by Jacki James
“You’re so silly,” I said shaking my head. “I can feel your brain spinning. Take it easy, big guy, it was a long time ago.”
He squeezed me a little tighter but all he said was, “I have a feeling I’m not going to like the way this story ends."
“Probably not,” I agreed. “But like I said, we were together for almost two years. I thought it was love. I thought it was a real relationship. Like the forever, kids and a house, kinda relationship. But the thing about Trevor is, more than anyone else, Trevor loves Trevor. And come to find out, Trevor also loves pretty boys who love Trevor. Lots of pretty boys. He had been cheating on me pretty much the whole time; I was just too naïve to realize it. I ended it. I’m sure you can imagine how well Mr. I am a god Trevor took me breaking things off with him.”
“Not well, I’m guessing,” he said with a squeeze.
“Yeah, not well. When we were together, anytime I wanted to go somewhere or do something, he called me high maintenance. Said he was a busy doctor and didn’t have time to put up with a high maintenance boyfriend. If I asked when he would be home, he told me I didn’t understand the demands on him as a doctor, and that I was too needy. When I confronted him about the cheating, he told me he cheated because I was too complicated and sometimes he just needed a simple fuck. When I told him I wanted out of the relationship, he was nasty about it. He went to the hospital board and complained about me. He told them he broke things off with me, and I was harassing him. He showed them pictures I had sent him.” My voice caught and I shuddered. I was trying hard to keep it together, but this is why I didn’t talk about this. It was embarrassing, and it was hard. “He showed them pictures of me, Alex. Private pictures.”
“I am so sorry, baby,” he whispered as he held me against him. I was silent for a minute feeling his big strong arms around me and tried to continue.
“He told the board it was him or me. That he didn’t feel safe working at the same hospital as me. They called me into the HR office and basically, paid me to leave. They didn’t believe him. Not really, I could tell. But he was a doctor, and I was a relatively new nurse, and well, simply put, I was easier to replace. I had signed a three-year contract for my bonus’ and tuition reimbursement. They gave me the last payout on my bonus, released me from my contract, and sent me on my way. Bye, bye, Dallas.”
“What did you do?” he asked.
“I did what any red-blooded twenty-four-year-old guy would do. I called my mama. Or Patty anyway.” I smiled remembering her reaction. “If one good thing came out of that mess, it was that I finally realized that Mike and Patty weren’t just my family. They were my parents. I was a mess when I called her and told her what happened. And boy, let me tell you, Patty Reynolds is a mighty, mighty mama bear.”
“She and Mike got in the car and drove two hours straight to my apartment. They arrived like the cavalry. First, she had the name of a prominent attorney and wanted me to sue the hospital. Of course, I didn’t want to do that. I mean, the pictures alone were enough to keep me from going to court. When I told her no, she said that’s what she expected me to say, that she had to go out to the car, and she’d be right back. When she returned, she handed me two moving boxes. She told me to pack up anything I didn’t want someone else to see and whatever I would need for a week.”
“I know how you boys are, Nathan. A single young man in the city. I’m sure there’s porn, toys, and god knows what else in this apartment that I’m sure you don’t want anyone to see. So pack it up yourself while I go get us something to eat,” I said in my best Patty voice.
“She came back to the apartment a few minutes later and told me to load up my boxes in the truck because she was taking me back home to the ranch.”
“Damn, I can’t wait to meet this woman. She sounds fierce.”
“She is indeed. I stayed on the ranch for a month, and then I moved here to Austin with Linc. I’ve been here ever since.”
I sat up, looked him in the face, and took his hands. “I need you to know that I didn’t only tell you this because I wanted you to know what a douche Trevor was. I mostly told you this because I need you to know that I know I’m a lot to handle. I know I’m a high maintenance diva. I know I can be needy and clingy and too much for a lot of people, but what I need to know is if you’re okay with that. I worry all the time that you’re going to wake up one day and realize I’m too much for you, and then you’ll leave me.”
Alex studied me intently until finally, he said “I’m glad you told me. Your work rule makes a lot more sense now. But as far as you being needy or high maintenance or whatever, none of that is true. I don’t care what some asshole told you in the past, this is the truth right here, right now. Some days you’re warm, caring, and kind. Some days you’re sass, glitter, and rainbows, but you are always my sunshine and my joy, baby. Yes, you’re a lot to handle, but you’re worth it, and you’re in no way too much for me.”
“You are so sweet. I have no idea what I did to deserve you, but I’m so glad you didn’t let me push you away.”
“Never,” he said pulling me back against him.
He rubbed his beard in the crook of my neck and I shivered. “You like my beard against your neck, don’t you?”
“Yeah,” I moaned as he alternated kisses on my neck and rubbing his beard in that sensitive hollow where my neck met my shoulder.
“Well, if you like my beard on your neck, imagine how much you’ll like it other places.”
“Yes, please,” I begged as I rubbed my face against his beard. I turned and took his mouth in a kiss.
“Let’s move this to the bedroom, Sunshine,” he said as he stood up taking me with him. I wrapped my legs around his waist, and he headed towards my room. I loved that he was big enough to carry me like this.
Chapter Fifteen
Alex
I carried Nathan into his bedroom, and then let him slide to the floor. “Clothes off,” I ordered in a voice that had my men in the Navy jumping to attention, but not my Nathan.
He just looked at me like he was waiting for something. Finally, he said in a teasing voice, “Did you mean, Nathan, take off your clothes, please?”
“No, I meant clothes off now.”
He just rolled his eyes, but he started taking them off. First, he slowly removed his shirt. He had the most amazing body. He was small but compact, and it was hard not to touch him, but I wanted everything off first. Then he pushed down his pants, revealing a gorgeous pair of red see-through boxer briefs. I wasn’t sure what they were made of, mesh or lace—lace I decided—but either way, I could see the outline of his hard cock through the briefs. Holy fuck, I’d never seen anything so beautiful.
He reached to grab the waistband and push them down, but I said, “Stop. Leave those on.” His hands stilled, and he just stood there letting me look at him.
“My god, Nathan. I have never seen anything more stunning than you are right this minute.” I couldn’t resist any longer and reached out and ran my hands down his sides. I could almost wrap my hands around his waist he was so much smaller than I was, but there was nothing delicate about him. He was all man. I slid my hands back up and brushed my thumbs over his nipples. They pebbled under my touch, and his eyes drifted closed.
“Oh, Lexi, that feels so fucking good,” he groaned.
I reached up with one hand and cupped his cheek, leaning in to kiss him while I trailed the other hand down his torso, stopping just at the band of his briefs. I ran that one finger along the band while I dipped my tongue into his mouth.
Pulling back from the kiss, I let my eyes trail down to the bulge behind the lace. I used my finger to lightly caress his dick. “I didn’t even know these came in lace. They look amazing and they’re so soft. I bet that soft lace feels incredible against your hard cock.” I cupped him and applied a little pressure.
“Lexi,” he moaned. “I want you so bad. Been waiting so long.”
“I love the way you say my name when you’re aroused,” I told h
im as I stepped away and started removing my clothes. First my shirt, then my pants. I was about to remove my plain black boxers when Nathan stopped me.
“No, you leave yours on, too. I have been imagining this for weeks.”
“Imagining what?”
“This,” he said as he dropped to his knees in front of me. He grabbed my thighs to steady himself and trailed his nose up the bulge in my briefs, inhaling my scent, and then he rubbed his face on my dick through the fabric. His eyes were closed, and he reveled in the feel and scent of me. It was the most erotic thing I had ever seen.
Nathan
God, he smelled just as good as expected. A musky mix of man and soap and sex. I ran my nose up his length again and he growled. I lifted my eyes, and met his, and grinned. “I love the way you smell.”
He reached down, grabbed me under my shoulders, and lifted me up. He slid his hands down to my waist and maneuvered us to the bed. Then he laid down and just looked at me with one eyebrow raised.
I smiled as I joined him on the bed. “So, where was I?” I asked as I ran my finger along the outline of his massive dick. The saying big hands, big feet, big dick definitely applied. “Right about here I believe.” I mouthed the base of his dick through his briefs and a wet spot appeared near the tip as he groaned. He lifted his hips to allow me to remove the briefs, and his hard length strained to reach me. I leaned over and gently licked the bead of pre-cum from the tip.
“Mmm, delicious.”
“Oh god, oh god, oh god,” he chanted as I took him down my throat. He reached down and grasped my chin stopping my movements, and he said, “Look at me.”
I raised my eyes to meet his, and he smiled. “Just like that Sunshine. I want you to look me in the eyes when you suck my cock.”
I nodded and then went back to work. I licked and sucked and played for a few minutes, never looking away. Every time I would feel his balls start to tighten, I would back off. I didn’t want him to come yet, but I wanted him close. Really close.
He growled and reached for me, pulling me up his body so I was straddling his waist. He was so big. I had imagined what it would be like to be with him like this. He could manhandle me and basically, just put me wherever he wanted me. His hands were so huge that when he placed them on my thighs, they covered almost the whole thing. I supposed being with someone so much larger than I was could have made me feel helpless or threatened but it didn’t. Alex made me feel cherished and protected.
He reached around me, slid both his hands underneath my lace manties, grasped my ass, and kneaded. I groaned, burying my face in his neck as I rocked against him.
“That feels so good,” he breathed. “So fucking good. Let’s get these off.” He tugged my underwear. I slid off him giving him access to remove them. “Lube. Where’s the lube?” He gasped as my cock slipped free, and he reached out to stroke me.
“It’s in the top drawer. I’ll grab it.” I rolled toward the drawer and dug around until I found it. When I rolled back, he was laying there watching me.
“You are the most amazing creature I’ve ever seen. Come here.” He reached out for me, and I slid on top of him so I was straddling him again. “You know I’ve never done this bareback before. I told you I’ve never done this with a man at all. But even with a woman, I’ve never gone without a condom. I can’t wait to bury myself deep inside you.”
“Well, then I say we stop waiting.” I popped open the bottle of lube and poured a generous amount on my hands, rubbing them together to warm it. Then wrapped my hand around his cock and began stroking, covering it in lube.
“Ah hell,” Alex groaned. “When I finally get inside you, I’m gonna last all of two seconds.”
“Then that just means we’ll need a round two.” I winked at him.
I raised up on my knees and positioned his cock at my hole, but he stopped me. “Don’t we need to get you ready?”
“Someone has been doing some internet research,” I teased. “I'm good sweetie, I prepped earlier and I’m ready.”
“I was looking forward to it,” he pouted.
I leaned in and kissed him. “Next time then.” Positioning myself above him, I slid slowly down a little at a time, and while I really had prepped myself, it took me a minute to adjust to his girth.
“So fucking full, Lexi. God, I'm so fucking full.”
“I know baby,” he groaned. “I know.”
When I had completely taken him inside me and I started to rock, he threw his head back and moaned. He grasped my hips and set a pace that worked for him, and I let him take control. I grabbed my dick, stroking in time to his movements. I shifted slightly so that he hit my prostate as he rocked me and holy shit, that was amazing.
“I'm so close, Nathan. So close.” He stopped rocking me and held me still above him and started to slam up into me hard and fast.
“Fuck, Lexi! Harder. God yes!” I shouted.
He pulled me down hard as he thrust up one more time, and then growled his release as I felt his dick pulse and shoot inside me.
I sped up my strokes, and just as I was about to come, he used his hands to pull me forward. I whimpered at the loss as his cock slipped out of me, but then he wrapped his lips around my cock and sucked.
“Fuuuckk!” I yelled as I came. I didn’t even have a chance to warn him, but he swallowed everything I had.
I collapsed on top of him, and he wrapped his arms around me, holding me tight until our breathing returned to normal.
“That was…” I couldn’t even find words.
“I know, Sunshine, I know,” he said giving me a gentle kiss. “I think we need to shower, eat some food, and then get some sleep. We have an early morning tomorrow.”
“Hmmm,” I sighed contentedly. “Gonna feel you all day tomorrow.”
“Sounds like you like the idea of that,” he chuckled.
“Oh yeah. I like it a lot.”
Chapter Sixteen
Alex
When I woke up the next morning, it took me a second to figure out where I was. The alarm on my phone was going off, but the phone wasn’t on the table by the bed. I was trying to get my brain to kick in when I heard a mumble from under the pillow next to me.
“For the love of all that is holy, turn off that alarm.”
Nathan. I was in his room. And he was naked in the bed beside me, sheet down around his waist, lean body stretched out looking positively lickable. I ran my finger down his spine and he shivered.
“No. You don’t touch me until you turn off that infernal noise. What time is it anyway?”
I laughed as I got up. “It’s five thirty.” I found my pants, dug the phone out of the pocket, and turned off the alarm.
“Thank you, baby Jesus. Now come back to bed.”
“No can do. We have to get up so we can get on the road. We’re headed to see the leaves, remember? If we’re going to get on the road by six, we’ve got to get moving.”
“You are way too cheerful for someone who just woke up,” he grumbled.
“Blame it on my time in the Navy. I learned to sleep when I could and wake up ready to go. Now up with you,” I told him as I pulled on the clothes I brought.
“Okay, but I need to shower first. I may say that I roll out of bed looking fabulous, but if you’re going to start sleeping over, you may as well know the truth. It takes work to look as amazing as I do every day.”
I walked over to his side of the bed and studied him for a minute, taking in his bed head and sleepy eyes. I reached down and pulled him up to me. “I think you look fabulous right this very minute. As a matter of fact, if we didn’t have someplace to be I would show you just how fabulous you are. But we do, so you jump in the shower and meet me in the living room. I’ll run to get us coffee...”
“And pastries! We need to get pastries too,” he interrupted.
I chuckled. “Yes, I’ll get pastries.”
When I returned, he met me at the front door in skin-tight jeans, a colorful sweater, and a beanie p
erfectly positioned on his head. He had eyeliner on and that yummy lip gloss shined on his lips. How he managed to look that amazing at six in the morning was a mystery to me, but he did. He actually looked like he walked right out of a fall fashion magazine.
He caught me staring and started to look self-conscious. “Um, is this okay? What I’m wearing, I mean?”
I really thought we were past this, but something must have him feeling unsure of himself today. “Are you kidding me? I was just trying to figure out how you manage to be so freaking gorgeous so early in the morning.” I brushed my finger along his face, leaning in for a quick kiss. “Mmm. Your lips always taste so good.”
He smiled at me. “I worry. You told your friend about us, but you haven’t told your family yet, and I don’t want to push.”
“Push how, by being you? Nathan, baby, you are perfect just as you are. You let me worry about my family. I’m planning to tell them soon, anyway. I was thinking maybe after the holidays. I don’t think it’s going to be a big deal, but at the same time, I want to enjoy the holidays with them just in case, you know.”
“Yeah, I do know,” he said sadly. “You don’t have to rush to tell them for me, Alex. I’m okay with things the way they are.”
I cupped his face while I looked into his eyes. This man was so special, and if I wasn’t already half in love with him before today, I would be now. He put others before him over and over. And who was I kidding? I wasn’t just half in love with him. I was all the way there, but he wasn’t ready to hear that yet.
“I’m not doing it for you. I’m doing it for us. I want to bring you to family gatherings. I want to talk openly about things we’ve done and the things you’ve said that made me laugh. I don’t want to pretend that I’m not seeing anyone when I’m actually the happiest I’ve been in ages. So after the holidays, I’ll tell them and let the chips fall where they may because I’m not giving you up. Now, let’s get on the road. We have a good three-hour drive ahead of us.”
