but of course I should try larger doses. If it in fact has an effect upon the draug, that is quite an advance . . . . " He turned and rummaged around in drawers. "Bother. You can create iron hydroxide, can't you? Make some. I think we have all we need in supplies. "
She found goggles, gloves, and an extra lab coat three sizes too big-she had to fold the sleeves back-before laying out the chemicals she needed, and the tools. "It'll take a while," she said. "Try not to lick anything else. "
"Cross my heart," he said solemnly, and did so.
"I don't think that really works as a promise when your heart's no longer beating. " That was snarkier than she probably needed to be, but it shut him up, for a while. She concentrated on her work. It was like being back at school again, with a chemistry problem laid out in front of her-something soothing and simple, steps to follow, and a stable and well-documented outcome. She liked science because it was neat. It followed rules.
And it never broke her heart.
Even with distilled water, it took almost three hours for the chemical reaction of iron wire, water, and electric current to create the thick green gel and scummy surface; she mixed it, then boiled it in water over a Bunsen burner until it was reduced to powder. The entire process produced only a couple of teaspoons of iron hydroxide. She'd lost track of what Myrnin was doing, but by the time she was finished, he took part of her output, mixed it into a glass of water, and drank it down.
No reaction. She wasn't sure whether she was happy or sad about that.
"On to the next phase. " He picked up a sealed flask of murky liquid and set it on the counter in front of her. "Don't spill any. "
The water in the container was moving and swirling on its own. Claire put her hand out for it, then drew back, because it reacted to her. "Is that the draug?"
"A sample," he said. "You do not want to know what I had to do to get it, and I will not be doing it again, so please, small sample sizes, there's a girl. Our goal is to come up with something that will immobilize them, or better yet, poison them without affecting a captive vampire. "
"Isn't it dangerous, having this here?"
"Not really. It's too small to form any kind of cohesive entity. If it tries to organize itself . . . " He handed her a small saltshaker, which she peered at with a frown. "Silver flakes. A shake or two will destroy the sample, but use it only in an emergency. Now. Work. "
Claire shook her head, picked up a dropper, and began to experiment with the iron hydroxide.
After another long few hours, they had an outcome. It wasn't what they'd hoped-and it was just in time to report to Oliver, who swept in like the world's most intimidating CEO. "Well?" he demanded. "What results have you?"
"Science is not speedy," Myrnin snapped back. "Perhaps you're deluded by those ridiculous television shows where one waves a magic eyedropper and crimes are solved. But what we have discovered is that although they show promise, binding agents will not be enough. Not in the streng
th we currently have available. "
"What the devil is a binding agent?"
"Iron hydroxide, for one," Claire said. "Basically, it binds chemically with contaminants in water and weighs them down. It does hurt the draug; it might eventually even kill them, but it's not fast. There are other agents like it, though. We can work through each of them. "
"How quickly?"
"Not quickly enough," Myrnin said. "And frankly, most are far more esoteric than we can manufacture here in our crude little lab. It was a fantastic idea. Just not as practical as I had hoped. "
"Still, it's more progress than the vampires have ever made before on their own," Claire said. Her head hurt, and so did her back, and she was badly craving a sandwich. And Shane. "It's something. "
"I wouldn't say vampires never made progress. I provided the shotguns," Myrnin said.
"Humans invented shotguns. And flamethrowers. "
"Don't try to claim you invented silver!"
"We learned how to mine it, smelt it, and work it," Claire said. "Sorry, but apart from you, Myrnin, vampires are not really big on the invent part of inventing. You just . . . steal. "
"Adaptation is the key to survival," he said. "I believe Darwin pointed that out, quite brilliantly. Still, we need more time, Oliver. Much more. And I have no other ideas as yet. "
"I do," Claire said. Myrnin turned to look at her, and she shrugged. "You didn't ask. But I do. "
"Such as?"
"There are a lot of other uses for binding agents besides cleaning water. They are also used in cleaning up toxic spills, for instance. There are a lot that we might be able to find in Morganville, or make. But we'll need a bigger selection of chemicals. "
"Which we will find where, exactly? Morganville is not exactly a hotbed of scientific-" Myrnin stopped in midsentence as the light dawned. "Ah. Yes. Of course. "
Oliver was not looking pleased. Or indulgent. "I have much to do. Can you provide us with a weapon we can use that is not toxic to vampires, or not? I need an answer. Now. "
"Maybe," Claire said. Oliver growled, and she saw how close he was to just letting go and being full-on vampire. Once, that would have scared her. Now it hardly raised her pulse rate at all. "I can't tell you until we get the chemicals, make batches, and test them on vampires. Some may be toxic. Some probably won't be. The question is, what's effective on the draug? And that's going to take time to figure out. Myrnin's right. It's not a magic wand. "
"Then I have no use for it," Oliver snapped. "We will proceed without your assistance. If what's been reported is correct, we have cut off the draug's major method of advancement. They are pinned in two spots: this end of town"-he slapped the map with a pale, strong hand-"and here, at the treatment plant. " Another hard slap. "It's time to launch attacks. We'll use the weapons we have if we must, but we can't delay. "
"Why not? Magnus already has all the vampires he can get for his blood gardens; if he draws unfortunate humans, they won't last, and it's the equivalent to animal blood for us. It can't sustain him long. They can't raise the call. They can't reproduce now. Let them wait until we are ready," Myrnin said. He sounded smug. Too smug, Claire thought, and Oliver must have thought so, too, because he reached out, grabbed the lapels of Myrnin's lab coat, and dragged him very close.
"I. Do not. Take orders. From you," Oliver hissed. "You take orders from me, witch. And for as long as I find you useful, you'll enjoy your privileged status. Once you're a liability, we'll revise the terms of your . . . employment. Are we understood?"
"Amelie-"
"Is dying," Oliver said. His face looked hard as a bone knife. "Sentiment aside, we cannot leave a vacuum of power, and you know that. Without leadership, the vampires will battle each other in bloodline conflicts, run wild, attract attention. She has been a strong, fair leader. I hope I can be half as much. "
"Which half?" Myrnin asked. "Not fair, surely. "
Oliver's fangs extended to their full, terrifying length, and he hissed like a cobra. Myrnin didn't flinch. And didn't fight.
Oliver shoved him away. "Do as you like," he said. "But don't get in my way. Any of you. "
He stalked out, throwing the door open and leaving it that way, and Claire pulled in a long, slightly shaky breath. Myrnin straightened the lapels on his lab coat with an irritated snap of fabric.
And another figure stepped into the doorway.
Shane. Carrying a glass of what looked like sweet, delicious, life-giving Coke, and a sandwich. Michael was with him, carrying another plate. On it was . . . a bag of type O, it looked like.
"Hey," Shane said. "Hope we're not interrupting. He's in a mood. "
"You are a Greek god," Claire said, and grabbed the Coke and sandwich. She hesitated then, mortified, and said, "Uh, these are for me?"
"Thought you might be hungry," he said. Michael silently handed the plate to Myrnin, who bit into the bag without even the pretense of politeness. "Okay, that's disturbing. "
"Sorry," Myrnin mumbled, and kept sucking. Claire turned her back. Funny; a year ago, seeing something like that would totally have put her off her meal, but nothing was going to separate her from a turkey sandwich now. She took a giant, delicious bite, chewed, and washed it down with tingling soda.
So much better.
"What's the drama?" Shane asked, and pointed to the door. "With Lord High Cranky, I mean?" He sounded like his old self, Claire thought. Maybe a day of hanging around Michael had been really good for him. Maybe it was . . . all okay.
"He wants faster action," Claire said. "I said we need chemicals from the university lab. "
"You never actually got that far," Myrnin said, "but I did know what you meant. And you're correct. They would have a far more elegant and extensive selection of things there. We shall go. "
Shane said, "You're kidding. You actually think she's going anywhere with you. Ever. " He gave Myrnin a humorless little smile. "Much less me, of course. But I promise you, she is not going without me. " He watched as Claire crammed more sandwich into her mouth, moaning a little from the deliciousness of actual food, and then said, "So what exactly is it that you're making with your chemicals again?"
"Binding agents," she said, but it came out sounding a little like a foreign language. Maybe Klingon. She swallowed and drank more soda. "Sorry. Binding agents. "
"Which are . . . ?"
"Chemicals that bind to contaminants in water. Or chemicals that can change the composition of water itself-something that causes a reaction or a state change. "
"From liquid to solid?"
"Exactly. "
"Like . . . Jell-O," Shane said. He sounded thoughtful. Claire blinked, suddenly taken by the idea of a dump truck full of gelatin being backed up to a pool. Some kind of world record in that, she was pretty sure. But not extremely useful.
Myrnin slowly straightened up, put down the empty blood bag, and licked type O from his lips. "Unless I'm very much mistaken, you have something to say, Mr. Collins. Please tell me it isn't about snack foods. "
"Not exactly," Shane said. "But I think I know exactly the chemicals you're looking for. And you won't find them at the university. But I know where you will find them. "
"Where?"
"Morganville High School. "
