Ruben Vega, his mind empty of pleasantries, certain he would never see the woman again, said, "Who did that t o you?"
She cocked her head in an easy manner, studying him as he studied her, and said, "Do you know, you're the first perso n who's come right out and asked."
"Mojave," Ruben Vega said, "but there's something different. Mojaves tattoo their chins only, I believe."
"And look like they were eating berries," the woman said.
"I told them if you're going to do it, do it all the way. Not like a blue dribble."
It was in her eyes and in the tone of her voice, a glimpse of the rage she must have felt. No trace of fear in the memory , only cold anger. He could hear her telling the Indians--thi s skinny woman, probably a girl then--until they did it he r way and marked her good for all time. Imprisoned her behin d the blue marks on her face.
"How old were you?"
"You've seen me and had your water," the woman said, "now leave."
It was the same type of adobe house as the woman's but with a great difference. There was life here, th e warmth of family: children sleeping now, Diego Luz's wif e and her mother cleaning up after the meal as the two men sa t outside in horsehide chairs and smoked and looked at th e night. At one time they had both worked for a man name d Sundeen and packed running irons to vent the brands on th e cattle they stole. Ruben Vega was still an outlaw, in his fashion, while Diego Luz broke green horses and sold them to cattle companies.
They sat at the edge of the ramada, an awning made of mesquite, and stared at pinpoints of light in the universe.
Ruben Vega asked about the extent of graze this season, where the large herds were that belonged to the Maricopa and th e Circle-Eye. He had been thinking of cutting out maybe a hundred--he wasn't greedy--and driving them south to sel l to the mine companies. He had been scouting the Circle-Ey e range, he said, when he came to the strange woman. . . .
The Tonto woman, Diego Luz said. Everyone called her that now.
Yes, she had been living there, married a few years, when she went to visit her family, who lived on the Gila abov e Painted Rock. Well, some Yavapai came looking for food. They clubbed her parents and two small brothers to death an d took the girl north with them. The Yavapai traded her to th e Mojave as a slave. . . .
"And they marked her," Ruben Vega said.
"Yes, so when she died the spirits would know she was Mojave and not drag her soul down into a rathole," Diego Luz said.
"Better to go to heaven with your face tattooed," Ruben Vega said, "than not at all. Maybe so."
During a drought the Mojave traded her to a band of Tonto Apaches for two mules and a bag of salt and one day she appeared at Bowie with the Tontos that were brought in to be sent to Oklahoma. Among the desert Indians twelve years an d returned home last spring.
"It put age on her," Ruben Vega said. "But what about her husband?"
"Her husband? He banished her," Diego Luz said, "like a leper. Unclean from living among the red niggers. No on e speaks of her to him, it isn't allowed."
Ruben Vega frowned. There was something he didn't understand. He said, "Wait a minute--"
And Diego Luz said, "Don't you know who her husband is?
Mr. Isham himself, man, of the Circle-Eye. She comes home to find her husband a rich man. He don't live in that hut n o more. No, he owns a hundred miles of graze and a house i t took them two years to build, the glass and bricks brought i n by the Southern Pacific. Sure, the railroad comes and he's a rich cattleman in only a few years."
"He makes her live there alone?"
"She's his wife, he provides for her. But that's all. Once a month his segundo named Bonnet rides out there with supplies and has someone shoe her horse and look at the animals."
"But to live in the desert," Ruben Vega said, still frowning, thoughtful, "with a rusty pump . . ."
"Look at her," Diego Luz said. "What choice does she have?"
It was hot down in this scrub pasture, a place to wither and die. Ruben Vega loosened the new willow-roo t straw that did not yet conform to his head, though he ha d shaped the brim to curve down on one side and rise slightl y on the other so that the brim slanted across the vision of hi s left eye. He held on his lap a nearly flat cardboard box tha t bore the name l . S. weiss mercantile store.
The woman gazed up at him, shading her eyes with one hand. Finally she said, "You look different."
"The beard began to itch," Ruben Vega said, making no mention of the patches of gray he had studied in the hotel-roo m mirror. "So I shaved it off." He rubbed a hand over his jaw an d smoothed down the tips of his mustache that was still ful l and seemed to cover his mouth. When he stepped down fro m the bay and approached the woman standing by the stick-fenc e corral, she looked off into the distance and back again.
She said, "You shouldn't be here."
Ruben Vega said, "Your husband doesn't want nobody to look at you. Is that it?" He held the store box, waiting for he r to answer. "He has a big house with trees and the San Pedr o River in his yard. Why doesn't he hide you there?"
She looked off again and said, "If they find you here, they'll shoot you."
"They," Ruben Vega said. "The ones who watch you bathe? Work for your husband and keep more than a close eye o n you, and you'd like to hit them with something, wipe th e grins from their faces."
"You better leave," the woman said.
The blue lines on her face were like claw marks, though not as wide as fingers: indelible lines of dye etched into he r flesh with a cactus needle, the color worn and faded but stil l vivid against her skin, the blue matching her eyes.
He stepped close to her, raised his hand to her face, and touched the markings gently with the tips of his fingers, feeling nothing. He raised his eyes to hers. She was staring at him. He said, "You're in there, aren't you? Behind these littl e bars. They don't seem like much. Not enough to hold you."
She said nothing, but seemed to be waiting.
He said to her, "You should brush your hair. Brush it every day. . . ."
"Why?" the woman said.
"To feel good. You need to wear a dress. A little parasol to match."
"I'm asking you to leave," the woman said. But didn't move from his hand, with its yellowed, stained nails, that wa s like a fist made of old leather.
"I'll tell you something if I can," Ruben Vega said. "I know women all my life, all kinds of women in the way they loo k and dress, the way they adorn themselves according to custom. Women are always a wonder to me. When I'm not with a woman I think of them as all the same because I'm thinkin g of one thing. You understand?"
"Put a sack over their head," the woman said.
"Well, I'm not thinking of what she looks like then, when I'm out in the mountains or somewhere," Ruben Vega said.
"That part of her doesn't matter. But when I'm with the woman, ah, then I realize how they are all different. You say , of course. This isn't a revelation to you. But maybe it is whe n you think about it some more."
The woman's eyes changed, turned cold. "You want to go to bed with me? Is that what you're saying, why you bring a gift?"
He looked at her with disappointment, an expression of weariness. But then he dropped the store box and took her t o him gently, placing his hands on her shoulders, feeling he r small bones in his grasp as he brought her in against him an d his arms went around her.
He said, "You're gonna die here. Dry up and blow away."
She said, "Please . . ." Her voice hushed against him.
"They wanted only to mark your chin," Ruben Vega said, "in the custom of those people. But you wanted your ow n marks, didn't you? Your marks, not like anyone else. . . . Well , you got them." After a moment he said to her, very quietly , "Tell me what you want."
The hushed voice close to him said, "I don't know."
He said, "Think about it and remember something. There is no one else in the world like you."
He reined the bay to move out and saw the dust trail ris
ing out of the old pasture, three riders coming , and heard the woman say, "I told you. Now it's too late."
A man on a claybank and two young riders eating his dust, finally separating to come in abreast, reined to a walk as they reached the pump and the irrigation ditch. The woman, walking from the corral to the house, said to them, "What do you want? I don't need anything, Mr. Bonnet."
So this would be the Circle-Eye foreman on the claybank.
The man ignored her, his gaze holding on Ruben Vega with a solemn expression, showing he was going to be dead serious.
A chew formed a lump in his jaw. He wore army suspenders and sleeve garters, his shirt buttoned up at the neck. As old a s you are, Ruben Vega thought, a man who likes a tight feel o f security and is serious about his business.
Bonnet said to him finally, "You made a mistake."
"I don't know the rules," Ruben Vega said.
"She told you to leave her be. That's the only rule there is.
But you bought yourself a dandy new hat and come back here."
"That's some hat," one of the young riders said. This one held a single-shot Springfield across his pommel. The foreman, Bonnet, turned in his saddle and said something to the other rider, who unhitched his rope and began shaking out a loop, hanging it nearly to the ground.
It's a show, Ruben Vega thought. He said to Bonnet, "I was leaving."
Bonnet said, "Yes, indeed, you are. On the off end of a rope. We're gonna drag you so you'll know the ground an d never cross this land again."
The rider with the Springfield said, "Gimme your hat, mister, so's you don't get it dirty."
At this point Ruben Vega nudged his bay and began mov-W i ng in on the foreman, who straightened, looking over at th e roper, and said, "Well, tie on to him."
But Ruben Vega was close to the foreman now, the bay taller than the claybank, and would move the claybank if th e man on his back told him to. Ruben Vega watched the foreman's eyes moving and knew the roper was coming around behind him. Now the foreman turned his head to spit and le t go a stream that spattered the hardpack close to the bay's forelegs.
"Stand still," Bonnet said, "and we'll get her done easy. Or you can run and get snubbed out of your chair. Either way."
Ruben Vega was thinking that he could drink with this ramrod and they'd tell each other stories until they wer e drunk. The man had thought it would be easy: chase off a Mexican gunnysacker who'd come sniffing the boss's wife. A k id who was good with a rope and another one who coul d shoot cans off the fence with an old Springfield should b e enough.
Ruben Vega said to Bonnet, "Do you know who I am?"
"Tell us," Bonnet said, "so we'll know what the cat drug in and we drug out."
And Ruben Vega said, because he had no choice, "I hear the rope in the air, the one with the rifle is dead. Then you.
Then the roper."
His words drew silence because there was nothing more to be said. In the moments that Ruben Vega and the one name d Bonnet stared at each other, the woman came out to the m holding a revolver, an old Navy Colt, which she raised an d laid the barrel against the muzzle of the foreman's claybank.
She said, "Leave now, Mr. Bonnet, or you'll walk nine miles to shade."
There was no argument, little discussion, a few grumbling words. The Tonto woman was still Mrs. Isham. Bonnet rod e away with his young hands and a new silence came over th e yard.
Ruben Vega said, "He believes you'd shoot his horse."
The woman said, "He believes I'd cut steaks, and eat it too.
It's how I'm seen after twelve years of that other life."
Ruben Vega began to smile. The woman looked at him and in a few moments she began to smile with him. She shook he r head then, but continued to smile. He said to her, "You coul d have a good time if you want to."
She said, "How, scaring people?"
He said, "If you feel like it." He said, "Get the present I b rought you and open it."
He came back for her the next day in a Concord buggy, wearing his new willow-root straw and a cutaway coat over his revolvers, the coat he'd rented at a funeral parlor. Mrs. Isham wore the pale blue-and-white lace-trimme d dress he'd bought at Weiss's store, sat primly on the bustle, an d held the parasol against the afternoon sun all the way to Benson, ten miles, and up the main street to the Charles Crooker Hotel where the drummers and cattlemen and railroad men sitting in their front-porch rockers stared and stared.
They walked past the manager and into the dining room before Ruben Vega removed his hat and pointed to the tabl e he liked, one against the wall between two windows. Th e waitress in her starched uniform was wide-eyed taking the m over and getting them seated. It was early and the dinin g room was not half filled.
"The place for a quiet dinner," Ruben Vega said. "You see how quiet it is?"
"Everybody's looking at me," Sarah Isham said to the menu in front of her.
Ruben Vega said, "I thought they were looking at me. All right, soon they'll be used to it."
She glanced up and said, "People are leaving."
He said, "That's what you do when you finish eating, you leave."
She looked at him, staring, and said, "Who are you?"
"I told you."
"Only your name."
"You want me to tell you the truth, why I came here?"
"Please."
"To steal some of your husband's cattle."
She began to smile and he smiled. She began to laugh and he laughed, looking openly at the people looking at them, bu t not bothered by them. Of course they'd look. How could the y help it? A Mexican rider and a woman with blue stripes o n her face sitting at a table in the hotel dining room, laughing.
He said, "Do you like fish? I know your Indian brothers didn't serve you none. It's against their religion. Some things are fo r religion, as you know, and some things are against it. We spend all our lives learning customs. Then they change them.
I'll tell you something else if you promise not to be angry or point your pistol at me. Something else I could do the rest o f my life. I could look at you and touch you and love you."
Her hand moved across the linen tablecloth to his with the cracked, yellowed nails and took hold of it, clutched it.
She said, "You're going to leave."
He said, "When it's time."
She said, "I know you. I don't know anyone else."
He said, "You're the loveliest woman I've ever met. And the strongest. Are you ready? I think the man coming now i s your husband."
It seemed strange to Ruben Vega that the man stood looking at him and not at his wife. The man seemed not too old for her, as he had expected, but too self-important. A ma n with a very serious demeanor, as though his business ha d failed or someone in his family had passed away. The man's wife was still clutching the hand with the gnarled fingers.
Maybe that was it. Ruben Vega was going to lift her hand from his, but then thought, Why? He said as pleasantly as h e was able, "Yes, can I help you?"
Mr. Isham said, "You have one minute to mount up and ride out of town."
"Why don't you sit down," Ruben Vega said, "have a glass of wine with us?" He paused and said, "I'll introduce you t o your wife."
Sarah Isham laughed; not loud but with a warmth to it and Ruben Vega had to look at her and smile. It seemed all righ t to release her hand now. As he did he said, "Do you know thi s gentleman?"
"I'm not sure I've had the pleasure," Sarah Isham said.
"Why does he stand there?"
"I don't know," Ruben Vega said. "He seems worried about something."
"I've warned you," Mr. Isham said. "You can walk out or be dragged out."
Ruben Vega said, "He has something about wanting to drag people. Why is that?" And again heard Sarah's laugh, a giggle now that she covered with her hand. Then she looke d up at her husband, her face with its blue tribal lines raised t o the soft light of the dining room.
She said, "John, look at me. . . . Won't you please sit w
ith us?"
Now it was as if the man had to make a moral decision, first consult his conscience, then consider the manner i n which he would pull the chair out--the center of attention.
When finally he was seated, upright on the chair and somewhat away from the table, Ruben Vega thought, All that to sit down. He felt sorry for the man now, because the man wa s not the kind who could say what he felt.
Sarah said, "John, can you look at me?"
He said, "Of course I can."
"Then do it. I'm right here."
"We'll talk later," her husband said.
She said, "When? Is there a visitor's day?"
"You'll be coming to the house, soon."
"You mean to see it?"
"To live there."
She looked at Ruben Vega with just the trace of a smile, a sad one. Then said to her husband, "I don't know if I want to.
I don't know you. So I don't know if I want to be married to you. Can you understand that?"
Ruben Vega was nodding as she spoke. He could understand it. He heard the man say, "But we are married. I have W a n obligation to you and I respect it. Don't I provide for you?"
Sarah said, "Oh, my God--" and looked at Ruben Vega.
"Did you hear that? He provides for me." She smiled again, not able to hide it, while her husband began to frown , confused.
"He's a generous man," Ruben Vega said, pushing up from the table. He saw her smile fade, though something warm remained in her eyes. "I'm sorry. I have to leave. I'm going on a trip tonight, south, and first I have to pick up a few things."
He moved around the table to take one of her hands in his, not caring what the husband thought. He said, "You'll do al l right, whatever you decide. Just keep in mind there's no on e else in the world like you."
She said, "I can always charge admission. Do you think ten cents a look is too high?"
"At least that," Ruben Vega said. "But you'll think of something better."
He left her there in the dining room of the Charles Crooker Hotel in Benson, Arizona--maybe to see her again sometime , maybe not--and went out with a good conscience to tak e some of her husband's cattle.
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