by C Renee
Louise’s car is in the driveway when I pull up, it feels like a tornado in my stomach. I’m nervous about seeing her not because of the information I was told but because I can finally admit that I love this woman.
I want to spend the rest of my life coming home to this woman.
I open the door and the smell of freshly cooked food comes wafting towards me. It smells delicious.
I’m hurrying towards the kitchen and I find Louise standing at the kitchen counter cutting up meat and placing it into the pot.
I don’t think she’s heard me come home, good.
I stalk up behind her and lift her up in my arms; her squeal warms my heart and burns into my soul.
“Alex!” She turns in my arms when I’ve set her down; she hugs me around the chest.
Yep, I want this moment for the rest of my life.
“Hey Precious, did you miss me?” I bend down to kiss the side of her neck and while I’m kissing up and down, I inhale her scent. She smells amazing.
“You bet I did. How was your day?” She goes back to tend to dinner, I loosen my tie from around my neck and take my suit jacket off. I place it across the stool and I take a seat. I love seeing Louise in my kitchen.
“It was long, how was yours? Did you get through much?” I don’t want to push too much into her sessions with the therapist, just in case she doesn’t want to talk about it.
“It went alright, I went to see Steph after it. You would not believe what I found out.” She looks mad and disappointed. Whatever it is, it isn’t good news.
“What did you find out? Steph got a bad manicure?” I don’t have a fucking clue about a woman’s need to look pretty.
She chuckles a little before she tells me.
“Reece and Steph are actually dating. I thought she was my best friend and she didn’t bother to tell me this!” I can see why she’s hurt, Reece didn’t fucking tell me either.
“Hey, come here.” I motion for her to come sit with me.
“Reece didn’t tell me either but we should be happy for them, I don’t remember the last time Reece dated someone and Steph is a great girl.” She relaxes into me; she must have liked my answer.
“Yeah I am happy for her, but I wish she would have told me from the start instead of hiding it from me.” I kiss the side of her head and hug her tighter. My poor girl.
“It’s alright, you’ve got me now.” I chuckle in her ear, she laughs along with me.
“Yeah I do.” She turns around and gives me a soft kiss on my lips.
Yep, I could get used to this.
I kiss her back but I stop after a few minutes. We have to talk about my day and what I’ve learned. I promised myself that I don’t want to hide anything from her about this, well except what Mr. Wayne told me not to tell her.
I grumble when I pull away from her, I don’t want to stop.
“Louise, dinner is going to burn and we need to discuss what happened with my meeting today.” I quickly pull her back in and give her another quick kiss.
She giggles and walks to serve up the stew. The smell of the stew comes floating back, and the sound of my stomach rumbles. I’m starving.
Louise puts two bowls in front of her and me; I don’t want another second before I’m diving into it. Lamb and vegetable stew is so fucking good.
“Mmm good, thanks mmm.” I say around a mouthful of food.
She just giggles some more; I want to hear her giggle more often. That’s my mission, for her to laugh and smile more.
“Ah, finished. What? You haven’t even touched the sides.” I look at Louise with concern.
“Oh, I had snacks at Steph’s and I’m kind of… hungry… for something else.” She’s biting her lip and won’t look me in the eye. Well that’s going to have to change.
“Eat some more and then I can take care of that hunger of yours.” I’ve never seen a woman eat that fast in my life.
Just thinking about Louise wanting sex with me again is getting my cock hard.
She finished her stew in record time; this meeting conversation has to wait. I’m taking my girl to bed.
Chapter Eleven
Louise
I CAN’T BELIEVE I said that out loud, I didn’t want to openly admit I want to have sex with Alex again, but he walked in with that suit on and he looks so fuckable.
We really should have spoken about his meeting but I have urges and only he knows how to help calm them down.
I follow Alex into his bedroom and close the door behind me.
I’m so nervous, I know I saw Alex naked just last night but his body makes me blush uncontrollably. I feel like my body isn’t good enough for him because of the mental battles it’s been through and the physical scarring it shows. I have this one fresh ugly scar that I wish he didn’t see but instead of turning me away he loved it. I never knew this side to Alex. This emotional, loving man and he is all mine.
I’m not exactly sure if we are officially dating or we are just being together, I don’t want to ask and spoil anything. I would rather be with him like this than lose him.
“Louise, I can feel you thinking over here. Stop, just feel. Feel my touches, feel my raw emotions. Just feel Louise.” Alex steps closer to me, he is right. I can’t stop these feelings and thoughts that are circling my head. I have to be in this moment.
“Okay, just feel.” I say back to him. Alex makes me feel a lot of things and right now I need to feel him against me.
Alex takes my hands and puts them around his neck; he slowly bends down until our noses are touching. I can feel his breath on my face, I want to kiss him so badly but I don’t want this intimate moment to end.
“Louise.” Alex whispers against my lips before he gently kisses me.
It’s a feathery kiss but I feel the sparks flying from my lips down towards my toes, it’s one of those kisses where every time you think back on it, you get butterflies and your heart flutters. Alex kisses me like that.
“I can’t stop thinking about you, this feeling I have towards you is nothing like I have ever felt before.” Alex slowly lifts me up from the floor and places me on the bed.
The butterflies I feel are becoming more intense now that Alex is hovering on top of me. The look in Alex’s eyes tells me that he has true feelings for me and that I’m the most precious thing in his life.
“Oh Alex.” I say into the silent room.
“You’re everything and more Louise.” Alex says back.
Can this moment get any better?
Alex flips me over and I‘m sitting on top of him, my giggle rings out in the quiet room. He is full of surprises.
“Take your top off.” Alex demands, I kind of like this about him, showing his dominate side.
I slowly move my hands down my body, I grab a fist full of my breasts and squeeze lightly, then I move my hands down my stomach and stop at the hem of my top. I pull it back up my body and take it off. I throw it across the room and I don’t see where it landed, that was my lame attempt at being sexy.
“Bra… it comes… off.” Alex slowly says the words, he sounds sexy saying it. I should get an F for being the worst stripper.
I reach behind my back and slowly unclip my two clips, it comes loose and I move my hands towards the front and slowly pull down my straps.
I can feel Alex’s erection growing underneath me; he is really enjoying the show.
I expect him to tell me to stroke my own breasts but instead he reaches up and cups a breast in each hand. He slowly massages them; he takes the nipple between his forefinger and thumb and gives it a little squeeze.
I buck back; I wasn’t expecting that intense pressure to travel down to my pussy. Alex is starting to become familiar with my body, what turns me on and what sends me over the edge. Alex sits up on the bed and moves me up his body more, so I’m directly on his hard cock.
“I can’t wait to be inside you again Lou.” I feel his lips on my neck again; he gently sucks between my collarbone and the base of my neck. It
feels amazing, I put my hands through his dark brown hair, and I’ve wanted to do that for a long time. It is thick and it feels so soft.
His lips keep traveling down my chest and I feel his hot breath against my left breast. He takes it into his mouth and starts sucking on it, he swirls his tongue around my nipple and every now and again he gently bites it.
The way he is going, I’ll have my first orgasm for the night in a matter of seconds.
I groan when his mouth leaves my nipple and the cold air gets to it. He smiles up at me and wraps his arms around my waist. I get the feeling he has only just started and I’m in for a long night.
“Relax, Lou.” Alex reminds me again.
He releases my waist and grabs my face in his hands. Our lips touch but this time it is with more force. It’s more with hunger and the need to touch one another.
I want to get closer to him; I move my hands down his chest, I stop at the first button on his shirt and work my way down. I pull his shirt open and he flexes his abs. I can feel the heat from his staring at me. He doesn’t grow impatient with me when I pull his shirt all the way off and throw it on the floor with the rest of my clothes. We are now both naked from the waist up. My hands travel up and down his stomach and chest, I circle my finger around his nipple and I lightly pinch it. He bucks up and with the right amount of pressure his cock hits my clit.
He liked my reaction because he does it two more times.
“Enough games, Lou.” Alex quickly flips me over and I’m now lying on my back again.
He has hunger in his eyes and that sexy smirk is back.
I shyly smile back up at him when he lightly traces my scar on my stomach. I have told myself to get used to other people looking at it and Alex already likes me for it.
His hands keep traveling south, they get to the zipper of my jeans and he doesn’t waste any more time toying with me. The jeans and my underwear are on the floor with the rest of our clothes. I’m the first one naked and I feel disappointed.
“You aren’t allowed to be grumpy Louise.” Alex’s tone is demanding. How did he know?
He gets off the bed and his suit pants are off in record time.
“Much better.” He comes back and kisses me between my eyebrows. I must have been frowning, just perfect.
“Close your eyes and just feel Lou.” Alex whispers in my ear.
I close my eyes just as Alex said and my body relaxes instantly.
I don’t know what he is going to do next but my other senses get more heightened. I can hear his heavy breathing, I can smell the sweat we’ve already created and I can still taste Alex’s lips on mine.
The bed dips and I hear a draw open and close. Then Alex is back on the bed, I feel so exposed laying here naked like I am.
“I’ve got you, Precious.” I hear Alex say.
My heart is fluttering at my expense, I can hear the blood pumping in my ears and I can feel myself getting more wet, waiting for Alex. If he doesn’t hurry up, I might have to take things back into my hands.
The faith I have in this man right now speaks volumes, I know I have deep feelings for him but am I ready to love another again? I can see myself being deeply, beyond repair in love with him but I don’t want to dive off the deep end if he isn’t there waiting to catch me.
Thoughts about my feelings for Alex go straight out the window when I feel his soft touch against my body.
Finally.
I feel his hands travel down my breasts, going over the curves at my hips and they stop just above my sex. The suspense is killing me, I hope he does something soon or I’ll go out of my mind.
Before I say anything Alex slowly moves his hand down towards my smooth pussy he continues south, dragging one finger over my clit and he reaches my pink folds.
I hear Alex hum and he says, “I like you wet.”
He quickly pushes one finger into my pussy and slowly strokes in and out. I follow his rhythm and meet him half way.
I need more.
I want to feel more.
“Alex…” I moan, hoping he takes the hint to give me more.
He leans forward to kiss me but pulls back.
“Okay.” He chuckles.
He removes his finger and replaces it with his cock; I can feel myself stretch around him. At the beginning it stings but after a few slow and gentle thrusts it doesn’t hurt anymore.
Alex has been nothing but slow and gentle with me, it feels amazing. He doesn’t have to say the words but I know he cherishes everything we do together and this is just the icing on the cake.
“Lou, you feel fucking amazing.” I blush at his honest words.
“You don’t feel bad yourself.” I giggle; I can’t help it but I feel so comfortable around him. In this moment, I feel like myself again, the carefree Louise who doesn’t have any worries in the world.
I immediately stop giggling when Alex picks up his pace and his thrusts get more forceful.
This feeling deep inside is getting too much for me to handle, I can feel my orgasm blooming. Alex knows that too and he doesn’t stop. He keeps going faster and harder and it’s happening.
I arch my back, my toes curl in the bed sheets and I scream Alex’s name.
He cums soon after me, he leans down to kiss my sweaty forehead and gets off the bed to get rid of the condom.
“I can’t wait to try bareback with you Lou.” Alex comes over to the bed and lies next to me.
I move over that fraction to rest my head on his chest, he reaches down and loops his fingers through mine. The littlest things get my heart into a beating frenzy.
* * *
“How was your day? How did things go with the therapist?” Alex's voice vibrates my cheek, he really does have a deep voice and it sounds sexy as hell.
“It went alright, we spoke about Matt and I wish we didn’t. It brought up mixed feelings about him. I want him dead for the things he did to me but I did love him once.” I don’t want to ruin what Alex and I have but I want to be open and honest with him. I can’t base this relationship on lies; I don’t want to end up like Matt and his deceptive ways.
“Do you think you could love again?” Alex’s question has knocked me back; I wasn’t expecting that from him.
“I know I will, and probably soon.” I leave it at that, I don’t want to get my hopes up for them to come crumbling down around me.
“I know what you mean by soon.” Alex kisses the side of my head and we just lay like that in silence.
Did he just say that?
Soon?
Does this mean he already loves me but doesn’t want to say it?
Could it mean he is getting there but isn’t there yet?
So many questions are floating around my mind and I just want a straight answer already. I don’t want to ruin the mood so I just try and think about something else.
Hmm…
I wonder what my therapist will ask me the next time I see her, I hope it isn’t about Matt again, I really don’t want to think about that lame excuse of a human again.
Oh shit, I forgot to ask Alex how his meeting went.
“Alex?” I turn to my side to look up at him and his eyes are closed. He looks so peaceful sleeping like that.
“Yeah?” He opens his eyes and looks down at me, okay so maybe he wasn’t sleeping.
“Did your meeting go alright today?” I hope I wasn’t mentioned; I don’t want to be brought into that mess again. I want to move on with my life and forget the last four years ever happened.
“Yeah, I think we should invite Reece and Steph over tonight so we can talk about it. I want them here for us, for you.” I smile at his selflessness.
“Yes, I would like that. Thank you for thinking about them.” I have this huge smile that won’t leave my face. Alex is really the best guy I’ve ever met, well except Reece. He isn’t too bad either and I’m glad my best friend is dating him. Oh, that reminds me.
“Hey Alex?” I’m getting nervous to say my next words.
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bsp; “Yeah Lou.” I have a feeling he knows where this is going.
“Wait, before you say or ask anything. Lou will you be my official girlfriend?” Holy shit, he asked me! I am so glad I didn’t have to ask that.
“How did you know I was going to ask something about that?” He grew balls and asked me.
“That wasn’t an answer I was expecting, but I’ve wanted to ask you that since last night but didn’t want to ruin our first time together.” He is so thoughtful. Of shit, I haven’t answered him.
“Yes, I would love to be your girlfriend.” I look at Alex and his face is glowing. He is wearing the biggest smile I’ve ever seen on him and there is a sparkle in his eyes.
I didn’t know my answer would make him this happy; I can’t wait to see his facial expressions when I tell him I love him.
I feel it but I’m still holding back. I don’t want to give him all of me yet, just in case of a rainy day.
“You make me so damn happy Precious.” Alex pulls me in closer to his body and squeezes tight.
I think I have found my happy place, wait scratch that. I have found my happy place.
“You make me happy too Alex.” I smile at him; this day couldn’t get more perfect.
“I do think it’s time for you to call Steph to come over, I’m getting hungry again. Make sure you tell them to bring dinner with them. I don’t want you in my kitchen until we are alone again. Too much temptation.” He gently pushes me out of the bed, hint taken.
I’m out of bed and I go in search of my clothes. I put them all on and leave Alex’s room. I don’t see the point in having that spare room as mine; I should talk to Alex to see if I should be sleeping with him from now on. I hope I don’t push any boundaries, I mean we are already living together.
I find my phone and dial Steph’s number.
“Hey Lou.” She answers on the third ring.
“Hey, what are you doing right now?” I have my fingers crossed that she has plans; I want Alex all to myself again. I have him now and I don’t want to share him just yet.
