Rose put her girls to work doing the washing and ironing, baking bread and minding Jack, but still she found they were always under her feet. She prayed for the epidemic to wane and the schools to open up again, but by Christmas they were still closed. They had little to spare for the celebrations, but managed to give the girls oranges and a penny each to spend on sweets. To Rose’s relief, Pat stayed round at his mother’s over the festivities and they enjoyed a quiet Christmas together.
John made an effort to stay sober and they walked up to Simonside in the glistening frost and roasted chestnuts with Maggie and Danny. Lizzie was visiting with her husband, Peter, and even old McConnell perked up at the company and began to sing. They swapped news and everyone clapped when Jack took his first tottering steps across the room. Rose enjoyed the day and felt a surge of hope that things would improve come the New Year. If only she could get rid of Pat’s malign influence, she felt sure John would become his old self again.
But once home, drudgery and arguments over money weighed them down as before. John’s bad temper returned with his long, relentless days at the docks and the tramp uphill to Jarrow at the end of them. Sometimes he was turned away with no work at all and his black moods would deepen. Worse still, Pat was back and the schools remained firmly closed. Scores of children were still laid low with measles.
With Pat goading him, John began rowing again over sending Elizabeth out to work. It was Elizabeth who finally took the decision out of Rose’s hands, unable to bear the warring between the adults any longer. She came back one grey January day to say she had found a place with a clock repairer’s family, recommended by her teacher.
‘McQuarrie they call them. The missus needs someone to mind the bairns while she’s in the shop and he’s out calling on the big houses. I’m to do the washing and cleaning, an’ all.’
‘How much will they pay you?’ John asked at once.
‘Two shillings a week - and me bed and board.’
‘Better than nowt,’ he grunted.
Rose was stunned. ‘You’ll be living in then?’
Elizabeth nodded. ‘One day off a fortnight.’ She saw the look on her mother’s face and added, ‘Maybes I could bring the bairns round to see you some days - when the spring weather comes. They look canny - the lad’s six and his sister’s four. The missus is expecting again soon.’
Rose turned and busied herself at the kitchen table, trying to hide the desolation she felt at her daughter having to go ‘to place’ after all. After all these years of striving to give her an education, her dreams of Elizabeth becoming a pupil teacher had come to nothing. She was to skivvy for others instead. How William would have hated it!
When the day came for Elizabeth to go she refused to let her mother accompany her across town.
‘I’m old enough to go on me own,’ she insisted, as Rose fussed with her hair. Rose was hurt to think her daughter might be ashamed to introduce her to her more well-to-do employers. But as her only decent clothes were constantly in and out of the pawnshop, she supposed she did look shabby.
So Rose was brusque, belying what she felt inside. ‘We’ll see you in a fortnight. Keep yourself tidy and remember to say your prayers.’ She wiped a smut from the girl’s face with a wet finger.
Suddenly Elizabeth flung her arms around her mother’s neck, tears flooding her eyes. ‘Will you be all right, Mam?’
Rose steeled herself against the emotion that threatened to choke her. ‘Course I will. No crying now, hinny.’ Briefly she pressed her daughter to her breast and then let go. Sarah and Kate hovered nearby, unusually subdued. ‘Say goodbye to your sisters.’
The girls mumbled self-conscious farewells, then Elizabeth picked up Jack, kissed him and tickled him under his chin to make him giggle. Handing him over to Rose, she turned swiftly for the door. They followed her silently into the lane, but Kate could not contain herself. She ran after her older sister, shouting, ‘I’ll see you to the end, our Lizzie!’
Rose watched them go arm in arm down the muddy lane, Kate keeping up with her sister’s leggy strides with her strange limping skip. There would never be enough money for an operation on her foot, Rose realised with a pang. At the end, Elizabeth slipped free, turned, waved one last time and disappeared round the corner. Kate stood in the raw wind, her dark hair blowing wildly, waving to a figure that Rose could no longer see.
Unable to bear the sight, Rose said to Sarah, ‘Gan and fetch your sister back, hinny.’ Then she turned and went inside with a heavy heart.
The two weeks until Elizabeth’s first day off dragged like a month. Rose was largely cooped up at home with the younger children. It seemed to rain incessantly so that the kitchen was festooned with damp washing for days on end. Rose and the girls had to tidy it away in the evening, dumping it in a wet pile in the corner, so that Pat would not complain about it hanging over his bed or John pull it down in annoyance.
‘If that school ever opens again you’ll have forgotten all your lessons,’ she grumbled to the fractious girls. With breaks in the wet weather, Sarah and Kate ventured out to find firewood or nuggets of coal along the railway line, anything to get out of the house.
The day of Elizabeth’s holiday arrived at last and Rose had a tray of scones baked for the occasion. But by mid-afternoon on the Sunday there was no sign of her. An hour later it was dark and Rose knew she would not come so late. Pat was the only one who had an appetite for the special tea which he tucked into, then slumped in John’s chair by the fire and fell asleep.
Overwhelmed with disappointment, Rose cried at John, ‘They’ve no right to keep her there on her day off!’
But he shrugged fatalistically. He had been round to collect his stepdaughter’s wages from the McQuarries the day before and they had all feasted on herring and potatoes as a result.
‘She’s settling in canny. Maybes she’s taken a walk up to see Maggie instead.’
Rose was indignant. ‘She wouldn’t do that! Not on her first day off.’ She could not stop fretting and started questioning John all over again. ‘How did she look? Are they treting her well?’
‘I told you before,’ John answered impatiently, ‘she was canny. Mrs McQuarrie said she’s gettin’ on grand with the bairns and she couldn’t manage without her.’
Something struck Rose about his answer that had not the previous day. ‘Mrs McQuarrie said? But I thought you’d seen Elizabeth herself?’
John frowned hard in concentration over the game of patience he was playing with Kate’s birthday cards. He did not look up. ‘Well, not in person. She was busy upstairs.’
Rose looked at him in disbelief. ‘You came back without even a word to the lass? I thought you’d seen her. You told me she was looking grand. I knew I should’ve gone mesel’!’
‘Stop your fussin’,’ John snapped. ‘She’s a sensible lass. She’ll be all right.’
‘How do you know if you never saw her?’ Rose accused. ‘I’m ganin’ over there first thing tomorra to see for mesel’.’
‘Don’t you go interferin’ and causing bother with the McQuarries,’ John was quick to dissuade her. ‘It’s her first job and the lass has only been there a fortnight. Give her time to settle in, Rose Ann. You’ll only make it awkward for her, turnin up unexpected.’
Reluctantly Rose agreed. She did not want to be the cause of trouble between Elizabeth and her new employers. If Mrs McQuarrie had said she was doing well, she must take the woman’s word for it.
But she could not help crossing town the following week to try to catch a glimpse of her daughter. She stood in the rain for half an hour at the end of the street watching the house, but no one came or went. She thought this strange for a house with a workshop. Still, she was reassured by the look of the place with its polished door knob and clean windows. At least Elizabeth was working in a respectable, quietly prosperous neighbourhood, the
kind that foremen and small shopkeepers could afford. It reminded her of Raglan Street where she had lived with William.
The McQuarries’ workshop must be at the back, for the only indication that a clock mender lived there was from a discreet sign in the window. Rose stood in a frenzy of indecision, wondering if she should call in pretending to have something to repair. But her courage failed her and she trailed back home in frustration.
Nevertheless, she was not going to allow John to fetch the wages the next week. It was high time she met these McQuarries. On the Friday before Elizabeth’s next day off was due, she dressed carefully in her Sunday dress and cape, which she had reclaimed from the pawnshop with a pair of brass candlesticks and the fire poker. Leaving Jack with his sisters, she set off for the McQuarries’.
She hammered on the front door three times before it was answered. Rose hoped it would be Elizabeth, but instead a small man with spectacles peered out.
‘Mr McQuarrie?’
‘Yes, what do you want?’
‘I’m Mrs McMullen. I’ve come for Elizabeth’s wages - and to see the lass.’ She looked squarely into his narrow-set eyes.
She noticed his slight agitation, the way he pulled at his waistcoat and cleared his throat. Rose tried to see past him into the dark interior. There was no sound of children or anyone else.
‘I’ll not be paying a full two weeks,’ he muttered. ‘She’s not worked them.’
Rose was perplexed. ‘What d’you mean? She’s not been home. She must’ve worked them.’
He cleared his throat again noisily. ‘Been in bed, sick. Mrs McQuarrie’s had to take the children to her sister’s. It’s not been convenient - not with her preparing for her confinement—’
‘Sick?’ Rose cut him off. ‘What’s wrong with her?’
‘Caught the measles.’
Rose’s heart thumped in alarm. ‘Measles! Why didn’t you send her home?’
‘It’s nothing to do with me,’ he said indignantly. ‘She told the missus she didn’t want to go home and risk passing it on to her family. My wife was very considerate, letting her stay and putting up with the inconvenience of moving in with her sister.’
‘Where is she? I want to see me lass!’ Rose pushed past him easily.
‘You can’t barge in here.’
‘I’m taking her home. Tell me where she’s lying,’ Rose demanded.
‘She’s in the attic,’ he answered testily. ‘We’ll not have her back after this.’
Rose ignored him and hurried up the narrow stairs in front of her. ‘Elizabeth! Hinny, where are you?’
At the top were two bedrooms. Through one door she could see a rocking horse. She shouted again. A small croaking cry answered from the children’s room. Rose dashed in. The beds were empty. She could see no sign of her daughter. Then she heard a painful coughing from a half-open door into the eaves of the roof. Rushing forward, she yanked back the small door and peered in. The girl lay on a mattress in a space no bigger than a cupboard. The air smelt fetid yet cold. Rose sank to her knees.
‘Oh, Mary, Mother of God! What’s become of you?’ She felt her forehead. It burnt like fire.
‘Mam?’ Elizabeth croaked. ‘Is it you, Mam?’
‘Aye,’ Rose gulped, hardly able to speak. As she lifted her up, she could see the angry rash of small red spots on her face. Her neck looked swollen. ‘I’m taking you home. Can you stand, hinny?’
Elizabeth winced at the light from the open doorway and tried to shade her eyes. She sank back heavily in her mother’s arms.
‘Just try,’ Rose pleaded. ‘Put your arms round me neck and I’ll lift you.’
Struggling with all her effort, Rose managed to half drag her daughter out of the squalid roof space that passed for a room. But the girl had no energy. She knew she was too heavy for her to carry more than a few steps. Rose got her on to one of the children’s beds. It made her blood boil to think how her lass had been abandoned to her fever in that hateful cupboard, while the pampered McQuarrie children had been removed.
‘How could they have left you like this?’ she cried out loud.
Elizabeth squinted at her in confusion. ‘Mrs McQuarrie? You’re back, miss. Is David better?’
Alarm leapt inside Rose. The girl was delirious with fever.
‘It’s Mam,’ she said gently. ‘I’ll need to fetch your father to help me carry you home. You lie here, hinny, and rest. I’ll not be long.’
‘This is David’s bed.’ Elizabeth smiled and closed her eyes. ‘He must be better now.’
Suddenly it hit Rose. One of the children must have been ill first. Anger igniting inside her, she stormed downstairs, nearly knocking into Mr McQuarrie in the gloom of the hall.
‘Was your lad sick with the measles an’ all?’ she demanded.
‘David, yes,’ he said, startled by her question.
‘You should’ve had him isolated! But you had my lass living in that hole next to him. I bet you had her looking after him, didn’t you?’
‘Don’t blame me,’ he defended. ‘The girl knew he had measles when she agreed to take the job. That’s why my wife needed her. She couldn’t risk nursing him in her condition.’
Rose nearly hit him in her fury. That was why Elizabeth had told her not to come on that first day. She might have discovered there were measles in the house.
‘If she was here I’d give her a piece of my mind! Using my lass like that - it’s unforgivable!’ She stood over him threateningly. ‘I’ll be back to fetch her with me husband. You better let us in or he’ll knock you into next week.’
She fled back across Jarrow, wheezing and panting with the exertion, praying that John would be home and not waylaid in some dockside bar. Mercifully he was back. No doubt he had come home promptly with the thought of going to fetch Elizabeth’s wages. Rose breathlessly gabbled out her story as quickly as her racing pulse would allow.
John’s anger was instant. ‘How dare they tret the lass like that?’ He was off before she could regain her breath, marching into the dusk.
When Rose caught up with him at the house he was hammering on the door and shouting foul curses at the terrified McQuarrie.
‘Please, John, stop or he’ll never let us in,’ she urged. Finally she persuaded the clock repairer to unlock the door. Rose pulled John up the stairs while McQuarrie shut himself in the parlour.
John swore at the sight of Elizabeth’s limp, feverish body. He picked her up gently, but she did not seem to recognise him. Rose swiped a blanket off the bed and wrapped it around her. Downstairs again, John aimed a kick at the closed parlour door.
‘Come out, you bloody coward! You owe us two weeks’ wages! If you don’t pay up, you’ll have the McMullen brothers meeting you down a dark lane.’
McQuarrie opened the door long enough to thrust two shillings into Rose’s hand and then slam it shut again. ‘Now go away. If I see any of your kind round here again I’ll call for the constable.’
John cursed him loudly and kicked over an umbrella stand on his way out for good measure.
It was pitch-dark by the time they got Elizabeth home and up to bed. Rose ordered the younger girls to stay away from their sister.
‘You can sleep in our bed the night,’ she told them. ‘And see that Jack doesn’t find his way in there either.’
That night, John did not go out drinking with Pat. He sat by the fire staring into its dying flames while Rose kept vigil by Elizabeth’s bed. Once in a while she would come down for fresh water to bathe the girl’s itching limbs and burning face. Neither of them spoke, but drew comfort from the watchful presence of the other, while Pat snored on the settle.
In the early hours before dawn, Rose reappeared. ‘She’s sleeping more peacefully now.’
John nodded. He stood and stretched stiffly. ‘I had mea
sles as a bairn - so did five of me brothers. We all survived.’
‘Aye,’ Rose nodded. ‘So did Maggie.’ But silently she worried at the delirium she had witnessed. Maggie had been unwell, but never that feverish. Not for the first time she wondered how long ago Elizabeth had contracted the disease. She was so weak and confused she could have been lying in that attic for days. Who had tended her? Had McQuarrie pushed in food and water as if she were a dog in a kennel? Rose felt ridden with guilt.
She flopped into the chair John had just vacated. It was warm from his body. She closed her eyes in utter exhaustion.
‘Please God, Jack doesn’t catch it,’ she whispered.
‘Aye,’ he agreed, staring into the fire once more. ‘Rose,’ he added in a low rumble, ‘I’ll see to our Pat.’
She opened her eyes and looked at him questioningly.
‘He’s stopped with us long enough,’ he said awkwardly. ‘I’ll ask Mam to take him back if you like.’
Rose’s heart leapt. Finally he had come to his senses! If Elizabeth’s illness had brought it about then maybe some good would come out of this terrible carry-on.
‘Aye, that would be grand,’ Rose smiled at him for the first time in an age.
He smiled back bashfully. ‘Shall I tak the lass up a cup of water?’ he offered.
‘Ta,’ Rose nodded. She did not have the strength to move from her seat. She would try to doze for a few minutes.
She heard him fill the cup from the jug in the pantry and cross the room. Footsteps on the stairs. She was almost asleep . . .
A bellow like a bull made her sit bolt upright in fright. She was out of her chair in an instant. John was shouting her name like a mad thing. She hurried up the stairs, finding him roaring at the top like a man possessed.
‘She’s gone! Rose Ann, help! I think she’s gone!’
‘What do you mean, gone?’ Rose demanded in incomprehension.
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