The Song of Everlasting Sorrow: A Novel of Shanghai (Weatherhead Books on Asia)

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by Anyi, Wang


  Some time after Sasha had presented the loaf of bread, he brought the Russian woman who had baked it to meet them. She came in a checked woolen coat and short boots trimmed with fur. Her hair was combed back into a bun at the nape of her neck. Tall and stately, with blue eyes and fair skin, she looked like a movie star stepping out from the screen. In the presence of this dazzling prodigy, Wang Qiyao’s apartment appeared small and dark, and Sasha, around whose shoulders she had draped her arm, looked like he could be her son. As Sasha looked at her, his eyes took on a salacious gleam that resembled a cat’s. She gazed back at him in fascination. Sasha helped her off with her coat, revealing, under a tight sweater, breasts that stood out like two small mountains. It was only after she and Sasha sat down close together, side by side, that they noticed the pores on her face and the wrinkles and blemishes on her neck. She spoke Mandarin with a heavy accent, using expressions that they found hilarious. Every time they laughed at something she said, Sasha’s eyes would scan their faces with a complacent expression. She addressed Wang Qiyao and Madame Yan alike as “young lady,” which made the two women blush and giggle. Her appetite was huge: she drank cup after cup of tea with sugar, ate bowl after bowl of osmanthus-flavored red bean porridge, and helped herself to large quantities of sesame candies and mandarin orange cookies from the table.

  The pores on her face reddened, her eyes began to shine, and she became loquacious, putting on droll expressions that made them laugh even more. The more they laughed, the more she exerted herself, till everyone was almost on the point of hysteria. When, finally, she decided to entertain them with a dance, they were in positive transports of glee. Crashing into the table and chairs, she shimmied toward Sasha, who had been clapping to keep time, and embraced him passionately as if they were alone. It was all the others could do to avert their eyes as they tittered. Come nightfall, she was still glued to her chair, picking at the crumbs of sesame candies from the plate and licking her fingertips with a famished glint in her eyes, and seemed to have no intention of leaving. Sasha had the good sense to take her home. As they tottered down stairs, hugging each other, her raucous laughter could be heard reverberating throughout the longtang. Behind her she left an apartment in disarray, spilled tea and food stains on the tablecloth, and three people sitting in a stupor on the sofa, too exhausted even to turn on the light.

  This, however, was not their typical tea party. Mostly they talked quietly as the afternoon sun shifted and the light grew softer. When they were not talking, they would look at each other meaningfully, as if they had a great deal more to say. Wang Qiyao did not bother to make dinner after the guests departed, instead just heating up whatever leftovers were on the table. Her apartment appeared especially quiet and empty after these gatherings, and she felt more restless than usual. At such times everything seemed pointless and she could not summon enough energy to do anything. Sleepless, her mind would be filled with countless things, and even the moonlight was irritating. She wished that someone would show up for an injection. Sometimes she would rise from bed and light the alcohol burner, just for the sake of having something to do; at other times she would try some needlework but then quickly lose interest, oblivious even when the ball of yarn rolled beneath the sofa. She might pick up the evening newspapers and blankly read through them without really taking anything in; or perhaps she would sit before the mirror brushing her hair, not knowing who the person staring back at her was. Her thoughts, incoherent, seemed to come from nowhere. She flipped a coin on the table, forgetting what she wanted to predict and which side she favored; playing solitaire, she forgot which cards should be moved onto which.

  In the longtang they had done away with the routine of sounding a clapper to remind people to put out their kitchen fires and substituted a bell, which rang much colder in the peaceful night. Hearing that bell, Wang Qiyao realized she would have to live with loneliness until the next afternoon tea. The gaiety of their afternoon tea parties did not seem to make up for the loneliness she suffered afterward. She started to go to the late show at the theater. Late-night movies were the only semblance of a night life that remained in the city, flickering embers of the city that used to never sleep. However, half of the seats in the theater would be empty, and the silent streets she passed on her way home were always deserted. The shadows of parasol trees, the tired faces of people waiting for the trolley, the sound of the bell as the trolley rolled to a stop, the streetlamps and neon lights, all spoke of the lateness of the hour. But even in the dead of night, a feeble light was struggling through, like a hidden current that can be felt only by those intent on sensing it.

  Now it behooved Uncle Maomao to consult with Wang Qiyao on refreshments the day before the afternoon tea parties, so that he could make the necessary purchases. Sometimes their discussion lasted late into the afternoon, and Wang Qiyao would ask him to stay for dinner, inviting Madame Yan to join them. After a while, Madame Yan would come on her own accord and Sasha, too, would arrive for the occasion. Thus, dinners preceding afternoon teas became routine, and they had to raise the ante at the mahjong games to cover the extra expense. In fact, the mahjong games became indispensable. That was fine for every one except Sasha, who frequently made excuses for not showing up. They understood his problem but no one wanted to speak of it. Wang Qiyao began to notice that sometimes, during a game, Uncle Maomao would refrain from declaring victory even when he drew the tile he had clearly been waiting for, instead throwing the game so that Sasha could take the winnings. She developed a new contempt for Sasha and a new admiration for Uncle Maomao for the discreet attempts to help him.

  One day, when Wang Qiyao happened to draw a tile that she knew Uncle Maomao had been waiting for, she put it up for grabs at the center of the table, glancing briefly at Uncle Maomao. After a momentary hesitation, Uncle Maomao took it and announced that he had won big. Wang Qiyao was inordinately pleased that she had guessed right and, moreover, that he had let her do him a favor. To her dismay, Sasha pushed over her entire hand for all to see, exclaiming, “How could you give up a tile that you could have used yourself, just so that he could win?”

  Hurriedly shuffling the tiles, Wang Qiyao said that she had sacrificed the match in hopes of drawing a new tile that would give her a perfect hand. Inwardly, she was fuming, Sasha, you have no idea how many times you won at the expense of others!

  Madame Yan, however, was offended. “Everyone here should follow the rules of the game! No playing favorites!”

  This embarrassed Wang Qiyao even more, and she reiterated her regret at having relinquished a match in vain. This failed to placate Sasha and Madame Yan, and they stopped the game as soon as the round was over. The next time Uncle Maomao came over to discuss refreshments, Wang Qiyao complained, “Sasha may be a man, but he’s pettier than most women.”

  “I feel sorry for him,” replied Uncle Maomao. “The guy’s unemployed but bent on having a good time. The government allowance he gets for being the son of a martyr is barely enough for him to play billiards.”

  “I am not upset about the money,” said Wang Qiyao. “It’s about playing fair. I didn’t want anyone to chip in for the refreshments; they don’t amount to much anyway.”

  Uncle Maomao laughed. “Why should you make such a big deal about it then? Let me apologize to you on behalf of Sasha.”

  “Sasha’s not the only one who should apologize,” said Wang Qiyao.

  “I apologize for my cousin’s behavior as well,” Uncle Maomao declared soothingly.

  Wang Qiyao’s eyes moistened at this. This Uncle Maomao is quite perceptive. He understands everything. She wanted to say something else, but stopped herself when she heard Madame Yan coming up the stairs. Once inside the door, Madame Yan plunked herself down in a chair and declared, “What is wrong with Sasha?”

  Seeing that they were finally all on the same page, the other two glanced at each other and smiled.

  Instead of refreshments, Uncle Maomao proposed that for their next gathering they should all
have coffee at the International Club as his guests. Wang Qiyao realized that this was an attempt at smoothing over ruffled feathers and thought to herself, He means well, but all good things must come to an end. Nevertheless, she went to have her hair set at the beauty parlor the next morning, and, after an early lunch, she put on some powder and lipstick and lightly touched up her eyebrows. She had planned on wearing a light coat over a cheongsam, but then thought this might be too formal and make it look as if she was trying to compete with Madame Yan. Instead, she put on a gray jacket with a poplin facing over a pair of matching wool pants; a subdued floral silk scarf completed the outfit. She was barely ready when Mama Zhang called up from downstairs that the pedicab was waiting in front of the Yan’s townhouse. Clasping her handbag, she arrived at the pedicab just as Madame Yan came out in a black wool coat appropriate to her status and makeup that was quite becoming to her. They climbed into the pedicab, which slowly took them out of Peace Lane. The sun was bright red, the leaves on the parasol trees had thinned out, and the sky appeared unusually high. For a moment Wang Qiyao thought that the person sitting next to her was not Madame Yan but Jiang Lili, but this was just a brief lapse. Her face and lips felt dry to the point of flaking, and her eyelids drooped heavily in the sunlight, as though swollen from too much sleep. Display windows scrolled swiftly past; a trolley swung slowly around the corner before hurtling forward as its bell chimed.

  Uncle Maomao and Sasha were waiting for them at the gate of the International Club. Standing there at the entrance, ready to greet them, Sasha looked as if he was hosting the event, and when they alighted, he told them that he and Uncle Maomao were in fact co-hosting the event. The two men led them into the lobby, where the floor shone like a mirror. Outside the French window, the lawn had already wilted; only the chrysanthemums were still blooming in defiance of the cold air. Sofas were arranged around low tables covered with white tablecloths. A waiter in a white suit and red tie came to take their order after they had sat down. Sasha picked out several items as Uncle Maomao looked on smilingly; they appeared to be in complete rapport. In the end, Uncle Maomao picked up the tab. Wang Qiyao thought that Sasha’s deviousness must have come from being thoroughly spoiled. She averted her eyes and looked at the lotus-shaped lamp on the wall; she felt hot and wished that she had worn the other coat, which she could now have taken off. Not having been to this kind of place in such a long time, she had forgotten how to dress. The coffee and cakes were served in fine porcelain, and the tableware and coffeepots were all made of silver. A man spotted Uncle Maomao and Sasha and came over to greet them. Turning to Madame Yan, he asked, “And how is Mr. Yan doing these days?”

  As they chatted, Wang Qiyao felt keenly that she was the outsider, and turned her head away to look at a pot of evergreen with red berries. By this time the lobby was filling up with people, the waiters shuttled back and forth, and the aroma of hot coffee filled the air. Sitting there in her inappropriate clothes in the midst of all the merriment, Wang Qiyao found she had nothing to say to the others and deeply regretted being there.

  The newcomer grabbed a chair to sit down with them, ordering coffee and a piece of cake for himself. There seemed to be endless things to discuss. Uncle Maomao turned to Wang Qiyao, explaining discreetly that they knew him from their bridge games. The man was a poor but enthusiastic player. He didn’t have any regular partners and had to resort to bribing people with dinner invitations to get them to play with him. Wang Qiyao understood that Uncle Maomao was making an effort to include her in the conversation, but it only made her feel even more out of place. Presently, the man turned around to invite them to dinner at Maison Rouge. Madame Yan and Sasha accepted. Uncle Maomao looked inquiringly at Wang Qiyao, who made a slight bow and said that she had to go home before dinnertime for an appointment with a patient.

  “What appointment?” demanded Madame Yan. “How come you didn’t mention that earlier? You can’t leave just yet!”

  Sasha also insisted that she stay; he said that if she wasn’t going, then no one was going. Uncle Maomao asked if the patient had a telephone, and suggested that perhaps she could call to tell him she would be late. Wang Qiyao knew that he was trying to give her a way out of her predicament, hoping that she would be able to come along.

  “Let me think about it for a moment,” she replied.

  Everyone thought that this meant she was staying, but after a short while she stood up and firmly took her leave. Furious, Madame Yan accused her of being inconsiderate of her friends. Wang Qiyao apologized profusely, but deep down she was thinking, She’s only angry at me because I had the gall to rebuff her patronage.

  Uncle Maomao walked out with her. It was already dusk and the wind had picked up. Fortunately, she was able to withstand the chill on account of having been too warm inside. Uncle Maomao was quiet, his head hanging low, so she tried to keep the conversation going by asking about the kinds of services offered at the Club and whether they were expensive. When they reached the gate, she said, “Do go back in, it is cold out here.”

  As if he had not heard her, Uncle Maomao blurted out, “I was just trying to make sure that everybody had a good time tonight.”

  He spoke no further, but Wang Qiyao instantly understood what he meant. Her heart fluttered. Is there anything that escapes this man? At this point she saw a pedicab and, quickly hailing it, she climbed in without looking back.

  Evening Chats Around the Stove

  Winter had arrived. Wang Qiyao discussed with Uncle Maomao installing a stove with a chimney in the apartment so that they could enjoy their tea and play mahjong in comfort. Uncle Maomao agreed to get the stove and aluminum pipes but refused to accept any money from her. He arrived the next day with a worker who had brought the materials along in a cart attached to his bicycle. Under Uncle Maomao’s supervision he completed the job in a few hours. The stove worked perfectly and the pipes fit so snugly that not a wisp of smoke escaped into the room. As they warmed themselves at the stove and ate lunch cooked right there on it, Wang Qiyao buried a sweet potato in the embers, and it was roasted in no time. That afternoon they abandoned the other refreshments in favor of the sweet potato and vied like children to pile so much coal into the stove that they nearly smothered the fire. When the room grew dark, their faces, reflecting the fire in the stove, became transformed, like something in a dream or an illusion. The following day it snowed, not the clammy sleet normal for south of the Yangtze River, but real dry snow that accumulated on the windowsill. Even Peace Lane looked immaculate.

  This was the winter of 1957. The large world outside was undergoing shattering upheavals, but the small world around the stove existed in a remote corner, or perhaps a crack, of the large world, forgotten and, for this reason, safe. What a lovely scene it was—the snow drifting outside, the stove burning inside. They thought up all kinds of delightful things they could do with the stove, roasting Korean dried fish, baking pastries, scalding thinly sliced mutton in a pot of water, boiling noodles, and so forth. Gathered around the stove, they chatted, ate, and drank. Lunch, afternoon snacks, and dinner rolled into one long meal. The sun on those snowy days was of little consequence, the hours no longer mattered, time became infinite. They dispersed reluctantly only after it was pitch black outside. Barely awake and half-dreaming, they quivered in the sub-zero temperature as they slipped and slid their way home.

  Sitting around the stove had the effect of making them feel like part of a family. When Wang Qiyao and Madame Yan knitted, Uncle Maomao and Sasha would hold their yarn; when the ladies made dumplings, the men arranged them carefully in circles, flower-shapes, or pyramids. They bantered a great deal, often ganging up on Sasha. They asked him if he had made a habit of eating Russian bread, meaning, of course, that Russian woman.

  “Russian bread’s not bad,” Sasha replied, “but I can’t handle Russia’s ‘foreign’ onions and ‘earthly’ potatoes.”

  Everyone laughed at the pun he was trying to make, and he declared brashly that, if they were inte
rested, he could bring them more bread, but only on the condition that they ate it with onions and potatoes.

  At the hail of taunts that came in response to this, Sasha lamented, “The proletariat is being assaulted by the capitalists!”

  “Who are capitalists?” Wang Qiyao cried in mock indignation. “I am the Number One Proletarian here. I rely on my hands for my living.”

  “Then why are you on their side instead of helping me?” demanded Sasha.

  “I’ve been forced to give everything my family had to the proletariat,” Madame Yan scoffed. “So I am now the real proletarian and you are the rentier.”

  “Proletarian or not,” Wang Qiyao went on, “I’m not going to help you, Sasha! We’re rice-eating Chinese, and you’re a bread-eating Russian. We belong to two different camps.”

  The other two applauded her stance. Acting as if deeply hurt, Sasha accused them of bullying a poor orphan boy. At this they felt a surge of real sympathy and tried to mollify him. He grabbed Wang Qiyao’s hand and begged pathetically, “Let me call you Mama!”

  Aghast, Wang Qiyao flung his hand away, crying, “Stop it, Sasha! Have some respect for your own mother!”

  When they saw that he really did not care, they began to rib him about his mother. He said, “What of it? It’s only natural that my mother should have looked for another man.”

  They were quite shocked at this attitude, and, though they laughed, they thought the less of him as a result.

  Sasha was pleased that he had got them to laugh, but he was also thinking, You capitalists, stinking of rot, you dregs of society! You have no idea what awaits you. Nevertheless, he genuinely liked them, not the least because they fed him an unending variety of delectable foods. Perhaps his fondness for food was an aftereffect of his tuberculosis, from which he needed plenty of nourishment to recover. Over the years, he had developed a discerning taste, and so he readily appreciated the delicacies Wang Qiyao provided. He also enjoyed their company. In contrast to his lack of money, he had endless time on his hands. Every morning, on waking up, he had to figure out how he was to spend the day; in this regard they were all in the same boat. The fact that they viewed life differently was an added attraction, since this could enhance his social experience. Experience was what Sasha valued. He needed experience to understand the world, which he intended to ride as an expert swimmer rides the waves. He was willing to make certain sacrifices in exchange for the benefit of their company. In reality, he did not take them seriously, just saying whatever came into his mind. This, however, did not mean there was no substance to his jabbering. Truth was mixed in with fiction, the genuine jumbled up with the bogus. How they took it was entirely up to his audience. This is what is known as “muddling through.” Thus, those in the know pretended that they weren’t, and those who weren’t pretended that they were. The sun went from east to west, and from west to east, as did the moon. And so the days and nights in this city passed.

 

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