“Damn straight.” I giggle along with them. I look over to a bare chested Jax who is staring from me to Drake, back and forth with an amused smirk on his face.
I finally look at Drake who is looking at the guys whistling then to what they’re looking at…which is me. He does a double take and I see him swallow and his eyes darken with lust, he looks me over and I tilt my head and smirk. Chelsea is still chatting to him but he’s obviously not hearing a word she’s saying, he brushes her off and makes his way over to me. He picks me up and swings me around and I start to laugh, he gives me a big long kiss and puts me down. I look over to where Chelsea was standing and she’s pulling a disgusted face, I wink at her.
“Damn babe, you’re going to have me fighting guys off of you!” Drake says as he looks me over again.
“I don’t mind fighting ‘em off!” Jax says as he comes up to me and gives me a big strong hug.
“Yeah that could be rather fun.” Drake says with a naughty smile as they both fist bump.
They pull me over to where Ronny, Chloe, Rachel and Mark are all lying on towels away from the crowd. I greet Rachel and Mark and give them hugs as Drakes throws down a towel for me to lie on. I lie down on my stomach with Drake sitting next to me on the sand and Jax lying on the other side of me also tanning his back.
“Who’s Talon and Tyler?” Drake asks out of the blue as he stares at my tattoo.
Oh shit I forgot about that…how am I going to explain this to them?
“Oh…um…they were my dogs.” I lie.
"You got your dog’s names tattooed on your body?” Jax says as he looks up at me from where he was lying on his folded arms, with a raised eyebrow.
“Yeah they were like my best friends growing up and I had to leave them when I came here.” I tell them, it’s kind of the truth, I just hope they don’t mention any of this to my mother because I definitely didn’t have any dogs growing up.
“Where are our names? You have Johnny and Alex there?” Drake says in a cocky voice.
“Are you jealous?” I tease and smile. “Don’t worry, I was going to get all your names added but I wanted to do it with you guys there, I just gotta find some space to put them, maybe I will add more vines and some roses.” I say thinking out loud.
“Really?” Drake says with a smile on his face.
“Of course I love you guys.” I respond.
They all say they love me too and how they are excited to have their name added to my art work. We spend the rest of the afternoon swimming in the cold water to cool off and throw around a ball along with a lot of tanning. I've put so much sun tan lotion on that I don’t think the sun’s rays have affected me that much apart from my face, which is rosier than normal.
It’s starting to get a little darker and some of the other guys have made a bonfire so we move closer to the warmth. I’m standing with Ronny, Chloe and Rachel while the boys attempt to make the fire larger. Chelsea waddles over to Drake who’s about three feet away and she puts her hand on his chest, Drake turns around suddenly and looks at her hand then removes it.
Chelsea whines out loud, “Drakey….I thought you said you were single? Why are you all over her when you were with me Friday morning, we hooked up before so why not give me another chance?”
My whole body freezes and I hear Jax growl as he glares at Drake. Drake whips his head around to face me and he has a worried look on his face.
That’s why he wasn’t wearing underwear on Friday night, oh god I feel so disgusting. I let him touch me after he was with her…I need to get out of here…
I start looking around for an exit through the crowd.
“No babe…wait…it’s not like that at all!” he steps toward me and I step back, moving away from him when he tries to touch me.
I glare back at him, I’m so angry right now and my whole body feels like it’s on fire. My eyes start to burn and Drake grasps and stares directly into my eyes.
“Y…Your eyes …the…they’re sparkling…they’re changing…they’re… silver.” he says as he reaches out to touch my face.
Hmmm so that’s the burning feeling …
“Don’t touch me!” I yell in a firm voice, he flinches and take a step back, sadness takes over his face.
“Lexi you need to calm down and let him explain.” Jax comes over to me to calm me down but it just pisses me off more.
“Don’t fucking tell me to calm down Jax!” I yell at him too and I hear gasps at all the other wolves, they obviously don’t realize that Jax is not MY Alpha so I will talk to him as I please.
“You know what? Just leave me alone. I need space to breath!” I shout as I run away back up the path and through the woods, hopefully I won’t get lost. I run and run until I finally see the clearing of the trailer park; I’ve never run so fast in my life before.
I see a motorbike parked next to my car, Georgina must have company. I slowly walk up to the porch and hear shouting and glasses breaking from inside. I see glass everywhere inside and bottles of beer and vodka – it looks like she was having a party. I look for my mom, I hear a man’s voice yelling, must be the new boyfriend.
The man’s voice stops and I make my way to my mother’s room. I see her bent over her dressing table snorting lines of what I’m guessing is coke.
“Georgina! What the hell? Why is there glass everywhere? What are you-” I ask looking at her wiping her nose with the back of her hand. I don’t even notice the man until I hear his voice behind me.
“Hmmm I see we meet again sweet little thing…”
I know that voice, he smells better than last time though. I turn to look at him, getting a closer look; I see he looks a few years younger than my mother maybe mid twenty’s. He’s tall with blond messy hair, he has dark blue eyes and he’s rather big as he towers over me, he may be good looking but he still scares the living shit outta me.
“Really? You’re dating him? Are you that desperate?” I say turning back to look at her showing how disgusted I am.
He yanks me closer to him and bends down to whisper in my ear. “Watch what you say little girl or I might just put you over my knee and give you a good spanking for talking to me like that.”
I pull outta his grasp and take the little mirror that has the coke lined up on it, she looks confused for a second before she realizes what I’m about to do.
She growls.
I fling it out the window leaving the powder to disappear in a dust cloud outside, taken by the wind. The little mirror landing softly on the grass.
Georgina pushes me away from the window and looks outside; she turns around and scowls at me.
“That was my last hit you bitch!” she screams as she looks back out the window.
“I’ve got more under my bike seat, but it’s going to cost you.” Greg tells her and winks at me.
“Yes anything! How much do you have left? Give me your keys.” She begs him and it just repulses me to see her so desperate.
“I have more than enough to last you a week or two, but I don’t want money from you, I want to spend some alone time with your daughter here.” He says as he comes closer to me.
I step away and look at my mother for help but she does nothing as he grabs hold of my arm, “Mom! Say something! How can you just stand there and let him take me? He’s YOUR boyfriend and I’m YOUR daughter!” I yell at her and she looks at me like she doesn’t even know who I am, it breaks my heart to see the distant look in her eyes.
”Yeah you can keep her…I don’t give a fuck… just give me what you got.” She says not looking at me. Greg disappears.
I make a run for the window to try and get away but she pulls be pack in, shuts the window and stands in front of it. I look down the passage, looking for my next escape but she grabs my hand roughly. “Don’t even think about it.”
“How can you do this to me? Are drugs more important than your own daughter?” I scream at her and watch as she flinches then she lets he head fall backwards and starts laughing hystericall
y.
“What is wrong with you?” I shout again shaking her.
She stops laughing, pushes me away from her and an angry look comes across her face as she lets out a menacing growl then screams at me.
“YOU’RE the reason HE’S gone! If we didn’t have to look after YOU he would still be alive! I would be with him and not stuck with you! I FUCKING HATE YOU! You wana know why I take drugs? Huh? It’s so that I don’t have to deal with looking at your fucking face!” I don’t even recognize this person,I take a few steps away from her walking backwards.
I feel the tears falling down my cheeks. “Mom…you don’t mean that...” I whisper as the tears fall.
She screams again and I flinch. “Don’t you fucking get it? Are you that stupid? I’m not your mother Alexia and he wasn’t even your father!”
I feel a pain in my chest where she just broke the remaining pieces of my fragile heart. I fall to the floor as the tears that I’ve kept inside all these years start tumbling down. Everything is a blur but I still see Greg hand Georgina a bag and then he comes for me. I get up and start running, even in my trembling mess I make it to the kitchen when he grabs hold of my long hair and yanks it. I scream out in pain but he pulls me so that I’m looking at him with tears still flowing down my face.
“Oh sweet thing please don’t cry.” He says with such sincerity and he wipes my tears away. “Let’s get you outta here and away from this horrible woman.”
I try pull away but he gives me an irritated look and then he growls, “Alexia, you ARE coming with me, we can do this the easy way and I won’t hurt you or I will let my wolf out and see what he can do. He wants to mark you desperately, I’m keeping him at bay but if you make it difficult for me I will let him do as he pleases with you!”
I tremble in his hold as he pulls me to his bike, he takes his leather jacket off , puts it on me then climbs on the bike pulling me behind him, he pulls my hand to wrap it around his waist. He starts his bike and speeds off up the hill, I close my eyes and think about what Georgina just said, through my eye lids I can see the light from the street lamps blinking past and I can feel the tears falling but the wind dries them up before they even make it to my cheeks.
I feel the bike stopping and I look up to see we are at an apartment complex. I get off the bike and before he can get off I sprint out of the parking area to the side of the building to where I see bushes, I continue to run and I can hear his heavy foot steps behind me. I look behind me just as he tackles me to the floor knocking the wind out of me. I turn around and try push him off but he’s too strong and heavy he won’t budge. I try remember everything I’ve learnt as I kick him, he moves slightly giving me a gap to run but just as quick as I get up, I’m already back on the ground with him on top of me.
“Please just let me go Greg…Please.” I start crying out of breath.
“Tsk…tsk…tsk, don’t cry baby girl. You’re starting to make me really angry and if you don’t keep quiet and follow my orders I’ll make sure you have something to cry about when we get into my house.” He whispers in a gruff angry voice.
He picks my body up over his shoulder and walks with me back to his apartment. I’m kicking and thrashing in his arms. And then I start screaming when the thought of what he’s going to do to me when we get inside comes to my head. I need someone to hear me…to help me. He starts running and we get to his door he opens the door and when we get inside he puts me down and locks the door behind him.
He turns to looks at me and I shiver at the rage in his face that is glaring back at me. I turn to run and find an escape but he grabs his leather jacket, I unzip it and run free up a staircase tripping a few times. I reach the end of the hallway and dash into the only room that has a door open. I try to close the door behind me but he’s already got his leather boot in the way, I stumble backwards. Looking around I realize I’m in a room, a manly messy room. I look back to where Greg is standing and he has a smile on his face.
I’m in his room…
He starts walking toward me then he takes his shirt off revealing his hard defined stomach and muscular form. If I wasn’t in this situation right now I would admire the view and appreciate how good looking he is but all I can think about when I see all that muscle is how easy it would be for him to hold me down. How easy for him it has been so far. I keep backing away till I can feel the back of my legs against his bed, I quickly turn to jump over his bed but he catches me. He falls on top of me, with his chest against my back and his crotch against my ass. I’m struggling, trying to push him away and yell at him but he’s just holding me down firmly until he turns me over roughly and straddles me. He pulls my body so that it’s lying in the middle of the bed.
“Cupcake if you don’t stop wiggling I’m going to tie you up.” he says as he moves the hair from my face gently.
“Please Greg…Don’t do this please…why are you doing this to me?” I cry out loud again and I can see pain flash across his face.
“I want you Alexia...Why don’t you want me? Am I not good enough for you? Is that it?” he says as he leans down to me and nuzzles my neck and I stiffen underneath him.
Why do wolves do that?
The agony in his voice makes me feel his pain and I feel sorry for him even though I know I shouldn’t. I know what it feels like to not be wanted and to not feel good enough for anyone and I just needed someone to give me a hug and tell me everything will be okay. I know what it feels like when you don’t have anyone that loves you or even wants you, you stick to whatever you can get even if it is unhealthy. You will do whatever you can to get some sort of affection and sense of love. Even after the way Drake treated me and hurt me that one night, I was quick to forgive him because I needed the affection he would offer me afterward and I needed to feel loved by someone, even if the person I wanted to love me didn’t. I shudder as I think about Georgina.
I don’t know where my braveness comes from and even though I’m shaking and frightened right now I get the courage to do what I wanted someone to do to me all these years I felt unwanted, I gently put my trembling hands on the sides of his head and he slowly rises looking down at me with such sorrow.
"It’s not that you are not good enough for me, you scare me. Look at how you acted the first time I met you and how you treated me today? You take what you want without thinking. You will find the perfect person for you Greg, but she’s not me. I’m sorry…” I say softly as a tear falls down my face and I notice his wet cheeks too. I lean up and kiss his cheek softly, I feel him tense underneath me not expecting it.
He bends down and holds me tight and I wrap my arms around his back as this beast, which I thought was a monster, cries like a delicate baby in my arms.
“I’m so sorry Alexia, I swear I didn’t mean to hurt you or shout at you. I just thought that I could make you like me. I’m so sorry. I will take you home now I promise.” He says through a rough voice wiping the tears away and getting off me.
“It’s okay Greg, I don’t really have anywhere to go, if you just wana hang out for a bit? I don’t think … Georgina really wants me around.” I say as I wipe a tear away.
“I’m sorry cupcake, I heard what she said. I had shitty parents too. You deserve much better.” he says taking my hand in his.
“Greg you’re a good guy too you know, you just need to stop with the drugs and stealing young girls.” I tease earning me a chuckle from him.
“You’re the only girl I stole and I don’t do drugs I just deal them.” He says. “I’m going to stop but it’s the only way I can make a living. I was fine when I had my mate but she died and my parents went rogue, the pack instantly took a disliking to me and it kinda made me an outcast. I have my teaching degree but the school here won’t take me. I don’t know how much longer I can stay in this pack Alexia, to be honest…I’ve been thinking of leaving.” He says sadly.
“Do you really want to leave?” I ask him and he nods.
“I know people from the Fort Hills Pack, if I can get
them to accept you do you promise me you will stop dealing with drugs. There’s a school and a college there so you might even find work, I can ask if you like?” I tell him.
He looks up to me in surprise and a huge smile comes across his face. “Really? You would do that for me?”
“I can try? But you just can’t tell Frankie that I had anything to do with you leaving if they accept you, okay?”
“Thank you so much.” he says as he grabs me in for a hug, he releases me and takes my hand.
“Come with me, I want to show you something that I know will cheer you up.” he pulls me with him and we head out the door toward the woods.
We walk a little while and he’s still holding my hand, we come to a clearing and we end up on a cliff face looking down at the entire town with the full moon right above. The view is spectacular.
“Wow…this is amazing!” I whisper to myself.
“It’s beautiful isn’t it?” he says as he sits on an old tree stump. I sit on the floor next to his legs and enjoy the view.
I reflect on all the things that have happened since I arrived at this town and the recent events including Georgina telling me I’m not her daughter. I don’t understand how she can say that? It doesn’t tie up with what Alex and Johnny have been telling me, have they been lying to me also? Is everyone in on this? And what’s with the whole Drake and Chelsea thing? I knew he was lying when I asked him why he wasn’t wearing underwear and he stumbled with words. I feel so dirty and used by everyone…I feel so betrayed.
I wipe away the tears that fall and lean my head against Greg’s leg. He places his hand on my head and rubs it gently.
I guess we are in the same boat.
He suddenly stiffens beneath me and I watch him as he smells the air, “Rogues!” he says as he jumps up.
Can’t I get a damn break?
“We need to get you out of here NOW.” He says but it’s too late, two large guys fully clothed come out of the bush. Greg pushes me behind him.
“Well Roger look at this pretty thing, do you mind sharing brother? We are just passing through and looking for someone to keep us warm tonight …if you know what I mean.” The one guys chuckles.
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