Adam put both hands on her shoulders and looked into her contorted face. “Natalia,” he whispered. “Natalia, I know. I was here.”
A tear trickled down her bruised cheek. “But it was a hospital!”
“Yes, I know,” he said, uncertain what more to say. “It was tragic, but we’ve all seen it before . . . you’ve seen worse than—”
“Not when it was my friend!” she hissed.
“Your friend? I didn’t—”
“No, of course not! How could you? Her name was Berta, and . . . Oh Christ, I’m just—”
An artillery shell screeched overhead, and Adam instinctively pulled her close as it exploded with a numbing blast a half block away. He looked around the rubble-strewn area, trying to recall a place where they might escape the line of fire. He took her elbow and led her off the debris pile, across the grassy area and to a breach in the city wall.
She stopped. “No, I’ve got to go back. I’ve got to find her.”
He tightened his grip on her elbow. “She’s gone.”
She looked at him for a long silent moment, then turned away and ducked through the breach.
On the other side of the wall they rounded a corner onto Piekarska Street, a narrow, cobbled lane of brick and stucco buildings, once populated by a number of bakeries. They jogged down the street, past the only one that managed to stay open a day or two a week, until they came to an arched doorway that led to a staircase.
Feeling his way in the dark, with one hand on damp, moss-covered bricks, Adam led the way down a long flight of wooden steps. At the bottom he spotted a faint light emanating from a deep cellar few people knew existed. He took Natalia’s hand and led her silently through a narrow tunnel, following the light.
Thirteen
27 AUGUST
THE CELLAR WAS A SUBTERRANEAN CAVERN about ten meters square, constructed of rough stone walls that arched upward, forming a domed ceiling. The room was illuminated by a single kerosene lantern nailed to a thick center post that Adam guessed had been added at some point to help support the ceiling. Stacked against one of the brick walls were a dozen wooden crates of ammunition. Adam had been here once before, shortly after the AK transferred the weapons they’d captured at the warehouse on Stawki Street. At that time, the room had been full.
Two commandos, who had entered the room from a second tunnel, looked at them curiously then picked up one of the wooden crates and carried it out.
Natalia leaned back against one of the stone walls. She sighed, then slid down and sat on the dirt floor.
Adam’s exhaustion returned with a rush, and he slumped down next to her. He removed his glasses and rubbed his eyes, irritated from the smoke and dust. “We should be safe here for a while, unless they drop one of those screaming cows on us.”
Natalia nodded. She sat for several minutes, barely moving, staring at the dirt floor. Finally, without looking up, she said softly, “Do you have any friends, Wolf?”
The question took him by surprise. He glanced at her then looked away, suddenly wishing he had a cigarette. Friends? He could barely remember a time when he had friends. He’d had friends when he was a boy, first in Krakow and then in America. And he had friends—acquaintances, actually—at Jagiellonian University where he’d resumed his study of law after returning to Krakow. But that was before the war started and most of them—and what was left of his family—were arrested by the SS, and he was deported from Poland. It was before Whitehall recruited him in London and arranged for his “training,” then sent him off on his solitary mission of murder. “No, I don’t have any friends,” he said quietly.
Natalia hunched forward, wrapping her arms around her knees. “Berta was the only real friend I’ve had for years. We met in ’42 after an incident on the train that I had nightmares about for months afterward.” She paused and Adam could hear her breathing. When she continued, her voice was distant, as though she were far away. “I was punching tickets in one of the compartments and this thin, dark-haired girl—she couldn’t have been more than seven or eight years old—handed me her ticket. Two SS officers walked past the compartment. One of them stopped. He looked in and said, ‘]ude.’ Then he came into the compartment and grabbed the girl by her hair. He dragged her out, down the aisle to the end of the car. She screamed for her mother.” Natalia stopped and took a long, deep breath, trembling as though she were suddenly cold. “I will never forget that scream. Then he dragged her to the opening between the cars and . . . dropped her under the wheels.”
Natalia was quiet for a long time. When she continued again, her voice was barely a whisper. “The girl’s mother was hysterical. The other passengers had to hold her down. Finally the SS officer came back and he . . . he put his pistol to her head and shot her. I’d never seen anyone shot like that before! He ordered me to drag her body to the door and throw it off the train. I was so petrified, I couldn’t move, but one of the other passengers helped me. We dragged her body to the end of the car and just . . . threw her out.”
She sat back against the wall and wiped her eyes with the sleeve of her jacket. A tear trickled down her cheek, the purple welt now mostly obscured with a layer of dirt. “By the time the train arrived in Warsaw, I could barely function. Berta was the dispatcher. I hardly knew her, but she saw what a state I was in and took me to a café for coffee. She knew more than I did, about the Resistance, about refusing to bow down to the Nazis. We talked for a long time that day, and eventually we became friends. Whenever I needed to talk to someone, Berta was always there.” She turned her head toward Adam. “She was also an American.”
“Berta, an American . . .?”
“Well, she’d never actually been there, but her father was an American. Her mother was Polish. I’m not sure how they met, but they lived in Warsaw when Berta was born. Her last name was Andersen. It’s funny, she was one of the few people whose last name I actually know.” Natalia crossed her arms over her chest and shuffled her feet back and forth in the dust. “Do you know what that’s like, Wolf, to have someone you can talk to when you’re desperate and alone?”
Adam shook his head.
“Don’t you miss having a friend, someone you can talk to, someone you can share things with?”
“I don’t think about it.”
“Hah, that’s a lie!” she retorted. “Everyone wants a friend they can talk to. Even us, doing what we do in this lousy war, or we’re not human. I could talk to Berta, cry with her sometimes, laugh at other times, but she was always there.” She closed her eyes. “But not any more.”
The sounds of sporadic gunshots and artillery shells, muted by the thick stone walls, drifted into the cellar. Adam looked down at his dirt-caked boots. There was nothing he could say that would help. He’d seen so much death and destruction—much of it by his own hand—that he knew he was far too jaded to be of any comfort.
But there was something about this woman. Something he hadn’t seen before. She was tough, of that he was certain, and she’d certainly seen her share of the same death and destruction that he had. But there was a difference. She still cared enough to mourn the loss of her friend. Maybe she still had a soul.
Natalia hunched forward and wrapped her arms around her knees again. She cocked her head. “Tell me about America.”
“America?”
“Yes, you’re an American, so tell me about it.”
His mind was suddenly blank, caught off guard by the incongruous question. “I don’t understand. What do you want to know?”
Natalia threw her hands in the air. “God, this is like pulling teeth. I’m not asking for state secrets, Wolf. I’m making conversation. Where did you live? What did you enjoy doing? What kind of food do Americans eat? It’s better than talking about dying, isn’t it?”
Adam squirmed, more than a little uncomfortable under the glare of Natalia’s penetrating eyes. What was it about her that could so easily throw him off stride? “It’s just a question I haven’t been asked for a long time.”
“I lived in Chicago.”
“Chicago? OK, good, that’s a start. That’s somewhere in the middle, isn’t it?”
He smiled in spite of himself. “It’s what we call the Midwest. It’s a big city, bigger than Warsaw. There’s more than a half-million Poles living there.”
“A half-million Poles? In Chicago?”
“There’re also Germans, Czechs, Irish—immigrants from all over.”
“Do they get along with each other: the Germans, the Czechs and the Poles?”
Adam nodded. “Sure, I mean they kind of live in separate neighborhoods, but it’s not like it is here. Many of them work at the same factories or offices, and there’s just so many people in Chicago that . . . well, I guess everyone just sort of blends in.”
“Are there any Jews?”
“Chicago has the largest Jewish population in the Midwest. A lot of them live in a suburb on the northwest side called Skokie.”
“How are they treated?”
Adam shrugged. “It’s kind of hard to describe. They pretty much keep to themselves, some people make jokes about them, there’s some discrimination—not like with the Negroes—but they all work or keep shops and live pretty much like everyone else.”
“You said, ‘Negroes’ . . . like Jesse Owens?”
Adam laughed. “Well, he’s not from Chicago, but yes, they’re black, like he is. They mostly live on the south side, and a lot of people in Chicago don’t like Negroes. It’s hard for them to get jobs; they have separate schools and churches. I lived in a neighborhood called the ‘Polish Downtown’ on the northwest side of the city. There weren’t any Negroes there.”
“I’ve heard that Negroes aren’t allowed in your army.”
“That’s not true, but . . . they have separate units. It’s better that way.”
“Why?”
He thought about it. Why indeed?
“And they were once slaves, isn’t that right?”
“That was a long time ago—”
“Then America really isn’t so much different from here, is it?” Natalia tensed as an artillery shell burst nearby, and the lantern flickered. Bits of plaster drifted down from the ceiling, and she brushed them from her hair. “I’m sorry. I ask too many questions.”
He smiled at her. “Your worst quality?”
She smiled back. “I think we’ve had this conversation before. OK, no more questions.”
“No, it’s fine. Really, I don’t mind.”
“Then tell me about your neighborhood, this ‘Polish Downtown’ in Chicago.”
Adam paused as the memories slowly drifted back. It had been a long time since he’d thought about those days: when his father was alive, when he had some friends, when life seemed very simple. “My neighborhood reminded me a bit of where we lived in Krakow, except that it was bigger and noisier, more motorcars and trucks, more people. And the trams run on tracks high above the streets.”
She looked perplexed, as though trying to imagine trams running above the streets, but Adam continued as it all came back, the wonderful, vivid memories of a young immigrant boy growing up in Chicago, becoming American. “But there were Polish food stores and cafés in our neighborhood. We had pierogi and galumpki and kiel-basa. We had festivals in the summer where they played polkas in the afternoon and Chopin in the evening. But the best part was the Coca-Cola.”
Her eyes widened. “Coca-Cola. I’ve heard about it. What does it taste like?”
Suddenly there was nothing in the world Adam would rather have. “It’s sweet and bubbly. And cold, it has to be cold. And we’d eat corn-on-the-cob.”
She grimaced and wrinkled her nose. “You ate corn . . . right off the—?”
“Yes, I mean, no; it’s different, a different kind of corn than you feed to the pigs. This is a special corn, very sweet, and you boil it in water, then pick it up and eat it.” As he was gesturing with his hands, Adam could almost taste the sweet kernels and feel the melted butter running down his chin. He slumped back and closed his eyes. His stomach ached with hunger.
“Do you have churches?”
Adam indulged himself for a few more seconds, thinking about Coca-Cola and corn-on-the-cob, then took a breath and sat forward. “Churches? Hundreds of them. The church we attended, St. John Cantius, looks very much like the Mariacki Church in Krakow, with a big copper-topped tower. It even has an inscription, ‘God save Poland’ right below a huge triangular pediment dedicated to the January Rising.”
“The January Rising? That was over eighty years ago. They know about it in Chicago?”
Adam nodded. “The Polish people do. You can bet on that!”
Natalia picked a stone off the dirt floor and tossed it away. “My grandfather told me about it,” she said bitterly. “He said a squadron of Russian hussars rode into his village one night and set all the houses on fire. He and his younger sister tried to run away, but one of the horsemen chased them and trampled her to death. She was ten years old.” She shook her head, as though purging the thought. “So, living in Chicago was like living in Poland?”
“Oh no, in America there’s more of everything. Big stores filled with clothing, toys, radios, fabrics, pots and pans, books and games.”
“So, everyone is rich.”
“There are rich people—there were a lot more before the Depression—but we weren’t rich. Neither was anyone else in our neighborhood. My father was an engineer. But when he returned from the Great War he couldn’t find work in Poland. That’s why we immigrated to America. He’d been promised a job, and when we got to America he worked hard. He was one of the fortunate ones. He was able to keep working through the hard times, but we certainly weren’t rich.”
The lantern flickered again as a vibration rumbled through the earthen floor. Natalia leaned back on her hands and glanced up at the ceiling. “What do you miss most?”
“Baseball.”
“What? Out of all that, you miss . . . baseball?”
“Of course! Everyone in America loves baseball. I learned to play during my first summer. I even had my own glove. You know about baseball?”
She shrugged. “Like Babe Ruth?”
Adam got to his knees and brushed the dirt off his hands. “Sure, Babe Ruth, the best ever. He played in New York. But all the big cities in America have a baseball team. It’s called the Major Leagues. They’re professionals, just like you have the Polish Football Union here. We have two teams in Chicago, but my favorite is the Cubs.”
“Did you watch them play?”
Adam nodded. “When I was younger my father would take me sometimes, on the weekends, when he didn’t have to work. Later on, when I had my own money I’d go with my friends.” He saw it all again: the stands packed with happy, cheering people, the peanuts and popcorn, the perfection of the baseball diamond. “I’ll never forget the first time I went to a game. The grass in the outfield was so green it looked like a carpet. And the dirt in the infield was raked so smoothly you couldn’t see even a ripple, and the bases, the shiny white bases—”
Natalia shook her head. “Wait, wait . . . outfield, infield, bases, I don’t understand.”
“Here, let me show you.” Adam spotted a stick. He picked it up, then got to his knees and brushed off a spot between them on the dirt floor. “Now, the playing field is shaped like a diamond . . .”
• • •
Natalia woke with a start at the sound of voices. She sat up, rubbing her eyes. In the far end of the cellar, two AK operatives hoisted an ammunition crate onto their shoulders and started up the staircase. She glanced at her watch, barely visible in the weak glow of the kerosene lantern. It was five o’clock.
Where’s Wolf?
Natalia got to her feet and raced up the same staircase she had descended the night before. Outside it was still dark, but just down Piekarska Street
a fire was glowing under a large kettle, and a group of people huddled around, sipping soup from tin cups.
Wolf turned and waved at her, then walked up, holding two mugs of steaming soup. He handed one to her and took a sip from his own.
Natalia took the mug and sipped the watery concoction as the fog of sleep slowly lifted. It tasted vaguely like turnips and potatoes, with a few bits of onion floating around. She remembered Berta’s grimace as she fed her a similar concoction the night after she’d been wounded. She sighed. “When did you get up?” she asked Wolf.
“About an hour ago,” he said. “You were sleeping very soundly.”
She brushed her hand through her hair and took another sip from the cup. “I think I dreamt about baseball.”
“Christ, I must have bored you to death.”
“Not at all, it helped a lot. Besides, I enjoyed watching you smile about something. You even laughed once or twice.”
He looked at her for a moment as though he were trying to think of something to say, then downed the rest of the soup and glanced at his watch. “I’ve got to go.”
Natalia nodded. Then, after a moment, she said, “I’ll try to come back here again tonight. Will you?”
“I don’t know . . . I’ve got to—”
Natalia held up her hand, stopping him. “It’s alright, I understand.” She stepped up to him, cocked her head slightly and kissed him on the cheek. “Thank you for being my friend.”
Fourteen
28 AUGUST
AT NINE FORTY-FIVE that night Adam stood just outside the breach in the old city wall and slowly rolled a cigarette. He took his time because it was the last of his tobacco, and he had no idea where or when he’d be able to get more. But that wasn’t the only reason. He was stalling. And he hated it. He hated indecision.
For the last four years, if there was one thing he was, it was decisive. He had to be; his life depended on it. He got an assignment, carried it out, moved on and never looked back. That’s just the way it was—until now.
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