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by J Danielle Dorn




  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, organizations, places, events, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.

  Copyright © 2017 J. Danielle Dorn

  All rights reserved.

  No part of this book may be reproduced, or stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without express written permission of the publisher.

  Published by Inkshares, Inc., Oakland, California

  www.inkshares.com

  Edited by Adam Gomolin, Philip Sciranka, and Staton Rabin

  Cover design by David Drummond

  Interior design by Kevin G. Summers

  ISBN: 9781942645603

  e-ISBN: 9781942645610

  Library of Congress Control Number: 2017940695

  First edition

  Printed in the United States of America

  It’s a hell of a thing, killing a man.

  You take away all he’s got and all he’s ever gonna have.

  —William Munny, Unforgiven

  The devil promised that all his people should live bravely,

  that all persons should be equal,

  that there should be no day of resurrection or of judgment,

  and neither punishment nor shame for sin.

  —The confession of William Barker Sr.

  at the Salem witch trials

  1

  BEFORE I LEAVE YOU in this world, my dear, I aim to record what came to pass when your momma rode from the Nebraska Territory to Louisiana to the frozen Badlands to bring to justice the monster who murdered your father.

  I know you will have more questions than I will be able to answer in these pages. Some of those questions your Nana Cat will answer, as she answered mine when I wondered about the world and my place in it. If our path is freer and easier than it has been thus far, you will grow up in a family of witches proud and strong, and one day you will understand why you did so without a mother or a father. Why there was no other way this story was going to end.

  It was not my intention for you to come into this world not knowing your father, and I sure as hell did not intend for you to not know your mother, but what I am about to tell you is an injustice the likes of which the world has been tolerating for so long as men have walked in it.

  Bringing you into that kind of world is nothing your father and I envisioned when we set out to start a family. We did the best we could with what we had, which was not much. I liked to think it was enough.

  When I dream of you grown, I dream you have your father Matthew’s eyes, bright and blue and kind, some mischief in them but no malice. When I dream of you, I dream of him. I cannot help it. His ghost, I suspect, will follow you a long time.

  Your father was a tall man, and handsome, at least to my eyes. He spoke little, and he spoke even less of his life before the war. He joined the United States Army in the fall of 1843 at the age of seventeen, and three years later when the call came for men to fight in Mexico, he answered. He was a doctor, and a good one, and though he did not fear violence, acting on it was not in his nature. He went to Mexico to patch up those who did fight. From hearing him speak of his time there, the oath he swore as a doctor and the oath he swore as a soldier were at odds with each other.

  Folks in town respected your father for his part in the war almost as much as they respected him for his work as a doctor, but I know they feared I had him under a spell, that he was with me not because of love but because he had no choice. You will hear folks call love by many different names, but love and infatuation are not the same, and even the world’s most powerful witch cannot force a man to love her.

  I hear a lot of things other folks don’t. Folks mistake me for Indian if they do not mistake me for Mexican, and they cease minding their tongues around those they think to be beneath them anyway. I have light eyes same as your father did, which I suppose frightens them more than accounts of my witchcraft do. Dark eyes in a face like mine would make sense to them, but light eyes do not.

  What your father saw and did during the war trailed after him even after he took off his spurs. He likened it to a dog he had fed once keeping at his heel in the hopes he would drop another scrap. Having moments of violence in his past, he thought, meant he would always be a man of violence. But he never raised a hand to another person in his life. Never touched a weapon after he hung his up for the last time. But the war changed him.

  Changed or not, I loved him. None of this would have happened if I did not love him.

  2

  YOU COME FROM a long line of women gifted in a way that scares most folks.

  According to the stories your gran told me when I was young, our family’s roots grew deep in Scottish soil. Our ancestors lived in a small town known as Marc Innis, or Horse Meadow, which was once an island in the midst of a lake a long time past.

  The women in this family have always run a public house, healing and helping in our blood, but so too have we always lived in fear of fire. Five times the Church of Scotland roved through the Lowlands, seeking out the accursed, pricking them with devices that would prove a woman was caught in the devil’s snare. Five times the Church of Scotland strung up the women in our family, and five times they burned them alive.

  One of the earliest stories I remember concerns the fate of my great-great-great-grandmother Eimhir, who practiced necromancy when she could not accept the death of her beloved. She was one of the last to burn before our line departed the land that had sustained us for so long.

  The women in this family are stubborn, but they are not stupid. Those who were able gathered up what little they needed to survive at sea and left the country in the 1600s. They were indentured servants in the beginning, working for the English in the New World.

  Perhaps your gran will give you a greater account of how the roadhouse came to rest in their hands, but the way I heard it, one of her aunts married the fellow who owned the place, and the fellow did not die so much as he crawled inside a whiskey bottle and curled up at the bottom of it. It was just as well. If he had died before he gave her a son, your great-great-aunt would have had no recourse, legal or otherwise, for hanging on to the place.

  The men in this family do not have the gift the women have. As near as I can tell, it has more to do with blood than with the body. Always in our histories, men have been responsible for keeping us rooted in the world. If not for them coming into the wilds aiming to tame it, we would have stayed wild ourselves, nettles in our hair and dirt for lip color. Such is the way of wild things.

  Ours is not a religion. It is a way of life, and it is an abomination to those who do not understand it. The roadhouse is a sanctuary for us. I grew wild with your aunts and cousins in the nursery while men gambled and drank and smoked beneath our twiglet dolls and pretend altars.

  Before I knew what it was to be a witch, I knew what it was to be different.

  My wildness came from not knowing who my father was. You will have stories of your momma and your daddy both. I had only my imagination. From my imagination I drew pictures of highwaymen and wayward sons and rebellious heirs. Only in the mirror could I see traces of who he might have been. My hair was thick and black while my cousins had fine curls, red in the winter months and corn silk in the summer. While their eyes were big and green, their skin fair and freckled, my eyes were not so round and my skin would brown like bread by summer’s end. It freckled, sure, but I did not have to protect my skin the way my cousins had to protect theirs.

  My earliest memory is of the nursery we shared. Sunlight from one window and the smell of the herbs from the back garden from the other. The rug beneath us as old as the roadhouse itself, older. If we aligned our tiny
fingers with the piles, all of us in a circle, we could convince each other we heard the voices of the women who wove it, our ancestors, our blood. Girlhood is a magick all its own, and our girlhood was a shared one.

  My mother dreaded my first day of school. In the week leading up to it, she stopped smiling altogether, started snapping her fingers to get our attention, slapping our wrists when we slipped up. Pulling a glass across the breakfast table with our Will instead of asking if someone would please pass the milk, or sharing our thoughts using mental projection instead of our words, shattering the silence with causeless giggling—these things would draw attention to us in a room full of strangers. We were young, and we were careless. Our wrists were red from all the disciplining by the time the aunts lined us up in the nursery to sit between their knees as they combed and braided our hair.

  My mother had to comb mine with a particular fierceness, as it preferred to fall in waves. And though she smoothed the waves with a wetted palm, the baby hairs along the edge of my scalp would not lie flat. She stood me up when the braiding was done and held me still and called me her smart, brave girl before leaving the room, leaving my cousin Eva holding up our plaits side by side as if she had never noticed their contrasting color before.

  “Look how dark your hair is, Lily,” she said to me. None of the younger girls could pronounce my name, Li Lian, given to honor my faceless father.

  Some lessons I could learn from watching the other girls. I learned to braid a lilac flower into my hair to bring wisdom during lessons or to sprinkle playing cards with nutmeg to bring the dealer good fortune. Physical objects can serve as a focus for your magick, and they can also make less obvious the fact that you are using your Will to change the world around you.

  Other lessons I had to learn myself. There are lessons you will have to learn for yourself. Some I hope like hell you will learn from what I have recorded here, though I am beginning to believe so far as hope is concerned, mine has run its course.

  Every day on the way to school, we passed by the riverfront, where the men would unload the big boats, and horses would pull crates to meet up with the railroad. From time to time after school, we would walk along the railroad to collect coins and horseshoes and other metal objects abandoned along the tracks.

  During my fourth year, when I was near the age of nine or so, I began to believe trouble and I were destined to spend our lives together. The lesson of the day concerned the advent of the steam engine and its implications, and the younger children were excused to the yard to practice their lessons or play, and I remember clear as yesterday a little blond boy named Daniel Chesterfield sticking his hand into the air and calling out without waiting for the teacher to give him permission.

  Our schoolmistress was a thin woman with a long, sad face. I remember overhearing a remark that she was not much older than my cousin Agnes, Eva’s eldest sister, and though she was a maiden, she had the weary disposition of a crone. She did not want to ask Danny to repeat himself, this I could hear in her bones, but she did anyway.

  “The men who work on the steamboats,” Danny said. “They all look like Lilian.”

  “No, they don’t!” I said, because the men who worked on the steamboats were covered in dirt and coal dust and sweat, and though I would not hesitate to dig in the dirt with my bare hands, I did not spend my days in that state.

  “Yes, they do,” he said, and then he put a thumb to the corner of either eye and pulled back the skin.

  I threw my chalkboard at him then, which earned both of us time in opposite corners of the schoolhouse while the others completed their lesson and went outside to play. Danny would go on to enlist his friends in chasing me and my friends around the yard, pushing us down and spitting on us, pulling our hair and dropping insects down the backs of our dresses. When I told my mother of Danny’s reign of terror, she said, “You would do best to ignore that young man. He will get what is coming to him.”

  Waiting was not in my nature. If you are anything like your father, you will find yourself quick to make friends. If you are more like your mother, you will find it easier to lose them.

  About the worst thing I ever did in my early life was curse that boy. Your gran was not pleased to hear from the schoolmistress that I had cut free a lock of Danny’s hair with a pair of sewing scissors I had hidden away in my skirts that morning, and when she asked me what I had done with the hair, I did not want to tell her I had mixed it with cow dung and dirt and deposited it in the gutter for the water to carry away. I had, so I denied having been anywhere near the boy. When we learned he had taken to bed with dysentery, I told your gran he must have drunk out of the river like he was not supposed to.

  Maybe she could have proven I was the one who made him ill, and shown me the proof. She did not. Nor did she lecture or punish me.

  If I were born in Salem times and done to Danny what I done, folks would have dragged me in front of the judge and hanged me that afternoon. Eight is plenty old enough to die when the law thinks what you done is rotten enough. Luck and I have always had an understanding, but I know now the fear your gran felt for me after what I did in the schoolyard. Killing Danny on accident would have made this a different story, and a shorter one.

  The same day Danny failed to appear for lessons, I too found myself beset by stomach ailments. I shall spare you the details, but I spent more time in the outhouse than I did at my desk, and when I returned home that afternoon ashen and sweat-soaked, your gran shook her head and asked me, “Was it worth it?”

  Our powers come with a price. All power, I suppose, comes with a price. Your father would have had a scientific explanation for this property, cited a Newtonian law to explain nature’s love of balance. We have a simpler explanation for it—the law of three. What energy one sends out, whether it be fair or foul, returns threefold. While I am certain I suffered far greater pains than did Danny, he did not go home to a family of healers, and when we returned to school, the wind had gone out of his sails. He no longer ran about the yard as he once did.

  Danny did not recognize what I had done as witchcraft, and he did not report it as such. But when in the yard in front of his friends he accused me of making him sick, I told him it was me who turned his guts to water and to leave my friends alone or it would be worse the next time.

  He never came near any of us girls again, but neither did anyone else.

  I hope you grow up to be a wild one, that you learn to spit and curse and shoot a gun. This country is not kind to soft women. Maybe back east it is. Back east I hear they drape their women in lace and gild their homes and change their clothing a half a dozen times a day. St. Louis is considerably more civilized than the frontier, where your home would have been, where we do not have such things. I wish I could say the openness of the plains and the danger waiting on those who go out into it unprepared would be enough to make men kinder to one another, but I do not believe it to be in a man’s nature to be kind. Hard times make for hard men.

  Be wild, but be wise, darling.

  I hope you will recognize the darkness in this story, that you will see your momma not as brave and bold but as stubborn and angry. I hope you will take after your father in temperament. Be kind and patient. Ask questions and know when to accept what is in front of you.

  Even after all this time, I miss him. I should have been more careful.

  When you are old enough, I hope you find a good man, brave and kind. I hope you take more care than I have.

  You are the only good and pure thing to come out of all of this.

  3

  OF ALL THE STORIES your gran never told me, the one I wished for hardest was that of how she and your grandfather met. To this day I do not know it, but I know I will not allow you to grow up guessing at who your father might be.

  When I was a girl of about thirteen, I ran away from St. Louis, not on account of any wrong my kin had done but rather my own wandering feet. I thought my destiny lay down the river where the steamboats and their passengers d
isappeared. I grew tired of looking into the faces of men whose names I did not know, who carried on with their work without knowing I was looking at them so. I grew tired of wondering if my father was among them, and knowing he and I would never recognize each other even if we did pass each other by in the street. So one day I gathered the money I had earned cleaning the bar at the roadhouse and I stole away on the first ship I met headed south.

  Even now, I cannot tell you what I expected to find there. Texas is a long ways from Missouri, and in those days it was much as I was—seeking independence yet headed towards statehood. What happened on that journey is a story you can find in my own diary, when you are old enough to feel an itch in your soles yourself, but I will tell you now I was run away for a good four months before forces greater than I brought me home again.

  My carriage and my willingness to make eye contact gave strangers the impression I was older than my age, and though it was not my intention to put down roots out there on the borderlands, I found myself inclined to stay awhile when I saw men of all shades walking the streets. On the way south I had passed a group of Waco Indian travelers, with whom I traded without incident. Once there, a half-Mexican man offered me a job in his cantina. All I had to do was ask for it. The rules were a little looser in Texas, and I felt less alien when I was among others to whom the sun was kind.

  So it came to pass that at the age of fourteen I was working as a barmaid in a cantina on the north side of the Brazos River, my skin dark brown and my hair shimmering red from the sun bleaching it. On weekends, I filled mugs and poured whiskey, but during the week, on slow nights, the vaqueros and gamblers would invite me over to play a hand or two. At first they meant it as a joke, but as time passed I proved myself capable of holding my own against men with scarred faces and gold-capped teeth. The nutmeg I sprinkled on the deck when it was my turn to deal appeared like dirt in the dusty light.

 

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