‘Perhaps,’ I say doubtfully.
‘She will be restored. Percy told me himself. It has been agreed with the Protestant lords of Scotland. She is to guarantee their safety and that of the Protestant faith. In turn she will take the Mass in private. The Protestant lords of Scotland are prepared to have her back if she is a married woman, as a queen with a king consort of their own faith, of undeniable nobility, fortune and strength. They believe that Thomas Howard will bring a safe alliance with England and will make a great king consort for Scotland. They planned this with Howard last year at York. And they think he will keep her in order and get another son on her.’
I am silent, thinking quickly. ‘And has our queen agreed to all this?’
His hesitation tells me everything.
I knew it! I knew no-one had dared to tell her. She hates weddings and marriage and anything that takes her court away from her. To tell the truth, she hates not to be the centre of attention and a bride on her wedding day must rival even the Queen of England. And I swear on my life that she would never agree to see her own cousin Thomas Howard jumped up to be a rival king! Howard has always been a difficulty for her, she has never loved him as a cousin, she has always envied him his pride and his lands. She will never want to see him raised up so high. She will begrudge him his throne. I would put money on it – she would rather see him dead at her feet than have a son of his inherit her throne. This is a jealous queen, she never wants anyone else to gain wealth or power. She has to be supreme. She would never let her cousin, her young cousin, overreach her. From the moment I saw Howard’s letter of proposal I knew she would forbid the marriage as soon as she learned of it.
‘She will never allow it,’ I say bluntly. ‘And Cecil will never support anything which will make Howard King of Scotland. Cecil and Howard have been rivals for power for years. Neither Cecil nor Elizabeth will let Howard leap up to greatness. Neither of them could stomach him as a king.’
‘Cecil will not rule this kingdom forever,’ my husband says, surprising me with his authority. ‘The days of the steward in the master’s chair are done.’
‘You cannot say that.’
‘Yes, Bess, I can.’
‘Cecil is far more than a steward. He has planned every part of Elizabeth’s reign, he has guided everything she has done. He is more than a servant. He has made England as it is today. He is her guide. Half of what she thinks has been taught to her by him.’
‘No, he is not. And soon he will not be even that.’
1569, May, Wingfield Manor: Mary
The lord of Westmorland gave me a bundle of messages from London as we rode out together, and whispered the news as we rode home.
Thank God, I am saved, my future has never looked brighter. My marriage to Thomas Howard will go ahead. My ambassador, Bishop Lesley, is drawing up the agreement. The Scots lords will accept Thomas Howard as king and will restore me to my throne with him at my side. And he is a fertile man of only thirty years, he has children already. There is no doubt in my mind but we will have children together, another son for the throne of Scotland, a daughter for me to love. Howard has agreed to forward money from the Spanish to me. They will smuggle gold coin to him, he will send it on to me. I am glad of this, it is a good test of him. If he will handle Spanish gold for me then it proves him, it proves his love for me. Also, once he receives letters in cipher from Spain and handles gold directed to me, then he has taken his first step in my cause and he will find that one step leads to another. He is no fool, he must have thought of this. He must be determined to be my husband, to be King of Scotland, and I am glad of this.
A woman once married to Bothwell could never tolerate a half-hearted man. Actually, a woman married to Bothwell will be spoiled for any other. God knows, I love his ambition. I love how he sees his opportunities. I love how he goes like an arrow to the heart of any matter. I have never known a man so brave, he would risk anything to achieve his goal. I remember the night that I ran from Edinburgh after Rizzio was killed. Darnley was with me, more like a frightened child than a husband, and we rode through the darkness, desperate to get away from the Scots lords who had killed Rizzio and would have killed me too. I remember the leap of terror I felt when we turned a corner and I saw four horsemen, blocking our way, huge across the dawn sky.
Darnley shouted, ‘Save yourselves!’ and spurred off into the moorland. But I rode forward and then I recognised Bothwell, waiting for me, a safe castle behind him, a spare horse beside him, coming down the road to greet me, ready to fight anyone to take me to safety.
He, who was never gentle, lifted me gently down from my horse and carried me in his arms into the castle, up the stairs to a bedroom and laid me on the bed. He, who was never tender, washed my face and my hands, and pulled off my riding boots. He, who was a known killer, untied the front of my gown and laid his ear to my rounded belly to listen for the heartbeat, smiled up at me, and said, ‘It is all right. I swear it. He is unhurt, I can hear him. I can feel him move. He is alive, a strong little king for Scotland.’ And I, who never loved him, put my hand down to touch the thick black curls of his hair and said: ‘Thank God you are faithful.’
‘Thank God you came to me,’ he replied.
Better for me that I don’t think of him. Better for me that I never think of him at all.
But it is good that Howard is ambitious too.
Westmorland has other news to whisper on our ride. Philip of Spain stands my friend, he has declared that I must not be held any longer as a prisoner. My ambassador is in touch with the Spanish ambassador, who has a network of conspirators in England poised to free me if I do not go to Scotland this month. I will regain my Scottish throne by agreement; but Elizabeth should be warned. I have powerful friends and half of England would rise for me if I summoned them, and Spain is building an armada of ships. Elizabeth dare not delay any longer. The Spanish will insist I am fairly treated. The Spanish intend that I shall be Queen of England and the heretic Elizabeth to be thrown down altogether.
I wait till I am alone in my room to open my letters. The one from Bishop Lesley is in code, I shall work on it in the morning, but there is a note from Thomas Howard written in French, and a ring. The sweet man, the tender-hearted man! He has sent me a ring for our betrothal and I slip it on my hand and admire it. It is a diamond, a wonderful stone, cut square, and it shines with a fiery whiteness. It is good enough for a queen, it is good enough for me. I put it to my lips and kiss it for his sake. This man is going to save me, this man is going to restore me to my kingdom, this man is going to love me and for the first time in my life I will have a lover who has the strength of a man and the breeding of an equal. Not a boy prince, not a half-devil like Bothwell. I shall be loved by a husband who has spent his life at courts, who is kin to the monarchs of England, and who wants me and loves me as a woman as well as a queen.
I am glad that this has all been done by me, without even the smallest help from Elizabeth. She is a fool. If she had taken my part when I first came to England she could have sponsored this marriage and restored me to my throne and I would have been forever in her debt. I would have loved her as her cousin twice over. We would have been friends for life. As it is, I will never forgive her. When I am on my throne again she will know that she has an enemy on her border, and that my friends are the Spanish who support me and the French who are my kin, the Northern lords who have been faithful and the Papists of England who wait for me to inherit and for the good days to come again. My new husband will come to see her as a reluctant friend and an unreliable cousin. I will prevail upon him to forget his loyalty to her and think only of himself and me. We will make a powerful royal couple and together we will free Scotland and make alliances with the great Papist powers. Then she will be sorry that she treated me with suspicion, then she will be sorry not to have treated me like a sister. Then she will sit alone in one of her cold palaces and know that everyone has left her to go to the court of her heir.
I go to my des
k and write a letter to my betrothed to thank him for his ring and promise my love and fidelity. This is going to be a courtship at a distance, my letters are going to have to keep his attention until he can meet me. I promise him my heart, my fortune. I assure him of my love for him. I want to make him fall passionately in love with me by letter. I must seduce him with every word. I shall write letters which amuse and intrigue him, I shall make him laugh and I shall prompt his desire. I shall feel truly safe only when I know he has fallen in love with me and wants me for desire as well as ambition.
I go to bed early. To tell the truth, even with my letters and my diamond ring, I am burning with secret resentment. I feel excluded from the dinner this evening, and I am deeply offended at Bess, the countess from nowhere, sitting at the high table with my friends Northumberland and Westmorland, and music playing and good wine being served, when I am here, practically alone with Mary and Agnes and only a dozen courtiers. I am accustomed to being the greatest lady in the room. In all my life I have always been the centre of every occasion, never before have I been the one left out. Before I go to bed at midnight I slip out of my rooms and go to the head of the stairs. In the great hall below the candles are still burning, and they are all still making merry. It is an outrage that I should not be invited, it is ridiculous that there should be dancing and I should not be there. I will not forget this exclusion, I will not forgive it. Bess may think it is her triumph but it is the upsetting of the proper order and she will regret it.
1569, June, Wingfield Manor: Bess
The Queen of Scots, waiting for the guard to escort her to Edinburgh, prevails upon me to walk with her in the gardens of Wingfield Manor. She knows nothing of gardening but she is a great lover of flowers and I tell her their names in English as we walk on the gravel paths between the low hedges. I understand why her servants and courtiers love her, she is more than charming, she is endearing. Sometimes she even reminds me of my daughter Frances whom I married to Sir Henry Pierrepoint and who now has my granddaughter, little Bessie. The queen asks me about my girl, and about my three boys and two other daughters.
‘It is a great thing to have a large family,’ she compliments me.
I nod. I do not even try to hide my pride. ‘And every one shall marry well,’ I promise. ‘My oldest boy Henry is married already to my stepdaughter Grace Talbot, my husband’s daughter, and my daughter Mary is married to my stepson Gilbert Talbot.’
The queen laughs. ‘Oh, Bess! How clever of you to keep all the money in the family!’
‘That was our plan,’ I admit. ‘But Gilbert is a wonderful boy, I could not hope for a better husband for my daughter, and he is such good friends with my boy Henry, they are at court together. Gilbert will be the Earl of Shrewsbury when my lord is gone and it is nice to think of my daughter inheriting my title, and being a countess and living here, like me.’
‘I should so love to have a daughter,’ she says. ‘I should name her for my mother, I think. I lost my last babies. I had conceived twins, twin boys I should have had. But after the last battle, when they captured me, I lost my boys.’
I am aghast. ‘Bothwell’s children?’
‘Bothwell’s boys,’ she says. ‘Think what men they would have made! Twin boys, the sons of Bothwell and of Mary Stuart. England would never have slept soundly again!’ She laughs, but there is a catch in her throat.
‘Is that why you acknowledged the marriage to him?’ I ask her very quietly. ‘Because you knew you were with child?’
She nods. ‘The only way to keep my reputation and my crown was to put a brave face on it, let Bothwell push the marriage through, and refuse ever to discuss it with anyone.’
‘He should die for it,’ I say fiercely. ‘Men are hanged for rape in England.’
‘Only if the woman dares to name her rapist,’ she says drily. ‘Only if she can prove that she did not consent. Only if a jury believes the word of a silly woman against a strong-minded man. Only if the jury does not believe in their hearts that all women are easily seduced and they say “no” but mean “yes”. Even in England the word of a man takes precedence. Who cares what a woman says?’
I put out my hand to her. I cannot help myself. I was born a poor girl, I know how dangerous the world can be for an unprotected woman. ‘Are you sure you can save your reputation and reclaim your throne? Can you go back to Scotland and be safe this time? Will they not hold this shame against you?’
‘I am queen,’ she says with determination. ‘I shall annul the marriage to Bothwell and put it aside. I shall never mention it again and nor shall anyone else. It shall be as if it never happened. I shall return to Scotland as an anointed queen married to a great nobleman. That will be my safety and the rest of the scandals will be forgotten.’
‘Can you decide what people say of you?’
‘I am queen,’ she says. ‘One of the talents of a queen is to make the people think well of you. If I am really gifted and lucky, I will make the histories think well of me too.’
1569, August, Wingfield Manor: Mary
I love this summer. It is my first in England, my last too, for next summer I will be in Scotland again, my escort will come for me any day now. I laugh at the thought that then I shall be longing for this heat, and looking back on this as a golden season of leisure. It reminds me of my childhood in France, when I was a French princess and heir to the three thrones of France, England and Scotland, and in no doubt that I would inherit all three. We, the royal children of the privileged French court, used to spend the summer in the country and I was allowed to ride, and picnic, swim in the river, dance in the fields and hunt under the big yellow summertime moon. We used to row out on the river and fish from the boats. We used to have archery competitions in the cool of the morning and then celebrate with a winners’ breakfast. My husband-to-be little Prince Francis was my playmate, my friend; and his father, the handsome King Henri II of France, was the hero of our days, the most handsome man, the most glamorous king, a charmer beyond all others. And I was his favourite. They called me ‘mignonette’. The beautiful princess, the most beautiful girl in France.
We were all indulged, we were all allowed anything that we wanted, but even among that richness and freedom the king singled me out as special. He taught me to amuse him, he taught me to delight him, he taught me – perhaps without knowing – that the most important skill a woman can learn is how to enchant a man, how to turn his head, how to swear him to her service, without him ever knowing he has fallen under her spell. He believed in the power of the women of the troubadours, and despite my tutors, and certainly despite his irritable wife, Catherine de Medici, he taught me that a woman can become the very pinnacle of a man’s desire. A woman can command an army if she is their figurehead, their dream: always desirable, never attainable.
When he was dead, and his son was dead, and my mother was dead and I came to Scotland, quite alone, and quite desperate for advice as to how I would manage in this strange and savage country, it was his teaching that guided me. I thought I should be a queen that men could adore. I thought if I could be a queen that they could look up to, then we would find a way that I could rule them, and that they could gladly submit.
This time at Wingfield, knowing that my future is unfolding before me, knowing that I shall return to Scotland as acknowledged queen, is like being a girl again, with no equal for charm or beauty or wit, confident that my kingdom will be my own, that everything must always be perfect for me. And just as in France, I am admired and petted. Shrewsbury’s servants cannot do enough for me. No luxury is too extravagant for me. And every day, when he comes to ride with me he brings me a little token: the little cup of mud of a swallow’s nest, with two big pearls inside instead of eggs, a posy of roses with a gold chain twisted around the stems, a set of silver ribbons, a book of poems in French, scented leather gloves, a diamond brooch.
The terms of my return to Scotland are finally and fully agreed. William Cecil, once my sworn enemy, has changed his mind �
�� who knows why? – and taken my side. He has negotiated for me with my half-brother, Lord Moray, and with Lord Maitland, and he has forged a good agreement that he is confident will hold. I am to return to Scotland as true and recognised queen. I am to be free to practise my faith. The country will be Protestant, as they say they prefer, but there will be no persecution of either Papists or Puritans. My son will be raised as a Protestant.
Some of this I will change when I am back on the throne. I have no intention of raising a heretic child destined for nowhere but hell. The lords who sign for my restoration now were my enemies only last year and I will have revenge. I have a list of the men who swore together to murder my husband and I will bring them to justice, they need not think that they will escape. Bothwell will be at my side and he will have his own scores to settle. But I can sign this agreement for now, with a clear conscience, since it restores me to the throne. The Holy Father will forgive me any agreement I make, as long as it serves the greater good of getting me back on my throne. Actually I would sign an agreement with the devil himself if it would get me back to the throne. Nothing is more important to me, to the Holy Church, and to the future of Scotland than I am returned.
Once restored to my throne, I can punish my enemies, and educate my people against heresy. Once there I can build my power with my friends and allies in England so that the moment Elizabeth dies, or when she faces invasion – and both are equally inevitable – then I am ready to move to take my second throne.
Cecil writes nothing about my betrothal with Howard; but he cannot be ignorant of it. I know that the Scots lords would never have agreed to have me back without a man at my side, they will have made my marriage a pre-condition of my return. They are so fearful of women in general and of me in particular that they would never rest until they had me wedded and bedded and sworn to wifely obedience. They would be in a terror that I would bring Bothwell down on them as king consort. They trust Thomas Howard in a way that they will never trust me, because he is a Protestant, because he is a man.
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