by C Renee
“Why are you going to Steph’s? I thought you and I could do something tonight?” I had to think of something quick because I didn’t want her leaving me alone tonight, of all nights.
“She wanted a girls night out and I thought it was good timing.” She seems nervous, she’s biting her lower lip and she keeps crossing and uncrossing her legs.
“Cancel, stay here with me.” I demanded.
“She wouldn’t like that, I think she had this night planned for a while now.” I can tell she’s lying now.
“I’ll take your place Lou, it’ll be good to catch up with Steph.” Reece comes in behind Louise. He must have been listening to the whole conversation. The prick.
“Oh, I don’t think that’s a good idea. Why don’t you two have a guys night in or something?” She’s trying to get out of staying here with me. I need to persuade her a little bit more.
“Louise, I’m not going to take a no for an answer. Go call Steph and tell her I’ll taking your place.” Reece opens the door for Louise so she could leave the room.
Once Louise left the room, Reece came over and sat on the bed. He looks nervous, could this have anything to do with his date with Steph tonight? I’m pretty annoyed that he didn’t do it himself but to even suggest it would have been huge for him. I still don’t know what happened with him and Steph that night before they showed up at my apartment. That will probably remain a mystery, but I do wonder if Louise knows.
“You finally have the balls to keep Louise home. Will you let her in and tell someone about what’s going on in the head of yours?” Reece breaks the silence and I wish he hadn’t.
“Thanks, glad you’ve found your own man.” I reply.
We don’t say anything else when Louise comes back into the room.
“Steph wasn’t happy about it but she told me to tell you that she won’t waste a pair of freshly shaven legs. So off you go then, don’t keep that girl waiting.” I watch Reece walk past Louise and he stops just behind her to give me the thumbs up. What a dick.
I get up off the bed and I slowly walk towards where Louise is standing. She looks so beautiful and this girl is in my room. That speaks temptation.
“Alex.” She breathes.
This girl is going to be my ruin.
“Louise…” I groan out her name.
I really want to kiss this woman again but I’m afraid she doesn’t feel the same.
“I want to kiss you Alex, but I’m afraid.” Louise whispers. God, this woman is amazing.
“It’s okay, I’ve got you.” I close the distance between us. I open my arms to her and she slowly walks into them. I wrap them around her waist and hold her tight.
She feels soft and warm; her floral perfume is invading my senses and making me dizzy.
I can feel her arms squeeze tighter around my neck.
“I need you now, Alex.” She murmurs into my neck.
I don’t wait another second before I pull her away and lift her up into my arms, I hear her giggle when I place her onto my bed. This is happening, the beginning of us is really happening and I couldn’t be happier.
I lay on top of her and I stare down into those fascinating grey eyes. She blinks up at me and smiles shyly; her cheeks are becoming pinker by the minute. I can tell she’s nervous, but she doesn’t have to be with me.
She reaches up with her hand and strokes my face; I haven’t shaven in a few days so my whiskers would be tickling her hand.
“I want this, Alex.” She says before pulling my face down towards hers. I guide my lips until I’m touching hers; I’ve kissed Louise before but never like this. Not this soft and slow motion, not with the way our mouths dance to their own rhythm. I don’t want to stop kissing her but I really want to feel her naked underneath me. Let’s blame it on the caveman inside of me who wants to rip everything off of her, but I need to be strong and take things very slow with her. She deserves it. We both do.
I pull back from her lips and I whisper against them.
“You’re mine Precious.” Then I go back and kiss those luscious lips again.
Nothing will bring me down from this high.
I did hope that our first time together would be somewhere more romantic, but there’s always the future to do that.
I mentally shake myself from the thoughts about what if’s because I need to focus on this moment, focus on this girl who is underneath me.
I love the way our bodies mold together, the way her brown hair fans my white pillow and the way her skin is soft under my hands.
Louise moves her hands down my chest towards my stomach and she grabs a handful of my t-shirt and pulls it back up. We stop kissing for her to pull the shirt over my head. I don’t feel the cool air because she lights my skin on fire with her touch. I feel her hands roam across my stomach, my chest and my back.
“I want more, Alex.” She says with a sigh.
More, I can do more.
I reach down to the bottom of her tank and pull it slowly up her body; once it’s off I just stare at her. She’s beautiful.
I roll over until she’s on top of me, her hair falls around her face and I reach up to tuck her hair behind her ear. That way I can get a better view of her face.
I move my hands up her stomach and back down again, I move them around to her back and I unclasp her bra. I slowly pull the straps down her arms and it falls to the floor.
She is bare from the waist up.
“I’m okay, I want this.” Louise is reassuring me and I know she can handle it.
“I know Precious, I want to take my time with you.” I tell her.
I move my hands back up her stomach; I place both of my palms over her breasts. I hear her suck in air and I look up at her and I see that her eyes are closed and her head slightly back.
I rub my thumbs over her nipples and they harden under my touch; her breasts are the perfect size for my hands.
I feel her slowly rock against my growing erection; I need to keep things slow before I ruin everything.
“Do you want more?” I ask her before I take for myself.
“Yes.” She breathes.
I push her over until she’s lying on her back again. I kiss her slowly on the lips, then I move down towards her neck. I suckle on a soft spot near her collarbone and her ear. She wriggles beneath me; ah I found her ticklish spot.
I move my way downwards to her breasts, I put the left nipple into my mouth and I palm the right.
She moans when I give her nipple a light bite; she’s running her hands through my hair and tugging hard.
I bite back a groan; this woman is making me very hard.
I grab one of her hands and guide it down towards the growing bulge in my pants. It’s getting uncomfortable, I need to release myself but before I could do it myself, Louise has my zipper already undone and continues to push my jeans down. She is wriggling to get them off but she can’t reach.
I hear her huff and puff but she doesn’t give up.
“Let me help you.” I get off the bed and I watch Louise’s face when I pull down the rest of my jeans. I free ball every other day and luckily today I’ve chosen to do so. Watching Louise’s face transform into shock, awe and now she’s blushing. I’ve never seen a woman respond to my penis like that.
I chuckle at her expense.
“Hey! No laughing at me. Is it going to fit?” She squeaks, oh boy. This is going to be an experience neither of us is going to forget.
“I sure hope so Precious.” I stalk towards the bed and grab her legs to pull her towards the edge of the bed. I unbutton her shorts and pull them down with her undies. She lifts up to help me get them off and once they are off I throw them to the floor. We won’t be needing them anytime soon.
My erection is lightly bouncing on my stomach, I watch Louise take in the size of my penis and I can see her brows pinching together.
“I’ve got you Precious.” I crawl across the bed until I’m lying on my side next to her.
Now we are both n
aked and I can sense her hesitate, I know this is a big deal for her.
“Alex.” That is all she says before she pushes me on my back and climbs on top of me. She isn’t warmed up yet before I can enter her so I do what I know best. I look at her, I mean I really look at her and by God she is a beautiful sight. Her skin is soft under my touch, her perfect breasts fit in each hand and she feels like a feather on top of me.
I know she can feel me staring at her when she quickly puts her hands over her scars on her stomach.
“Louise, I don’t want you hiding from me.” I try to pull her hands away but she won’t budge.
“No, I don’t want you to see them. They are hideous.” She tries to get off of me but I won’t let her. Two can play this game.
“Louise, I don’t care about some scars, I care about you and I will show you just how much.” I roll her over until she’s lying on her back again. I hover over her and I take her face in my hands. I stare deep down into those lovely grey eyes and I say the next words with such emotion and fear.
“I’m going to keep you forever Louise. I feel it deep down in my bones that you were meant to be mine.” I watch as a tear slides down her cheek, I get my thumb to wipe it away.
She just nods her head before I close the rest of the distance and kiss her again but this time it is full of raw emotion, I’ve laid my heart bare and this girl lets me.
I reach down to her soft spot and I start massaging her clit, I let her build up the first orgasm of the night. I can hear her moaning my name; this is exactly what I’ve wanted.
I use two fingers to push through her pink folds and massage her walls; I need to push her over the edge before I can enter her. I keep pumping my fingers, in and out. I pick up my pace and that’s when I feel her shake underneath me.
“Alexxx…” She screams, she came all over my fingers.
I know she’s ready now. I lean across the bed to my bedside draw and pull out a condom.
I slip it on in record time, and I position myself at her entrance.
“Are you ready?” I ask Louise, I want to make sure this is what she wants. I won’t ever push her to do anything she doesn’t want to do. Ever.
“Yes.” She moans.
That’s my girl.
My cock is hard as a rock by now, this girl turns me on so much. I start entering her folds with the tip and I slowly push my way into her tight pussy.
I get shivers all over my body once I’m all the way in, her arms are around my back and she’s hanging on for dear life.
“Relax Precious. I’ve got you.” I whisper into her cheek.
I can feel her arms relax a bit.
I silently chuckle.
I wait for her to stretch around my size before I start moving inside of her. At this point, I’ve never stopped kissing her. I don’t think I’ve ever had sex with this much emotion; it’s making my heart beat out of my chest.
“I feel it too.” Louise whispers, and with that I start to get my slow rhythm going. I don’t want to rush anything.
I feel her legs wrap around the base of my back, and I slip just a little further into her pussy. She’s taking me well.
I start to pick up my pace when I feel her walls start to clench. I thrust into her in and out, still at a slow pace but with a little more force. I need to send her over the edge again. In and out, in and out and now I start to feel myself getting closer.
Louise is digging her nails into my back and I know she’s about to cum. I pick up my pace a little bit more and add more pressure when I thrust in.
Three more thrusts and she’s shaking uncontrollably underneath me. I feel the tingles up my spine and I cum right after her. We are both riding out our orgasms together.
“Wow.” We both say in sync when I roll off of her. I pull the condom off, tie it up and throw it into the trashcan.
I wouldn’t have a clue about what time it is, and I couldn’t care less.
I pull up the blanket up over the both of us and she moves over until she’s tucked under my arm, but laying over me. She’s warm and soft laying next to me.
“Sleep now, Precious.” I say into her soft hair.
I start to drift off to sleep with my girl next to me.
Tomorrow is the day I will tackle all the demons in my life but for now, I’m at peace.
Chapter Nine
Louise
I WAKE UP IN Alex’s arms, and last night comes floating back to me. I groan when I roll over and out of Alex’s arms.
I am so sore but I feel relaxed. I haven’t felt this calm in a really long time. The beautiful things Alex said to me last night keeps circling around and around in my mind.
It’s strange to think that I feel the same way, I want to be with him but I’m still fearful about my past ruining things for us. Especially the note his father left him. I have no idea where that is going to take us. Last night everything felt right, it felt perfect. I feel movement behind me and I turn over to face Alex again.
“Morning beautiful, did you sleep okay?” Ahh, Alex’s morning voice is doing things to me I wish would keep quiet for a minute.
I can’t help the smile on my face when I answer him.
“The best.” I don’t want to get out of bed but today is my first psychology session and I don’t want to miss it.
“Are you hungry?” Alex gets off the bed, his naked body is carved from God himself. If I weren’t hungry, I would drag Alex back to bed and go for round two.
“Yes, I worked up an appetite.” I get out of bed to search for my clothes, they are all over the place but with every piece of clothing found I put them on and follow Alex out of his room.
“I don’t have much but I can whip up some homemade pancakes?” I take the seat at the kitchen counter and I watch Alex work his way around the kitchen. He looks peaceful while pouring eggs and flour into a mixing bowl. He is only wearing a pair of jeans and that’s it. I never knew it would be so distracting watching him cook up pancakes when I can’t stop staring at his toned torso. Damn, he is mighty fine.
“Stop staring at me Louise and eat your pancakes.” I blush at being caught and I look down at the plate full of food in front of me. It looks and smells delicious; he has placed three pancakes, strawberries and chocolate sauce on the plate. I can’t believe I didn’t notice that.
Alex takes the seat next to me and within a couple of seconds he’s already eaten one and a half of his pancakes.
“Louise.” He says around a mouthful of food, he says that with force.
I grunt when I pick up a pancake with my fork and shove it into my mouth. I try to hold back a moan but I fail miserably. These are amazing.
I look over to Alex and he’s already finished his plate and going for seconds. Men.
We eat the rest of the food in silence and it’s nice. It’s not that awkward silence you get when you want to say something but you don’t want to. It’s comfortable.
Alex starts off talking about his night before I got home and the mess he left Reece to clean up and how bad he felt.
“Seriously Alex, I don’t think Reece is the one to hold grudges. I mean how long have you two been friends for?” I leave the question hanging in the air.
“You’re right, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to feel like less of an ass.” Alex is finished with the dishes and he comes back to the stool he was sitting on.
“Louise, we have to really talk.”
“Great, it’s always the ‘let’s talk, it’s not you it's me’ speech right.” How did I know this was going to happen, I thought last night was amazing and now he is ready to kick me out the door? Is that all he wanted, a root and boot.
“Whoa, slow down Precious. No that’s not the speech I was going with, or ever for that matter.” He takes my hand in his and gives it a light squeeze. Okay, my heart can slow down now.
“Sure, give me a heart attack next time. Maybe you should change that phrase to… umm… hey Louise, lets have a D&M.” I chuckle at his confused face, o
h my god this is priceless.
“You have no idea what that means do you?” I ask.
“Um, nope. I hope that means Deep and Moaning? Because that could work too.” He gives me that smirk with the dimple and his eyes twinkle in the light.
“Ha, no it actually means Deep and Meaningful. No, don’t give me that look either. It’s a conversation that hits all the feelings. Emotions, get with the lingo already.” Now I laugh out loud, this is the best morning ever.
“Alright, alright. I promise I won’t ever say that again to you.” He joins in with the laughter. I feel at ease right now, especially with the late morning I’m going to be having. Two hours before my first appointment and I’m already dreading it, but if I don’t go I won’t get cleared for work.
“What do you have planned for today?” Alex asks while I shake the dark thoughts out of my head. I’ll save them for later.
“I have my first therapist appointment today and I have to catch up with Steph. You left her with Reece.” I can’t believe last night happened and we seem so normal together. Should I ruin the mood and ask what we are?
We have been on two dates, well one was a disaster but then we had that amazing sex last night and we have kissed more than once.
“I had to have you Louise, and Reece was right about one thing at least. I need to let you in, I have to tell you what’s going on and…” He grabs my other hand, gives them both another squeeze and continues.
“I want us to be more, I’m not even sure if we were friends to begin with but I want more.” He is blushing, I can’t believe it. He seems so shy about asking me to be his girlfriend. It almost seems like he read my mind. I’m lost for words, do I tell him that’s what I want too or do I stay quiet?
“An answer would be great Lou.” He lets go of my hands and slowly gets off his chair. Is he leaving me? Oh God.
“Yes, I want more too.” I quickly answer; I don’t want him to leave yet.
“Okay, more it is.” He sits back down on the stool but he changes. His face drops, his body language turns cold and sluggish. I’m afraid of our next conversation, am I really ready to hear this?
