by Laurie Lyle
CUPID,
THE DEVIL
and
AN ANGEL
Laurie Lyle
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Copyright 2012 Laurie Lyle.
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ISBN: 978-1-4669-4620-0 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-4669-4622-4 (hc)
ISBN: 978-1-4669-4621-7 (e)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2012911903
Trafford rev. 07/10/2012
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Contents
1 - Reflections of Me
2 - Love of a Woman
3 - Someday
4 - Innocence of a Child
5 - When I Was Man
6 - Needles
7 - Tracks Through My Mind
8 - Freedom
9 - How Long
10 - Queen of Hearts
11 - Flying Dreams
12 - Working Man
13 - A Dog’s Life
14 - Mummified
15 - Mountain Man
16 - Death Camp
17 - Whistling
18 - Guardian Angel
19 - For Seasons
20 - Seduction
21 - Reason To Live
22 - Promise
23 - Crowning Wonder
24 - Roly-Poly
25 - Parenting
26 - Scam Artists
27 - The Bastard
28 - Nothingness
29 - Snakes in the Grass
30 - Virgin
31 - Rage in Rush Hour
32 - Stepchild
33 - Rasta Man
34 - Prisoner
35 - You Know
36 - Ladies of the Night
37 - Housewives
38 - Taxi Man
39 - Child of God
40 - Lost
41 - Cascades
42 - Man of the Cloth
43 - Why He Cries
44 - Small Things
45 - Winding Stairs
46 - Every Twist of My Heart
47 - Scrooge
48 - Scrooge and Family
49 - All Possible Things
50 - Tranquility Garden
51 - Boredom
52 - Rich Man Poor Man
53 - Intricate Heart
54 - Legacy of Deceit
55 - Under the Big Tree
56 - Worst Fears
57 - To Be a Child Again
58 - Lifescapes
59 - Food For Thought
60 - Joy to the World
61 - Damalie
62 - Randy
63 - Tale of a Tiger
64 - Wisdom to Care
65 - Colors of the Rainbow
66 - Frightening Place
67 - Morning Star
68 - Sitting in the Park
69 - It Happened
70 - Rudolph
71 - The Little Drummer Boy
72 - About People
73 - My Father
74 - Three Blind Mice
75 - Facebook
76 - Festival of Lights
77 - Of Deceit
78 - Drunken Spendthrift
79 - Fighting for Peace
80 - My Daughter is Forever
81 - Motive to Love
82 - Goals and Objectives
83 - Betty Lue
84 - Wings of a Dove
85 - All Our Efforts
86 - Foreclosure
87 - Grieving Soul
88 - Let the Children Pray
89 - Hometown Heroes
90 - Forbidden Fruit
91 - Fostering Care
92 - Wisdom of Adoption
93 - Necessary Errands
94 - I Hear Voices
95 - For Posterity
96 - Just Love
97 - Party Time
98 - Peaceful Peace
99 - Regular Affair
100 - Sally Blue
101 - Wild Horses
102 - Spinning Circles
103 - Home Again
104 - Golden Era
105 - Sordid Affair
106 - At His Side
107 - Jewel
108 - At Last
109 - Angry River
110 - To Be a Working Man
111 - Crimson Tide
112 - Sacred Flame
113 - Ashes of Life
114 - Freedom to Love
115 - Recession
116 - Abundance of Love
117 - Dying Dreams
118 - Assassin
119 - Power to the People
120 - Trayvon Martin
121 - Always is Forever
For each and everyone occupying this
planet,
those special ones for whom we care.
PREFACE
Cupid our symbol and relic of love, that special one who controls our thoughts and emotions
And massages the heart, evoking feelings of love
We enjoy so much ecstasy and all that heavenly bliss
The one who keeps time for the rhythmic beating of our hearts
With the power to speed it up or slow it down
The faster it throbs, the more hormones and juices produced
The more blind irrational and careless we get
As it progresses, it causes a void in our intentions and tolerance
We cease to comprehend and lose sight of the object of our desire
Then life becomes filled with confusion and complexities
The devil watching from the sidelines intervenes
He is the mastermind of all the aches and pain we feel
All the bad experiences in our relationships
He is the one that strives to deny us happiness
The cause of all unexplained consequences
He sticks our hearts with the sharp points of his three-pronged fork
And it takes us to hell with all of its agonizing pain and suffering
Our guardian angel ever watching, hovering close
Strives to ease and heal the ache and suffering
Cools the pain and hurt with soft air from fluttering wings
He rebuilds shattered hearts and lives as he touches them
With gentle strokes of his healing hand, and we are okay
But around us there is still chaos everywhere
REFLECTIONS OF ME
(For Laurie-Ann)
I look deep into your mysterious eyes
And I see a subtle version of myself
Reflected there, staring back at me
Something tells me to look away
The compelling magnet
of your intense stare
Keeps me looking there
That mystery it lurks within
Willing me to look beyond
To discover its concealed fugitive
It dares me to find a way
Bland, cold, dark, unfathomable
Yet! I detect secrecy, fire, passion, drive
If you are like me, then I fear for you
Life on the edge, no fear of the unknown
Inspired to chase
Fantasy, mysteries, and adventure
Concealing them within the deep caverns
Of your engorged heart where they are safe
No prying eyes, no busybody
No one knows
Only you, committed controller
I wish of an invention, something
That makes known my intention
To tap into the recesses of your soul
Retract your secrets, lay them bare
Would you go somewhere and hide?
Would you hold your head up with pride?
Is it God or the devil?
That would stand by your side?
Still you stand there staring at me
Big opaque eyes open wide!
LOVE OF A WOMAN
You run hysterical along the busy street
Shouting his name, screaming at everyone you meet
You cannot believe that they did not see
It did not just happen, not to someone so sweet
Your courage fails; your pace slows
It’s hard to accept that there is no reason to hurry
There’s no longer someone there to meet
And you clasp your hands and kneel there
In the street, lost soul among all the ice and sleet
They killed him today; you hugged his limp body
While he gasped your name and quietly went to sleep
Hands held high in despair, your bosom is red
That’s where you held his head even when dead
What can you do, where can you go
When your whole world has crumbled
Leaving you lost, trying to find your wits
Who did the world fail, or did we fail the world?
Why did it take life back?
In such enormous pain-filled bits.
And you stay there biting your lip
Because the ache you feel is biting into your flesh
Like the revengeful flogging from
a waterlogged whip
Vulnerability and strength of a woman
lies within her heart
There all the aches and cares of the world
are nursed and stored
Along with melodies, tenderness, and
champagne sips
Her tear-streaked face deserves love
Be considerate and kind, be good to her
She will return it with passion and sincerity
Your very own butterfly, fluttering lightly, tenderly
Around your rhythmic, pulsating heart
SOMEDAY
Today I met the right person after all this time flirting with the wrong one
Then this door of happiness opened; I cannot look back at that which is closed
It is true, we do not know what we have until we have lost it, the latest arrive, and we realize we are not missing anything; we cannot remember because we forget quickly
I am not the happiest person; I don’t necessarily have the best of everything
But I make the most of every special thing that comes my way
A bright future will always be based on a past best forgotten, let go of intimate history, failures, mistakes, and heartaches; they restrict the heart and impale the soul
I will dream only what I want to dream, go where I want to go, be what I want to be
I have only one love, one life, one chance, one you
When we are apart, I miss you so much, I just want to pluck you from the hallucination in my dreams and hug you for real
You! My best kind of friend ever, we understand unspoken words that drift between hearts, our bodies are in sync, and our nights are as bright as the brilliance of summer’s glorious day
I will do something nice for someone every single day, but not the unexpected pleasure of leaving you alone
I give you all my love, expecting nothing in return, but secretly hoping, just waiting for that special something to grow and fill that special place in your heart
Happiness waits for all those who cried before, all those who searched, all those who hurt, experiences bring appreciation, and the happy, full, carefree spirit that reflects our heart revolves around us, making the moment true and sincere.
INNOCENCE OF A CHILD
Soft gurgles, the suck, suck, suck
Of a pacifier held between toothless gums
The innocent smile displayed
From a radiant, beaming face
Fresh downy feel, smell of silky skin
Little hands balled into fists
That clings tightly to mine
Lying there, big toe between lips
No problems or worries to contend with
Just now and then scream, have a fit
Discomfort, hungry, seeking attention
Hum a tune, rock you gently now
The fire blazes in your eyes
Then goes dim; you are asleep
I put you there in that fetal pose
Wherein you are comfortable,
This is the way you grew secure
Shielded and protected from the world
Until you came forth
To fulfill an agenda
You brought love, joy,
And happiness to our lives
Then for a time we forget today
Reaching back to a period
When the world was like you
I look at you now, so at peace
Finding joy in this earthly sound
Suck, suck, suck.
WHEN I WAS MAN
Another dreary day the outlook is bleak
Why? Why? Do you romance thoughts of suicide?
Living is hard; this you have come to know
Hard to believe now they have dealt the first blow
Life offers so little to those who is down
So cold and unfeeling, there is no heart here
The rigors of this harshness tears away at your flesh
Leaving you open, transparent, accessible, bare!
All that you have tried to conceal
Over all those years
Is left exposed, naked, uncovered, unfettered?
You are vulnerable, and it is on display
No way to stop their unfathomable stare
You are a person of pride
There is no one to invade your solitude
You spent the productive years
Of your life looking out for them
Now that your twilight draws nigh
You are left in isolation at a caregiver’s home
Somewhere far away, out here
Somewhere you do not know
Where did the glory days go?
When you were surrounded by family, friends
That time when you were robust
Lighthearted, laughed and danced
Showered love and presents lasciviously
And was loved and appreciated
As your health faltered, so did your luck
The material things of the world went away
You found out your circle had an end
; There is no gathering at your side
All that is left
Is the empty place where they were
And the haunting memories to remind
Being alone is the only thing there
That costs nothing. It’s free…
And that you have in abundance…
NEEDLES
Did something go wrong on my part?
I am thinking now I take a walk
Maybe I am just not smart
When did all this start?
Broken heart, tearing me apart
When! Oh when! Did all this start?
I am afraid now we are apart
Angel flying circles around my heart
When! Oh when! Did all this start?
So much things happening to my heart
That evil one that I do not want
Throwing things, they look like darts
Piercing holes in delicate heart
When! Oh when! Did all this start
Bleeding heart, now we are apart
Doing things I do not want
Feelings growing just like a plant
I kept it in, should have talked
I look up, I look down, I cannot start
Broken heart, tearing me apart
Sharp needles, pointed darts
Making pattern work of art
Piercing holes through my heart
Marks of violence on every part
