“Open your fucking mouth. Remember, if you bite, I will kill you.”
I closed my eyes and opened my mouth. The heaviness on my chest lifted some, but tightened on my arms. Soon I felt him enter my mouth and shove deep down my throat. I could feel the tears building and I tried my hardest to keep them at bay. I didn’t do anything, just held my mouth open while he jammed his dick in my mouth.
“Oh, yeah…that feels so good. Mmmm, you’re going to make me a lot of money.” He moaned.
Each push down my throat and I had the urge to throw up. I fought it back. There was no way I was giving him that satisfaction…yet. An evil laughed sounded in my head. He kept rocking into my mouth and I broke a little inside. Never in my life have things ever been this bad. I have managed to get away just by the skin of my teeth. Now here I lay being forced at gunpoint no less to give a blowjob.
Geno says he was going to save me before I got hurt. Well, I would say he is a little late for that now isn’t he? His thrusts started picking up and the urge to vomit overwhelming. Honestly, I wanted to puke all over him, but I feared I would choke if I did. Instead, I kept forcing it down and prayed this would be over soon.
“Ahhhh, shit!” He groaned as he pulled out and came all over my face.
He sat back down on my chest and I felt like I was suffocating. Between the weight on my chest and the mess on my face, I couldn’t breathe. There was no way I was opening my mouth or eyes at this point. I heard him sigh contently.
“Oh, you may just be my little pet. Better than your mother.”
I couldn’t keep my mouth shut. Before he had a chance to get off my chest, I sneered, “That’s just a matter of opinion, maybe we should ask Benny how good Harriet was. You know, to get a base for the findings.”
He stumbled off me and that gave me a little more courage that I have shocked him. Wiping my face off on the blanket, I opened my eyes and looked at him.
“Oh, you didn’t know that while Harriet was screwing you, she was screwing your brother too. Did you know she ended up pregnant too? Wonder who the father was.” I said, delighting in the horror on his face.
He backhanded me and called me a bitch before he left the room again. Immediately I ran to the bathroom and threw up.
Sitting on the floor next to the toilet, I leaned against the sink cabinet. My world was so great even with Wendi’s attack only moments ago. Was this Karma’s way of letting me know that people like me don’t have the happily ever afters? Was it letting me know that I only get to taste the fruit enough to want it, so I starve and ache for it but never get more than the taste?
Pulling myself up, I glanced in the mirror. I was bleeding from my lips and a cut on my cheek. Grabbing some toilet paper, I wet it and tried to clean myself up some. It stung the minute I touched the cut on my cheek and I audibly sucked in a breath. Shit! I tried again, but it was the same effect. Opening the cabinets, I checked to see if there was a first aid kit or something close to it to try and treat these cuts. Just as I stood back up from checking below the sink there was a knock at the door. I knew it wasn’t Lenny, he wouldn’t knock. Ignoring the door, I continued to search around for something besides toilet paper.
“Are you okay?”
Whirling around and jumping back, knocking into the counter, I groaned in pain.
“Shit! I didn’t mean to scare you. I wanted to check on you. Look at your face. Come out here, I have a kit out here.”
I stared at him. “What are you doing here?”
“I told you I would get you out of this. I mean it. Let me look at those cuts.”
With no other options, I walk out with Geno and let him look at my cuts. Even though he was helping me, I just couldn’t get the thought out of my head that he was my uncle and he left me with my mother.
“I was your damn niece and you left me to be hit and starved and molested! What kind of uncle would do that?” I hissed.
“Do you know what would have happened if I would have taken you with me?” He said softly.
I shook my head slightly before he asked me not to move. Gently he began to clean up the cuts.
“Lenny and Benny would have turned you into either a prostitute if you were lucky. If you were unlucky, they’d turn you into their sex slave. They would get you addicted to drugs so you were constantly in debt with no way of leaving. Do you really think that you would want to be a part of that world? If I would have gone and gotten you, you would have been. That is why your father and I kept me a secret. I promised him I’d protect you and I plan on keeping that promise.”
I yanked my head back and glared at him. “You’d protect me? You don’t think you have broken that promise already? Hell, even bringing me in here to him wasn’t enough, what about just a bit ago when he was raping my fucking mouth! I think that constitutes at failing in protecting me!” I screamed.
“He did what?” He hissed.
“Just leave,” I said softly as I moved away from him.
After a few moments of silence, he finally spoke. “I’ll have supper in for you soon.”
“I don’t want anything…” I trailed off.
“I’ll bring it anyway. Please only eat the food I bring in for you, same as the drink. Lenny will spike your stuff to make you more pliant. Please.”
I just nodded my head. He got up and surprised me by kissing the top of my head before leaving. I laid there afraid to sleep and thought of Carson. I smiled at the memories that trailed through my mind.
God, I missed him!
Days passed, I don’t know how many, but I didn’t see him again. Part of me wondered if I pissed him off enough that he gave up. The not knowing was killing me. My days were spent thinking about Carson, our time together. I also paced the room, throwing up, and practicing some of the things I remember seeing Carson doing the couple of times I spied on him.
It had been a long time since I had eaten anything substantial, I started to feel dizzy and I was no longer throwing up anything. It was all dry heaves. I just wanted to curl up in Carson’s arms. Stress has never set well with me. Especially being stressed like this, it was tearing me up.
Just when I thought I wasn’t going to see Lenny anymore he came back in several times. I fought him off from raping me, but I couldn’t fight him off when he sat on me and shoved his nasty fucking dick in my mouth. I have bruises all over me and really needed a change of clothes. I had given up hope. My outlook was like this room, dark and small. I was ready to die. It was obvious I wasn’t getting back to my Carson. I just wanted to die. As each day passed, I grew weaker. Suddenly it hit me that was what he was waiting for. He was waiting for me to be to be too weak to fight him off. Oh God!
At this point, I was thinking of ways to kill myself when the lock on the door turned again. The first thing I did was start crying. Truth be told I was broken, I was a shell. The door opened further and I dropped my head. I had no fight left. I’m not sure I could fight off another assault and that made me cry harder. Sinking to the floor, I prayed to die.
“Come on Colleen, I’m getting you out of here.”
My head shot up. “Geno? Why?”
“No daughter of mine is going to be abused like this. Come on let me help you.” He reached down to help me up.
“Daughter?” I breathed.
“Yes, daughter. I’ll explain it all once we are out of here. We don’t have much time. Come on, hurry.”
Without waiting for me to respond, he picks me up off the floor and carries me out of the room. I was so dizzy and weak that everything seemed to go by in a blur. It was a struggle to hold my head up. Suddenly I was set down in a car and the door shut. Then he was back in the car next to me.
“Tell me now,” I whispered.
“Tanner and I were close all growing up until I made some bad decisions and was dragged into this world because of it. We grew apart. Well, I went to a bar to let off steam and ran into this woman who seemed to need to let off steam of her own. We got drunk and one thing led to ano
ther.” He glanced at me embarrassed, but continued.
“Anyway, Tanner and I run into each other a few weeks later and he tells me he’s getting married that he knocked up his girl so the wedding is sooner than he had planned on. I told him I was happy for him and we kind of cleared the air that night. We started getting close again. Until they went to the doctors and found out the due date and all that, then after a huge fight I told him that I had slept with her. In my defense, I never met her before… Hell, I didn’t even know he was dating. Anyway, we put two and two together and figured out that I was the father. He was so mad at me for a long time, but eventually he came around. He asked if I wanted to be there and all that. We quickly decided that you being in my world was not an option. So he said he would raise you like his own and when you were old enough, he’d tell you the truth.”
“So why didn’t he tell me when we ran away?”
“Because he was afraid that if your mom found out she would take you from him. Yeah, he wasn’t your real father, but he was all you knew and the only barrier to keep you safe. Colleen, I have loved and watched over you from the minute I knew about you. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you, like I should have been, but I promise if you let me… I will be now.”
Staring out the window I didn’t say anything. I wasn’t sure what to say. My head was confused and my heart was aching. My whole being wanted to be with Carson.
“Where are we going?”
“I’m taking you back to where you belong. If this guy is as good to you as I think he is, I bet he is going nuts right now.”
“How long have I been there?”
“Technically, ten days since it’s after midnight. We should get there about lunchtime. Just lay back and get some sleep. I’ll wake you when we get there okay?”
“How do you know where I live?”
“I told you, Colleen, I’ve been there even if you haven’t seen me. Now please rest, I’ll wake you when we get there.”
I just nodded my head. My mind was racing with all the information I just found out. I needed time to process everything. Could I let Geno into my life knowing the decisions he made that kept me in the life that I have lived? Would he ever be my dad? How could they both lie to me? Did I not mean anything to them? Or did I mean that much that they felt they had to do this? My mind continued to race, but eventually I drifted off into sleep.
It had seemed like I had just closed my eyes when Geno was waking me up. I opened my eyes and immediately shut them again. The sun was bright and it hurt my head to see it. I sat up in the seat and rubbed my eyes. Eventually I was able to open them.
“Come on. Let me help you to your man.” He said as he stood up outside my door.
I looked around and we were at a park. Carson’s house was nowhere around. I looked up at Geno and he smiled down at me as he helped me from the car.
“Why are we here?”
“Because your man is here. I figured you wanted to see him and not wait outside his house.” He smiled down at me as he hooked his arm around my waist and helped me walk.
Realization dawned on me, on what Geno has just done. “He’s going to come after you.” I whispered.
“I know.”
“Why?”
“Because you are my daughter. I have stood behind, stayed away and for what? Just to have you brought back into that life anyway? I’d rather have a chance to be in your life, than keep pretending it isn’t killing me by not being in your life.”
“Thank you,” I whispered.
I kept my head down trying to focus on my steps. When I lifted my head again, I was immediately drawn to Carson. He stood leaning against a tree. Carson looked like hell, but still as gorgeous as ever. My breath caught in my throat as his head turned in my direction.
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
~CARSON~
Leaning against the tree, I watched my family enjoy themselves. My parents were joking around with Jackson about how when he was little he always wanted to wear my mom’s shoes. It was a story that will forever haunt him and brought a small smile to my face every time I heard it.
I have been here a few hours and ate some food, I think I’m going to call my outing and head back to be in my heartache alone. As I turn away from the tree, my eyes lock with the eyes that I can’t forget. My heart stops. Was it her? I noticed then a big guy holding her up. She started to walk and stumbled a little, but the guy caught her. She turned and said something to him and turned back to me.
It was like slow motion as she clumsily walked toward me. My feet couldn’t stay there and my heart wasn’t waiting. I began to jog toward her. She tried to pick up her speed, but began to stumble. Before she could fall, I wrapped her in my arms and held her tightly. She started shaking in my arms and I knew she was crying.
“Shh, Angel. I’m here. I have you.”
“I love you,” she rasped out. “Oh god, I’ve missed you.”
“Me too.” I sighed. “Me too. Baby you feel like you’ve lost weight.”
“I don’t know when the last time I actually ate anything was. Or showered, so sorry if I stink,” she laughed sadly.
“Come here, eat. We have plenty of food left over. Who’s the guy?” I couldn’t keep myself from asking any longer.
“His name is Geno and it turns out he’s my real dad. Long story. He saved me, can he stay?”
I walked over to Geno and stuck out my hand. “I’m Carson. Thank you for saving my Angel. I’m forever in your debt.”
“I’d do anything for her. I’m just sorry that everything I have done hasn’t stopped this from happening.” Geno said sadly.
“Are you hungry? We have plenty of food.”
“If you don’t mind.”
“Not at all.”
I picked Colleen up and carried her over to the picnic table and sat her on my lap. Everyone rushed over to us spouting off a million things at once. Colleen’s head sagged onto my shoulder, and I held her closer to me.
“Guys, please she needs to eat. Give her some time.”
“She didn’t have much. I brought her what I could, but I couldn’t get in there all the time or I’d draw attention. I did the best I could for her.” Geno said sadly.
“Thank you for helping Geno. I’m sorry for some of the things I said. You risked a lot for me. I won’t forget that.” Colleen said softly.
Gathering up some food and a drink for her, I held her while she ate. She had eaten maybe a handful of bites before she jumped off my lap and made for the trash can. I held back her hair and supported her until she finished. My mom handed me a bottle water and I handed it to Colleen.
“Here, rinse your mouth out.”
She did and tears fell down her cheeks. She looked up at me. “I’m so sorry. Will you ever forgive me?”
“Angel,” I pulled her into me. “There is nothing to forgive. You came back.” She continued to cry into my chest.
Picking her up, I stood and told my family that I was taking off to get Colleen home. I told Geno, he could come with if he wanted. He followed us out and I drove my girl home. She laid in my lap all the way back to my house, holding my hand as if it were her lifeline.
Once to the gate, I slowed to watch the gate close and continued down the drive and parked inside my garage. I gestured him to pull in the empty spot next to my car, then carried Colleen into the house.
“Um, straight down this hall to the very end on the right are a set of stairs take them up and turn to your right the first door on your left is the room you can stay in. If you need anything please let me know. I’m going to help her get cleaned up.”
He nodded his head and I made my way into my bedroom, straight into my bathroom. While holding her on my lap, I turn on the tub and got the water just right and started filling it. She moved off my lap and over to the sink to start brushing her teeth. I couldn’t keep my hands off her. For ten days, I thought I lost her. For ten days, my heart was broken. Reaching down, I pulled her shirt over her head and tossed it in th
e hamper.
Running my hands up and down her arms, I press tender kisses across her shoulders. Removing her bra, I toss it to join her shirt, then removed the rest of her clothes. While she finished up brushing her teeth, I removed my clothes. Once she finished, I picked her up and carried her to the tub. Slowly lowering us both into the tub, I grabbed a wash cloth and began to wash her. Once I finished, I began to wash her hair. She moaned as I massaged her scalp, so I took my time massaging her scalp as I washed her hair and then rinsed it.
When she was all clean she leaned back against me. Colleen hadn’t really said much since she showed up and I began to worry what had happened. Curiosity eating at me, I finally had to ask.
“What happened, Angel?”
There was silence and I worried she wasn’t going to talk at all. But finally, she spoke, quietly but she was talking.
“I went to pay off a debt that Harriet owed the Garcia brothers.”
“You did what?” I said shocked.
“Please let me finish.”
I nodded my head and she turned back around and cuddled back into my embrace. Kissing her shoulder and then her neck, I silently urged her to continue.
“When I got to the meeting place, Geno shows up instead of Lenny. I call Lenny and tell him I said to meet there if he wanted his money he’d show up. Well, he called Geno and told Geno that he had to escort me back to him.”
“Wait a second Geno works for him?”
She goes on as if I didn’t ask a question. “He starts telling me all this stuff about Lenny, Benny and Harriet. Long story short, he was trying to give me ammo to help save me. Lenny said he was going to put me in his circuit.” She started to cry.
“Angel,” I swallowed hard. “Did he hurt you?”
“He hit me a lot and because I mouthed off, he told me the first thing he was breaking in was my mouth. I stupidly thought it was him hitting me, but I was wrong. He held a gun to my head sat on my chest and pinned my arms to my side with his legs…he made me…he made me…” She started crying harder.
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