Mark glanced at Belew, who shrugged. Mark had ordered the best medical care to be made available — several Medicins sans Frontières doctors had joined the rebels’ permanent floating headquarters. In fact medical care per se wasn’t much of an issue, though supplies were low: the professional classes were deserting the regime en masse North and South, and physicians were leading the way.
If only Mark’s special pharmaceutical needs were as well tended to. The doubt about purity of his powders was one more constant strain. There was nothing to do about it but roll the bones, roll the bones.
Brewer had waved away medical attention. He needed to try to force the memories out of his mind in the form of words before his body was dealt with.
At one time Mark would have been kneeling at his former tormentor’s side in a frenzy of codependency. Now he sat, watching, listening, withholding evaluation. Maybe my conscience died with Starshine, he thought. Maybe that’s why I’m so heartless. Except, of course, gentle warrior Moonchild had always been his voice of compassion; Starshine was righteous indignation.
“I was in the latrine. It was just luck. Lucius was sacked out on his cot. They rolled a white phosphorus grenade right under him.” He broke off in a shuddering fit. Mark felt an urge to put his arms around him and try to comfort him. The impulse died without moving him to action.
“The blast blew off two of his arms. I got the fire put out by beating it with a blanket, rolling him in it. Mostly.”
He shook his head and shifted his unseeing gaze from horizon to Earth’s core. “It took an hour and a half for the chopper to get there. The base is ten minutes’ flight time from Venceremos. It took ninety minutes.
“We’d given him the last of the morphine — people’ve pretty much looted out the pharmacy, but the Colonel still had a private stash in a safe in his office. Nobody messes with the Colonel — yet. The way some of the young bloods are talking”
He shook that off. That was information, incidental, not the poison he needed to purge. “So he wasn’t screaming when the Hip came in, just thrashing around, moaning some, starting to come out of it. When they carried him aboard the chopper, you could still see those little flecks of white phosphorus where they’d eaten into him, glowing like little stars. Like little radioactive cancers, just eating away at him.” Mark shuddered.
“So after the Viets dusted him off for medical attention, what did you” Belew began.
Brewer turned his eyes to Belew, and for the first time they focused on something close at hand. They were practically black, and it was the kind of black something would turn if it could be heated so hot it emitted light in the ultraviolet, light too hot to see.
“He never got medical attention. Colonel Sobel went out himself to check on him the next day. He never arrived. Don’t you see, man? They got him up one, two thousand feet, and they rolled him out of the helicopter.”
There was a time when that would have sent Mark out the door with puke spilling from his mouth. It shook him badly, but the fish heads and rice he’d had for lunch stayed where they were. In fact he couldn’t help thinking how long ago they’d gotten there.
“The Colonel called them on it. Said they had to’ve murdered him; he was on the chopper when it left Venceremos, and he was fucking nowhere when it landed. And do you know what they told him? Do you know what?”
“What?” Belew asked gently.
“They said there’s a war on. They said there’s an emergency shortage of medical supplies. They said, ‘If your pet monsters want to murder each other that’s not our concern’!”
Mark found himself standing in the door of the hootch, taking in air in giant gulps. The monsoon had pretty well petered out, but the rebels had come low enough down that the air was thick and sticky. Eventually he came back to his place.
Brewer was looking off to nowhere again. He sat as if he was never going to move. “What happened then?” Mark asked.
Brewer’s chest and shoulders heaved in something that was half sigh, half sob. “Things were crazy. Too crazy. The young bloods were telling me, telling me to my face, that they were sorry they’d missed me, that they were going to do the job right real soon.” He shook his head. ’All the Colonel is doing is talking about how these new aces he’s bringing in are going to turn the tide. It’s as if he’s in his own private world.”
Belew shot a significant look at Mark. I know you think the Colonel’s crazy, man, Mark thought, but he’s under stress, he’s watching his dream unravel
And we are pulling at the threads, Moonchild concluded with infinite sadness. I worst of all. Oh, Eric.
“What aces?” Belew asked softly.
Brewer shook his head. “They hadn’t actually showed. They were all a big secret. Somehow I wasn’t interested in hanging around to see who they were. I went over the wire that night.”
The words Brewer released into the room overrode the ones tumbling around in Mark’s head. Thankfully.
“There was nothing else for me to do. Maybe I’m a coward, man. But there wasn’t anything left to fight for there. Nothing I could understand. I could stay there and die, and it would all be for nothing. I thought I was ready to die for la causa, you know, for la lucha. But not … for nothing.
“They chased me. One of the boys, joker-ace, used to run with the Geeks, he could smell the way a bloodhound could. Maybe you remember him. Little guy, and his face was all sad eyes and these humongous nostrils.”
Mark nodded. “Madison.”
“Yeah. After he hit camp, he started calling himself that instead of his joker name, Sniffer. I talked him out of that; I was real concerned about his dignity.
“They set him after me. He found me in an abandoned village next to a derelict sugar plantation. You maybe know the one? We went through it on patrols a lot, before moving up into the Highlands. It wasn’t abandoned then. The rebels, they — you — are right up against the wire at Venceremos every night now. They ran off the overseers, and the villagers fled. They wanted to get away from us. Made me sick when I heard about it. But that was before I had to run away.
“I killed him. I shed joker blood.” He held up the claw. “He was all over me, trying to strangle me, yelling that he’d found me. I jabbed this into his eyes and pushed as hard as I could. I pushed for all I was fucking worth. He screamed and struggled and flopped around, and then suddenly he was still. I had to break the end off my claw to get out of there.”
He put his face into his flesh palm. “I went into the sugar cane. It’s all dry and overgrown. I heard them thrashing around, coming after me. Then somebody started letting loose with flamethrowers. I don’t know if it was the Brigade or the People’s Army. Some of the boys got caught; I heard them screaming, worse than anything I’ve ever heard. Worse than Luce — he was too screwed up to scream very loud, even when he was conscious.”
He held up both his hands. “I got away. I hid in the woods. Eventually some of your bandits — your rebels — found me. I thought they were going to kill me. But they put me on a truck and brought me here.”
“We still get deserters out of Fort Venceremos,” Mark said. “The locals know to be on the lookout for them.”
Brewer sat with his head tilted, looking as if he had something more to say. Tears dripped from his face. Belew looked at Mark. Mark shook his head.
They rose and went out into the open-hearth heat of afternoon. “Sounds like your hero Colonel Sobel’s just about departed controlled flight,” Belew said, with unaccustomed nastiness.
Mark felt too hollow to flare back at him. “He’s a good man,” he said dully.
“Yes, he is,” Belew said. “And so what? A lot of good men have done a lot of harm, over the years.”
“I suppose you’d rather be a bad man,” Mark snapped, finally rising to it.
“Well, you recall what Mark Twain said about Hell: it’s where all the interesting people will go. I’d hate to miss out on good conversation in the afterlife.”
“Hey! H
ello!”
Belew and Mark looked in different directions and at each other. Then, as one, they looked up. Mark felt as if he was part of a bad television skit.
Croyd was hovering thirty feet in the air. He waved.
“I just found out I can do this,” he said airily. “Whoops!”
He tipped forward in slow motion, hitting about a sixty-degree angle before he stabilized.
“Sorry” he called. “Still having a little trouble with my vertical hold. Or would you call it trim?”
Chapter Forty-five
“No way,” Belew told the Revolutionary Oversight Council.
It was an L-shaped cinderblock building, blocky and overgrown, off in the woods not far from the clearing in which Croyd had been experimenting to see what powers he had awakened with. Nothing remained by way of furnishings — the long collapsible table and the auditorium chairs were formerly the property of the nearby village’s executive committee, its governing apparatus, whose members had sensibly made themselves scarce or jumped to the rebellion. Still, Mark was convinced it was an American-built school. It just had that familiar feel to it.
And while the French and the communists both had their more than somewhat slightly conspicuous failings, who but Americans would have thought to build a flat-roofed building in rain-soaked Vietnam?
Young Nguyen of the trai cai tao faction gave Belew the fish eye. Dong, the dapper gangster, showed no emotion, but telltale sweat domes popped out along his hairline.
“I don’t mean any disrespect to our representatives from Saigon,” Belew went on. “I simply do not believe it is in the interests of the rebellion to commit the bulk of its forces to a defense of Saigon at this time. We have the advantage of dispersal of forces, the will-o’-the-wisp’s upper hand. The government has many targets and cannot possibly strike them all. If we concentrate in Saigon, they’ll have just one.”
In the place of honor at the other end of the table — directly opposite Belew — Mark swallowed. He’s got a point. He made himself stand straight.
“You could be passing up a very fine opportunity, my friend,” Dong said, in that head-back, hissing way of his. His mannerisms made Mark think of a Vietnamese William Buckley. “Our nation’s rightful capital has taken up arms in support of the rebellion. The mayor, Vo Van Kiet, is ready to declare for us.”
“The soldiers in Saigon are expelling their officers,” Nguyen Cao Tri said breathlessly. “They’ve called on Moonchild to come and lead them. This is what we’ve all been waiting for.”
“A massive popular rising was what Vo Nguyen Giap was always waiting for too,” Belew said. “He never did get it. And the times he judged the time was ripe and gambled on getting it, like Tet ’68, he lost his shirt. Even if the world media did turn it into a victory for him, after the fact.”
“But we already have a revolt,” Mark pointed out.
Belew shrugged. “The Saigon mob is fickle. Mobs are, everywhere. But the Saigon mob is worse. You can relax, by the way, Dong,” he added with a cool grin. “I mean ’mob’ in the sense of the rabble in the streets, not your people.”
That did not much seem to mollify the crime boss, though he was too cool to show his agitation in any very overt way. Several of the other Saigon representatives were shouting and jumping up and down. Ernie had to wedge himself between Nguyen Cao Tri and the equally tough, equally young, and equally hotheaded Ngo An Dong to head off an incipient fistfight. A Southerner himself, the Cao Dai leader obviously had little love for the big-city boys.
“Gentlemen!” Mark rapped, hardly even remembering to be abashed at raising his voice. “Are we here to fight the government, or are we here to pound on each other while our enemies recover their strength and laugh at us?”
Silence bit like a guillotine blade. Shamefaced, Ngo and Nguyen stepped away from each other, avoiding one another’s eyes and those of Mark, who stood at the table’s head, stern and looming as a teacher confronting unruly third-graders. They forgot to take umbrage at the fact a dirty moi had laid hands upon them. Or maybe they understood by now that a display of racism would get the inhumanly tall American really pissed off.
Mark stood there, blinking, briefly at sea. The council-table commotion had bumped him off balance, as it always did. Mark always thought of Asians as reserved, polite. Generally they were, in his experience. But if something got them going, they earned on like a cageful of jays. Not the kind he used to smoke either.
All right, a voice in his head said — and it was his own— you’ve got center stage. What do you do now?
The old Mark, with a score or two of large dark eyes turned on him like spotlights, would have stammered, turned red, and sat down. This Mark took his balls in his hand, metaphorically speaking, and plunged on.
“I think this is too good an opportunity to pass up,” he forced himself to say as quickly and smoothly as he could. “Saigon has great, uh, symbolic importance, both for the world and for Vietnam as a whole.”
There you go again, you scramble-brained addict, Traveler sneered from his box seat in the back of Mark’s skull. Recklessly putting us all smack in the middle of the bull’s-eye again. You stumbled there for a moment, didn’t you? Wasn’t that incipient common sense tugging at your sleeve, trying to get you to think again before you senselessly put us all at risk?
That did it. Mark drew a deep breath, inflating himself to his full six-four.
“I also think its time to put up or shut up,” he said firmly. “If we say we want a revolution, we can’t very well hang around scuffing our feet when we get one.”
He looked around the room. “You, Ngo; you, Nguyen. What do you think you’re doing? You, Bui — you say let the big-city Southerners fend for themselves; you ask what have they done for Annam? But the question isn’t what they’ve done for you. It’s what the Northerners and the communists have done to you. Are your petty jealousies more important to you than getting the Tonkinese boot off your neck? Are your chains so comfortable that you’re willing to stay in them so long as you can make sure your neighbor doesn’t break his?”
He slammed his fist on the table. It startled him into brief speechlessness. Oww! Cosmic Traveler whined. That hurt.
His audience had jumped as one and hadn’t seem to notice the break in his rhythm. Maybe they thought it was a pause for effect.
“I tell you what I’m going to do,” he said, and his words seemed to rattle off the thickly painted cinderblock walls like bullets. “I’m going down to Saigon and do what I can to help.”
He glared around the table. “The rest of you can stay up here and make faces at each other until you all have long gray beards, if that’s what you want to do. I’m outta here.”
The Council jumped to all its feet at once, yelling. At first Mark — who had actually gotten himself so worked up he was in the process of stomping out of the school — thought they were hooting him from their midst. Then he realized they were cheering.
All but Colonel Nguyen, who sat back in his chair with arms tightly folded. Great, Mark thought. It was about the way life worked — his life, anyway. Colonel Nguyen thought Isis Moon walked on the water now. But he had no use for Mark, and when Mark appeared before the Council rather than Moonchild, he got these tremendous testosterone attacks.
A glint in the PAVN deserter’s eye touched off realization in Mark’s mind like a magician’s flash paper: He thinks I’m sleeping with her. Well, for Christ’s sake.
“What does Moonchild say upon this?” the colonel asked in his best bone-piercing voice-of-command. The conferees stopped in the midst of their acclamations and turned and looked at him, bewildered. “She is the Field Marshal of the Revolution.”
Field Marshal of the Revolution? Mark thought.
Gotta admit it has a ring to it, said J. J. Flash.
At the foot of the table J. Bob Belew rose. He cleared his throat.
Mark looked at him glumly. Here it comes. He can put the kibosh on everything I’ve said and done. And
I thought I was doing so well.
And just what is a kibosh, anyway?
“May I remind the Revolutionary Council,” Belew began in his best orator’s voice — which was pretty damned good, and Mark felt a spur of Isn’t-there-anything-he-can’t-do? jealousy rake him — “that Dr. Meadows is Moonchild’s fully accredited voice on this Council?” He hit the word doctor hard. The Vietnamese had an almost German regard for titles, especially academic ones.
“With her own lips Isis Moon said, ‘He speaks with my voice.’ Is that not true, Colonel?”
The colonel found something highly fascinating to look at on the tabletop. “It is.”
Belew nodded. “Then his words are hers; she has spoken. And now I’ll speak.
“Earlier I raised the voice of caution. Caution has its place. There’s also a time to cast caution to the winds. Dr. Meadows has shown us that that time has come. Let me remind you of the Duke of Montrose’s famous toast.”
He raised the cracked white-enameled metal cup he’d been sipping tea from and declaimed, “‘He either fears his fate too much, or his desserts are small, who dares not put it to the touch, to win or lose it all.’
“Gentlemen to Saigon!”
Mark walked along with his head down. The moon was high, shaming the stars and the broken clouds, who seemed to be scurrying to get out of her way. He hoped the clouds didn’t get too fat He had mostly stopped worrying the place Starshine had been the way a child does the gap of a missing tooth, but he still took the stars best in small doses.
The water buffalo had worn a trail in the head-high, razor-edged buffalo grass. It felt strange to walk these trails freely, without fear of ambush or booby traps, after the paranoid weeks of patrol with the New Joker Brigade. But the people who laid the traps were his devoted followers now.
Moonchild’s, rather. And that was fine. He didn’t have much ambition to be a great captain. From the former DMZ to the Mekong Delta, the rebels ruled the night. It was appropriate that they should follow Moonchild.
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