“He remembers nothing — he knows nothing” — answered Ardini— “He does not even realize me as a man — I might be a fish or a serpent for all his comprehension. One glance at his moveless eyes is enough to prove that. They are like pebbles in his head — without cognisance or expression. He mutters the words ‘Great Secret’ over and over again, and tacks it on to the other phrase of ‘No more wars’ in a semi-conscious sort of gabble, — this is, of course, the disordered action of the brain working to catch up and join together hopelessly severed fragments.”
Morgana lifted her sea-blue eyes and looked with grave appeal into the severely intellectual, half-frowning face of the great Professor.
“Is there no hope of an ultimate recovery?” she asked— “With time and rest and the best of unceasing care, might not this poor brain right itself?”
“Medically and scientifically speaking, there is no hope, — none whatever” — he replied— “Though of course we all know that Nature’s remedial methods are inexhaustible, and often, to the wisest of us, seem miraculous, because as yet we do not understand one tithe of her processes. But — in this case, — this strange and terrible case” — and he uttered the words with marked gravity,— “It is Nature’s own force that has wrought the damage, — some powerful influence which the man has been testing has proved too much for him — and it has taken its own vengeance.”
Morgana heard this with strained interest and attention.
“Tell me just what you mean,” — she said— “There is something you do not quite express — or else I am too slow to understand—”
Ardini took a few paces up and down the loggia and then halted, facing her in the attitude of a teacher preparing to instruct a pupil.
“Signora,” — he said— “When you began to correspond with me some years ago from America, I realised that I was in touch with a highly intelligent and cultivated mind. I took you to be many years older than you are, with a ripe scientific experience. I find you young, beautiful, and pathetic in the pure womanliness of your nature, which must be perpetually contending with an indomitable power of intellectuality and of spirituality, — spirituality is the strongest force of your being. You are not made like other women. This being so I can say to you what other women would not understand. Science is my life-subject, as it is yours, — it is a window set open in the universe admitting great light. But many of us foolishly imagine that this light emanates from ourselves as a result of our own cleverness, whereas it comes from that Divine Source of all things, which we call God. We refuse to believe this, — it wounds our pride. And we use the discoveries of science recklessly and selfishly — without gratitude, humbleness or reverence. So it happens that the first tendency of godless men is to destroy. The love of destruction and torture shows itself in the boy who tears off the wing of an insect, or kills a bird for the pleasure of killing. The boy is father of the man. And we come, after much ignorant denial and obstinacy, back to the inexorable truth that ‘they who take the sword shall perish with the sword.’ If we consider the ‘sword’ as a metaphor for every instrument of destruction, we shall see the force of its application — the submarine, for example, built for the most treacherous kind of sea-warfare — how often they that undertake its work are slain themselves! And so it is through the whole gamut of scientific discovery when it is used for inhuman and unlawful purposes. But when this same ‘sword’ is lifted to put an end to torture, disease, and the manifold miseries of life, then the Power that has entrusted it to mankind endows it with blessing and there are no evil results. I say this to you by way of explaining the view I am forced to take of this man whose strange case you ask me to deal with, — my opinion is that through chance or intention he has been playing recklessly with a great natural force, which he has not entirely understood, for some destructive purpose, and that it has recoiled on himself.”
Morgana looked him steadily in the eyes.
“You may be right,” — she said— “He is — or was — one of the most brilliant of our younger scientists. You know his name — I have sent you from New York some accounts of his work — He is Roger Seaton, whose experiments in the condensation of radioactivity startled America some four or five years ago—”
“Roger Seaton!” he exclaimed— “What! The man who professed to have found a new power which would change the face of the world? ... He, — this wreck? — this blind, deaf lump of breathing clay? Surely he has not fallen on so horrible a destiny!”
Tears rushed to Morgana’s eyes, — she could not answer. She could only bend her head in assent.
Profoundly moved, Ardini took her hand, and kissed it with sympathetic reverence.
“Signora,” he said— “This is indeed a tragedy! You have saved this life at I know not what risk to yourself — and as I am aware what a life of great attainment it promised to be, you may be sure I will spare no pains to bring it back to normal conditions. But frankly I do not think it will be possible. There is the woman who loves him — her influence may do something—”
“If he ever loved her — yes” — and Morgana smiled rather sadly— “But if he did not — if the love is all on her side—”
Ardini shrugged his shoulders.
“A great love is always on the woman’s side,” — he said— “Men are too selfish to love perfectly. In this case, of course, there is no emotion, no sentiment of any sort left in the mere hulk of man. But still I will continue my work and do my best.”
He left her then, — and she stood for a while alone, gazing far out to the blue sea and sunlight, scarcely seeing them for the half-unconscious tears that blinded her eyes. Suddenly a Ray, not of the sun, shot athwart the loggia and touched her with a deep gold radiance. She saw it and looked up, listening.
“Morgana!”
The Voice quivered along the Ray like the touched string of an aeolian harp. She answered it in almost a whisper —
“I hear!”
“You grieve for sorrows not your own,” said the Voice— “And we love you for it. But you must not waste your tears on the errors of others. Each individual Spirit makes its own destiny, and no other but Itself can help Itself. You are one of the Chosen and Beloved! — You must fulfil the happiness you have created for your own soul! Come to us soon!” A thrill of exquisite joy ran through her.
“I will!” she said— “When my duties here are done.”
The golden Ray decreased in length and brilliancy, and finally died away in a fine haze mingling with the air. She watched it till it vanished, — then with a sense of relief from her former sadness, she went into the house to see Manella. The girl had risen from her bed, and with the assistance of Lady Kingswood, who tended her with motherly care, had been arrayed in a loose white woollen gown, which, carelessly gathered round her, intensified by contrast the striking beauty of her dark eyes and hair, and ivory pale skin. As Morgana entered the room she smiled, her small even teeth gleaming like tiny pearls in the faint rose of her pretty mouth, and stretched out her hand.
“What has he said to you?” she asked— “Tell me! Is he not glad to see you? — to know he is with you? — safe with you in your home?”
Morgana sat down beside her.
“Dear Manella” — she answered, gently and with tenderest pity— “He does not know me. He knows nothing! He speaks a few words, — but he has no consciousness of what he is saying.”
Manella looked at her wonderingly —
“Ah, that is because he is not himself yet” — she said— “The crash of the rocks — the pouring of the flood — this was enough to kill him — but he will recover in a little while and he will know you! — yes, he will know you, and he will thank God for life to see you!”
Her unselfish joy in the idea that the man she loved would soon recognise the woman he preferred to herself, was profoundly touching, and Morgana kissed the hand she held.
“Dear, I am afraid he will never know anything more in this world” — she said, sorrowfully— “Nei
ther man nor woman! Nor can he thank God for a life which will be long, living death! Unless YOU can help him!”
“I?” and Manella’s eyes dilated with brilliant eagerness; “I will give my life for his! What can I do?”
And then, with patient slowness and gentleness, little by little, Morgana told her all. Lady Kingswood, sitting in an arm-chair near the window, worked at her embroidery, furtive tears dropping now and again on the delicate pattern, as she heard the details of the tragic verdict given by one of Europe’s greatest medical scientists on the hopelessness of ever repairing the damage wrought by the shock which had shaken a powerful brain into ruins. But it was wonderful to watch Manella’s face as she listened. Sorrow, pity, tenderness, love, all in turn flashed their heavenly radiance in her eyes and intensified her beauty, and when she had heard all, she smiled as some lovely angel might smile on a repentant soul. Her whole frame seemed to vibrate with a passion of unselfish emotion.
“He will be my care!” she said— “The good God has heard my prayers and given him to me to be all mine!” She clasped her hands in a kind of ecstasy, “My life is for him and him alone! He will be my little child! — this big, strong, poor broken man! — and I will nurse him back to himself, — I will watch for every little sign of hope! — he shall learn to see through my eyes — to hear through my ears — to remember all that he has forgotten!...” Her voice broke in a half sob. Morgana put an arm about her.
“Manella, Manella!” she said— “You do not know what you say — you cannot understand the responsibility — it would make you a prisoner for life—”
“Oh, I understand!” and Manella shook back her dark hair with the little proud, decisive gesture characteristic of her temperament— “Yes! — and I wish to be so imprisoned! If we had not been rescued by you, we should have died together! — now you will help us to live together! Will you not? You are a little white angel — a fairy! — yes! — to me you are! — your heart is full of unspent love! You will let me stay with him always — always? — As his nurse? — his servant? — his slave?”
Morgana looked at her tenderly, touched to the quick by her eagerness and her beauty, now intensified by the glow of excitement which gave a roseate warmth to her cheeks and deeper darkness to her eyes. All ignorant and unsuspecting as she was of the world’s malignity and cruel misjudgments, how could it be explained to her that a woman of such youth and loveliness, electing to dwell alone with a man, even if the man were a hopeless paralytic, would make herself the subject of malicious comment and pitiless scandal! Some reflection of this feeling showed itself in the expression of Morgana’s face while she hesitated to answer, holding the girl’s hand in her own and stroking it affectionately the while. Manella, gazing at her as a worshipper might gaze at a sacred picture, instinctively divined her thought.
“Ah? I know what you would say!” she exclaimed, “That I might bring shame to him by my companionship — always — yes! — that is possible! — wicked people would talk of him and judge him wrongly—”
“Oh, Manella, dear!” murmured Morgana— “Not him — not him — but YOU!”
“Me?” She tossed back her wealth of hair, and smiled— “What am I? Just a bit of dust in his path! I am nothing at all! I do not care what anybody says or thinks of ME! — what should it matter! But see! — to save HIM — let me be his wife!”
“His wife!” Morgana repeated the words in amazement, and Lady Kingswood, laying down her work, gazed at the two beautiful women, the one so spiritlike and fair, the other so human and queenly, in a kind of stupefaction, wondering if she had heard aright.
“His wife! Yes!”... Manella spoke with a thrill of exultation in her voice, — and she caught Morgana’s hand and kissed it fondly— “His wife! It is the only way I can be his slave-woman! Let me marry him while he knows nothing, so that I may have the right to wait upon him and care for him! He shall never know! For — if he comes to himself again — please God he will! — as soon as that happens I will go away at once. He will never know! — he shall never learn who it is that has cared for him! You see? I shall never be really his wife — nor he my husband — only in name. And then — when he comes out of the darkness — when he is strong and well once more, he will go to YOU! — you whom he loves—”
Morgana silenced her by a gesture which was at once commanding and sweetly austere.
“Dear girl, he never loved me!” she said, gently— “He has always loved himself. Yes! — you know that as well as I do! Once — I fancied I loved HIM — but now I know my way of love is not his. Let us say no more of it! You wish to be his wife? Do you think what that means? He will never know he is your husband — never recognise you, — your life will be sacrificed to a helpless creature whose brain is gone — who will be unconscious of your care and utterly irresponsive. Oh, sweet, TOO loving Manella! — you must not pledge the best years of your youth and beauty to such a destiny!”
Manella’s dark eyes flashed with passionate ardour and enthusiasm.
“I must — I must!” she said— “It is the work God gives me to do! Do you not see how it is with me? It is my one love — the best of my heart! — the pulse of my life! Youth and beauty! — what are they without him? Ill or well, he is all I care for, and if I may not care for him I will die! It is quite easy to die — to make an end! — but if there is any youth or beauty to spend, it will be better to spend it on love than in death! My white angel, listen and be patient with me! You ARE patient but still be more so! — you know there will be none in the world to care for him! — ah! — when he was well and strong he said that love would weary him — he did not think he would ever be helpless and ill! — ah, no! — but a broken brain is put away — out of sight — to be forgotten like a broken toy! He was at work on some wonderful invention — some great secret! — it will never be known now — not a soul will ever ask what has become of it or of him! The world does not care what becomes of anyone — it has no sympathy. Only those who love greatly have any pity!”
She clasped her hands and lifted them in an attitude of prayer, laying them against Morgana’s breast.
“You will let me have my way — surely you will?” she pleaded— “You are a little angel of mercy, unlike any other woman I ever saw — so white and pure and sweet! — you understand it all! In his dreadful weakness and loneliness, God gives him to ME! — happy me, who am young and strong enough to care for him and attend upon him. I have no money, — perhaps he has none either, but I will work to keep him, — I am clever at my needle — I can embroider quite well — and I will manage to earn enough for us both.” Her voice broke in a sob, and Morgana, the tears falling from her own eyes, drew her into a close embrace.
And she murmured plaintively again —
“His wife! — I must be his wife, — his serving-woman — then no one can forbid me to be with him! You will find some good priest to say the marriage service for us and give us God’s benediction — it will mean nothing to him, because he cannot know or understand, — but to me it will be a holy sacrament!”
Then she broke down and wept softly till the pent-up passion of her heart was relieved, and Morgana, mastering her own emotion, had soothed her into quietude. Leaning back from her arm-chair where she had rested since rising from her bed, she looked up with an anxious appeal in her lovely eyes.
“Let me tell you something before I forget it again” — she said— “It is something terrible — the earthquake.”
“Yes, yes, do not think of it now” — said Morgana, hastily, afraid that her mind would wander into painful mazes of recollection— “That is all over.”
“Ah, yes! But you should know the truth! It was NOT an earthquake!” she persisted— “It was not God’s doing! It was HIS work!”
And she indicated by a gesture the next room where Roger Seaton lay.
A cold horror ran through Morgana’s blood. HIS work! — the widespread ruin of villages and townships, — the devastation of a vast tract of country — the
deaths of hundreds of men, women and little children — HIS work? Could it be possible? She stood transfixed, — while Manella went on —
“I know it was his work!” she said— “I was warned by a friend of his who came to ‘la Plaza’ that he was working at something which might lose him his life. And so I watched. I told you how I followed him that morning — how I saw him looking at a box full of shining things that glittered like the points of swords, — how he put this box in a case and then in a basket, and slung the basket over his shoulder, and went down into the canon, and then to the cave where I found him. I called him — he heard, and held up a miner’s lamp and saw me! — then — then, oh, dear God! — then he cursed me for following him, — he raised his arm to strike me, and in his furious haste to reach me he slipped on the wet, mossy stones. Something fell from his hand with a great crash like thunder — and there was a sudden glare of fire! — oh, the awfulness of that sound and that flame! — and the rocks rose up and split asunder — the ground shook and broke under me — and I remember no more — no more till I found myself here! — here with you!”
Morgana roused herself from the stupefaction of horror with which she had listened to this narration.
“Do not think of it any more!” she said in a low sad voice— “Try to forget it all. Yes, dear! — try to forget all the mad selfishness and cruelty of the man you love! Poor, besotted soul! — he has a bitter punishment!”
She could say no more then, — stooping, she kissed the girl on the white forehead between the rippling waves of dark hair, and strove to meet the searching eyes with a smile.
“Dear, beautiful angel, you will help me?” Manella pleaded— “You will help me to be his wife?”
And Morgana answered with pitiful tenderness.
“I will!”
And with a sign to Lady Kingswood to come nearer and sit by the girl as she lay among her pillows more or less exhausted, she herself left the room. As she opened the door on her way out, the strong voice of Roger Seaton rang out with singularly horrible harshness —
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