by Alice Ward
I’d never had such a difficult time reigning in my thoughts before and focusing on purely the fight. In fact, that had always been one of my skills, being able to shut out the rest of the world until only me and my opponent remained.
But I had no such luck with Caleb. My thoughts were rushing, my heart pounding, tension coiling in my middle, desperately begging for some kind of release.
I locked gazes with him, sharp blue eyes shaded from the overhead lights, making them closer to a warm cobalt. My attention was drawn to his lips. Wide, strong lips that made breathing difficult. Lips that made me want to kiss them and say to hell with the fact that I’d worked so hard and fought so long to get a leg up on life. I finally had it in my grasp, and all I wanted now was to risk it all by kissing the man who could halt the whole thing on a whim.
I wouldn’t give in.
I lifted my head and flew into a kneestrike, but Caleb was faster. Hooking his leg around the one I’d shifted all my weight to, he yanked it out from under me, and I hit the mat hard. Instantly, his weight was over me as he prepared to put me in a submission hold.
But he didn’t.
“Timeout,” he said as he stared down at me, splayed over my body so that I could feel his ragged breathing.
For a second, time blurred, then his mouth came down on mine. His lips were soft, amazingly so compared to the hard angles of the man pressed into my front.
He pulled back, breathed out my name, the sound going through me, awakening nerves that had slumbered all my life. He stared down at me for a solid ten seconds, looking at me like I was some kind of anomaly, and I was sure that I’d just ruined everything. But then he was ripping his gloves off, his hands winding around my wrists, pinning them to the mat.
This was even better than my dream, and I sighed into his mouth as he brought it back to mine, this time for a longer, deeper kiss. The warmth of his tongue against mine sent all sorts of pleasant impulses to sensual places I hadn’t known existed. When a knot formed low in my belly, I knew there was no coming back from the cliff I had just thrown myself off.
Caleb dipped his tongue into the deep recesses, dominating my mouth. I returned his effort, wanting him to know that I was every bit as into this as he was.
I gave in, gloried in the feel of getting swept away in the rush of tingles he elicited, the fast sweep of blood that seemed to carry his taste throughout my system. I didn’t even try to contain myself. I was like a body of water that had finally broken through a dam, and I would not be stopped. I would rush, an unstoppable deluge.
“I want you.”
His words were like a punch that made me want to give him anything he wanted, to make him happy, even if it meant surrendering.
Caleb’s hands punctuated the statement when his fingers released my wrist and glided slowly down my inner arm, grazing over my ribs so that I held my breath, then hooked under the bottom of my tight athletic top, his palm coming to rest on my abdomen. My hips lifted of their own accord and a soft whimper slipped from my throat.
My mind flashed to the contract I’d signed, and something in my center went cold. “I’m already yours,” I said in a flat tone, testing him.
Raising his head, he took in my change in mood. “That’s called sponsorship. I put up money to give you advantages. It doesn’t mean I own you. And nothing that happens between us personally changes a damn thing professionally.”
He was right. And a chunk of the ice in my belly broke off. But I could tell by his unshuttered gaze that that wasn’t all. “But you want me to be…”
“Mine,” Caleb said with force. “To want only me, to dream of only me, only scream out my name.”
The cool air of the gym broke into the sensuous haze for a moment, but I was quickly pulled back in as Caleb’s lips found the side of my jaw. Once more, reality echoed fantasy as he kissed his way down the side of my neck, and then finally to my collarbone.
“Do you want me?” he asked.
“Yes,” I gasped, wanting nothing more than to feel his teeth on my skin like in my dream, proof that he wanted me as desperately as I wanted him.
He pulled away, staring down at me with a gaze so intense I felt like I might actually melt. “Why?”
“I…” I shook my head, trying to make everything I was feeling make verbal sense. I couldn’t. What was happening between us was too strong, too powerful. “There’s just this… I can’t not want you.”
He blew out a breath. “God, I know. It’s confusing, frustrating. But there’s only one way to tamp it back.” His smile was pure sin, and then he was kissing me again.
I wound my arms around his shoulders, wanting to fuse us together like we were one. He felt like he was made to fit against me, and I tangled my legs in his, hooking our bodies tighter together.
I wanted, needed to feel his bare skin. I pushed him up far enough so I could grip his shirt and yanked it up and off, Caleb helping. The garment managed to muss his hair from its normally perfectly coiffed style, the tousled look so sexy that the tension in my middle twisted that much tighter. His muscles were taut, and I hungrily took in the striations of each bulge in his six-pack. I’d never craved someone so thoroughly and found myself impatiently wanting us to progress as quickly as possible, while also never leaving this moment.
Freedom from his shirt seemed to be a signal to him to escalate because suddenly he was gripping my leggings and yanking them down. They were so tight that they fought coming off even though I tried to help, but Caleb didn’t seem to mind the challenge and dipped his head, kissing my stomach as he worked them down. Finally, I was only in my blue lace underwear, grateful I’d taken a shower.
“Do you have any idea how beautiful you are?” he murmured, voice low and drenched in sex.
“You keep saying that.” The words were out of my mouth before I could hold them back, and my cheeks warmed. He had a way of making his opinion sound like an indisputable fact.
“It’s undeniable.”
I pulled on his shoulders, wanting his lips on mine again, but he dipped his head low and his hot breath was on my collarbone and inching lower. My breathing picked up speed in anticipation, in hope, when his hand crawled up my abdomen and found one pert nipple through my sports bra. I thought I might combust right there in the ring. Pulling the bra over my head in one quick movement, the material had barely hit the floor before his lips closed over my nipple.
My fingers found his hair, and I held onto him as he sucked my flesh deep into his mouth. I keened, begged for more, and he gave it to me as his hand trailed a wandering path down my belly.
The tension in my middle increased, my adrenaline flowing until my heart raced so fast that my heartbeat drowned out everything. His lips followed his fingers, licking and kissing down my stomach.
His name left my mouth in a rush when his fingers hooked under the edge of my panties and pulled. Soon, the blue lace was tossed to the side, and he settled down between my legs. His fingers parted me as he blew lightly on my most sensitive skin. A straight hurricane of ecstasy rushed through me. “Oh god, Caleb!”
I was bared to him now, but instead of feeling self-conscious or vulnerable, the way he was looking at me — like I was the most delicious thing he had ever tasted, like I really was as beautiful as he said — I felt empowered. I felt sexy and desired.
It made me want him. Want him to hurry up and shed the rest of his clothes. Want him to fill me.
I could feel him smile as his tongue flicked over my clit, eliciting more nerves to surface and cry out for more. My back arched, and his hand moved up to encircle my breast, his thumb moving over the nipple, matching the movements of his tongue.
Every cell in my body was focused only on what his tongue was doing to me and the way his hand was now joining the other between my thighs, opening me farther. I thought I might go mad, if I wasn’t already. My bare back pressed into the mat, and the cool surface was a contrast that only emphasized the heat that was growing in my very center.
> When he stopped, I gasped for air and realized that I hadn’t even known I was holding my breath. But Caleb didn’t give me time to recover. A single finger entered me, then another, and I wailed as they curved, exploring my inner walls.
“Please…” I begged.
He licked my clit, his fingers moving faster. “Please what?”
I didn’t know, so I pulled his face against me harder, grinding onto his tongue and teeth until a wave of pleasure hit me so hard, I wailed out his name.
While I watched, my entire body on fire, he rose to his knees, his hands going to the fly of his shorts. Those hands mesmerized me, and I watched as he took his time removing them, his hot blue gaze locked with mine. Once more, I marveled at how his intense stare seemed to look right through me, see right inside. I prided myself on my walls, but it seemed like they were thinner than paper under his gaze.
Then his workout shorts were off, and my breath hitched as only his boxer briefs remained.
My teeth worried at my lips while I watched, enraptured, as all of him was revealed to me. His need was certainly evident, standing tall and thick.
I couldn’t wait any longer, and when I reached up to him, he let me pull him down on top of me. “I want you inside me.”
He shot me a triumphant grin as his hand found my aching center again. “I want that too. But first, I want to watch your face when I make you come.” I gasped, arching up into him as his fingers parted me. He took his time. Stroking, caressing, exploring. Learning every inch of me and exploiting every reaction. I could only hold on to his muscled shoulders as he strummed me, bringing notes out of my mouth that I had never made before. I thought I’d had good sex, decent sex before, but I was quickly realizing that I was sorely mistaken.
Something beautiful was building along my pelvis and arching up my spine. I knew I couldn’t be approaching another climax so soon, and yet that was exactly what was happening.
“Oh, Caleb, that’s so good. I’m gonna…” His fingers curled inside me as I tried to find the right words, and all hope of finishing what I had been about to say was lost.
“You feel like heaven,” he growled, and that guttural sound was what toppled me over the edge.
A cry escaped my throat as I tensed around him, and the world spun away from me, leaving my only tether to reality Caleb’s fingers inside of me as I rode them through my climax.
I was panting and breathless when I finally came down, and my bones felt like pure jelly. I laid there, content in my bliss, but that same furor struck me like a whip again as Caleb left me for a moment. I only wanted his heat pressed down over me but understood as I heard the crinkling of a condom wrapper.
Then his cock was pressed to my opening.
“Do you want this?” he asked, pinning me with eyes full of desire, but at the same time patience.
“I want you. Yes, I want you.” I said it louder than I meant to because my entire body had turned traitor, and I had the idea I would have done anything in that moment to have him inside me.
His eyes flashed to something like relief, and he surged forward with a snarl, planting himself inside me.
I let out a noise somewhere between a gasp and a shout as he filled me, stretching me. He held himself deep inside, and there was a pinch of discomfort because he was so large, but it quickly faded as pure pleasure took its place.
“Are you okay?” he rasped, and I ran my hands down his torso, exploring the ridges of hard muscles tensed to their max. He was shaking ever so slightly in an effort to make sure I was okay before he continued. Even though his dominance had come out, he was still thinking of me first.
I didn’t know what came over me, maybe it was that his dominant nature brought out the brat in me. With a quick shift of my hips, and because he was off-guard, I managed to turn us so that he was beneath me, and I was fully impaled on his engorged length.
He let out a hiss as I cried out again, and his hands went to my hips. There, his fingers dug into my skin as he guided me up, then back down his length.
Satisfaction that I’d turned his seduction back on him coursed through my veins and I quickened my pace. The muscles in my abdomen were fluttering already, tightening into a tense ball.
When was the last time I’d finished more than once in a single encounter? Never.
Caleb pressed his thumb over my clit, and all thoughts of the past ceased to matter. Right now, the whole world was just me and the carved god below me.
I bent down, my lips capturing his as my hands traveled over every crook and valley of his molded chest. The change in angle had unexpected consequences, and he was suddenly hitting the spot within me that made my mind empty of everything but his touch.
“Don’t stop!” I begged, pistoning my hips to meet his own desperate upward thrusts.
“Not… planning… to,” he growled, impossibly picking up his speed even further as I laughed.
I felt like my body was going to rattle apart at the joints as we devolved into a borderline frenzy. The world whittled down to fast, harsh breaths, straining muscles and the slap of our skin on the mat below us. Wild, reckless, and oh so wonderful.
My legs were trembling as a tremendous white wave of pleasure came rushing violently toward me. And then, the wave crested, and I was swallowed up.
“Caleb!” I didn’t mean to scream his name, but that was exactly what escaped my mouth as I came hard, Caleb spasming within me as he let out a feral sound.
I laid there, locked in my own body’s celebration, letting my hands flutter softly over the hair on the back of his neck. I’d never had sex this good, this… connected. It had been such a workout, had me breathing as hard as after one of Andre’s sessions.
I stiffened at the thought of Andre’s name.
Shit.
I’d just had sex with the man sponsoring my dream.
Reality and all its complications came back in a nauseating rush.
What had I done?
I shot to my feet so quickly that my knees almost gave out. Unable to look at Caleb, I grabbed my clothes, holding them to my chest.
It took Caleb a beat to realize what I was doing, and as he did, his contented expression faded, replaced by a frown. “Hey, where are you going?”
I couldn’t look at him. “I have to go.”
Caleb leaped up. “Wait a second, I’ll drive you home—”
“I’ll be fine.” I walked as if I was in no hurry even though I wanted to sprint toward the locker room. After I was there, I splashed water onto my face before quickly yanking on my clothes with shaking hands.
I knew that in order to leave, I had to pass Caleb to get to the main entrance, and that was just absolutely not an option. I had finally gotten the opportunity of a lifetime, and I may have thrown it all away for a few minutes of sex. I needed time and space to figure out how to proceed. But I didn’t have it, had to figure out my next step without the luxury of planning time.
Straightening my back as I stepped out of the locker room, hoping to bypass a confrontation, I bit back a cry of frustration, and my fingers clenched the bag I carried. Just when I was sure that I would have to face him, I noticed the glowing red exit sign over the door at the side of the building.
Without a second thought, I walked out the door and into the cold February air, pulling the hood of my sweatshirt over my head. But even as I rushed toward the bus stop, I could still smell him on me. The throbbing of my lower half would not let me forget that his fingers had been there not minutes before.
When I walked in the door at home, I was confronted in the living room by my friend, Grace, who was watching Colby play a whichever Fallout game he’d gotten for Christmas. I suspected that Colby had a crush on Grace, and at the moment he was trying to impress her with his survival skills.
She looked up when I entered, doing a double take at my appearance, which I knew didn’t look much out of the ordinary after a workout. I’d checked in the mirror before leaving the gym. That meant that the encounter
with Caleb was written all over my face. Or body.
I held back a grimace and said with a tight smile, “I’ve got to shower. What a workout today. Be back in a few.”
Colby yelled out an agreement, obviously happy to keep Grace occupied longer, and I hightailed it to the bathroom.
I scrubbed vigorously in the shower, washing off the gym’s grime like I did after every workout. Except today’s workout was fundamentally different from any other I’d ever had at the gym. Or anywhere.
Try as I might to put the encounter out of my mind, my brain kept flickering back to the events that had just unfolded. Caleb peeling my underwear down my legs. Caleb thrusting himself inside me. The way we moved together in sync, as if it had been pre-orchestrated. Amazing. Much more than I’d ever looked for in a purely sexual situation.
It was the stupidest thing I could have done. The best-case scenario was that Caleb would act like nothing happened, but I knew how incredibly unrealistic that was. He was either going to fire me outright for unprofessional conduct or assume that I was some kind of whore who slept her way to the top. Because in this situation, women were whores and men studs, right?
What happened between us was entirely my fault. I shouldn’t have gotten into that ring. What kind of fighter got into a ring with her sponsor, hoping to punch him out? I gripped the sides of my head.
“Hey, are you almost done in there? I gotta go!” I growled in aggravation as Honey banged on the door.
“I’ll be out in a few minutes!” I called back. Living with four siblings, there was no such thing as a long shower, even if the water heater held out.
“You’ve been in there for half an hour, and I gotta go!” Honey had recently learned to tell time and took every opportunity to announce how long an event was taking. But when Honey had to go, she really had to go. My sister had more energy than all of us in the house put together and went headlong until Mother Nature came to call.
“Fine! Just give me a minute.” I shut off the water and stepped out of the tub, grumbling the entire time. Wrapping myself in a towel, I opened the door, and she rushed past me, hopping up and down on her toes.
