by Nick Hollin
Dark Lies
An unputdownable crime thriller with gripping mystery and suspense
Nick Hollin
Contents
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Nick’s Email Sign Up
A Letter from Nick
Acknowledgements
To my family
Prologue
He stands in quiet contemplation of his work, the warm glow of satisfaction lingering as the body ahead of him starts to cool. There is frustration there, too; she’d deserved better, deserved him to be at the top of his game, but instead he’d stumbled and very nearly missed her throat with the knife. He’d gone a little too deep, and the blood had sprayed to places he hadn’t intended, like onto the corner of a child’s painting pinned by a magnet to the fridge door. It looks like a signature, he thinks. But that crude little picture is not his art. His masterpiece will be something far more ambitious.
The naked body is carefully arranged, and the skull-shaped mark has been drawn at the top of her thigh. The shape he’s piped in chocolate icing is beautiful, exactly as he’d wanted it to be. His hand as steady as the smile on his face.
He reaches into a plastic bag and removes the final piece of the display: a tin of beans. He pulls carefully at the ring, peeling back the lid to reveal the contents. The sauce is a satisfying red. He starts to pour, shaping a speech bubble close to his victim’s head alongside lips that remain parted for a final breath that never came. He tilts her head towards the carving knife he’s placed behind her and positions her limbs to give the impression she’s running.
When he’s done, he stands back and takes it all in, wishing the lights above him were brighter and the tiles on the floor cleaner so he could enjoy the contrast between white and red. Nobody else will ever know it wasn’t perfect, just as they will never know about the mistakes he’s made. And there’s always the next time, of course.
* * *
Sarah stares at the living room window, unable to see past the reflection of a frightened woman. Tonight, for the very first time, she will be without her children. She glances down at her phone, wondering if it’s too early to call her husband and check they’re okay, to make sure they’re not suffering as badly as she is, but she remembers his last words when he’d given her a squeeze and told her to enjoy herself. If only he’d been better at reading her feelings. If only she’d been better at talking about them. Finally, she’d admitted she needed a break, and he’d sweetly arranged to take the boys to his parents’, swearing that he’d follow every one of the two dozen instructions on the list. Now the freedom she’s dreamt about so frequently over the last three years seems like the worst possible kind of nightmare.
She forces herself to move, to look away from the window and give up on the hope of seeing her children suddenly appear, running up the path, arms spread wide. As she turns, she stops, certain for a moment that she really has seen a pale face out there in the darkness. She shakes away the image, putting it down to her nerves, or the two glasses of red wine she’s gulped down to try and ease them. She slumps onto the sofa, trying to remember what she used to do in the evenings when she wasn’t washing clothes, thinking about fun activities for the following day, or worrying about how to put weight on the younger boy, Tate. She stares down at her stomach, lifting her shirt to reveal the scar through which her youngest had emerged. From that very first day she’d known he wasn’t right. It wasn’t science, it was instinct.
It’s also instinct that’s telling her she really ought to get up and investigate the noise she’s just heard at the front door. Has something been pushed through the letterbox? It would explain the draught that’s now fluttering the flame of the candle that was supposed to bring her calm. It might also explain the face she thinks she’s seen.
It’ll be another bloody takeaway menu, she assures herself, pushing up onto her feet and moving past the entrance to the kitchen where she can see a stack of them on top of the microwave. A proper meal out with the family would be nice, but it would have to be a restaurant where she could be sure they would understand Tate’s needs, and where it could all be served and eaten before the older boy, Felix, got bored and ran off in search of trouble. She checks her phone again, wondering what Felix is up to right now, sedated by the television, perhaps, or pestering Tate, who ought really to be getting ready for bed.
As she turns the corner into the hall she spots a small plastic tractor tucked up against the side of a little pair of shoes. She reaches down to pick it up, not only fearful of the tantrums if it’s lost, but wanting to squeeze it in her palm, as if it might bring her closer to the boys. She feels the draught again and looks up at the front door, expecting to see the letterbox her husband has never got around to fixing stuck ajar, but she finds the door is partly open. Her initial thought is a happy one: the boys have returned and are waiting to jump out and surprise her with their cheekiest grins. The absence of a car in the drive she can see through the gap in the doorway is telling her otherwise. As is her instinct, which is telling her to run.
She feels something strike the back of her neck. Hard. The darkness rises as fast as the floor, giving her just long enough to see the glint of a knife. The last thing she sees are Tate’s little shoes, carefully arranged by her just minutes before, ready for a tomorrow that will never come.
One
Katie is woken by an elbow to the face. When she finally manages to pull things into focus the elbow looks to be the only part of the body beside her not covered in hair. Disgusted, she searches for the man’s name, but her thoughts are as twisted as the bedsheets under her, and it’s enough of a struggle to remember her own. She notices the curtains are still open as she peels her cheek from the pillow and rolls over, searching for her phone. A fluorescent alarm clock tells her it was just five hours ago that she was dragged into bed, and perhaps as little as three hours ago that she started trying to get some sleep.
She continues her retreat, slipping off the side of the bed and onto a pile of clothes that look like her own. They stink of smoke, booze and sweat, and she has to hold her breath against the smell as she fights her way into them. The body on the bed doesn’t move.
She slips into the bathroom, taking the briefest of glimpses in the mirror. Her shoulder-length dark hair is matted on one side and stubbornly resists being untangled with her fingers. Her make-up is a state, but she can feel the reassuring lump of a lipstick in her trouser pocket and hastily smooths it on, wiping the kohl from under her eyes. The rest is most likely in her handbag, but she has no idea where that could be. She stands perfectly still, replaying as much as she dares of the previous night. She’s sure she left her bag in her car; she’s also fairly certain she drove that car to just outside this flat. The thought makes the room swim and leaves her leaning over the edge of the sink.
She walks as q
uickly and as silently as she can manage down the stairs and out to the street. As she feared, her old Rover is parked a few feet away, one wheel up on the kerb in a residents-only space. She’s relieved to see there’s no ticket on the windscreen, just a splattering of bird shit and a spidery crack she hasn’t got around to fixing. She’s equally relieved to find a set of keys in her other trouser pocket and her handbag wrapped around a handbrake she’d failed to put on.
She climbs behind the steering wheel, pushing aside several cardboard fast-food containers to make room. For once the Rover’s engine starts first time and she stares into the taped-on mirror at the seemingly endless stream of traffic passing by. The people of London are heading to work, and she’s reminded she should be doing the same. She fumbles around in her handbag, pushing past all the familiar objects, before finally spotting her mobile. As her fingers draw it out she feels its vibration. The call ends the moment she looks at the screen, but she can see it’s the latest of twenty, all from a number she hurriedly redials.
The answer is instant: urgent and breathless. ‘Is that you, boss?’
‘What’s wrong, Mike?’
‘We’ve got one. Walton Road, West Molesey. Just behind the reservoirs.’
From the map in her head she instantly knows where she needs to go. The difficulty is working out where she is right now. Squinting at a street sign in the distance, she can make a vague approximation. ‘Fifteen minutes,’ she says. ‘Who’s there with you?’
‘Just Stu and a couple of PCs. We’ve sealed off what we can and tried to protect the scene.’ She waits for him to continue, but he doesn’t. Were it not for his short, sharp breathing, she’d think she’d lost the line.
‘Is there a problem, sergeant?’ As she asks, she realises his voice had sounded different before, constricted by something. ‘Tell me.’
She feels the urge to get going, to drive closer to the answer before it slips away, but the traffic to her left has slowed to a crawl, and she has no magic light to throw on the roof. Distracted by practicalities, she almost misses the words at the end of the line. She opens her mouth to ask DS Peters to repeat himself, but by that point it’s too late; she’s taken in their meaning. The effect is immediate, making her feel like she’s slipping through a hole in the floor of the car. She grips the steering wheel tightly, desperately trying to hold on.
‘You’re sure?’
‘I am.’
Terrible images flashing up in her mind, terrible possibilities pushing her down. Then, just as she’s certain she will have to let go and sink to a place she knows she’ll never escape, she finds herself standing in the hallway of a stranger’s house, staring at a photo on the wall of two young schoolgirls, smiling broadly, eyes shining with innocent joy. She blinks, and the vision disappears, but the feeling does not. It lifts her, straightens her, pushes her forward, and suddenly she’s revving the engine, forcing the Rover out into the traffic, ignoring the horns, ignoring the twisting in her gut, ignoring the little voice screaming at her that she’s lost her edge and can’t be trusted to do what is right.
Two
Nathan opens his eyes and immediately the desire takes hold. Some days, the best days, it doesn’t come for hours, but today it’s there the very moment he wakes. He sits bolt upright, muscles twitching, desperate to run away and hide. It’s only when he finally considers his surroundings that he remembers he already has.
He uncurls his hands and places them lightly on the tops of his thighs, focusing on his breathing as he works his way through the usual reassurances. Then, when the desire has slowly faded, he falls back onto the bed, as drained as if he hadn’t slept at all.
He stares towards a shuttered window where sunlight is streaming through a narrow gap. He can just make out the tops of trees on the hills in the distance, bending in the usual north-easterly. He doesn’t need to see the rest to know exactly what’s out there, nothing ever changing but the colours and the sky.
When he eventually rises he does so in stages – sheets pulled back, one foot towards the floor, the second leg swung round till he’s sitting up straight, tying up his shoulder-length hair with an elastic band. As soon as he’s up he’s down again, working through a rigorous exercise routine that leaves him with a splinter and in desperate need of a shower. That shower is hot and long, and he scrubs himself until his skin is flushed pink. Then he returns to the bedroom and pulls off the sheets, taking them down the narrow staircase to the equally narrow kitchen to throw them in the wash.
His first meal is as every meal, a tin of something warmed on the hob. When he’s finished, he cleans his teeth in the kitchen sink with a splayed brush and the tiniest dab of toothpaste. Then he walks, still naked, into the living room, flicking on the light to reveal a tiny wooden-beamed space with a high-backed leather armchair in the middle of two piles of books. Without looking he reaches for the top of the taller pile, sits himself down and starts to read. The only distraction is the sound of birds at the top of the chimney and a strengthening wind rattling the locks on the door.
* * *
Several hours later, the height of the piles has been reversed, three children’s novels read from cover to cover, a quarter of a million words he’s worked his way through so many times he could almost recite them by heart. Nothing too thrilling. Nothing with crime. He almost laughs when he considers how different it had once been.
He pushes himself up from his chair and flicks off the light, reaching for his trainers, the soles of which are worn paper thin. He slips them on and prepares to go outside. Before he pulls back the final bolt on the door he takes a deep breath and reminds himself of the emptiness of the landscape around, of the distance to the nearest village and of the promise made by the only person in the world who knows that he’s here. These days it’s more a ritual than any kind of necessity – like saying his prayers before he goes to bed – because there can no longer be any doubt: he is alone.
He walks a few paces then starts to run, following the well-worn path around the house. He doesn’t look up as he makes his circuits; sometimes he doesn’t even need to open his eyes. He finally collapses after a couple of hours, crawling through the dirt and back into the house, using the last dregs of his strength to reach up and draw the bolts across the door.
It’s a while before he’s able to eat any dinner. Even longer before he’s willing to attempt the stairs. When he does, he pauses halfway up to drag a filthy finger across the wall. All around him are the marks he’s left: one a day, every day, covering virtually every inch of the plaster. What had started as an ordered line soon became a tumbling circular smudge, spiralling towards the centre. Now, after three hundred and sixty-two days, he’s almost at that centre, just three more stripes and he’ll have reached his goal. He smiles as he runs a thumb alongside the inside of his left wrist, feeling the narrow band of raised and hardened skin, evidence of the many occasions he didn’t think he’d make it.
Three
The house is a small, detached 1960s property tucked away at the end of the street, the front of the house hidden by an overgrown chestnut tree, the back leading out to the reservoir. She waves her warrant card at a young PC as she slips through a gathering crowd and ducks under the perimeter tape. As she approaches the front door she glances across at a carefully maintained rose bed, spotting two flower heads that have been knocked off in their prime, perhaps by the rushed arrival of her team. The vivid red of the petals seems to soak into her, as does the sense of dread at what’s about to come. She crouches down, certain if she doesn’t she’ll be falling that way. She hopes it appears to those behind as if she’s had to tie a shoelace, and she decides while she recovers to do exactly that, but when she squeezes her eyes shut and pictures those two schoolgirls she feels the shoelace snap in her hand.
A moment later the door ahead of her opens and she stares up at all six feet five of DS Mike Peters, wearing a paper forensics suit and a comforting smile. He offers a hand and she takes it, wishing she’d t
hought to wipe the sweat from her palm, wishing he didn’t so remind her of her dad.
‘It’s okay,’ she says unconvincingly. ‘It’s just…’ She can’t think of anything to say, no excuse for her appearance, nothing that she hasn’t used before. Peters simply nods as she starts to move forward. He passes her a suit to match his own, and she feels, not for the first time, like an actor putting on her costume, playing the part of someone in control.
She tries to keep her head down as she moves along a dark, narrow hallway but she can’t resist looking up at a photo that she somehow knew would be there. It’s of two young boys, both with cheeky grins, both utterly oblivious to the horrors that life can bring. She wonders whether she had ever been like that, or whether she had known the truth from the very beginning.
She estimates the older boy to be about three. Three more years with a mother than she ever had. But she knows he won’t remember that time, beyond the photos that his father shares. He’ll never be certain how much his mother loved him. The younger boy, two, perhaps, is far smaller. She knows about that, as well. She’d also been sickly and small as a child, a worry to her dad and a target at school, at least until she’d proven herself ready and willing to fight. And fighting is what she wants to do now when she considers not only what has just ended in this house, but what, for the boys, has only just begun. Having lost her own mum a long time ago, Katie knows only too well what comes after, likely even worse given the violent nature of this death; she knows about the gradual curdling of knowledge and understanding inside of them. She knows how, even if everyone thinks they’re coping, there’ll be moments that prove them all wrong, flashes of anger, of reckless behaviour and blame.
