by Cach, Lisa
“I do not know him.”
“But your impression so far?”
“He is… unexpected.”
There seemed no other way to describe it. Each man who had been introduced to her this evening, she had wondered if he was the one Penelope meant she should snare. There was the gentleman farmer; but no, he had a wife. The vicar, too, and the baronet, of course. There were a few others, local gentry, but as she forced herself to converse with them, all had soon enough revealed themselves as being out of the marriage market, their wives elsewhere in the room.
And then Mr. Brent had been introduced to her, and she had almost lost her voice altogether. He was average in height, with a trim, square build, dark hair, and eyes of a rich coffee brown. His features were unremarkable, his nose perhaps too large, his eyes set too deep, but the animation of those plain features gave him an unquestionable attractiveness. There were those people whose smiles touched only their lips, but with Mr. Brent his whole face creased and crinkled, and his eyes met hers with intensity and intelligence.
She had never had a man look at her with such interest. She had never had anyone give her such flirtatious, individual attention in all the years of her life.
She was shy under his scrutiny and wanted to run. And at the same time she wanted to take no step that might cool that interest in Mr. Brent’s eyes.
Luckily her time with Miss Marbury had taught her one thing well, and that was how to humor one bent on being difficult. It was plain that Mr. Brent fancied himself a bit of a rebel, and she had adjusted her behavior accordingly. She had not had time as yet to decide if he was a man worthy of being humored, or one she could, after all, marry. Her words to Penelope had been more bombast than substance, and she was not at all certain that she would have the courage to marry an odious man if given the opportunity.
Being a beggar among relations might not be a pleasant life, but it was the one she knew. Presented with the opportunity of escape, in reality and not just fantasy, she did not know if she was equal to the challenge.
The oysters in her stomach rolled and turned, and she felt a wave of heat wash over her.
“I’m going to be sick,” she said, shoving her teacup at Penelope. Then she left her astonished cousin on the love seat, and ran from the room.
Chapter Three
Christmas Day
The Nativity
Haverton Hall
“I do hope Miss Ambrose can make it tonight,” Elizabeth said. “I was surprised not to see her in church this morning.”
Richard said nothing, pretending to be engrossed in his book. They were in the drawing room, supposedly enjoying a few moments of quiet. The children had been taken upstairs for their naps, and this would be the only lull in the day, for this evening the Twitchens would arrive for a small family dinner, as had been their custom for many years.
“You seemed fond of the girl,” his sister’s husband, Sir John, said.
Richard grunted and turned a page.
“I thought that was the only reason you came to church, on the chance of seeing her. What, no answer? You, of the famous forthrightness?” Sir John turned to his wife and said in a stage whisper, “By Jove, I think he is smitten with the girl. Have you ever seen him without a reply?”
“I am not smitten with her,” Richard snapped, shutting his book and glaring first at his brother-in-law and then at his sister. “A trifle curious, perhaps. But not smitten.”
“Mrs. Twitchen told me some of her history,” Elizabeth volunteered, then did not continue.
Richard looked at her, grinding his teeth, the two of them in a duel of stubbornness. “Oh, all right!” he said at last. “Tell me what she said.”
“Make him admit he’s smitten first,” Sir John said.
“I don’t think we should push our luck, darling,” Elizabeth said. “He looks ready to pop a vessel as it is.”
“But he’s making a damn fine show. I haven’t had this much fun since the vicar got drunk and came here to beg the hand of that upstairs chambermaid.”
“Really, dearest,” Elizabeth said. “Just because you’ve been fortunate enough to marry the perfect woman doesn’t mean you should make fun of others in their quest for a similar happiness.”
Sir John narrowed his eyes and chewed his upper lip, trying and failing to come up with a suitable rejoinder that would not get him into trouble.
“Now, as I was saying,” Elizabeth moved on. “Mrs. Twitchen says that Miss Vivian Ambrose is her first cousin twice removed, and comes from one of the weaker branches of the family. She has no fortune or rank, and her parents were killed in a carriage accident when she was a small child. She has spent these last several years as a companion to an elderly aunt, and has not yet been out in society, although she is twenty-five years of age. Mrs. Twitchen is hoping to make the girl a match in London this season. She says she feels rather sorry for the awkward thing.”
“She’s not awkward,” Richard argued, privately surprised at Miss Ambrose’s age. She was only a year younger than himself. Her face did not show her years.
“Isn’t she? Of course, I had only a few moments to speak with her. She seemed quite shy.”
“I wonder if we spoke to the same young lady.”
“It may have been weariness I noted,” Elizabeth amended. “Mrs. Twitchen said she had been remiss in having the girl attend the dinner party, as she had only arrived that morning. The strain was too much for her, and she was forced to retire after dinner.”
“Is that what happened, then?” he asked. He had been disappointed to arrive in the drawing room only to find the young Miss Ambrose missing, and had consequently been unable to think of anything but her the remainder of the evening.
“She was overcome quite suddenly. She seemed fine when she was talking with Miss Twitchen; then all of a sudden she ran from the room, and Miss Twitchen said she had taken ill.”
“More likely Miss Twitchen said something to her,” Richard said. “She’s a little minx, is Penelope Twitchen.” He shifted in his chair, reopening his book and pretending once again to read, although his mind was on what the girl likely had said to scare Miss Ambrose off.
He really should stop thinking about the girl. He was only doing himself damage by brooding over her. It used to be that his hopes would rise upon each introduction to a friendly young woman, but as he’d gotten to know them—those who did not spurn his conversation—his expectations had died, hope squeezed from his heart.
Miss Ambrose had, with her oyster gluttony and her taunting, frank remarks, stirred that last drop of hope remaining in him. He was caught between wishing for it to grow and wishing he could drain it onto the muddy ground and stomp it under his boot, so it could no longer cause him pain.
It would be all the better if Miss Ambrose did not come to dinner tonight. He could put an end to this nonsense in both his heart and mind.
*
The Twitchen carriage bounced and rolled along the lane leading to Haverton Hall, jostling its four occupants, who sat two across, bundled in their coats and hats. Outside the windows, the heavy, overcast sky blotted out the last hints of day, the countryside blanketed in a layer of shadows.
Vivian almost wished she were still ill, so that she did not need to attend this dinner. The nausea from greasy fried oysters was preferable to that induced by nerves. At least one could throw up oysters and be rid of them.
Last night she had not returned to the drawing room after being ill, for how could one come back? What explanation could one give for such an absence?
This morning had seen her confined to her bed while the family went to church. Mrs. Twitchen had fretted, blaming herself for Vivian’s illness. “‘Twas entirely too much strain for you, poor girl,” the lady had apologized. “No, you must stay abed. I won’t have you overexciting yourself. You should have rested yesterday, only I gave you no chance.”
And so her breakfast and lunch had been sent up to her on a tray, and she had devoured them with good appetite, not havi
ng known that this dinner party was waiting for her in the evening. If she had, she’d have rung for a third tray.
The day abed had given her more time than she wanted to brood upon meeting Mr. Brent, however, and to suffer a dozen embarrassments over her own behavior. She ate a butter tart off the plate by her bed each time such a distressing memory came to mind.
Mr. Brent had coaxed her into being naughty, and she had let him do so. However much he might have enjoyed her antics, though, his opinion of her had to be low because of them. She had painted herself as fast and daring, and he had likely believed her, for what evidence had he to the contrary?
Another butter tart helped her worry over the question.
Men did not marry fast women; that was common knowledge. And yet, if that was what intrigued Mr. Brent, what other choice had she than to play that role?
If it was a role. It had come much more easily to her than ladylike behavior, with its subtle rules and unspoken commandments. Perhaps she was a coarse, unrefined woman at heart.
The carriage at last drew up under the porte cochere, and they got down and entered the house. Sir John and Lady Sudley greeted them, servants took their coverings, and they were ushered into the drawing room to pass the time before dinner.
And there was Mr. Brent, looking uncertain, and then their eyes met and for a moment his face lit up, then as quickly composed itself into a bland, noncommittal welcome.
“See if you can make him laugh again,” Penelope whispered to Vivian, giving her a playful shove toward him.
“Push me again,” Vivian whispered through gritted teeth, “and I’ll spill red wine on this dress.” It was a periwinkle gown she wore this time, with embroidery and beadwork over the bodice. Penelope had once again done her hair and her face, working with the same care and concentration as if Vivian were a spun-sugar castle to be presented to the king.
“I’m just encouraging you. You need a bit of that, I think,” Penelope complained. “Dowdy girls usually do.”
“Red wine, and grease from my dinner,” she threatened.
“You can overcome many problems of face or figure with a bright personality,” Penelope advised in a teasing tone. She seemed to be enjoying this marriage hunt far more than the huntress herself.
“Leave me alone,” Vivian said, although Penelope’s insults did serve to distract her from the matter at hand.
“And remember, it may be a feast day, but you needn’t stuff yourself: we will have had a half-dozen of them by the end of the Christmas season. You’re in no danger of starving.” Penelope gave her another little shove toward Mr. Brent, and left her. Vivian watched her go, almost wishing she’d stayed, but when she turned she was startled to find Mr. Brent standing before her.
“Miss Ambrose, I was sorry to miss you the remainder of last evening,” he said. “And now look, you are being shy with me.”
She saw the devilish light in his eyes, and out of the swirling mass of confused choices for how she should behave—innocent or knowing, shy or fast, flirtatious or proper—what came forward was the truth. “I am being shy because I am shy, Mr. Brent.”
“You do not seem so to me.”
“Only because you make outrageous comments that encourage a similarly outrageous response. You are enough to put any young woman on edge.”
“Not any young woman would answer as you just have.”
“I don’t know any better,” she said.
He laughed. “And I pray you never learn. Last night’s conversation was one of the most enjoyable I’ve had in recent memory.”
“I had been hoping you would forget it.”
“Impossible. And I would never want to.”
She blushed, fidgeted, yearned for a bit of spice cake, then looked around for something to comment upon. She was aware of him watching her, taking in each uneasy movement. She combed back through her memory of their conversation at dinner the night before, and finally found something to say.
“You never answered my question last night.”
“Which was that?”
“I asked if you had advice for me for hunting a husband during the season,” she said, hoping it did not sound as if she were asking advice for hunting him—although that actually was what she was doing. Not that she could use whatever information he gave her; it would be too transparent. Oh, heavens, why had she said anything at all?
“That all depends upon which sort you wish to catch. You must dangle the proper bait for the beast.”
“I have only one very poor bit of bait to dangle, and it rules out fortune hunters and social climbers.”
“That is a shame. Many a young lady has made her match with such,” he said. “London is full of them.”
“I was rather counting on an elderly gentleman with a comfortable income.”
“Simply because they are aged does not mean they are any less likely to want an heiress,” Mr. Brent said. “Their greed does not slow with their limbs.”
“Dear me. How about impetuous youths who have already inherited, and so cannot be disowned for making a bad match?”
“Those are difficult to catch, and make poor husbands, being prone to drink and gambling. Like as not you will end up living on credit, and soon enough be bankrupt.”
“There is no point in returning from whence I started,” she said.
Mr. Brent seemed to be enjoying this vein of conversation. She was almost enjoying it herself. He dared her to say the thoughts that she would normally not utter even to herself. She had spent her life speaking only those words that would please her benefactors, pretending to be much nicer than she knew herself to be, hiding her darkest, most selfish and discontented thoughts for fear they would show on her face and betray her as a woman unworthy of even grudging charity.
“An exceedingly ugly man might prove acceptable,” she proposed. “I think I could grow to love him, if he had a sweet temper.”
“He will either be so vain as to think himself worthy of a better match, or so shy he will never manage to offer.”
“A sick man, then, who needs an heir before he dies?”
“The competition will be fierce. What young lady would not like to be a wealthy widow, free to do as she pleased?”
“That is a harsh view to take,” Vivian argued. “I do not believe that one in a thousand young ladies would be so calculating.”
“You said yourself you would be willing.”
“For the sake of having a husband, not for being his widow. Really, Mr. Brent, you have a jaded view of womankind.”
“Not as jaded as I could wish,” he said. The next moment dinner was announced, interrupting their conversation and leaving her to wonder what he could possibly mean by such a statement.
*
The dinner table was too small, the company too cozy and close to engage in suggestive banter. Vivian was seated next to Captain Twitchen, Mr. Brent across from her. The family spoke of relations not present or long dead, dredging up memories in which she could not share.
She kept a vacant smile on her lips and concentrated on dinner.
Mr. Brent caught her eye several times, looking with a questioning brow at her plate, then at the dishes arrayed around the table. She had only to let her gaze linger upon some platter beyond her reach, and he would move it nearer to her. If the captain was engrossed in telling a tale and did not notice she was waiting to be served yet again, Mr. Brent dared her with his eyes to serve herself.
So she did. There were two removes between main courses, and she was almost feeling full by the time dessert was finished and Lady Sudley signaled the ladies’ retreat to the drawing room.
The tea had been poured and distributed, and Penelope had gone to the pianoforte to stumble through some of the sheet music there, when two nursemaids appeared in the doorway, white-gowned toddlers and young children around their knees.
“My lady, the children wished to say good night,” one of the maids said, as the plump creatures spilled into the room. One went for t
he spaniel that had been curled harmlessly by the fire; one waddled to Lady Sudley; another sprang to the table where the tea things stood, his small hands reaching up to play with the sugar dish and creamer; and the last wobbled to the pianoforte and added his own notes to Penelope’s soon-halted playing.
The spaniel cast a long-suffering look to the adults in the room, then slunk off to hide beneath a divan. Deprived of her target, the little girl of about four years went to join the younger boy at the tea tray.
“She looks more like you every day,” Mrs. Twitchen said, nodding toward another girl, who had crawled into Lady Sudley’s lap.
“She has her father’s sense of mischief, though. Don’t you, my naughty pumpkin?”
“Nooo,” the girl protested, wrapping her arms around her mother’s neck.
Vivian blinked at the four children, trying to match their ages with the length of Lady Sudley’s marriage, wondering how she could have produced so many so quickly.
An altercation arose at the tea tray. The boy—not more than two, surely—had a spoon in his fist, and the girl was trying to take it away. The girl wrenched it from his hand, and the boy wailed, then went with flying fists at his sibling.
“William! Sara!” came a harsh male voice from behind Vivian. “Stop it at once!”
“My ‘poon! Mine!” William wailed, striking his sister again.
Sara shoved the boy, and he fell onto his round backside. It was not a long distance to fall, but the indignity of it overtook him, and he threw himself face-first to the carpet and howled.
“Sara! What did I tell you?” Mr. Brent said, stepping into the fray. “Give me the spoon.”
“But, Papa!”
“At once!”
Sara held tight to it a moment longer, then with a pout handed it over.
“Now apologize to your brother.”
Sara knelt down beside the still-howling William and patted his back. “‘S’all right, Willie. I’m sorry.”
William took a breath and gave a howl of a higher pitch. Sara bent over and looked at her brother face-to-face. He turned to the other side. She followed and put her hands over her eyes.
