by Billy Keane
The Ballad of Mo & G
Billy Keane
Contents
Title Page
Dedication
The owners of dogs related …
The Olsen family kept …
In the beginning, Mo …
Mo confronted Dermo, …
I called to see Mo …
The attack took place …
Mrs D died the …
I grassed from an internet …
Mo didn’t know it …
Mo told me of her …
Mac Sorley Homes went …
Dermo got into the …
I fixed up Skype for …
Maureen moved Mo into …
All three of Mo’s alleged …
The Dobermans were staring …
There was no going away …
In the end, the Doberman …
Maureen said she would …
Maureen was Mo’s mammy …
Mo had been in a car …
I made my way home …
There was a knock on …
I have difficulty in recalling …
About the Author
Copyright
For Tim O’Carroll
The owners of dogs related to wolves always say, ‘Ah Fido. Ah but my poor old Fido wouldn’t harm a fly.’
Well dogs don’t eat flies, do they? Unless they swallow one by accident.
The Olsen hounds stalked the Compound. All day and all night. Silently, on soft pads.
Mo imagined the dogs were keeping her under house arrest, like a political prisoner.
Even though I wished it was me she was married to, I was still hoping Mo would be happy ever after with Dermo Olsen. That was until the violence started.
I loved her that much.
Can you believe that?
The Olsen family kept their fighting dogs in a secret concentration camp. At the far end of the Olsen land. Well in from the road, in a dip, hidden by ivy-strangled trees and a doodle of climbing thorn bushes.
We wandered down to the fortress when the guard dogs were at the vet for shots. That morning Dermo kissed Mo goodbye and told her he was off to Wales on a driving job, in his big lorry.
The eight-strong litter of Doberman pups were playing behind strands of barbed wire attached to concrete posts. A saggy brood bitch with a mangy coat, as well worn as the dole office mat, sat in the centre of the circle.
Her puppies were climbing and falling off a dead donkey with the glassiest, saddest eyes you ever saw. The manic babies tore at the tattered flesh of the sinewy ass. Every now and then the pups broke off from the donkey and jumped up at a rabbit hanging by the neck from a sycamore branch. The rabbit was suspended just a few centimetres over the pups’ maximum reach. The Dobermans were leppin’ up, trying to snatch at the meat they could never quite reach. Two and three would jump together, like footballers contesting a high ball.
The rabbit hardly took his own life.
It must have been Dermo.
He must have been the one who hanged Bugs Bunny.
Stripped carcasses, old bleached bones and fresh dog dirt were scattered all over the filthy run. I was barely able to breathe and Mo, who was suffering from morning sickness, threw up. We left the runs but the stink followed us up the hill.
Then, as we reached the second grove of trees, about half-way up, there was a revved-up chain saw noise.
We listened for a few seconds, without moving. It was Dermo. He was driving fast across the fields, hopping and bumping on his quad bike, as he hit every bump and hollow.
We hid ourselves further into the trees.
Dermo pulled up suddenly outside the runs. The bike skidded round and back in the direction in which it was coming from, leaving a track in the mud in the shape of a semicolon. It was as if he was showing off in front of the Dobermans.
Dermo grabbed the small dog by the back of the neck from a cardboard box. He dipped the little dog in a bucket of blood. It was a Papillon, a butterfly dog. With long, limp ears and short legs. Red dripped and mixed with the cow-brown patches on his white coat. The Papi barked and barked.
We didn’t intervene in any way. Well we couldn’t, could we? It happened so quickly, we didn’t have time.
Dermo threw the little Papi over the high wire and into the Dobermans’ den. The flying butterfly dog, with his clown’s ears flapping and his chicken legs kicking, tried to pedal his way upwards on an invisible bike. Gravity kicked in.
The mother sprung to life. She intercepted the Papi just before it hit the ground. The dog screamed. It was a human sound of absolute terror. Then the pups attacked when the mother casually dropped the convulsing Papi and walked away towards a stainless steel water bowl. She took a drink and then looked back at her pupils.
The small dog was torn asunder like a Christmas cracker, with one of the killers pulling from the head end and the other from the tail.
We couldn’t watch anymore.
As we moved quickly through the trees and down the other side of the hill in the direction of the Compound, we could hear Coach Dermo shout, ‘Drink him, drink him. Ye little vampires, ye.’
His loud, amplified laughter echoed from the old fort as it chased us into a run.
‘Ate him, lads. Go on boys, ate him. Go on. Ate him up.’
Dermo’s roaring followed us up and over the hill like a cloud of poisonous gas. The Dobermans were barking in a nonstop frenzy. We stopped when we were well out of sight of the runs on the far side of the hill.
‘How did I end up with him? How, G? Jesus, G. How?’
Mo sat on her heels as she rocked back and forth with her hands on either side of her head.
I knelt beside her and put my arms around her.
We both knew the answer.
It wasn’t as if Mo fell in love.
Dermo made Mo pregnant.
His foreplay was a case of lager.
She too was very drunk on the night they made the baby.
Deliberately so on her part.
It was the way.
I can only do it when I’m pissed.
Barriers fell before the flood of booze.
She could hardly remember.
Up against the wall.
Somehow it was in her head she should be doing it.
Like as in I’m twenty-two.
I should be having sex.
Everyone is.
And what is it anyway?
What’s it to anyone?
When it’s over, it’s over.
‘It took 2.2 minutes approx.’
A man who polished his zips with Brasso would have to be quick.
‘It wasn’t the best shag ever,’ Mo said, ‘but it was definitely the fastest.’
No condom.
Forgot to buy a pack in the shop.
Machine broken in the club, as usual.
‘I’ll pull out,’ he promised.
He didn’t hold her.
Zipped up his shiny zip and fucked off.
The morning-after pill was taken two mornings after.
And it failed.
In the beginning, Mo liked the idea of living in the Olsen Compound.
She figured if it’s a Compound, it must be safe and agreed to move in without a preview.
Mo was three months pregnant and she had nowhere else to go.
It would never change, she thought. Whatever way you looked at it, no matter how many times she twisted it around in her head, Mo would forever be halves in a baby with Dermo Olsen. Even if they split up, he would still have rights over their kid. And Mo, who never really had a dad, thought she should at least try to make a go of it.
As Mo saw it, back then, an accidental father is better than no father at all.
In the run-up to the wedding, he hardly uttered a word. Mo interpreted this as a sign Dermo was the strong, silent type. The way I see it is, Mo tried to fit Dermo into a category before she ever really got to know him.
The Olsens encouraged the marriage. They had their own strict code; if you made a girl pregnant, you married her. It was their way. Olsens would grow up Olsens and there was no letting go.
Mo was shocked when she saw the Compound as it really was.
Half-stripped cars were broken up all over the muddy yard like a bombed convoy. Three green and gold Olsen Transport lorry cabs genuflected. Tied to the side of a rusty padlocked shed was a large hardboard sign, ‘Trespassers Will Be Ate’. The potholes in the junkyard were deep enough to bathe a baby in.
The half-Alsatian, half-greyhound mongrel named Grey licked his privates. An old broken-windowed bus that once took pensioners to bingo at night, and children to school the next morning, was a dog dormitory, where ogres of hounds slept with one eye open.
And the stink was everywhere.
It wouldn’t have been too bad if Mo lived in a housing estate with neighbours to pass the time with, but only Olsens lived near Olsens.
The first house on the left, just past the heart of the junkyard, was owned by Dermo’s mother, Maureen. Mikey Olsen, Dermo’s older brother, lived in the third bungalow. Mo was in the middle.
There was no privacy. Olsens wandered in and out without ever knocking.
Mo and Dermo were in the shower making love. Sorry, ‘having sex,’ as Mo put it. Mo liked sex, a lot.
Maureen pounded furiously at the bathroom door. ‘Who’s in there?’ she demanded in her always hoarse, forty-a-day voice.
‘Just us, Mammy!’ shouted Dermo.
‘Get out of there pronto. And I mean pronto … Right now.’
There was no taking on Maureen. She was as big as a Sumo’s mammy and even the Olsens were scared of her.
Ma Olsen wore gold hula-hoops on her ears. My old man used to say never mess with a woman if your fist fits through her earrings.
She banged on the door again. Louder this time.
Mo found a few clothes pegs on a bathroom shelf and fastened a makeshift bra from towels. The way her mother-in-law was carrying on, Mo was sure the house was on fire. She panicked and ran into the bedroom.
‘What were yez doing in there?’ demanded Ma Olsen.
Mo was fumbling with towels.
‘Sparin’ the hot water, Mammy?’ replied Dermo, who was wearing a non-slip rubber bathroom mat as a toga.
Mo’s improvised bra-towel slipped a little, momentarily.
Her mother-in-law was still angry her Dermo had to marry someone he hardly knew. The first time she met Mo was two days before the wedding.
‘You have small boobs for feeding a child. He’ll starve if he’s dependin’ on dem,’ remarked Maureen Olsen, who, like all mothers-in-law, everywhere, without exception, without a frigging millidoubt, in my opinion, greatly resented any woman having sex with her son.
Even though they wouldn’t hand back the resultant babies, Oedipus was the controlling complex.
Which of course has being going on for thousands of years and must definitely be a true hypothesis as the Greeks knew only too well in those plays they wrote, back in the days when they had brains.
When Mo complained to Dermo for not sticking up for her, his only remark was, ‘Who the fuck is pronto?’
Ma Olsen must have been jealous.
Once on the Luas, at rush hour, when the packed tram stopped suddenly, I touched Mo’s boobs by accident. Mo had beautiful breasts. Mo didn’t seem to make any effort to fold her arms but maybe she didn’t have time.
Sometimes if she bent downwards, I could see the hard fabricated rim of her bra which was usually only half a bra or a half-cup, as the celebrity chefs say on TV when they tell us how much hummus to put in some hippy shit no one ever bothers to cook.
I am pretty sure she never saw me looking.
Sure enough. And sure enough too, it was an accident on the Luas. But you would be sort of hoping. They say you always know when they fancy you and that women have their signs and hints.
We were not lovers. Which is pretty obvious, if I didn’t actually get to feel her breasts, other than at near disasters on Titanic trams. There was a tacit acceptance that if I made a move, it might ruin the friendship. Well that was how I saw it and I did give Mo some thought and some more thought after that.
We sort of loved each other. Well I love her and would definitely make love to her but she would have to ask me.
It was more than friendship. I know that much.
I know too, for sure, Mo would never kill me.
Mo confronted Dermo, even though I warned her to keep quiet about the slaughter of the little Papi.
Mo, being Mo, couldn’t let the cruelty go. Possibly she was trying to change him. That this was part of her grand plan to de-dog Dermo.
Mo stood arms folded and legs slightly apart as Dermo tried to explain himself.
‘I was only trainin’ dem ickle Dobermen for guarding things. From knackers and dudder robbers what has no consciences. Gets ’em good, and vicious, Babe. Foreplay for fuckin’ fightin’ to the death. Do you know what I mane? They gotta get blooded. Don’t they? There’s bettin’ goin’ on at the fight nights. What do you think pays for the dogs? Their children’s allowances, is it?’
Dermo argued the Papi was ‘already dead anyways and was road kill, a dumped orphan what didn’t get no rosette in the gay dog show. It’s the same’s a dead man donatin’ his organs.’
Mo laughed a bitter laugh and shouted right in his face, ‘You’re a ventriloquist then. A dog ventriloquist. What about the barking? I didn’t know dead dogs barked. And don’t call me Babe. I’m not your Babe. I’m your bitch.’
Her loving husband didn’t like sarcasm very much.
Dermo turned away as if he was choosing to ignore her.
He swung round unexpectedly and slapped her with the knuckles of his left hand, loosening one of her front teeth. Mo had perfect teeth. She brushed and flossed every day, even when she was a small girl.
Mo made for Dermo and hit him with her closed fist. The force of the blow was no more than a fly landing on an elephant.
Dermo kicked her away from him, in the stomach, with his steel reinforced work boot.
The sole left a muddy herring bone footprint on her bulging white top. As if he walked over her for a shortcut. Dermo left Mo bent on the floor, in the foetal position, and on the way out he slammed the door so hard the glass cracked.
Later that night Mo was taken to the hospital. She was bleeding from the uterus.
That was the night she lost her baby.
I called to see Mo in St Hilda’s.
Mo’s lips were bruised. She moved her loose tooth back and forth with her index finger, like a cat flap.
‘It’s going to fall out, G. I’m going to have to put a false tooth soaking in a glass to clean off the plaque. Like my Ma.’
The baby had to be vacuumed out of her, she said, but it was all very matter of fact, which was really worrying. The nurses and the doctors wanted to call the Gardaí but Mo was afraid to tell them anything. The excuse was she was playing football and a stray shot hit her accidentally in the tummy.
‘You have to leave him,’ was my advice.
Mo turned away.
‘I have nowhere to go.’
‘Your mother? Get a Ryanair over. Stay until you get sorted.’
Mo sighed with frustration. I went round to the other side of the bed so I could see her face.
‘Let me spell it out for you, G. My mother is in England. She has a man. Bob Five Bellies is his name. They spend all day smoking dope and eating oven chips. Bob claims to be a talent scout for dancers. But he’s really a driver for blonde girls who dance on fat men’s bellies. Got that?’
Sometimes the words come out before you have time to stop them.
‘Is she sort of a hoo
ker’s chaperone then? Your Mam?’
‘She’s hooker lite. It’s really nice that, for both sides. Bob’s mates think they’ve pulled. They give Ma a little present. Ma thinks the men love her so much and that she’s not really on the game.’
Mo never knew her old man. Her Dad vamoosed one day when he won money at the bookies, not long after Mo was born, and died from the booze and dope when she was five or six.
‘Ah never mind your mother. Surely you’re not going back to Dermo. That nutter could kill you.’
I was now finished forever with wishing well on the marriage.
Mo pulled herself up. Grimaced as she held the metal protectors on the side of the bed
‘I have nowhere to go. I told you. For now.’
I wrote out a cheque behind a screen where life was so often altered or ended, and people in a bad way had to whisper last words of love and goodbye.
‘That will fix your tooth. The orthodontist can put in a permanent implant and nobody will know anything or notice it’s not real.’
In a temper, she whooshed away the cheque off the mobile table straddling the bed. It flew like a paper plane under the screen separating us from the other patients in the maternity ward.
Mothers were nursing babies and more were on drips. In the background the hospital’s own radio station played oldies songs to make sick people sicker. A baby cried and another joined in.
Mo cried nearly every time she heard a baby cry.
I picked up the cheque and folded it neatly. So as to make it seem smaller.
‘Please take it.’
And she did. Mo sat up and opened out the cheque
‘It’s a loan. Ah thanks, G. It’s kinda cute what with your name signed on it. Like your autograph. You had it written out. Thanks, G. You really are my best friend.’
She smiled at me but with her mouth closed.
‘Hey, G,’ she said, perking up at the thought of the good old days.
‘Do you remember the night in Angel Lane?’
It was a mad college party. Nearly five years ago. In a heaving club. The place was lifting. I had to shout the chat-up lines at Mo above the mad music.
