James led her into Aunt Abby’s, where he knew they were welcome. They chatted awhile until Frado seemed cheerful ; then James led her to her room, and waited until she retired.
“ Are you glad I’ve come home ? ” asked James.
“ Yes ; if you won’t let me be whipped tomorrow. ”
“ You won’t be whipped. You must try to be a good girl, ” counselled James.
“ If I do, I get whipped; ” sobbed the child. “ They won’t believe what I say. Oh, I wish I had my mother back ; then I should not be kicked and whipped so. Who made me so ? ”
“ God; ” answered James.
“ Did God make you ? ”
“ Yes. ”
“ Who made Aunt Abby ? ”
“ God. ”
“ Who made your mother ? ”
“ God. ”
“ Did the same God that made her make me ? ”
“ Yes. ”
“ Well, then, I don’t like him. ”
“ Why not ? ”
“ Because he made her white, and me black. Why didn’t he make us both white ? ”
“ I don’t know ; try to go to sleep, and you will feel better in the morning, ” was all the reply he could make to her knotty queries. It was a long time before she fell asleep ; and a number of days before James felt in a mood to visit and entertain old associates and friends.
CHAPTER V.
DEPARTURES.
Life is a strange avenue of various trees and flowers;
Lightsome at commencement, but darkening to its end in a distant, massy portal.
It beginneth as a little path, edged with the violet and primrose,
A little path of lawny grass and soft to tiny feet.
Soon, spring thistles in the way.
TUPPER.
JAMES’ visit concluded. Frado had become greatly attached to him, and with sorrow she listened and joined in the farewells which preceded his exit. The remembrance of his kindness cheered her through many a weary month, and an occasional word to her in letters to Jack, were like “ cold waters to a thirsty soul. ” Intelligence came that James would soon marry ; Frado hoped he would, and remove her from such severe treatment as she was subject to. There had been additional burdens laid on her since his return. She must now milk the cows, she had then only to drive. Flocks of sheep had been added to the farm, which daily claimed a portion of her time. In the absence of the men, she must harness the horse for Mary and her mother to ride, go to mill, in short, do the work of a boy, could one be procured to endure the tirades of Mrs. Bellmont. She was first up in the morning, doing what she could towards breakfast. Occasionally, she would utter some funny thing for Jack’s benefit, while she was waiting on the table, provoking a sharp look from his mother, or expulsion from the room.
On one such occasion, they found her on the roof of the barn. Some repairs having been necessary, a staging had been erected, and was not wholly removed. Availing herself of ladders, she was mounted in high glee on the topmost board. Mr. Bellmont called sternly for her to come down ; poor Jane nearly fainted from fear. Mrs. B. and Mary did not care if she “ broke her neck, ” while Jack and the men laughed at her fearlessness. Strange, one spark of playfulness could remain amid such constant toil ; but her natural temperament was in a high degree mirthful, and the encouragement she received from Jack and the hired men, constantly nurtured the inclination. When she had none of the family around to be merry with, she would amuse herself with the animals. Among the sheep was a willful leader, who always persisted in being first served, and many times in his fury he had thrown down Nig, till, provoked, she resolved to punish him. The pasture in which the sheep grazed was bounded on three sides by a wide stream, which flowed on one side at the base of precipitous banks. The first spare moments at her command, she ran to the pasture with a dish in her hand, and mounting the highest point of land nearest the stream, called the flock to their mock repast. Mr Bellmont, with his laborers, were in sight, though unseen by Frado. They paused to see what she was about to do. Should she by any mishap lose her footing, she must roll into the stream, and, without aid, must drown. They thought of shouting ; but they feared an unexpected salute might startle her, and thus ensure what they were anxious to prevent. They watched in breathless silence. The willful sheep came furiously leaping and bounding far in advance of the flock. Just as he leaped for the dish, she suddenly jumped one side, when down he rolled into the river, and swimming across, remained alone till night. The men lay down, convulsed with laughter at the trick, and guessed at once its object. Mr. Bellmont talked seriously to the child for exposing herself to such danger ; but she hopped about on her toes, and with laughable grimaces replied, she knew she was quick enough to “ give him a slide. ”
But to return. James married a Baltimorean lady of wealthy parentage, an indispensable requisite, his mother had always taught him. He did not marry her wealth, though ; he loved her, sincerely. She was not unlike his sister Jane, who had a social, gentle, loving nature, rather too yielding, her brother thought. His Susan had a firmness which Jane needed to complete her character, but which her ill health may in a measure have failed to produce. Although an invalid, she was not excluded from society. Was it strange she should seem a desirable companion, a treasure as a wife ?
Two young men seemed desirous of possessing her. One was a neighbor, Henry Reed, a tall, spare young man, with sandy hair, and blue, sinister eyes. He seemed to appreciate her wants, and watch with interest her improvement or decay. His kindness she received, and by it was almost won. Her mother wished her to encourage his attentions. She had counted the acres which were to be transmitted to an only son ; she knew there was silver in the purse ; she would not have Jane too sentimental.
The eagerness with which he amassed wealth, was repulsive to Jane ; he did not spare his person or beasts in its pursuit. She felt that to such a man she should be considered an incumbrance ; she doubted if he would desire her, if he did not know she would bring a handsome patrimony. Her mother, full in favor with the parents of Henry, commanded her to accept him. She engaged herself, yielding to her mother’s wishes, because she had not strength to oppose them ; and sometimes, when witness of her mother’s and Mary’s tyranny, she felt any change would be preferable, even such a one as this. She knew her husband should be the man of her own selecting, one she was conscious of preferring before all others. She could not say this of Henry.
In this dilemma, a visitor came to Aunt Abby’s; one of her boy-favorites. George Means, from an adjoining State. Sensible, plain looking, agreeable, talented, he could not long be a stranger to any one who wished to know him. Jane was accustomed to sit much with Aunt Abby always ; her presence now seemed necessary to assist in entertaining this youthful friend. Jane was more pleased with him each day, and silently wished Henry possessed more refinement, and the polished manners of George. She felt dissatisfied with her relation to him. His calls while George was there, brought their opposing qualities vividly before her, and she found it disagreeable to force herself into those attentions belonging to him. She received him apparently only as a neighbor.
George returned home, and Jane endeavored to stifle the risings of dissatisfaction, and had nearly succeeded, when a letter came which needed but one glance to assure her of its birthplace ; and she retired for its perusal. Well was it for her that her mother’s suspicion was not aroused, or her curiosity startled to inquire who it came from. After reading it, she glided into Aunt Abby’s, and placed it in her hands, who was no stranger to Jane’s trials.
George could not rest after his return, he wrote, until he had communicated to Jane the emotions her presence awakened, and his desire to love and possess her as his own. He begged to know if his affections were reciprocated, or could be ; if she would permit him to write to her ; if she was free from all obligation to another.
“ What would mother say ? ” queried Jane, as she received the letter from her aunt.
“ Not much to comfort you.
”
“ Now, aunt, George is just such a man as I could really love, I think, from all I have seen of him ; you know I never could say that of Henry ” —
“ Then do n’t marry him, ” interrupted Aunt Abby.
“ Mother will make me. ”
“ Your father wo n’t. ”
“ Well, aunt, what can I do ? Would you answer the letter, or not ? ”
“ Yes, answer it. Tell him your situation. ”
“ I shall not tell him all my feelings. ”
Jane answered that she had enjoyed his company much ; she had seen nothing offensive in his manner or appearance ; that she was under no obligations which forbade her receiving letters from him as a friend and acquaintance. George was puzzled by the reply. He wrote to Aunt Abby, and from her learned all. He could not see Jane thus sacrificed, without making an effort to rescue her. Another visit followed. George heard Jane say she preferred him. He then conferred with Henry at his home. It was not a pleasant subject to talk upon. To be thus supplanted, was not to be thought of. He would sacrifice everything but his inheritance to secure his betrothed.
“ And so you are the cause of her late coldness towards me. Leave ! I will talk no more about it ; the business is settled between us ; there it will remain, ” said Henry.
“ Have you no wish to know the real state of Jane’s affections towards you ? ” asked George.
“ No ! Go, I say ! go ! ” and Henry opened the door for him to pass out.
He retired to Aunt Abby’s. Henry soon followed, and presented his cause to Mrs. Bellmont.
Provoked, surprised, indignant, she summoned Jane to her presence, and after a lengthy tirade upon Nab, and her satanic influence, told her she could not break the bonds which held her to Henry ; she should not. George Means was rightly named ; he was, truly, mean enough ; she knew his family of old ; his father had four wives, and five times as many children.
“ Go to your room, Miss Jane, ” she continued. “ Do n’t let me know of your being in Nab’s for one while. ”
The storm was now visible to all beholders. Mr. Bellmont sought Jane. She told him her objections to Henry ; showed him George’s letter ; told her answer, the occasion of his visit. He bade her not make herself sick ; he would see that she was not compelled to violate her free choice in so important a transaction. He then sought the two young men ; told them he could not as a father see his child compelled to an uncongenial union ; a free, voluntary choice was of such importance to one of her health. She must be left free to her own choice.
Jane sent Henry a letter of dismission ; he her one of a legal bearing, in which he balanced his disappointment by a few hundreds.
To brave her mother’s fury, nearly overcame her, but the consolations of a kind father and aunt cheered her on. After a suitable interval she was married to George, and removed to his home in Vermont. Thus another light disappeared from Nig’s horizon. Another was soon to follow. Jack was anxious to try his skill in providing for his own support ; so a situation as clerk in a store was procured in a Western city, and six months after Jane’s departure, was Nig abandoned to the tender mercies of Mary and her mother. As if to remove the last vestige of earthly joy, Mrs. Bellmont sold the companion and pet of Frado, the dog Fido.
CHAPTER VI.
VARIETIES.
“ Hard are life’s early steps; and but that youth is buoyant, confident, and strong in hope, men would behold its threshold and despair. ”
THE sorrow of Frado was very great for her pet, and Mr. Bellmont by great exertion obtained it again, much to the relief of the child. To be thus deprived of all her sources of pleasure was a sure way to exalt their worth, and Fido became, in her estimation, a more valuable presence than the human beings who surrounded her.
James had now been married a number of years, and frequent requests for a visit from the family were at last accepted, and Mrs. Bellmont made great preparations for a fall sojourn in Baltimore. Mary was installed housekeper — in name merely, for Nig was the only moving power in the house. Although suffering from their joint severity, she felt safer than to be thrown wholly upon an ardent, passionate, unrestrained young lady, whom she always hated and felt it hard to be obliged to obey. The trial she must meet. Were Jack or Jane at home she would have some refuge ; one only remained ; good Aunt Abby was still in the house.
She saw the fast receding coach which conveyed her master and mistress with regret, and begged for one favor only, that James would send for her when they returned, a hope she had confidently cherished all these five years.
She was now able to do all the washing, ironing, baking, and the common et cetera of household duties, though but fourteen. Mary left all for her to do, though she affected great responsibility. She would show herself in the kitchen long enough to relieve herself of some command, better withheld ; or insist upon some compliance to her wishes in some department which she was very imperfectly acquainted with, very much less than the person she was addressing ; and so impetuous till her orders were obeyed, that to escape the turmoil, Nig would often go contrary to her own knowledge to gain a respite.
Nig was taken sick ! What could be done. The work, certainly, but not by Miss Mary. So Nig would work while she could remain erect, then sink down upon the floor, or a chair, till she could rally for a fresh effort. Mary would look in upon her, chide her for her laziness, threaten to tell mother when she came home, and so forth.
“ Nig ! ” screamed Mary, one of her sickest days, “ come here, and sweep these threads from the carpet. ” She attempted to drag her weary limbs along, using the broom as support. Impatient of delay, she called again, but with a different request. “ Bring me some wood, you lazy jade, quick. ” Nig rested the broom against the wall, and started on the fresh behest.
Too long gone. Flushed with anger, she rose and greeted her with, “ What are you gone so long, for ? Bring it in quick, I say. ”
“ I am coming as quick as I can, ” she replied, entering the door.
“ Saucy, impudent nigger, you ! is this the way you answer me ? ” and taking a large carving knife from the table, she hurled it, in her rage, at the defenceless girl.
Dodging quickly, it fastened in the ceiling a few inches from where she stood. There rushed on Mary’s mental vision a picture of bloodshed, in which she was the perpetrator, and the sad consequences of what was so nearly an actual occurrence.
“ Tell anybody of this, if you dare. If you tell Aunt Abby, I’ll certainly kill you, ” said she, terrified. She returned to her room, brushed her threads herself ; was for a day or two more guarded, and so escaped deserved and merited penalty.
Oh, how long the weeks seemed which held Nig in subjection to Mary ; but they passed like all earth’s sorrows and joys. Mr. and Mrs. B. returned delighted with their visit, and laden with rich presents for Mary. No word of hope for Nig. James was quite unwell, and would come home the next spring for a visit.
This, thought Nig, will be my time of release. I shall go back with him.
From early dawn until after all were retired, was she toiling, overworked, disheartened, longing for relief.
Exposure from heat to cold, or the reverse, often destroyed her health for short intervals. She wore no shoes until after frost, and snow even, appeared ; and bared her feet again before the last vestige of winter disappeared. These sudden changes she was so illy guarded against, nearly conquered her physical system. Any word of complaint was severely repulsed or cruelly punished.
She was told she had much more than she deserved. So that manual labor was not in reality her only burden ; but such an incessant torrent of scolding and boxing and threatening, was enough to deter one of maturer years from remaining within sound of the strife.
It is impossible to give an impression of the manifest enjoyment of Mrs. B. in these kitchen scenes. It was her favorite exercise to enter the appartment noisily, vociferate orders, give a few sudden blows to quicken Nig’s pace, then return to the sitting room with such a s
atisfied expression, congratulating herself upon her thorough house-keeping qualities.
She usually rose in the morning at the ringing of the bell for breakfast ; if she were heard stirring before that time, Nig knew well there was an extra amount of scolding to be borne.
No one now stood between herself and Frado, but Aunt Abby. And if she dared to interfere in the least, she was ordered back to her “ own quarters. ” Nig would creep slyly into her room, learn what she could of her regarding the absent, and thus gain some light in the thick gloom of care and toil and sorrow in which she was immersed.
The first of spring a letter came from James, announcing declining health. He must try northern air as a restorative ; so Frado joyfully prepared for this agreeable increase of the family, this addition to her cares.
He arrived feeble, lame, from his disease, so changed Frado wept at his appearance, fearing he would be removed from her forever. He kindly greeted her, took her to the parlor to see his wife and child, and said many things to kindle smiles on her sad face.
Frado felt so happy in his presence, so safe from maltreatment ! He was to her a shelter. He observed, silently, the ways of the house a few days ; Nig still took her meals in the same manner as formerly, having the same allowance of food. He, one day, bade her not remove the food, but sit down to the table and eat.
“ She will, mother, ” said he, calmly, but imperatively ; I’m determined ; she works hard ; I’ve watched her. Now, while I stay, she is going to sit down here, and eat such food as we eat. ”
A few sparks from the mother’s black eyes were the only reply ; she feared to oppose where she knew she could not prevail. So Nig’s standing attitude, and selected diet vanished.
Her clothing was yet poor and scanty ; she was not blessed with a Sunday attire ; for she was never permitted to attend church with her mistress. “ Religion was not meant for niggers, ” she said ; when the husband and brothers were absent, she would drive Mrs. B. and Mary there, then return, and go for them at the close of the service, but never remain. Aunt Abby would take her to evening meetings, held in the neighborhood, which Mrs. B. never attended ; and impart to her lessons of truth and grace as they walked to the place of prayer.
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