by Don DeLillo
It seems the Soviet Union has conducted an atomic test at a secret location somewhere inside its own borders. They have exploded a bomb in plain unpretending language. And our detection devices indicate this is clearly what it is—it is a bomb, a weapon, it is an instrument of conflict, it produces heat and blast and shock. It is not some peaceful use of atomic energy with home-heating applications. It is a red bomb that spouts a great white cloud like some thunder god of ancient Eurasia.
Edgar fixes today’s date in his mind. October 3, 1951. He registers the date. He stamps the date.
He knows this is not completely unexpected. It is their second atomic explosion. But the news is hard, it works into him, makes him think of the spies who passed the secrets, the prospect of warheads being sent to communist forces in Korea. He feels them moving ever closer, catching up, overtaking. It works into him, changes him physically as he stands there, drawing the skin tighter across his face, sealing his gaze.
Rafferty is standing on the part of the ramp that is downhill from Mr. Hoover.
Yes, Edgar fixes the date. He thinks of Pearl Harbor, just under ten years ago, he was in New York that day as well, and the news seemed to shimmer in the air, everything in photoflash, plain objects hot and charged.
The crowd noise breaks above them, a chambered voice rolling through the hollows in the underbody of the stadium.
Now this, he thinks. The sun’s own heat that swallows cities.
Gleason isn’t even supposed to be here. There’s a rehearsal going on right now at a midtown studio and that’s where he’s supposed to be, preparing a skit called “The Honeymooners,” to be shown for the first time in exactly two days. This is material that’s close to Jackie’s heart, involving a bus driver named Ralph Kramden who lives with his wife Alice in a shabby Brooklyn flat. Gleason sees nothing strange about missing a rehearsal to entertain fans in the stands. But it’s making Sinatra uneasy, all these people lapping at their seat backs. He is used to ritual distances. He wants to encounter people in circumstances laid out beforehand. Frank doesn’t have his dago secret service with him today. And even with Jackie on one flank and Toots on the other—a couple of porkos who function as natural barriers—people keep pressing in, showing a sense of mission. He sees them decide one by one that they must speak to him. The rigid grins floating near. And the way they use him as a reference for everything that happens. Somebody makes a nice play, they look at Frank to see how he reacts. The beer vendor trips on a step, they look at Frank to see if he has noticed.
He leans over and says, “Jack, it’s a great boot being here but you think you can put a towel over your face so these people can go back to watching the game?”
People want Gleason to do familiar lines of dialogue from the show. They’re calling out the lines they want him to do.
Then Frank says, “Where the hell is Hoover by the way? We need him to keep these women off our beautiful bodies.”
The catcher works up out of his squat, dirt impacted in the creases that run across the back of his ruddled neck. He lifts his mask so he can spit. He is padded and bumpered, lips rough and scored and sun-flaked. This is the freest thing he does, spitting in public. His saliva bunches and wobbles when it hits the dirt, going sandy brown.
Russ Hodges is over on the TV side for the middle innings, talking less, guided by the action on the monitor. Between innings the statistician offers him part of a chicken sandwich he has brought along for lunch.
He says to Russ, “What’s the wistful look today?”
“I didn’t know I had a look. Any look. I don’t feel capable of a look. Maybe hollow-eyed.”
“Pensive,” says the statman.
And it’s true and he knows it, Russ is wistful and drifting and this is so damn odd, the mood he’s been in all day, a tilting back, an old creaky easing back, as of a gray-haired man in a rocker.
“This is chicken with what?”
“I’m guessing mayonnaise.”
“It’s funny, you know,” Russ says, “but I think it was Charlotte put the look in my face.”
“The lady or the city?”
“Definitely the city. I spent years in a studio doing re-creations of big league games. The telegraph bug clacking in the background and blabbermouth Hodges inventing ninety-nine percent of the action. And I’ll tell you something scout’s honor. I know this sounds farfetched but I used to sit there and dream of doing real baseball from a booth in the Polo Grounds in New York.”
“Real baseball.”
“The thing that happens in the sun.”
Somebody hands you a piece of paper filled with letters and numbers and you have to make a ball game out of it. You create the weather, flesh out the players, you make them sweat and grouse and hitch up their pants, and it is remarkable, thinks Russ, how much earthly disturbance, how much summer and dust the mind can manage to order up from a single Latin letter lying flat.
“That’s not a bush curve Maglie’s throwing,” he says into the mike.
When he was doing ghost games he liked to take the action into the stands, inventing a kid chasing a foul ball, a carrot-topped boy with a cowlick (shameless, ain’t I) who retrieves the ball and holds it aloft, this five-ounce sphere of cork, rubber, yarn, horsehide and spiral stitching, a souvenir baseball, a priceless thing somehow, a thing that seems to recapitulate the whole history of the game every time it is thrown or hit or touched.
He puts the last bite of sandwich in his mouth and licks his thumb and remembers where he is, far from the windowless room with the telegraph operator and the Morse-coded messages.
Over on the radio side the producer’s saying, “See that thing in the paper last week about Einstein?”
Engineer says, “What Einstein?”
“Albert, with the hair. Some reporter asked him to figure out the mathematics of the pennant race. You know, one team wins so many of their remaining games, the other teams wins this number or that number. What are the myriad possibilities? Who’s got the edge?”
“The hell does he know?”
“Apparently not much. He picked the Dodgers to eliminate the Giants last Friday.”
The engineer talks through the blanket to his counterpart from KMOX. The novelty of the blanket has these men talking to each other in prison slang. When they switch to black dialect the producer gets them to stop but after a while they’re at it again, doing a couple of reefer Negroes in the fumy murmurs of some cellar room. Not loud enough to be picked up on mike of course. An ambient noise like random dugout buzz—a patter, a texture, an extension of the game.
Down in the field boxes they want Gleason to say, “You’re a dan-dan-dandy crowd.”
Russ makes his way back to the radio side after the Giants go down in their half of the sixth still trailing by a run. He’s glad he doesn’t have a thermometer because he might be tempted to use it and that would be demoralizing. It’s a mild day, glory be, and the rain’s holding off.
Producer says, “Going to the wire, Russ.”
“I hope I don’t close down. My larynx feels like it’s in a vise.”
“This is radio, buddy. Can’t close down. Think of what’s out there. They are hugging their little portables.”
“You’re not making me feel any better.”
“They are goddamn crouched over the wireless. You’re like Murrow from London.”
“Thank you, Al.”
“Save the voice.”
“I am trying mightily.”
“This game is everywhere. Dow Jones tickers are rapping out the score with the stock averages. Every bar in town, I guarantee. They’re smuggling radios into boardrooms. At Schrafft’s I hear they’re breaking into the Muzak to give the score.”
“All those nice ladies with their matched sweater sets and genteel sandwiches.”
“Save the voice,” Al says.
“Do they have tea with honey on the menu?”
“They’re eating and drinking baseball. The track announcer at Belmont’
s doing updates between races. They got it in taxicabs and barbershops and doctors’ offices.”
They’re all waiting on the pitcher, he’s a faceful of boding, upper body drawn forward, glove hand dangled at the knee. He’s reading and reading the sign. He’s reading the sign. Hitter fidgeting in the box. This son of a buck can bring it.
The shortstop moves his feet to break the trance of waiting.
It’s the rule of confrontation, faithfully maintained, written across the face of every slackwit pitcher since there were teams named the Superbas and the Bridegrooms. The difference comes when the ball is hit. Then nothing is the same. The men are moving, coming out of their crouches, and everything submits to the pebble-skip of the ball, to rotations and backspins and airstreams. There are drag coefficients. There are trailing vortices. There are things that apply unrepeatably, muscle memory and pumping blood and jots of dust, the narrative that lives in the spaces of the official play-by-play.
And the crowd is also in this lost space, the crowd made over in that one-thousandth of a second when the bat and the baseball are in contact. A rustle of murmurs and curses, people breathing soft moans, their faces changing as the play unrolls across the grassy scan. John Edgar Hoover stands among them. He is watching from the wide aisle at the head of the ramp. He has told Rafferty he will remain at the game. No purpose served by his leaving. The White House will make the announcement in less than an hour. Edgar hates Harry Truman, he would like to see him writhing on a parquet floor, felled by chest pains, but he can hardly fault the President’s timing. By announcing first, we prevent the Soviets from putting their own sweet spin on the event. And we ease public anxiety to some degree. People will understand that we’ve maintained control of the news if not of the bomb. This is no small subject of concern. Edgar looks at the faces around him, open and hopeful. He wants to feel a compatriot’s nearness and affinity. All these people formed by language and climate and popular songs and breakfast foods and the jokes they tell and the cars they drive have never had anything in common so much as this, that they are sitting in the furrow of destruction. He tries to feel a belonging, an opening of his old stop-cocked soul. But there is some bitter condition he has never been able to name and when he encounters a threat from outside, from the moral wane that is everywhere in effect, he finds it is a balance to this state, a restoring force. His ulcer kicks up of course. But there is that side of him, that part of him that depends on the strength of the enemy.
Look at the man in the bleachers who’s pacing the aisles, a neighborhood crazy, he waves his arms and mumbles, short, chunky, bushy-haired—could be one of the Ritz Brothers or a lost member of the Three Stooges, the Fourth Stooge, called Flippo or Dummy or Shaky or Jakey, and he’s distracting the people nearby, they’re yelling at him to siddown, goway, meshuggener, and he paces and worries, he shakes his head and moans as if he knows something’s coming, or came, or went—he’s receptive to things that escape the shrewdest fan.
It is a stone-faced Director who returns to his seat for the seventh-inning stretch. He says nothing of course. Gleason is shouting down a vendor, trying to order beers. People on their feet, shaking off the tension and fret. A man slowly wiping his glasses. A staring man. A man flexing the stiffness out of his limbs.
“Get me a brandy and soda,” Toots says.
Jackie tells him, “Don’t be a clamhead all your life.”
“Treat the man nice,” Frank says. “He’s come a long way for a Jew who drinks. He’s best buddies with world leaders you never even heard of. They all roll into his joint sooner or later and knock back a brandy with Toots. Except maybe Mahatma Gandhi. And him they shot.”
Gleason flares his brows and goggles his eyes and shoots out his arms in a nitwit gesture of revelation.
“That’s the name I couldn’t think of. The midget that pinch-hits.”
People around them, hearing part of this and reacting mainly to inflection and gesture—they’ve seen Jackie physically building the remark and they knock together laughing even before he has finished the line.
Edgar is also laughing despite the return of the midget business. He admires the rough assurance of these men. It seems to flush from their pores. They have a size to them, a natural stamina that mocks his own bible-school indoctrination even as it draws him to the noise. He’s a self-perfected American who must respect the saga of the knockabout boy emerging from a tenement culture, from backstreets slant with danger. It makes for gusty egos, it makes for appetites. The pussy bandits Jackie and Frank have a showy sort of ease around women. And it’s true about Toots, he knows everybody worth knowing and can drink even Gleason into the carpeting. And when he clamps a sympathetic paw on your shoulder you feel he is some provident force come to guide you out of old despond.
Frank says, “This is our inning.”
And Toots says, “Better be. Because these shit-heel Dodgers are making me nervous.”
Jackie is passing beers along the row.
Frank says, “Seems to me we’ve all made our true loyalties known. Shown our hearts’ desire. We got a couple of old-timey Giant fans. And this porpoise with a haircut from Brooklyn. But what about our friend the G-man. Is it G for Giants? Fess up, Jedgar. Who’s your team?”
J. Edgar. Frank calls him Jedgar sometimes and the Director likes the name although he never lets on—it is medieval and princely and wily-dark.
A faint smile creeps across Hoover’s face.
“I don’t have a rooting interest. Whoever wins,” he says softly. “That’s my team.”
He is thinking of something else entirely. The way our allies one by one will receive the news of the Soviet bomb. The thought is grimly cheering. Over the years he has found it necessary to form joint ventures with the intelligence heads of a number of countries and he wants them all to die a little.
Look at the four of them. Each with a hanky neatly tucked in his breast pocket. Each holding his beer away from his body, leaning forward to tease the high scud from the rim of the cup. Gleason with a flower in his lapel, a damp aster snatched from a vase at Toots’ place. People are still after him to do lines from the show.
They want him to say, “Harty har-har.”
The plate umpire stands mask in hand, nearly blimpish in his outfitting. He is keeping the numbers, counting the pitcher’s warm-up tosses. This is the small dogged conscience of the game. Even in repose he shows a history thick with embranglement, dust-stomping men turning figures in the steep sun. You can see it in his face, chin thrust out, a glower working under his brow. When the number reaches eight he aims a spurt from his chaw and prepares to take his whisk-broom to the rubber slab.
In the stands Bill Waterson takes off his jacket and dangles it lengthwise by the collar. It is rippled and mauled and seems to strike him as a living body he might want to lecture sternly. After a pause he folds it over twice and drops it on his seat. Cotter is sitting again, surrounded by mostly vertical people. Bill looms above him, a sizable guy, a one-time athlete by the look of him, getting thick in the middle, his shirt wet under the arms. Lucky seventh. Cotter needs a measly run to keep him from despairing—the cheapest eked-out unearned run ever pushed across. Or he’s ready to give up. You know that thing that happens when you give up before the end and then your team comes back to perform acts of valor and you feel a queasy shame stealing over you like pond slick.
Bill says down to him, “I take my seventh-inning stretch seriously. I not only stand. I damn well make it a point to stretch.”
“I’ve been noticing,” says Cotter.
“Because it’s a custom that’s been handed down. It’s part of something. It’s our own little traditional thing. You stand, you stretch—it’s a privilege in a way.”
Bill has some fun doing various stylized stretches, the bodybuilder, the pet cat, and he tries to get Cotter to do a drowsy kid in a classroom.
“Did you ever tell me your name?”
“Cotter.”
“That’s the thing
about baseball, Cotter. You do what they did before you. That’s the connection you make. There’s a whole long line. A man takes his kid to a game and thirty years later this is what they talk about when the poor old mutt’s wasting away in the hospital.”
Bill scoops his jacket off the seat and puts it on his lap when he sits down. Seconds later he is standing again, he and Cotter watching Pafko chase down a double. A soft roar goes up, bushy and dense, and the fans send more paper sailing to the base of the wall. Old shopping lists and ticket stubs and wads of fisted newsprint come falling around Pafko in the faded afternoon. Farther out in left field they are dropping paper on the Dodger bullpen, on the working figure of Labine and the working figure of Branca and the two men who are catching them and the men sitting under the canted roof that juts from the wall, the gum-chewing men with nothing to say.
Branca wears the number thirteen blazoned on his back.
“Told you,” Bill says. “What did I tell you? I told you. We’re coming back.”
“We still have to score the run,” Cotter says.
They take their seats and watch the hitter steer a look right up the line at Durocher dummying through the signs from the coach’s box at third. Then Bill is on his feet again, rolling up his sleeves and shouting encouragement to the players, common words of spark and heart.
Cotter likes this man’s singleness of purpose, his insistence on faith and trust. It’s the only force available against the power of doubt. He figures he’s in the middle of getting himself befriended. It’s a feeling that comes from Bill’s easy voice and his sociable sweaty gymnasium bulk and the way he listens when Cotter speaks and the way he can make Cotter believe this is a long and close association they share—boon companions goes the saying. He feels a little strange, it’s an unfamiliar thing, talking to Bill, but there’s a sense of something protective and enclosing that will help him absorb the loss if it should come to that.
