Finn joined me in the water and we switched positions so that he could rinse his body off as well. I watched as the water streamed down his hard stomach and I smiled when he turned to me. He had heat in his eyes and he surprised me when he bent down into the tub getting on his hands and knees. He buried his tongue into my pussy and I gasped as I braced myself against the walls of the shower.
I shivered despite the heat of the shower when he sucked on my clit. My pussy was throbbing as he continued to taste my opening.
He got up from his knees and without saying a word he turned me around so my ass was facing him. He pushed me into the shower wall and I stuck my ass out towards him.
“I want to bite your hot little ass.”
Confused, I asked, “My what?”
“Your hot little ass, I'm going to bite you.”
I was speechless and I wasn't sure if I should object or not.
I was bent over in the doggy style position with my ass in the air. He softly bit my cheeks and I groaned beneath him.
He pushed his hard cock into me and I moaned as he filled me up. I was panting as he pushed into me hard and fast. The waves of pleasure were completely taking me over and I could barely contain myself as I came all over his cock. He kept pumping into me fast and I moaned feeling a delicious sensation warming my entire body. I felt another orgasm building up and when I came again, he spilled into me making me feel complete once again.
He leaned against my back and I could feel him breathing heavy against me. “Now that's the quickie I wanted last night.”
I giggled. “That felt so good Finn, my body is just humming now.”
“Mmmmm, I like that.” He pulled himself out of me and I felt empty the moment he did. I turned to him and kissed him on the mouth, my tongue finding its way in to meet his. We kissed like that for a while, passion building between us.
My tongue slid gently into his mouth and touching his tongue. Electricity hit me and I started to feel warm all over. Oh God, what was with this guy? He was just so incredible, I physically needed him all the time and I wanted him to feel the same way.
His mouth was on my breasts and within seconds I was ready to go again and I think that he felt the same. His cock stood there before me rock hard again causing me to gasp. God, he was so big. I could stare at it all day; it was beautiful and it brought me so much pleasure.
He was looking me in the eyes, a hot intensity there. I wondered briefly why he was up so late and what made him bring me into the bathroom to have sex. He started rubbing his cock against my inner thigh and I felt myself grow wet.
He murmured into my ear, his breath hot against my skin causing goosebumps to break out along my skin, “Let me in, baby.”
“You know that you can have my anytime, Finn, I’m all yours.”
He practically groaned with lust as he pushed himself against me.
It felt right, it felt good, I had definitely made the right decision by being with him. It all made sense now that he wanted to see me every day in the contract. The man had no limit to how much he needed to be pleased or even how much he wanted to please me; it was endless. I wondered if he would ever tire of me.
“You are absolutely perfect,” He said as he pulled me in close. “I hope you realize just how much these moments mean to me.”
I couldn’t help the tears the welled in my eyes. It was obvious that there was more than sex between us but at no point had we discussed that and I knew that he planned on honoring that contract and then letting me go and that was the most painful part of the whole thing. One day he would let me go and that would be the end of moments just like this one. It had been a hell of a day but I finally had my dream life. But I knew that it was also going to end sooner rather than later.
23
Finn
I rolled over in bed and saw the most beautiful creature beside me. Sunlight shined through the window and caressed her face. I didn't want to wake her; I just wanted to watch her while she slept. She was peaceful and beautiful and watching her sleep, I knew what I had to do and she wasn’t going to like it. I had been living in a fantasy for far too long and I had to get with reality again. Even after the shower incident the night before, I had not been able to fall asleep as easily as it was for Harper. She had laid beside me sleeping soundlessly and all I could think about was the guilt I felt for my wife’s death. It wasn’t healthy, I knew that and it wasn’t the first time that I considered going to a professional to help me through the pain. There were times that I was absolutely consumed by the guilt that I felt when I thought about Emelia.
Just laying there and thinking about her, put me immediately in a foul mood and I was no longer in the mood to be on the island. I had so much work to complete with the project and to somehow convince Axel to get onboard with me. I didn’t know why I thought it was an appropriate time to go off on vacation with another woman. Another woman. Would Emelia really have wanted me to be with another woman? I knew in some ways that Bryce was right but in other ways, I knew that my wife would have wanted to be the one that brought me pleasure regularly.
Harper opened her eyes and the spell was broken between us. Watching her no longer mattered and I knew that I had to get home. Her eyes fluttered open and closed repeatedly as she was fully awake. She saw me staring at her and she smiled but I didn’t smile back. What the hell had I been thinking bringing that beautiful girl into my mess. She deserved so much better than me. I shouldn’t have gone anywhere near her because I was going to hurt her and I knew that now. I was going to hurt her in a way that she didn’t deserve especially since I was the only man that she had ever been with.
“We need to pack up and get back to New York.”
She looked at me confused, a cloudy look coming over her face.
She moved towards me and grabbed my cock underneath the sheets.
“No, Harper, we need to get going.”
“Shhh.”
“Harper, we can't.”
“Shhh, I'm not waiting, I want you now.” She whispered.
I knew what she was doing. She sensed that something was wrong and she was trying to reset the mood. I felt terrible because I knew that I would please her and then I would leave again. There was no way around it, I wasn’t ready for anything more with her and she deserved a far better man than me. I would never be able to give her my whole heart and she deserved to have someone wholly and completely.
We quickly undressed each other and I moved above her, spreading her legs wide. I liked looking at her pink pussy, it drove me insane with lust. I could touch that body forever, I knew that I could and yet I didn’t know how to make something so simple, a reality. Her opening was always wet and ready for me and that was one of my most favorite parts about her. I knew that she wanted me because she was always primed to be fucked by me.
We had a terrific make out session and then I got out of bed. It was time to get off the island. It was really easy to get lost in Harper but eventually my feelings always went gloomy. I heard her get out of the bed and she didn’t say a word as she started packing all of her things.
It wasn’t long before we were back in the seaplane, and then my private jet and finally back in Manhattan. We had said very little to each other through our journey back home and I knew that she was hurt by the fact that we had abruptly left the island. She knew that I was upset, she just didn’t know how to fix it. She was likely blaming herself in the same way that I blamed myself and that sucked because she didn’t deserve that. I didn’t want to get into a talk with her about what was bothering me because it would just hurt her and there was nothing that she could do to change my feelings anyways, so why talk about it?
The vacation with Harper was great, there was no denying it and it was rare for me to be with a woman that intensely. I couldn’t even remember having sex with another woman that many times and that included Emelia. There was something special between us but I could not seem to control the guilt that came afterward and I couldn’t live tha
t way all the time. It was wreaking havoc on me mentally. It was time to get back to reality and throw himself in my work again.
I would stick to the terms of the contract and do what needed to be done but after the six months, I would be sending Harper on her way with a pile of money. I could at least give her a bright future financially, if nothing else.
I knew that I was going to break her heart with the project as well. I was going to have to tell her that her dream was not going to come true and that might be the hardest part of the situation for me. In regard to the candy factory, I was not going to help her realize her dreams. I had another direction for it and that was the way that I wanted to go. I would certainly try to help her with a developmental property in the future if she found something. If she could find another site and managed to make any headway with the development, I would be willing to put up half the stake. I would do that for her especially since she wasn’t getting the candy factory and that was something that she had really been passionate about. It was the least that I could do. She had done more for me than she realized and I was really grateful for that. She had allowed me the capacity to feel again and many other women had tried to do the same thing and had failed. She had made me feel alive again, more alive than I had ever thought was possible after Emelia’s death. That was a beautiful thing but I knew that it was almost over too. Time to come back to reality!
I couldn’t betray Emelia’s memory, especially since she died because of my carelessness. Being alone was my penance for what happened to her. She didn’t get the chance to fulfill all her dreams. We wanted to have kids, but that did not happen too. I did not deserve to go off into the sunset happy while she was gone, never to return again. It wasn’t right after what had happened to her. She had deserved so much better than what I had given her and so did Harper. Harper deserved to be with a guy that could give her everything and that included his heart. I just wasn’t able to do that and I wasn’t sure that I ever would be. Only time would tell but currently, I couldn’t do it. When the contract was over, Harper and I would have to split ways.
24
Harper
Two Months Later…
I was sitting on the couch with Carmen and we were watching the reality TV series Yummy Mummies and it was just one of those guilty pleasures that was fun to watch with a best friend. I spent most of my nights in the apartment that Finn rented for us but I always enjoyed it when I got to be at home with Carmen. I didn’t see her as much as I usually did because of the contract schedule. So, when I had the chance, we always tried to have a girl’s night.
Being with Carmen always felt good because I felt real and wanted, not like I was just a rental to someone. Things had changed a lot between me and Finn since returning from the island and it was confusing. On the island things had been so passionate and loving that it seemed as if Finn might actually be falling for me but since we returned, it seemed as if he was maintaining a safe distance, even in the bedroom. He never once spent the night with me in the apartment which I found to be puzzling. I often spent my evenings waiting around for him and there were times he didn’t show up even after he told me that he would. We would spend some time together, perhaps a dinner and then return to the apartment to have some wild sex and then he would leave abruptly. I could feel a wall between us but I didn’t know what to do about it. Things had not been the same between us since we talked about Emelia and I believed that was at the root of why Finn was keeping me at a distance. I understood his pain and how he didn’t want her memory to disappear but I didn’t understand why he couldn’t allow himself to be happy as well. He didn’t need to forget about Emelia, he just needed to allow room in his heart for someone else.
There were often nights that I laid awake at night unable to sleep and wondering how I managed to do that to myself. I got myself involved with someone who didn’t want more than sex. I knew that right from the beginning but there was always a part of me that hoped that it might be different, that he might change his mind.
Every time he left, it got just a little harder for me. I felt a little of my heart go with him and I often felt empty inside after he left. He was a good man, kind and funny and I just wished that he realized that he deserved to be happy. That I could make him happy for the rest of his life. How could I help but fall for him? He was incredible in every way, if only he could let go of the past. Still, it was clear that he didn’t feel the same way, which was disheartening as hell. I knew that I was falling for him, I loved him with all my heart, and now it was too late for me.
Carmen elbowed me, asking if there was any chocolate ice cream left, which brought me back to reality.
I shrugged. “I’m not sure.”
Carmen jumped up to grab some, asking me if I wanted some.
“No thanks, I’m good.”
Carmen looked at me like I was crazy.
“What?”
“It’s our period weekend.”
We had been living together now for so long that our menstruation cycles had matched up and we always got our periods at the same time. I was always craving chocolate when I was on my period.
I just stared at her confused.
“You are always dying for chocolate when you are on your period. So, what changed?” She asked.
I frowned confused. “I’m not on my period.” I pulled out my phone and checked the calendar.
Carmen dropped the pint of ice cream on the floor and I looked up startled. I was supposed to be on my period right then, she was right. So, where was it?
“You aren’t on your period? Since when? We have been cycling together since business school and we’ve always been regular like clockwork. Two bitches eating ice cream together.” Carmen added, “Come to think of it we haven’t run out of tampons yet. Did you get your period last month, too?”
I sat there stunned, trying to think of whether I had my period the month before and I couldn’t remember having it. My eyes widen and I cursed.
“Carmen, I can’t remember the last time that I had my period.”
“Shit. Let’s get you to the drug store.”
25
Finn
It was my job to make sure that Harper had the best birthday possible. I was working with an event planner to make sure that the arrangements for that evening were as perfect as I envisioned them to be. I had just found out the week before that her birthday was coming up and I wanted to do something special for her. My planning had spiraled out of control and now the party was going to be truly unforgettable.
Although I had been strict on myself, never staying overnight with Harper, and not making the mistake of burying myself in her for the entire weekend again, like I had on the island. In spite of all my rules, I was still falling hopelessly in love with her, to my massive distress. I couldn’t help it and yet I was not happy about it at all. There was just something unique about Harper, something that I didn’t see in other women. She was not like Emelia, who came from money and had a worldly sophistication that I had found attractive. Harper was different from that, more of an innocent young girl with loads of career aspirations, but she seemed to have a layer of sadness, underneath it all.
Harper came in that morning with a coffee in her hand for me and I gratefully accepted it.
“Harper, I need you to accompany me to a meeting tonight.”
Harper tried to hide her disappointment but it was written all over her face.
“Really? Are you sure you need me, I already have plans tonight?”
I felt a sting of angst as I knew that I was pulling the wool over her eyes and taking her away from birthday plans that she had already made but I decided to pull rank and demand that she be with me.
“You are my plans for the week, remember, it’s under contract and I need you at this meeting. You can do whatever you have planned tonight, tomorrow.”
Harper sighed. “Fine. Where are we going?”
“We are meeting a developer that I have partnered with in the past. I
t would be valuable to sit in on this meeting with us.”
She just nodded and sat down at her desk to begin working.
****
That night, we headed out of the office and got into a waiting car. Harper was silent throughout the ride and I wondered if she was still thinking about the fun birthday plans that she was missing that evening. I felt bad making her cancel her plans but I was sure that I would be able to make it up to her.
We pulled up in front of a block-long edifice and got out of the car. Heading through an archway, I led Harper into a green area. That was when her mouth dropped open and she looked around her, eyes wide with awe. The building that we were in was a multi-use complex just like the one that she had suggested in our first meeting together.
“Finn, this is gorgeous.”
My goal in bringing her there was to show her that she could still have her dreams realized without the candy factory. I knew that soon I would be telling her that the candy factory was not going to happen for her and I wanted her to know that there were other things open to her, like this complex. We are meeting Chick Francis at the complex and she was the one responsible for the development. She was a tough woman and she reminded me of Harper so much that I thought that they should meet. Chick would be someone that could work with Harper and would likely be interested in some of Harper’s plans. It could be a match made in development heaven. I introduced them and then allowed Chick to give Harper a tour of the place while I started making calls to make sure the rest of the birthday celebration was coming together nicely.
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