Vorkosigans Convalescent, was more like it, Miles reflected, following. But you should see what the other guys look like.
Not to Miles’s surprise, practically the first person the Vorkosigans’ party met upon entering the Imperial Residence was Simon Illyan. Illyan was dressed as usual for these functions, parade red-and-blues concealing a multitude of comm links.
“Ah, he’s here in person tonight,” the Count murmured, spotting his old Security chief across the vestibule. “There must be no major messes going on elsewhere, then. Good.”
They divested their snow-spangled wraps to Gregor’s household staff. Miles was shivering. He decided his timing had been skewed by this last adventure. Usually, he managed to arrange an off-planet assignment during winter in the capital. Illyan nodded, and came over to them.
“Good evening, Simon,” said the Count.
“Good evening, sir. All calm and quiet, so far tonight.”
“That’s nice.” The Count raised a dryly amused eyebrow at him. “I’m sure Prime Minister Racozy will be delighted to hear it.”
Illyan opened his mouth, and closed it. “Er. Habit,” he said in embarrassment. He stared at Count Vorkosigan with a look almost of frustration. As if the only way he knew how to relate to his commander of thirty years was by making reports; but Admiral Count Vorkosigan was no longer receiving them. “This feels very strange,” he admitted.
“You’ll get used to it, Simon,” Countess Vorkosigan assured him. And towed her husband determinedly out of Illyan’s orbit. The Count gave him a parting half-salute, seconding the Countess’s words.
Illyan’s eye fell on Miles and Mark, instead. “Hm,” he said, in the tone of a man who had just come out second-best in some horse-trade.
Miles stood up straighter. The ImpSec medicos had cleared him to return to duty in two months, pending a final physical exam. He had not bothered mentioning the little problem with the convulsions to them. Perhaps the first one had just been an idiosyncratic effect of the fast-penta. Sure, and the second and third ones, drug flashbacks.
But he hadn’t had any more, after that. Miles smiled diffidently, trying to look very healthy. Illyan just shook his head, looking at him.
“Good evening, sir,” Mark said to Illyan in turn. “Was ImpSec able to deliver my Winterfair gift to my clones all eight?”
Illyan nodded. “Five hundred marks each, individually addressed and on time, yes, my lord.”
“Good.” Mark gave one of his sharper-edged smiles, the sort that made one wonder what he was thinking. The clones had been the pretext Mark had given Illyan for handing over to ImpSec the million Betan dollars he’d sworn he would; the funds were now in escrow for their needs, among other things paying for their place in that exclusive school. Illyan had been so boggled he’d gone absolutely robotic, an effect Miles had watched with great fascination. By the time the clones were out on their own the million would be about used up, Mark had figured. But the Winterfair gifts had been personal and separate.
Mark did not ask how his gift had been received, though Miles was dying to know; but rather, drifted on with another polite nod, as if Illyan were a clerk with whom he had just concluded some minor business. Miles saluted and caught up. Mark was suppressing a deep grin, resulting in a smirk-like look.
“All this time,” Mark confided to Miles in a low voice, “I was worried about never having received a present. It never even crossed my mind to worry about never having given one. Winterfair is an entrancing holiday, y’know?” He sighed. “I wish I’d known those clone-kids well enough to pick something right for each. But at least this way, they have a gift of choice. It’s like giving them two presents in one. How the devil do you folks give anything to, say, Gregor, though?”
“We fall back on tradition. Two hundred liters of Dendarii mountain maple syrup, delivered annually to his household. Takes care of it. If you think Gregor’s bad, think about our father, though. It’s like trying to give a Winterfair gift to Father Frost himself.”
“Yes, I’ve been puzzling over that one.”
“Sometimes you can’t give back. You just have to give on. Did you, ah … sign those credit chits to the clones?”
“Sort of. Actually, I signed them ’Father Frost.’ ” Mark cleared his throat. “That’s the purpose of Winterfair, I think. To teach you how to … give on. Being Father Frost is the end-game, isn’t it?”
“I think so.”
“I’m getting it figured out,” Mark nodded in determination.
They walked on together into the upstairs reception hall, and snagged drinks. They were collecting a lot of attention, Miles noted with amusement, covert stares from the flower of the Vor assembled there. Oh, Barrayar. Do we have a surprise for you.
He sure surprised me.
It was going to be huge fun, having Mark for a brother. An ally at last! I think… . Miles wondered if he could ever draw Mark on to love Barrayar as he did. The thought made him strangely nervous. Best not to love too much. Barrayar could be lethal, to take for one’s lady. Still … a challenge. Enough challenges to go around, no artificial shortages of those here.
Miles would have to be careful about anything Mark might interpret as an attempt to dominate him, though. Mark’s violent allergy to the least hint of control was perfectly understandable, Miles thought, but it made mentoring him a task of some delicacy.
Better not do too good a job, big brother. You’re expendable now, y’know. He ran a hand down the bright uniform cloth of his jacket, coolly conscious of just what expendable meant. Yet being beaten by your student was the ultimate victory, for a teacher. An enchanting paradox. I can’t lose.
Miles grinned. Yeah, Mark. Catch me if you can. If you can.
“Ah,” Mark nodded to a man in a wine-red Vor House uniform, across the room. “Isn’t that Lord Vorsmythe, the industrialist?”
“Yes.”
“I’d love to talk with him. Do you know him? Can you introduce me?”
“Sure. Thinking of more investing, are you?”
“Yes, I’ve decided to diversify. Two-thirds Barrayaran investments, one-third galactic.”
“Galactic?”
“I’m putting some into Escobaran medical technology, if you must know.”
“Lilly?”
“Yep. She needs the set-up capital. I’m going to be a silent partner.” Mark hesitated. “The solution has to be medical, you know. And … do you want to bet she won’t return a profit?”
“Nope. In fact, I’d be very leery of laying any bet against you.”
Mark smiled his sharpest. “Good. You’re learning too.”
Miles led Mark over and performed the requested introduction. Vorsmythe was delighted to find someone who actually wanted to talk about his work here, the bored look pasted on his face evaporating with Mark’s first probing question; Miles turned Mark loose with a wave. Vorsmythe was gesturing expansively. Mark was listening as though he had a recorder whirring in his head. Miles left them to it.
He spied Delia Koudelka across the chamber, and made for her, to claim a dance later, and possibly cut out Ivan. If he was lucky, she might offer him a chance to use that line about the dueling scars, too.
Chapter Thirty-Three
After a most fascinating chat on the topic of Barrayaran high-growth economic sectors, Vorsmythe was reclaimed by his wife for some escort purpose, and dragged out of the window embrasure he and Mark had taken over; he parted with Mark reluctantly, promising to send him some prospectuses. Mark looked around for Miles again. The Count was not the only Vorkosigan in danger of over-doing it tonight while trying to prove his health to assorted observers, Mark had realized.
Mark had, by default, become Miles’s confidant for self-tests he didn’t want to share with his ImpSec superiors, checking knowledge bases, going over old material ranging from Service regs to five-space math. Mark had made a joke about it exactly once, before he realized the depth of terror that was driving Miles’s obsessive probing. Particu
larly when they actually found some hole or another in Miles’s memory. It bothered Mark deeply, this new hesitation, this desperate diffidence in his big brother. He hoped Miles’s obnoxious self-confidence would return soon. It was another strange reciprocity, that Miles should have things he wanted to remember, and couldn’t, while Mark had things he wanted to forget. And couldn’t.
He would have to encourage Miles to show him around some more. Miles enjoyed playing the expert, it put him automatically in the one-up position to which he was addicted. Yeah, let Miles expand his highly-inflatable ego a bit. Mark could afford it, now. He’d give Miles a run for it some other time, when Miles was up to speed again. When it was more sporting.
Finally, by hopping up on a chair and craning his neck, Mark spotted his brother just leaving the reception chamber, in the company of a blonde woman in blue velvet—Delia Koudelka, Kareen’s tallest sister. They’re here. Oh, God. He abandoned the chair and went on a fast search for the Countess. He finally ran her to ground in a third floor lounge, chatting with some older women, obviously cronies. She took one look at his anxious smile, and excused herself to join him in a nook in the carpeted corridor.
“Have you run into a problem, Mark?” she asked, arranging her skirts on the little settee. He perched gingerly on the opposite end.
“I don’t know. The Koudelkas are here. I promised back at the Emperor’s Birthday to dance with Kareen, if I made it home in time. And … I’d asked her to talk with you. About me. Did she?”
“Yes.”
“What did you tell her?”
“Well, it was a long conversation …”
Oh, shit.
“But the gist of it was that I judged you an intelligent young man who had had some very unpleasant experiences, but if you could be persuaded to use that intelligence to get your problems straightened out, I could support your suit.”
“Betan therapy?”
“Something like that.”
“I’ve been thinking about Betan therapy. A lot. But I dread the thought of my therapist’s notes all ending up in some ImpSec analyst’s report. I don’t want to be a damned show.” Again.
“I think I could do something about that.”
“Could you?” He looked up, shaken with hope. “Even though you wouldn’t get to see the reports either?”
“Yes.”
“I … would appreciate that, ma’am.”
“Consider it a promise. My word as a Vorkosigan.”
An adopted Vorkosigan, even more so than he. But he did not doubt her word. Mother, with you all things seem possible.
“I don’t know what details you told Kareen—”
“Very few. She’s only eighteen, after all. Barely assimilating her own new adulthood. More, hm, advanced matters could wait, I judged. She has to get through school, first, before undertaking any long-term commitment,” she added pointedly.
“Oh. Um.” He wasn’t sure if he was relieved, or not. “It’s all out of date anyway. I’ve acquired … a whole new set of problems, since. Much worse ones.”
“I don’t sense that, Mark. To me, you have appeared much more centered and relaxed, since you and Miles got back from Jackson’s Whole. Even though you won’t talk about it.”
“I don’t regret knowing myself, ma’am. I don’t even regret … being myself.” Me and the black gang. “But I do regret … being so far from Kareen. I believe I am a monster, of some sort. And in the play, Caliban does not marry Prospero’s daughter. In fact, he gets stomped for trying, as I recall.” Yes, how could he possibly explain Gorge and Grunt and Howl and Killer to someone like Kareen, without frightening or disgusting her? How could he ask her to feed his abnormal appetites, even in some dream or fantasy play? It was hopeless. Better not to try.
The Countess smiled wryly. “There are several things wrong with your analogy, Mark. In the first place, I can guarantee you are not subhuman, whatever you think you are. And Kareen is not superhuman, either. Though if you insist on treating her as a prize and not as a person, I can also guarantee you will run yourself into another kind of trouble.” Her raised brows punctuated the point. “I added, as condition to my blessing on your suit, the suggestion that she take the opportunity during her schooling on Beta Colony next year for some extra tutoring. A little Betan education in certain personal matters could go a long way, I think, to widening her perceptions enough to admit, um, complexities without choking. A certain liberality of view an eighteen-year-old simply cannot acquire on Barrayar.”
“Oh.” That was an idea which had never even crossed his mind, tackling the problem from Kareen’s end. It made … so much sense. “I’d … thought about school on Beta Colony for myself, next year. Some galactic education would look good on my record, when I apply here for the job I have in mind. I don’t want to leave it all to pure nepotism.”
The Countess tilted her head in bemusement. “Good. It seems to me as though you have a sound set of long-range plans, well-coordinated to advance all your goals. You have only to carry them through. I entirely approve.”
“Long-range. But … tonight is right now.”
“And what were you planning to do tonight, Mark?”
“Dance with Kareen.”
“I don’t see the problem with that. You’re allowed to dance. Whatever you are. This is not the play, Mark, and old Prospero has many daughters. One may even have a low taste for fishy fellows.”
“How low?”
“Oh …” The Countess held out her hand at a level about equal to Mark’s standing height. “At least that low. Go dance with the girl, Mark. She thinks you’re interesting. Mother Nature gives a sense of romance to young people, in place of prudence, to advance the species. It’s a trick—that makes us grow.”
Walking across the Residence ballroom to greet Kareen Koudelka felt like the most terrifying thing Mark had ever voluntarily done, not excepting the first Dendarii combat drop onto Jackson’s Whole. There the resemblance ended, for after that, things improved.
“Lord Mark!” she said happily. “They told me you were here.”
You asked? “I’ve come to redeem my word and my dance, milady.” He managed a Vorish bow.
“Good! It’s about time. I’ve saved out all the mirror dances and the called reels.”
All the simple dances he could be expected to do. “I had Miles teach me the steps to Mazeppa’s Minuet last week,” he added hopefully.
“Perfect. Oh, the music’s starting—” She hauled him onto the inlaid floor.
She wore a swirling dark green dress with red trim, that set off her ash-blonde curls. In a sort of positive paranoia, he wondered if her outfit could possibly have been deliberately color-coordinated with his own clothes. Surely it must be a coincidence. How—? My tailor to my mother to her mother to her. Hell, any ImpSec analyst ought to be able to figure out that data trail.
Grunt, alas, had a distracting and distressing tendency to mentally undress her, and worse. But Grunt was not going to be permitted to speak tonight. This one is Lord Mark’s job. And he isn’t going to screw it up this time. Grunt could just lurk down in there and build up steam. Lord Mark would find a use for the power. Starting with keeping the beat. There was even a dance—Mazeppa’s Minuet, as it happened—where the two partners touched each other, holding the hand or the waist, for almost the entire pattern.
All true wealth is biological, the Count had said. Mark finally saw exactly what he meant. For all his million Betan dollars, he could not buy this, the light in Kareen’s eyes. Though it couldn’t hurt … what was that damned Earth bird or other, that built wildly elaborate nests to attract a mate?
They were in the middle of a mirror dance. “So, Kareen—you’re a girl. I, uh, had this argument with Ivan. What do you think is the most attractive thing a fellow can have? A lightflyer, wealth … rank?” He hoped his tone suggested he was running some sort of scientific survey. Nothing personal, ma’am.
She pursed her lips. “Wit,” she said at last.
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br /> Yeah. And what store are you going to buy that in, with all your Betan dollars, boy?
“Mirror dance, my turn,” said Kareen. “What’s the most important thing a woman can have?”
“Trust,” he answered without thinking, and then thought about it to the point of almost losing his step. He was going to need a mountain of trust, no lie. So, start building it tonight, Lord Mark old boy. Hauling one bloody basket load at a time, if you have to.
He managed to make her laugh out loud four times, after that. He kept count. ,
He ate too much (even Gorge was sneakily sated), drank too much, talked too much, and danced far too much, and generally had a hell of a good time. The dancing was a little unexpected. Kareen reluctantly lent him to a string of several curious girlfriends. He was interesting to them only as a novelty, he judged, but he wasn’t inclined to be picky. By two hours after midnight he was stimulated to the point of babbling, and starting to limp. Better to call it quits before Howl had to come out and take charge of his burnt-out remains. Besides, Miles had been sitting quietly in a corner for the last hour, looking uncharacteristically wilted.
A word passed to an Imperial household servant brought the Count’s groundcar back for them, driven by the ubiquitous Pym, who had taken the Count and Countess home earlier. Miles and Mark took over the rear compartment, both sagging into their seats. Pym pulled out past the Residence’s guarded gates and into the winter streets, grown as night-quiet as the capital’s streets ever did, only a few other vehicles prowling past. Miles turned the heat up high, and settled back with his eyes half-closed.
Mark and his brother were alone in the compartment. Mark counted the number of people present. One, two. Three, four, five, six, seven. Lord Miles Vorkosigan and Admiral Naismith. Lord Mark Vorkosigan and Gorge, Grunt, Howl, and Killer.
Admiral Naismith was a much classier creation, Mark thought with a silent sigh of envy. Miles could take the Admiral out to parties, introduce him to women, parade him in public almost anywhere but Barrayar itself. I suppose what my black gang lacks in savoir fairs, we make up in numbers… .
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