by Rizzo Rosko
She did not mind and sighed throatily as he lifted her chemise, adjusted his hose and slipped inside her without removing them or his boots.
Marianne wrapped her legs about his hips eagerly, like she had wanted. Her sighs turned into moans as he moved in a repetitive motion in and out of her, holding her tightly to him as he did and speeding his movements as she tightened her thighs around him.
He kissed her shoulder, her neck and her lips while she threaded her fingers into his hair, and she felt truly loved. She wished it would never end but the building sensation in her belly came too quickly and she threw her head back, closed her eyes, opened her mouth, and released the wail that had built itself within her, letting his silky voice take her the rest of the way.
He breathed hard against her shoulder and she smiled. Stroking his hair and kissing him again.
He tried to roll away from her but her legs held firm.
“Stay.”
She knew she could spend years admiring his lazy smile. “As you wish, my dear. But this position will not be comfortable for long.”
She barely heard his words. Her eyes were closing with sleep. “I doubt that very much.”
He chuckled, trailing his lips down her cheek, across her jaw, and resting on her lips as he slowly felt her legs release their grip on him with her oncoming rest.
When he pulled away to lie beside her, her eyes came open again.
“I’m cold.” She said.
He must have been as unwilling to move as she, so William pulled the half of the blanket they were not laying on and covered them with it. She snuggled into his heat and he wished they would never have to leave.
“William?”
He looked down, her voice thick and her eyes half open. He brushed the curls of red from her face. “Aye?”
“Ye should know, today, before something else happens.” She searched for his hand under the blankets and brought it to her belly, still bare as he had not lowered her chemise.
William’s voice became unexpectedly thick, Marianne could hear the wild thumping in his chest. “You are with child.”
She smiled and nodded, her eyes slipping shut. “Aye. ‘Tis yours.”
A bark of laughter erupted from his throat, and he kissed her again and again. “You need not tell me ‘tis mine for me to know it, you imp. I love you.”
She smiled dreamily at his words before her breathing lightened and she succumbed to sleep.
***
William could not sleep at all. He lay awake for hours holding his wife with visions of the coming child in his mind.
Chapter Sixteen
The snow ceased its assault on the land that night and was replaced with extreme cold. Holton, still prancing with happiness, insisted William and his entire party stay until the roads were safe for travel.
Marianne knew William would not speak with Holton regarding the theft of his property. She knew because he told her so. He also told her that ‘twas only because of the amount of food it took to feed the army he brought with him would compensate for his losses, though William did insist on taking back the stolen horses.
Though three days was hardly anything to worry over, long they became, and Marianne found herself suffering from the same illness that took hold of her when she arrived at Graystone for the first time.
Her body chilled, food did not taste as she knew it should, and only while lying in her husband’s arms could she sleep peacefully.
Even in sleep he held her near to him, and when the moonlight disappeared she allowed herself to rest her head on his naked chest and wish she were as at ease as he.
She dreamed that he loved her, told her so with his own words. Despite the number of times they made love and slept in each other’s arms in those three days, she had yet to have that dream again.
Relief came in the form of finally taking leave of Holton House and riding towards Graystone, watching its looming towers appear in the distance a second time had been wonderful and exhilarating compared to the first. With these emotions running rampant, Marianne could not deny that Graystone was her home.
Though, Marianne had trouble consenting to call it her true home as she was still not loved as she would like to be by the lord.
As promised Lord John and Lady Anne came to visit immediately after. Marianne was delighted to have a conversation partner whom she could speak with freely and who could gossip with her.
Marianne hoped Anne’s presence could take her thoughts away from the one last piece of unhappiness she still carried with her. And upon discovering that Marianne never had a nurse, Lady Anne took it upon herself to teach her the fine arts of embroidery, drawing, and music.
“I told you the day I first met you we would become friends.” Anne giggled over Marianne’s shoulders as she pointed out the flaw in her stitching.
Marianne grumbled and adjusted her shawl, wishing she had not seemed so eager to learn in the beginning as she now wished to send her needle to the devil. Lady Anne would accept nothing less than perfection and would allow Marianne no room to play. If there was an error in her stitching and Anne found it, she would have Marianne go back and do it again.
Lady Anne laughed and took the embroidery from her hands, setting it on the nearby table. “I see ‘tis not working. We shall try again on the morrow.”
Marianne scowled and flicked her crooked work. “You may try again. If my son is to have a blanket then I shall hire someone to make it for him as nothing fine will come from me.”
Anne sat next to her, paying no mind to Marianne’s insistence that she was carrying a boy when her body gave hardly a hint to her condition. “Oh, I shall have to convince John to let me visit every week if I am to be satisfied with your education until the child is born. I have never seen William so happy.”
“Aye,” Marianne had to agree. William looked at her differently since her confession of her condition, and when confirmed by a midwife his cheer doubled. Hers did not.
“What saddens you?”
Marianne blinked. She had not meant to show her worries on her face. “Hmm?”
Anne took her hand, another small thing Marianne had to get used to with the lady so near to her. Lady Anne insisted on holding her hand, hugging, and planting kisses upon her cheeks. Since Marianne only recently began to receive these things from her husband and had only once been hugged by her father in years, Marianne hardly knew what to do with it all.
Anne turned away, as though deciding not to say anything at all, but Marianne squeezed her hand. “Go on.”
Anne sighed. “My lady, I hope you will not be insulted with my blunt nature, but since coming here I have seen that you are not quite as happy as my cousin.”
Marianne paled. Anne clasped both her hands.
“Have I said something upsetting? Forgive me, you should rest.”
Marianne shook her head and gripped Anne’s hands tightly before she could rise to bustle about and fluff her pillows.
“Nay, I am well. Your question did startle me, however.”
Anne looked pained. “Forgive me, ‘twas not my concern.”
And it was not. Marianne knew this, but keeping the secret only caused her to suffer more as the days passed. William only stared at her with those adoring blue eyes because she was carrying his child, completely oblivious to the misery she suffered.
Even Blaise ceased his bantering and began treating her with respect, though whether ‘twas because he spent most of his time training with Bryce, or due to his happiness at still being William’s heir, Marianne did not know.
Regardless, having no one to speak to about her concerns had drained her.
Marianne straightened herself. “May I tell you something, and have your word that you will say nothing of it to William?”
Anne looked into her friend’s eyes. “Of course.”
With a deep breath Marianne told Anne of her forceful abduction and wedding to William, how he rescued Molly and Hawisa and how she had slowly fallen in lov
e with her caring husband. Wishing to spare her father’s dignity, she left out the details of his theft, though she did divulge Robert’s abduction of her and his plan to sell her to sir Ferdinand.
Lady Anne’s mouth was agape when she finished. She sputtered, still clutching Marianne’s hand, only much tighter. “To think, you could have been killed by that awful man!”
“Aye,” Marianne nodded, the reminder of Robert’s gruesome murder bringing a shiver to her.
“I have heard rumors of how horrible he could have been, but never suspected him capable of such things.”
“Aye,” Marianne agreed again. How sheltered could Lady Anne be to not have believed Ferdinand to be capable of such evils? Granted, she had also been unaware of them until William told her, but she knew enough about Ferdinand to know she would rather stage a kidnapping than marry him.
Anne leaned closer, and Marianne could see her interest heightening with each question she eagerly asked. “And you are quite certain the grooms here are not dangerous?”
Marianne eagerly shook her head. “No, nay, Archer is the kindest of men, and he will see to it that the stables only have good men in them from now on.”
Though Lady Anne knew ‘twas not proper to be asking so many questions, she could hardly contain herself. “Is that what has your spirits so low? Those experiences would certainly ruin any of my happiness.”
Marianne shook her head. “‘Tis not that.”
Anne waited silently.
Marianne had to explain further, she could not bottle the rest in now that she was nearly finished with her tale. She wet her lips and trudged forward. “While I have been blessed to wed the most noble and generous of men, he still does not love me.”
***
“Of course I love her! What sort of question is this?” William was more shocked than angered, and John could only shrug his shoulders and turn to his wife helplessly.
Lady Anne blew air from her mouth and whispered into John’s ear again. Nicholas watched the spectacle eagerly, lifting his goblet to his lips and enjoying the entertainment.
William felt a pounding begin in his head with the odd behavior she insisted on carrying out. He sighed and rubbed his temple, working to contain his building apprehension. “Cousin you may speak with me without putting your poor husband through all of this.”
John listened to Anne’s whispers some more, and then sighed in a manner equal to William’s. “‘Twould seem she cannot. She gave Marianne her word not to speak of this to you.”
“She is speaking it to me now.”
“Nay, cousin. My husband is speaking of it to you. Marianne had me promise not to speak to you about her troubles, but she mentioned nothing of telling John.” Anne grinned proudly, and William knew she was congratulating herself for the wit of her scheme.
Nicholas chuckled and drained his drink. “Women enjoy devious play but I never would have suspected your innocent cousin.”
“Keep silent, Nicholas.” William could hardly believe it himself, and he rubbed his temples to will away the headache. “Pray, tell me why my wife believes I hold no love for her.”
Anne whispered into her husband’s ear again, and when John’s face colored William prayed she was not divulging anything inappropriate.
When she finished her whispering, John stared down at his wife curiously before facing William, a helpless air about him. “‘Twould seem the lady believes this is so because you have yet to tell her.”
Nicholas’s face dropped, he clutched his chest dramatically. “You have not told your wife of your love?”
“Yet to tell her? I have told her! I have told her with my actions when I rode after her when she was taken, and have said so with my words when—” He had to stop himself before he was the one to mention something inappropriate. “I have told her.” He grumbled, folding his arms.
Remembering Nicholas, he growled at him. “And just because you spout out love to every maiden who will have ye does not mean every man can say it so lightly!”
Anne brows came together thoughtfully. “‘Tis not what she has told me. She believes you have never mentioned this love for her. Are you quite sure you have told her?”
John took his wife’s hand and squeezed imploringly. “Do not pester him. Even if he does hold no love for her ‘twould be no business of yours.”
It bothered William because he did, and she should know that he did. She smiled at him when he told her before drifting off to sleep.
He stopped at the thought. That was right. He did tell her, and she did not say anything to him in return. Was feminine protocol not clear in allowing him the right to anger and not her? Surely even Nicholas would agree with him.
Lady Anne would not be silenced by her husband. “How many times have you told her?”
William blinked out of his thoughts. “I beg your pardon?”
Despite John’s shushing, Anne continued to speak. “How many times have you mentioned your love for her?”
Nicholas grinned, lazily trailing the rim of his glass. “Aye, friend, how many times?”
“Once is not enough?”
“Nay, of course not!” Anne glowered disapprovingly at him. William could see how mad she believed him to be with the way her face twisted in near disgust at his claim.
William looked at John, who had given up on trying to silence his wife and shook his head apologetically. “Women enjoy hearing these things over and over.”
William sputtered. “And do they always forget them if the words are not spoken enough?”
John shrugged dejectedly, gesturing to his wife. “‘Twould seem so, Aye.”
Nicholas nodded his head as well. “At least every day.”
William threw his hands up and swore a blue streak, circling his entire solar twice before remembering that his little cousin was still in the room. He looked at her and found her eyes open comically wide. John shook his head, muttering: “Should not have allowed myself to become involved.”
William decided that if he wanted to rage around like he was he had best do it to his wife and not in front of his friends and relatives. He left to find his red haired imp and do just that.
Anne and John followed quickly behind, fearful he would be rash with her, Nicholas did not.
Anne’s voice shrieked with panic behind him. “Please do not tell her I told! I gave my word and she would not forgive me!”
John’s pace equaled that of his wife but he remained behind William, his voice much calmer than Anne’s had been. “Do not be rough with her. You know how severely women can take matters of the heart.”
William stopped his hunt and turned to Anne, though there was no ice in his stare. “My lady you cannot for one moment believe that Marianne does not know what you have just done. She is the lady of this castle and you her guest. Being out of her company for so long there is only one place you would surely be.”
Anne’s face twisted in horror and she turned towards John. “She could not know!”
He pinched the bridge between his eyes and sighed for the tenth time since Anne dragged him into the Solar with her. William pitied him but knew well enough not to let it show.
“Your cousin is correct. Logic would state to anyone that you have run off only to shout whatever secrets you hold to anyone who will listen.”
“I did no shouting! And certainly not to anyone who will listen!”
William clasped her shoulders, the wild panic in her eyes proof that she had been punished enough for breaking her word. “Aye, and Marianne will know that you innocently made mention of this to your husband before he told me when I speak with her. She shall hold no grudge against you.”
The moisture in Anne’s eyes disappeared.
William did not release her shoulders. “But you must learn to hold your tongue when secrets pass your ears and not turn them into gossip.”
Panic twisted her face again.
William smiled and released her. “Now, where did you leave her?”
&nbs
p; ***
Marianne was leaving the stables, having completed her daily visit with Mare and Archer, an act she found much more pleasing and peaceful now that she no longer had to fear that Robert would be there. James was no longer trailing her like a lost dog since tonight he was spending the night in the chapel for his knighting ceremony the next morning.
After surviving his attack from Robert and telling his lord what happened, William decided that the event could not wait for spring. And when Lady Anne excused herself Marianne gave Olma leave to sit outside the chapel to pray for him.
Food was being prepared for the occasion and minstrels were hired. William made a special plan of presenting him with a horse since James’s father could not afford one.
‘Twas more proof of his large heart, and while preparing to disappoint herself with thoughts of how it was not large enough for her, she looked up and sighted William casually strolling towards her. He quickened to a trot when he spotted her.
She sighed. Her stomach had been doing clumsy flops when Lady Anne excused herself from her company. When she did not return fifteen minutes later Marianne knew what she had gone and done, and also knew that she should have known better than to trust a woman who loved to gossip.
‘Twas only a matter of time before her husband came to set her straight, to tell her to stop moping and accept what she could have rather than what she could not. Now was that time it seemed.
He came to her, his face betraying nothing of his emotions though his eyes did dart behind her to the stables. “If you continue to spend all of your time there you will smell like a horse.”
She stood straighter. ‘Twas not what she had expected him to say. “I thought I smelled like the autumn leaves.”
He shook his head, a grin touching his lips as he refused to answer her question. His next words were straight to the point. “I have heard some unsettling things just now,” He crossed his arms behind his back. “Perhaps we can put them to rest.”
Bitterness swelled inside of her, and she folded her arms and looked away. “From your dear cousin, no doubt.”
