She wanted to scream out her grief for what she was now losing, which was everything – her life with Jack, and their future, and everything that meant.
It was only now she allowed herself to admit to her thoughts of love for Jack. Jack, I wanted to tell you but . . .
Even that very morning, when they had talked and laughed, and she finally had her chance to say something more . . . she had said none of what she was thinking now.
It felt as if only hours before she had been a girl.
Now, as she felt herself losing him, her grief was a woman’s, and her whole body ached with what she wanted to do but could not, which was reach back in time and tell him everything; tell him what she had never been able to; tell him everything right up to this moment now. To cleave to all he was with all she herself was.
Oh, Jack, I couldn’t find a way because I was too scared and I didn’t know what it was I really felt, then and now and for ever, and now I never will be able to tell you, not ever, not even at the end of time . . .
Such thoughts coursed through Katherine Shore’s mind and racked her heart as she watched Jack struggling to work out what had happened, where she had gone, and to find a way to reach her.
She saw him look at the candle she had kicked over and begged him over and over in her mind to understand this was her way of warning him to go back.
But her warning was having the opposite effect on him, because it was not the warning he responded to but his desire to rescue her.
It was merely giving him the strength to carry on – to cross into the henge and so put himself under the Sinistral’s control.
‘I’m sorry,’ she whispered aloud, her voice now no more than a breeze in the dry grass, a sorrow in the branches of the trees. ‘I never wanted you to suffer, I never wanted any of this at all but . . . oh Jack, go back now while you still can. Please . . .’
Still he hesitated, seeking what to do.
‘I’m sorry,’ she whispered again as, unable to watch any more what she had lost all power to prevent, she turned away from him all leftward and sinister, the direction in which no human or decent hydden should ever depart a henge, for it leads to dark places and makes any returning much, much harder.
So Katherine turned, and spoke to the shadows that held her. She told them what they wanted to hear because it meant they had won her, and that she was now lost in their darkness.
‘Take me,’ she told them, ‘but not him, never him, please.’
The shadows re-formed a final time, clear now, terrifying, overwhelming.
‘Welcome,’ they said. ‘Welcome!’
As one of them led her out of the moonlight, into the darkness beyond, the others separated again and lingered, laughing and cruel, watching Jack’s struggle to find a way of reaching her.
‘Please, no,’ she whispered.
But they ignored her and stood waiting for him, dark shimmers among the shadows of the trees.
46
SINISTER
When Jack saw the candle go out, and the strange shadows that were blacker than night pulling and weaving, stirring and sliding across the open space of the henge towards its left-hand side, he knew he had all but lost track of Katherine.
They had got her and they had won because he knew he must follow her, which was what they wanted. If he did that he knew that he probably would not survive.
So he hesitated as he remembered the warning he had received from the Peace-Weaver.
Then he heard Katherine’s voice, clear as anything: ‘Go back!’
Her voice was a pleading in his mind, for his own sake, but he knew that for hers he must ignore it.
He took a few steps forward between the two great conifers, then further still. He saw the shadows stirring, mounting, coming towards him, and he knew he had neither the skill nor weapons enough to defeat them and save Katherine.
‘Master Jack!’
It was a voice he did not recognize, older and male, and it pulled him from the confusion and doubt that had beset him, and stopped him going further forward.
Then again, from off to his right on the far side of the henge, ‘Master Jack . . . ! Do not engage them!’
The hulking shadows already forming around him came no nearer, as if they too had heard the voice. Instead they began to encircle him as if to stop the voice reaching him. He saw the staves which glinted darkly and seemed huge in the night. Their feet moved slowly and silently, their movements were subtle but their force and power self-evident.
He could not quite make out their forms, as if there were many and one, separating and intertwining in shadows of which they themselves were the creators.
He turned to where he had heard the voice, but slowly. He was losing control of his own body.
The shadows turned death-grey in colour, large and ugly in shape, clever in the slow choreography of their moves as they once more began advancing warily towards him.
His slow turn continued as his eyes scanned the far part of the henge from where the voice had come.
What he saw coming from that direction made no sense at all. It was an arcing, turning, flying stave which grew as it came, catching the light of the moon and stars as it twisted, and taking to itself the dull red glow of the last embers of the distant bonfire.
As it came he began to hear it, swish-swish-swishing through the night, ever louder, the light it cast ever brighter.
‘Catch it, Master Jack!’ came the voice again. ‘Raise it to them boldly! Destroy them with its light!’
The shadows took form as the light from the whirling, twisting stave shot across them.
The stave took form as well as Jack reached his right hand for it and he saw it was ancient and made of wood and that the light that came from it was reflections from the intricate carvings that ran down its length.
The shadows briefly broke before the light left them and they formed again.
He caught the stave, or maybe the stave found him. It felt good.
He gripped it, turned it so he could grab its other end with his left hand, and moved towards them.
Yet even then, such was the icy impact of their assault on his mind, breaking through its defensiveness to engender fear. It was a fear compounded by strange confusion as he became aware of shifts and changes in the perspectives of his own world. The dark trees about him grew suddenly taller, the distance across the grass greater, the moon and the stars were shifting in relation to one another and him, as if he were changing position though remaiing in the same spot.
Focus!
That was the first and oldest skill needed for survival. It meant forgetting all else but the reality of the present moment.
Focus!
One thing only seemed solid and certain, and that was the feel of the stave grasped firmly in his two hands, held loosely but ready for action.
Jack now took time – the kind of paradoxical time that is at once both infinite and instant – to examine the stave he held. The carvings in its time-worn wood caught the faint glimmer of his opponents, focusing it, clarifying it, so that it was dark and fearsome no longer. The stave became his third eye, and his fourth, and then his fifth . . . and so on into infinity. As if what he held in his hand was less a stave than a mirror which caught what it saw as simply reflections throughout time and place and made sense of them.
He turned it so that its light, if such it was, finally reflected back on themselves. It was only then that he knew he had been tricked. He was focused on the wrong thing.
For he saw to his horror that the shadows were no more than an illusion, some trick of the light, some projection of the other, more solid, forms that stood watching on the henge’s periphery. Of these there were far fewer than he had first thought: three or four at most, but one of them dominant.
Katherine was held in their midst, shouting silently. The one who restrained her was taller than the others but not so broad. His eyes glittered in the dark and it seemed to Jack, still struggling as he was to make sense
of things, that somewhere in their depth they caught the distant glow of fire, hot and burning. Jack felt a sensation like cold ice trickling down his scarred back.
He understood at last that they had not attacked him directly because he was already doing what they wished him to. They were already leading him cunningly to where they wished him to go.
For the moment they were stronger, faster, far more powerful than he was, and they were laughing as they fanned out around him and finally began to approach him from too many directions for him to defend himself.
Yet still his instinct was to press forward and save her.
He raised the stave and struck at them but to no great effect. It was as if the stave was fighting itself.
‘Master Jack, give it to me!’
A shadow become solid at his side, the stave was grabbed from his hands, a solid body pushed between him and the shadows.
‘Keep back,’ this new person warned him. ‘Leave them to us!’
Whatever this new trickery might be, Jack tried to ignore it and push past the stranger who was blocking his way. But he could not and suddenly he did not need to.
As the stave was raised again Jack saw – or seemed to – a thousand fractured slivers of the moon, the moon reflected in mirrors, a moon that seemed more luminously powerful than the real moon itself. And they – the shards that were the moon – were moving straight in the direction of the shadows, like a deadly shower of glass fragments, an overwhelming cascade of light, as if Clare Shore’s chimes had detached themselves from the myriad threads from which they hung amid the bushes and trees to come to his rescue.
‘Keep back!’ the voice repeated just in front of him, a strong arm and hand holding him where he was.
It was definitely male, and a clear command so authoritative that Jack finally took a half step backwards.
As he did so, those strange lights into which the moon had fragmented twisted and turned as one, changing into a new shape, as a massed flock of starlings does across an evening sky – twisting and turning and morphing so fast it was impossible for the eye to catch up with them long enough to describe their form.
The shadows, which witnessed this light force too, retreated quickly to regroup around Katherine. Then Jack, himself retreating even further, finally saw the one who had ordered him to move back.
He was grey-haired, with a lined face that was both strong and purposeful, as was his posture and movement. He wielded the stave and stood between Katherine’s captors and Jack.
‘Jack!’
The voice was Katherine’s now and he was near enough to see her shout again, ‘Jack!’
‘No! You must not go to her!’
But even then his instinct to answer Katherine’s call was greater than the one that told him to obey the man’s repeated instruction. He tried to run forward once again.
The figure with the stave came closer and from his stave shot a great cascade of light, which, as it fractured into a hundred thousand pieces, stopped Jack in his tracks.
Helpless now, he could only watch the Fyrd finally take Katherine into their shadows, and with a harsh cacophony that was their fragmented cry of anger and frustration that they had not caught Jack as well, they turned sinister and were gone between the trees out into the darkness of the night.
Then as suddenly as all had been light, all was darkness, a slivering of cold, a sense of final loss, of departure, and Jack knew that he had failed to save Katherine and that she was gone beyond his power to save her.
He sank to knees on the grass and cried out from the depths of his being, ‘Katherine!’
But no answer came.
47
DEPARTURE
A terse voice spoke out, different from that of the man with the stave of light.
‘They’ve gone, now, and we’re not about to follow them. Nor are we going to stay here longer than we have to. So cast some light upon the situation and see who it is exactly we’ve come to help.’
This new person, shorter than the first but stockier, held something up in the air from which, a shutter being opened, a shaft of yellow light fell on them all.
It was a storm lantern, and Jack looked up from the ground and found two figures standing looking down at him.
He recognized the one who had commanded him to stop and wielded the stave.
His face wore a half smile of relief. A red cloak hung over his shoulders. It was held together by a magnificent golden buckle. His boots, which Jack could see best of all since he was on a level with them, were worn and muddy with travelling.
‘Master Jack . . .’ he began.
Jack found the strength to rise.
‘Arthur?’ he said. ‘Arthur Foale?’
The man shook his head his head at once and said, ‘Unfortunately no.’
Jack took a step back, confused. He was sure it had to be Arthur.
‘Who are you then?’ he asked.
Jack saw that as well as these two there was a third in the shadows.
‘My name is Brief,’ said the taller one, ‘and I am Master Scrivener of Brum. My friends here are, respectively, Messrs Pike and, in the shadows, Stort, who, in such a dangerous predicament as the one we have found ourselves in this night, are, believe me, the right people to have along.’
Jack stared at them dumbly, his body and mind suddenly so tired that neither wanted to function.
‘Gentlemen,’ said Brief, ‘here is somebody you have long wanted to meet again. I think you will agree that from his extraordinary and courageous performance against the nearly overwhelming odds he faced we may take it he is ready now to play his part in the great task that lies ahead of us all.’
They came forward and shook the bewildered Jack by the hand.
‘Well done,’ said Pike.
‘Welcome!’ said Bedwyn Stort.
‘Um . . . who are you?’ said Jack, looking around. They were dressed very oddly and everything looked and felt very different indeed.
The one called Brief began making some sort of reply but Jack was unable to take more in. He listened without hearing.
His head began to feel as if it was spinning, while the circle of trees above spun too, but in the opposite direction. Then his legs felt wobbly.
All he could think of was that his actions had been far from ‘well done’. He had failed to save Katherine and now . . . now . . .
‘Watch it,’ said Pike, ‘the lad’s having a turn! Catch ’im!’
He felt two arms go around him and his head thump into someone’s chest before he was lowered gently onto the ground. He lost consciousness.
When, not much later as he guessed, he found he had been moved to the edge of the henge and then just outside it, it was the one called Stort who was with him. There was a delicious smell in the air.
Then reality set in.
‘They got Katherine!’ cried Jack wildly, trying to rise but failing to because Stort was holding him firmly down.
Pike’s face appeared in range of Jack’s confused and limited vision and he was smiling.
‘You saved her life, lad. You did well, very well.’
‘But . . . I . . .’
A third head appeared. It was Brief again.
‘You’re safe with us, Master Jack, and for the time being, once we get you away from here, which we need to right away, you’ll need a great deal of rest and sleep.’
Darkness of a kind descended again and the roaring in the sky he had heard before grew a little louder.
An arm went round his shoulder and he was raised more upright.
‘Drink this,’ said Bedwyn Stort, adding, ‘It’ll help keep you awake, for we can’t linger here much longer.’
‘What is it?’
‘Hot mead with certain additional, er, substances, to a recipe of my own invention,’ said Stort. ‘Let’s say it’s medicinal.’
Jack drank and it was good, very. His mind immediately began swimming, but this time pleasantly. Life returned to his limbs. He sat up strai
ght, a beatific smile on his face.
He felt strong as an ox.
He got up and the smile was still there.
He felt ready for anything.
48
CAPTIVE
The Fyrd led Katherine out of the henge, across the garden, past the side of the house to the front drive, and from there out onto the road.
There were four of them, all dressed in their severe uniform of trews and tunics with gathered sleeves made of a heavy fabric that shimmered in blacks and greys, as if pale light was playing across it. This made them hard to delineate individually by day or night and next to impossible when standing beside each other.
From time to time this play of light, which seemed internal to their tunics, jumped between them as electricity does between two poles, to form shapes quite separate from their own. These, then, were the shadows that had first overtaken Katherine in the garden.
All wore portersacs of the same style as Jack’s backpack and made of leather. They were armed variously with dirks, crossbows and staves. Stones on thongs linked to each other hung from their belts.
The group stopped briefly on the road to look back into the garden, checking to see if they were being followed, which they were not. Their mood seemed dour and frustrated.
One of them, a squat, humourless individual called Streik, kept rough hold of Katherine. She was swaying about and he pushed her to the ground.
He scowled and then rasped, ‘We should have stayed and got the lad and we wouldn’t be having to concern ourselves with this girl. It wouldn’t have taken much, Meyor Feld, sir.’
Two of the others nodded, but the last, to whom these remarks were addressed, remained calm and composed.
Feld, their leader, was in his mid-thirties, clean-shaven with short dark hair. He had grey, intelligent eyes and sallow skin.
Ignoring the implied criticism he said quietly, ‘The moment I saw that the boy was prepared to follow this girl into our shadows it was obvious he would do anything to get her back. Which is what Sub-Quentor Brunte predicted. The boy’s . . .’
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