by Aileen Adams
A Laird’s Promise
Highland Heartbeats
Aileen Adams
Contents
A Laird’s Promise
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Excerpt
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Afterword
A Laird’s Promise
Book One of the Highland Heartbeats Series!
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Some promises are hard to keep…
Phillip promised he’d let her go home. He promised, after she completed her task, she’d be free. He didn’t promise her that he wouldn’t capture her heart before he released her.
For Sarah, captive of the Highland laird, that these promises are kept is paramount.
Phillip never expected to fall in love with the woman who was supposed to save his brother’s life. He also never expected to break a promise. But some promises are hard to keep, especially when he finds out the secrets she’s keeping.
1
Sarah gazed into the distance, wishing more than anything that she could disappear into it. To leave her life behind and find a new beginning. Even as she daydreamed, she knew the folly of such wishes.
Impossible to achieve.
She sat on the grass blowing in the breeze coming off of the north shore of the Firth of Forth, an estuary that gradually made its way into the North Sea. To the north and west, she peered at the rugged landscape, dangerous, yet intoxicating at the same time. What would happen if she disappeared into it? Would anybody in Kirkcaldy miss her besides her sister Heather, younger than her by two years?
At nearly twenty-three years of age, Sarah MacDonald had hoped for so much more from life. Over the years, that hope had gradually dwindled, to be replaced by practical acceptance. Maybe her sister Heather would have more of a chance than she. Already considered beyond marriageable age, Sarah, though pleasant looking enough—or at least she thought so—Heather was the beauty of their small family.
Heather’s long, blonde and curly hair was favored while Sarah’s was a nondescript brown. Where Heather was fair skinned, Sarah sported sun-browned skin and a splash of freckles over the bridge of her nose and high on her cheekbones due to the many hours she spent outdoors gathering herbs for her remedies and tinctures. Heather was dainty and petite while Sarah, though slim-framed like her sister, was deceptively strong, more than likely due to her outdoor adventures gathering her flowers, roots, tree bark, and herbs. She often climbed trees, scrambled over and under fallen logs, dug for her treasures, and once, had to fight off a wild boar with her knife. Thankfully the boar had been young, easy to discourage with her shouts and one poke of that knife.
Sarah shrugged.
Nothing she could do about her appearance, not that it bothered her much. The villagers had always given her a wide berth, not because she wasn't pleasant, good-natured, and friendly, but because of the reputation of her stepfather, Patrick MacDonald.
Try as she might, Sarah couldn't ignore the image of him in her mind’s eye; a huge, towering hulk of a man, overweight, unkempt most of the time, and often drunk.
She frowned.
His glowering, and worse often, emphasized her belief that he blamed her for his misery. It was all Heather’s fault. After all, it was she who had begged her mother to take her for that walk along the cliffs a decade ago. The very cliffs where Sarah now perched.
She recalled that day as if it had happened yesterday. After a week of rain, Sarah and Heather both were anxious to get outside and play. It was still cool, a light mist falling when her mother, Fiona, had finally acquiesced. Their stepfather was working in the blacksmith shop behind the house, oblivious to the decisions being made inside.
Heather had ultimately declined to go out into the elements, not wanting to catch a chill that afternoon, but Sarah was anxious to get away from the four walls of their small home, if only for a little while, even though the weather was still bone-chilling damp.
Her mother bundled the two of them into their coats, mittens, and scarves, and headed out, after planting a kiss on the top of Heather’s blond head.
It was only supposed to be a short walk. To the top of the cliff and back. After being cooped up indoors for nearly a week, Sarah was happy for that much.
The two of them had walked the half mile to the cliffs and paused there, near the very spot where Sarah now sat.
Sarah bit back the bitter smile of guilt. She was drawn to this spot. Nearly every week since that awful day, she visited it, sometimes placing flowers nearby, at other times a small cairn of rocks that endured a few months, then gradually toppled from the constant winds blowing in from the bay.
Sarah had tugged her hand from her mother's to run about in wayward circles as her mother laughed at her antics. At one point, not paying attention, Sarah had ventured a little bit too close to the edge.
Her mother had cried out a warning, and Sarah darted away, her laughter floating on the breeze, not realizing that her mother had taken a few quick steps toward her, arms extended to snatch Sarah away from the edge.
Then, in the blink of an eye, her mother disappeared.
Sarah had frozen, mouth open, staring at the spot, confused.
“Mother?”
Despite only being a child, Sarah had known immediately what happened.
A chunk of sandy soil had collapsed beneath her mother's feet. Not a sound had escaped her mother as she fell into the water below, riddled with rocks ravaged and shaped into jagged edges by centuries of waves splashing onto the shore.
Sarah had clambered down on her belly and crawled her way to the edge of the cliff to stare down in horror at the sight of her mother floating lifelessly on the surface of the water. The waves pulled her mother out a short distance, then thrust her back toward shore, her red hair fanned around her, her arms outstretched, her woolen dress worn over her linen kirtle billowing around her, until it grew so sodden, it pulled her under.
The sight had propelled Sarah to her feet. She ran back to the house, screaming, her eyes burning with tears as she rounded the corner of the house and barreled into the blacksmith shop where her stepfather hovered over a fire, one massive hand grasping tongs holding a horseshoe, the other wielding the heavy hammer.
Sarah was sobbing, trying to grab onto her stepfather's shirt to propel him outside.
Patrick turned to snarl down at her.
She knew she wasn't allowed in the blacksmith shop when he was working. Rules that were not to be broken.
He let go of the hammer and backhanded her, shouting at her to get away, to go back to the house.
Finally, she managed to get her stepfather to understand what happened. Then, leaving her standing by herself, trembling wildly in the blacksmith shop, tears streaming down her cheeks, Patrick had run from the smithy and down to the path that rounded the base of the cliff.
Sarah had raced back to the house, terrified. Heather, even younger than Sarah, had taken one look at her expression and burst into tears herself, without even knowing what had happened.
Arms wrapped around each other and trembling in the middle of the tiny parlor, eyes riveted to th
e door, Sarah and Heather had waited. They both startled when the door flew open, kicked by Patrick’s boot.
Roaring with rage and pain, Patrick filled the doorway, his pale features and stunned expression forever embedded into Sarah's memory. In his arms, he held her mother, limp, one pale, bluish-tinged hand hanging down loosely, swinging back and forth with every step Patrick took as he entered and carefully laid his wife on the wood plank floor in the parlor.
Everything had changed after that.
While Patrick had always been short-tempered and impatient with the girls, Fiona had been the peacekeeper, acting as a buffer of sorts between their youthful exuberance and Patrick's no-nonsense approach to life.
After Fiona’s death, Patrick had taken to drinking. More often than not he visited the local pubs after his work at the smithy was finished. It was up to Sarah to cook and clean and watch over Heather.
So long ago and yet it felt like yesterday. At times like this, when she was out alone gathering herbs, she often thought of her mother. If things had been different and her mother had not fallen to her death that day, maybe things would be different.
If Sarah didn't also, like her stepfather, blame herself for her mother's untimely death. She lived with the guilt every day. She had learned that day that life was not constant. That it only took a second for things to change.
She sighed, staring out into the distance, wanting to believe that someday she and her sister would find a way to escape their abusive stepfather, but as of this moment, she didn’t know how. Even the little bit of money she made was put back into the household. Food, repairs, supplies for the smithy.
Her prospects for marriage had long been dashed. No one in the village of Kirkcaldy wanted to claim Patrick MacDonald for a father-in-law. Not to mention the fact that no one in this village had the wherewithal to offer a dowry for Sarah either.
No, Sarah MacDonald was a woman known to be set in her ways; stubborn, outspoken, not the kind of woman a man wanted for a wife.
She couldn't leave, not until Heather found a beau willing to marry her without the promise of a dowry, property, or possessions. Perhaps Heather had a chance. Gentle, soft-spoken, demure, Heather was Sarah’s opposite. Despite the difference in their temperaments, they were extraordinarily close. Sarah protected Heather like a mother hen. No one dared cross any lines with Heather without risking the wrath of Sarah.
Like Sarah, and despite her sweet personality, Heather's chances were few and far between despite the fact that she was a beauty; a mild-mannered, kind, and compassionate jewel that any man would be lucky to have for a bride, a wife, and to mother their children.
Sarah was another story.
She had no patience for men. From what she had seen of men in the small village of Kirkcaldy, they were all much the same. Demanding. Her stepfather reminded her, almost daily it seemed, that she was not worth anyone's time. That she had no rights, or even the possibility of claiming her independence. As far as he was concerned, she was nothing more than a burden. A burden that he refused to relinquish.
Sarah had no doubt that she could support herself with her healing skills. After her mother's death, she had spent much of her time alone in the woods, along the shores of the Firth of Forth, exploring.
She had come across a secluded cabin one day, maybe a year or two following her mother's demise. Agnes, an older woman who lived by herself in the cabin, was a healer. She supported herself with her healing skills. Agnes took pity on Sarah and began to teach her.
As Sarah grew older, she became the woman's apprentice of sorts. She went everywhere she could with the old woman, healing, treating injuries, taking care of sick people, and helping to birth babies.
Such skills were invaluable, and Sarah knew it. She could set a broken bone, treat a myriad of illnesses, and create tinctures, poultices, and concoctions used on babies, children, and adults. Skills honed over the years.
After her mentor had died, Sarah had taken over much of the care of the people of Kirkcaldy, often using the old woman’s abandoned cabin to create her medicines, and to escape from Patrick for a few hours when possible. The villagers often paid Sarah for her healings, but usually in goods. A basket of eggs, a chicken, wood for the fire, or repairs done to the house or smithy.
The years had passed.
It was no secret in Kirkcaldy that Patrick MacDonald had become a mean drunk. By the time Sarah was sixteen years old, he had pretty much abandoned his smithy and drank away his days.
While she longed to run away and escape from his overbearing presence, she knew that she never would. She couldn't. Not alone. She couldn't leave Heather. With a sigh, she finally stood, her plain woolen léine blowing in the breeze as she stood on the cliff overlooking the Forth of Firth. She gazed longingly into the horizon, the water glinting ,undulating silver threads of reflection in the mid-afternoon sun.
No, Sarah was trapped. Maybe not by physical bounds, but by emotional ones, and—
“Sarah MacDonald! Are you listening?”
Sarah was jolted from her reveries and turned to find Aldith Gordon standing a short distance away, hands on her hips, smiling at her. She turned away from the water and smiled in return.
Aldith was an old friend from her school days. They had seen each other for years until the woman married and soon after came to visit Sarah, announcing she was with child and needed her advice.
Sarah glanced around. “Where's Bryce?”
Though Aldith was the same age as Sarah, she had been married for at least two years. Her growing belly announced the impending birth of their second child in just another month or two. One rarely saw either without the other. Aldith, gently rubbing her belly with one hand and carrying a covered basket in the other, gestured with her chin over her shoulder.
“He’s at the woodshop.”
Sarah frowned. “Are you all right, Aldith?” She had helped to birth her friend's first child and expected to help with this one as well. “What are you doing up here?”
Aldith held up the basket. “I stopped at your house to bring you some eggs, but no one was home. Then I saw you up here. Standing like a statue, unmoving. Maybe I should be the one asking if you're all right.”
Everyone in the village of Kirkcaldy knew about Sarah and her sister, as well as their drunkard of a stepfather.
Sarah had long ago overcome her embarrassment about the entire situation. “I'm all right,” she said. She gestured toward her basket on the ground, filled with herbs, flowers, and roots. “I was just gathering some of the ingredients I need to make some new tinctures. There's something about the spot that always compels me to stop…”
“The anniversary is coming up, isn't it?”
Sarah nodded.
Aldith referred to the anniversary of her mother's death.
Only a week hence. Another reason why she was avoiding the house as much as possible. As usual, the anniversary of her mother’s death triggered even more abusive behavior from her stepfather.
Odd, that he couldn’t remember what he’d done the day before, but he could remember that day like it was etched as deeply into his memory as it was Sarah’s.
She knew her stepfather’s behavior would become even more difficult as the days hovered ever closer to the very day when he had lost the only woman he had ever loved, or so he claimed.
Sarah wondered if Patrick MacDonald even knew what love was. Yes, he had given the children his name and they rightfully belong to his clan, but Patrick was a loner who eschewed not only clan gatherings, but members of his own now distant family.
She took a deep breath and only barely disguised her wince of pain with another smile.
Patrick had taken to expressing his rage against her with his fists years ago.
Sarah had learned to read the signs most of the time. But last night, Patrick had surprised her. She still didn’t know what had set him off, but he had slapped Heather.
Outraged that he would lay a hand on her sister, Sarah had step
ped between them, glaring up at her stepfather, silently daring him to do it again. He had shoved Heather out of the way and taken his wrath out on Sarah. She had long ago grown adept at protecting herself. Knew his rage was often explosive yet short-lived. She had taken the beating, while Heather had run to their room and slammed the door, like Sarah had taught her to do years ago.
“Wasn't Heather at the house?” Sarah asked, frowning in concern.
“I knocked, but no one answered. Maybe she's at the market with one of her friends, or at the Laird’s manor house, or the school.”
Sarah nodded. Heather was a born teacher and loved children. While Sarah often took to the woods to escape the house and Patrick's overbearing behavior, Heather often escaped to the Laird’s house to help take care of the Laird's seven children, all under the age of twelve. Either that, or she hovered around the small building that served as a makeshift school, at least for those children who had the opportunity to go, if only seasonally.
Sarah stooped down to pick up her basket. “Let me walk you back to the village. I'm sure Bryce will be wondering where you are by now.”
Aldith laughed and shook her head. “I do love him dearly. Honestly I do, but sometimes, especially of late, I have found it beneficial to be away from him and little Ennis for a while. He's watching her now.” She gestured. “You continue with your gathering. It's already late in the afternoon. I’ll leave the eggs by your door.”
Sarah nodded, not wanting to press. “Take your time, Aldith. I know I told you that walking every day is beneficial, but you’re too close to your time to overdo it.”
Aldith smiled as she turned from Sarah, lifting a hand in farewell.
Sarah watched her old friend meander her way carefully down the path until she disappeared around a bend. She turned once again to the water, closed her eyes and sent a quick prayer upward, reminding her mother that she thought of her often. Then she turned her back to the cliff and headed back toward the woods. A few mushrooms, some bark from a birch tree, and she would have enough for the next batch of tinctures.
