by Eden Maguire
'No, there's something else.' I'd better come clean or Brandon would be zipping up his jacket and firing tip the Harley. 'I need to know what you can tel me about Oscar Thorne.'
Brandon stopped mid-zipper. He came up to me real close. 'Don't even go there,' he warned.
I tried hard not to give in to his angry stare. 'Your buddy Oscar was in the mal when Summer got shot. Now he's in jail. I know that much.'
'He was there, but I wasn't,' Brandon said even more fiercely. 'End of story.'
'The cops are looking at a drugs link.' I would say the rest of this even if he knocked me down and stepped right over me. 'There's a chance that
Summer walked into a bul et that was meant for your buddy. What do 89
you think?'
Brandon took hold of both my arms and walked me backwards towards the door. 'I'm not listening. If you know what's good for you, you're not asking. You're not even thinking. And you're out of here.'
It was true - he'd pushed nie out of the door on to the porch and sent me stumbling down the step.
Back in the car, stil shaking, I had the radio tuned to a news station as I turned the ignition. A female voice was announcing breaking headline news. 'Police investigating the fatal shooting of two students in Venice, Florida have made an arrest in Brooklyn earlier today. This comes after
months of close cooperation between state authorities across America, including the authorities in New Jersey. Police in New York State say that the suspect may be involved in a total of five separate shooting sprees. They have named him as Scott Fichtner, a twenty-year-old ex-music student and currently unemployed white male.'
I'd been talking to myself a lot lately, and now was no exception.
' Phoenix, are you around? Is anybody listening to me, because I have important things to say!'
I drove away from the Rohrs' house and found myself going in aimless circles, getting closer and closer to Centennial and the freeway out past Turkey Shoot Ridge. I drove round one block maybe five or six times, trying to resist the temptation.
'Do you hear me?' I yel ed through the open top of my car. Where were the Beautiful Dead when I most needed them? 'They arrested Fichtner. He's an ex-music student. How creepy is that?'
Not so loud, Darina,' a voice next to me said. I didn't need to turn to look to know it was the overlord himself.
'They arrested Fichtner for the two shootings,' I repeated. 'They already linked him with at least three others.'
Hunter sat upright, staring straight ahead. In profile, his face looked even more like a statue carved out of stone pale, with the high, tattooed forehead and long, straight nose, his features completely immobile.
'Including El erton?' he asked, hardly moving his lips. 'It has to be 90
including us,' I retorted. 'We fol ow the Fichtner pattern gunman opens fire in a mal , sprays bul ets around, hits whoever happens to be in the way.
Hunter reacted by sitting in silence as I drove once more around the
block.
'Where do you want me to go?' I asked. 'If you're not planning to talk to me, why did you come?'
'Park up,' he muttered, making a weary gesture of putting two fingertips to his forehead and giving it a smal circular rub.
I found a side street lined with shop units that were either empty or closed for the evening, parked the car and waited.
'You've been busy,' Hunter commented at last. 'You did what Dean told you to do that's good.' A compliment from Hunter? A first. 'I went to see Henry Jardine. Plus, I cal ed in on Brandon. There's a lot to share with you.'
'Save it until we get to Foxton,' he ordered.
Cool I'l see Phoenix! I couldn't keep the joy off my face.
'We don't want to raise any suspicions so I plan to get you back home by midnight.'
'What am I, Cinderel a?' I asked. As usual, I got to go to the bal and dance with Prince Charming, but then, when the clock struck twelve, the rags and the pumpkin came back.
'I need to talk to you, Darina.' Hunter turned in his seat and gave me a long, cold stare. 'Before I take you out there, I need your cooperation.'
'Shoot,' I said, taking note of the use of the word 'cooperation' from the guy who usual y used mind-bending tactics to dish out the orders. 'I'm listening.'
'I've been impressed by your work,' he went on.
Whoa, another compliment! This conversation was so not what I expected.
'But also a little worried to see you engaging with events that don't
concern you.
He means Marie and Mentone! I realized, and of course Hunter read my mind.
'Right. That topic is off limits. It has nothing to do with Summer or Phoenix, or any of the Beautiful Dead.'
'It has to do with you,' I pointed out. 'If you're not Beautiful Dead, 91
what are you?'
'An overlord is not here for himself, Darina. I'm here for them - the others. My history is just that - long dead, locked up in the past. Besides, there's no mystery attached. My kil er was tried and convicted. He paid the penalty for his crime.'
'So you don't want to talk about the fact that Marie had a daughter and she named her Hester?' My big mouth got the better of me the way it always did. I spoke the words and watched Hunter's face change in a second from stone-cold impassive to soul in torment.
Hunter closed his eyes and tilted his head back, struggling to regain control. When he looked at me again the eyes were fired up with anger.
'What's the use?' he demanded. 'I try to explain, I lay out the boundaries as clear as day and you stil overstep the mark.'
'I'm sorry. Forget I said it.'
'You don't talk about Marie - not ever! Not to others and especial y not to me. I won't listen to you dirty her name!'
'I said I'm sorry.'
'Darina - one more move like this and I'm through with you. You sit there and listen, you hear? If I had the power to wipe just part of your memory I'd do it. I'd take out al your knowledge of my wife. You wouldn't even know her name.'
I felt the blade of his anger scythe me down, leave me lying flat on the
ground. I held on to the sides of my seat and sat in dread.
'But that's fine tuning and it's not possible,' he went on. I can zap the whole of your Beautiful Dead memory or none of it. Which is it going to be?
'Please, Hunter ...' I knew that once again he was a mil imetre away from tossing me out of their lives like garbage. Those eyes - they were burning into me.
'You understand your choice, Darina? Either you stick with the facts surrounding Summer's death or you leave for good. No Foxton, no Phoenix!'
I was so scared I was hardly able to nod. 'Which is it?'
'I stick with Summer,' I promised. I do exactly what you tel me.'
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rive out to the aspen ridge,' Hunter told me. 'Park where no one wil see the car.'
I drove fast and the overlord slouched down in the seat, facing straight ahead, assuming it was now safe to leave me to my own thoughts.
In the hour it took to drive, I went over what he'd just put me through
- the anger, the threat to throw me back into the hel of everyday
existence minus my memories of Phoenix and the Beautiful Dead. Did he mean it, or was it another stupid mind game?
The reason I suspected this? Hunter knew me wel enough to recognize the rebel in me. He understood that ordering me not to do something was as good as saying, 'Go ahead, do it your way.'
Occasional y I glanced at him. His face was stil turned away, his gaze was fixed on the steep rise of the darkening hil side with the neon cross in the distance, or on the smal cabins lining the road at the Foxton junction.
He's playing a game, he's pushing me to find out more about Hester, I
decided. But I was stil in a state of shock and not ready to put it to the test. I drove along the creek side, heading into the mountains. When we reached the end of the dirt road, I took the car fifty metres off the track across scrubland
and parked it under the trees.
'Stick to the topic we agreed on,' Hunter reminded me as he stepped out of the car and slammed the door.
I shivered as I got out on the driver's side, caught in a sudden blast of icy wind blowing across the val ey from Amos Peak. 'We're back to winter,' I grumbled, zipping up my denim jacket. I wasn't kidding there were heavy clouds gathering over the jagged horizon and that arctic wind.
'Walk,' he ordered, striding ahead without looking back. He skirted the ancient water tower then dipped down the hil side, quickly disappearing from view.
I swore as I tried to keep up. Sure, Hunter was angry with me and my big mouth, but did he have to give me such a hard time? I went too fast and in my carelessness loosened some shale and went sliding out of 93
control until I caught hold of a bush and stopped. I swore again, put niy hand to my mouth and sucked a spine out of the flesh at the base of my thumb. When I looked up I saw Donna and Iceman waiting for us by the razor-wire fence.
'Where's Summer?' Hunter cal ed down the hil . The wind whipped his voice back up the slope towards me.
'Waiting in the barn,' Donna cal ed back. 'Dean and Phoenix are headed up to the ridge. Dean sensed intruders.'
So I don't get to see Phoenix! If my mood was bad before, it plummeted down into a deep, dark pit when I heard this news.
'Go tel them to patrol along the ridge al the way to the aspen stand, then back via Angel Rock to Government Bridge.' Hunter gave Iceman an instant order. 'And tel them not to come back until they're one hundred per cent sure there are no far-siders snooping around.'
Iceman nodded and went off, soon disappearing into the shadows that
had swept down the hil side. Hunter strode on towards the barn, while Donna waited for me, her short red hair the one point of colour in the gathering dusk. Have you brought some news?' she asked, linking arms with me and half carrying me forward.
I felt her zombie strength sweep me on. 'Plenty,' I gasped.
'Cool. I'm we 're al worried about Summer. She's not doing wel .'
'I know - Phoenix told me - but things are coming together,' I promised. I wanted to spin this visit out now, to make sure I was stil around when Phoenix got back from patrol ing the ridge. I paused to glance up at Angel Rock silhouetted on the horizon - an outcrop of granite worn by the wind and rain into the shape of a Christmas angel:
head, body, wings and al .
'Walk, Darina!' Hunter repeated without turning his head.
I didn't have any choice Donna half lifted me off my feet to catch up with him before he reached the barn.
We went inside. Once more I breathed in the musty, dusty smel of old straw and cobwebs and waited for my eyes to get used to the interior.
A solitary oil lamp placed on the steps lit the dark space - not enough to define the jumble of farm tools and horse tack stacked against the wal s, 94
but enough to make out Summer's pale figure sitting halfway up the steps. Lit from below by the yel ow lamp glow, she looked unreal and ghostly.
'I brought Darina,' Hunter said abruptly, turning to leave the barn and taking Donna with him. He glanced towards me, the warning look stil present in those glinting, steel-grey eyes.
Slowly I crossed the barn and went up the steps to sit beside Summer.
'How are you doing?' I asked in my blundering way. I mean, I could see she was total y not doing wel - it was obvious from one quick glance.
Summer sat with her knees crooked, her thin arms clasping her legs,
her fair hair fal ing about her shoulders like a cloak. Her eyes were big and dark, unblinking. I can honestly say I have never seen anyone so pale.
'I wish it was over,' she sighed.
'It wil be soon.' I did a quick count eleven days was al we had.
She turned her head towards me. 'I don't care what happens to me, Darina. I just want it to finish.'
'I care!' I shot back. 'I need answers for you. I care!'
Her eyelids fluttered and she sighed. 'I'm empty - here!' Slowly she raised her hand and touched her heart. 'I have no feelings any more, just a space.
'Listen to me.' Gently I took her cold hand in mine. 'You don't have
to do anything, OK? You let me, Hunter and the rest work it out.'
Summer looked me in the eyes. 'People get hurt,' she sighed. 'We think this is about justice, but it's also about pain and suffering. That's what I can't stand people hurting so much.'
I couldn't argue with this, so I stayed silent.
'There's been enough already blood, fear, and the rest.'
'But if we stop ...' I began. JakB, Scott Fichtner, the El erton drugs
baron - one of them walked away unpunished.
Just then an extra-strong gust of wind rattled the door handle and whistled through the gaping window frame in the loft above. Summer shuddered and closed her eyes.
I knew I couldn't convince her, but I held her hand tight, talked on in 95
the way mothers do to kids emerging from nightmares. 'I'm almost there.
You leave it to me and in another couple of days I'l have the answer.
Then you can leave.'
She shook her head so slightly that I almost missed it. 'Do you know how it feels to have this - space?' She touched her heart again, then fluttered her fingers against her chest. 'Emptiness, where love used to be.'
'I do,' I answered softly. I was scared she was going to fade away in front of my eyes. 'After Phoenix died - believe me, I do.' The hol ow where your heart should be, the dark place. 'But there's a way out, trust me.
Somehow I was getting through to her at last. I felt her squeeze my hand and saw her raise her downcast eyes. 'So go ahead,' she whispered. 'What did you find out?'
'They arrested Fichtner. He's my main man, remember?'
Summer nodded. 'I don't know if it's him though. I looked at his
picture, but I didn't recal his face.'
'That's OK, your memory's smashed to pieces by the trauma. But he fits. He travels the country carrying out these random, crazy kil ings. The cops are investigating the copycat incidents right now.'
'Cool,' she murmured without meaning it, dipping back down into hopelessness.
'Trust me!' I said again. 'And there's more. If the Fichtner theory fal s apart, there's a guy cal ed Oscar Thorne, a lowlife drugs baron. I went to see Deputy Sheriff Jardine, Dean's buddy. He told me the Bishop County
office is fol owing a different trail that puts Thorne in the frame as the intended victim. A big drugs deal had gone bad - the dealers were ready to shoot it out between them.'
Summer nodded and I could tel she'd withdrawn back into her empty space.
'Then there's Crazy Guy number two,' I gabbled. 'Did you ever read
comments on your website from a guy cal ing himself JakB?'
'I don't remember.'
'He uses an exploding skul 's head icon. He cal s himself your number one fan".'
Summer shrugged. 'There was a heap of weird people,' she recal ed.
'Most times I didn't even read their messages through before I deleted 96
them.'
'So now he's hassling Hannah for a backstage pass.' I pressed on, trying to grab her attention by taking her other hand and turning her towards me. The lamp flame flickered in the draught caused by the howling wind. 'He claims you and he are stil in touch.'
'I can tel you that's a "no",' she said with a touch of her old, dry humour.
'Exactly! And this is a death-fixated crazy guy - the skul , the
comments about love being bigger than death. Give a guy like that a gun and God knows what he's capable of!'
'So don't go near him,' she advised, sounding like Phoenix and pul ing her hands free before she stood up. 'Leave it to the cops - they seem to be doing OK.'
'Where are you going?' I asked, fol owing her quickly down the steps. 'Into the house. Are you coming?'
I overtook her and tried to open the big barn door, finding that I had to pu
sh hard against the wind. Summer gave a little smile and poked the door with her finger. I tutted as it swung open. 'Sorry,' I mumbled.
'I didn't lose al my strength - not yet.' Her smile broadened and
softened. 'Come on, let's go in and sit by the fire you must be freezing.'
So we went into the cosy kitchen where a log fire burned and a metal
jug bubbled on the primitive stove. Summer poured two mugs of steaming coffee from the jug. 'I'm writing a new song,' she told me. 'Would you like to hear?'
'Do you need to ask?' Excited, I sat across the hearth from her, sipped my coffee and watched as she rested her guitar across her knees.
Just like the old days, I thought. And I was able to sit there and fal under her spel , shutting out the fears and doubts, the ticking clock and al the crap I had to deal with in the real world.
Summer bent her head over the guitar, letting her hair swing forward. Her left hand slid up and down the frets while her right hand picked out the notes that flowed like water in the creek. And her voice - softer, more mel ow than before, and the words sadder than anything you ever heard.
'I loved you so / But it was time to go / You spoke my name / I never 97
came / 'Cos it was time for me to go.'
I was in tears before the end of the first verse. 'It's perfect,' I told her when the song ended. In my mind I carried the image of me waiting that last time for Phoenix by Deer Creek, and his voice, not Summer's, singing, 'You spoke my name / I never came ... '
'I wrote it for my parents,' she said softly.
Delving into my jacket pocket, I pul ed out a crumpled slip of paper
and a pen. 'Write it down,' I pleaded. 'The words and the music.'
Summer did as I asked, her hand shaking slightly. 'Give it to my mom,' she said as she handed the paper back. 'Say you didn't know you had it - you found it tucked away in a notebook.'
Nodding, I folded the paper and put it back in my pocket.
'Phoenix is here,' Summer said, suddenly getting up and going to the door, opening it to let me see him striding across the yard, lashed by wind
and rain, looking wild and somehow angry. His white T-shirt and dark
hair were soaked through as he came up into the porch.
'Take care, Darina,' Summer said as she left.
