Table of Contents
Title Page
Dedication
Author’s Note
WINTER 1989
Copyright Page
Leonardo Padura was born in Havana in 1955 and lives in Cuba. He has published a number of novels, shortstory collections and literary essays. International fame came with the Havana Quartet, all featuring Inspector Mario Conde, of which Havana Blue is the third to be available in English. The Quartet has won a number of literary prizes including the Spanish Premio Hammett. It has sold widely in Spain, France, Italy and Germany.
Other Bitter Lemon books featuring
Inspector Mario Conde
Havana Black
Havana Red
For Lucía, with love and squalor
Author’s Note
The events narrated in this novel are not real, although they could have been, as reality itself has shown.
Any resemblance to real people and events is then merely that plus cussedness on the part of reality.
Consequently, nobody should feel alluded to in the novel. Equally, nobody should feel excluded if they do see some pertinent reference or other.
WINTER 1989
He whirled about. “Shut up, you!” he cried. We didn’t say anything, said the mountains. We didn’t say anything, said the sky. We didn’t say anything, said the wreckage. “All right, then,” he said, swaying. “See that you don’t.” Everything was normal.
Ray Bradbury, Perchance To Dream
possessing only
between heaven and earth
my memory, this time . . .
Eliseo Diego, Testament
I don’t have to think to know the most difficult step would be opening my eyes. If the morning sun, glinting brightly on the windowpanes, bathing the whole room in glorious light, struck them and sparked off the vital act of raising my eyelids, the slippery dough settling in my skull would be set to start a painful dance at the least movement of my body. To sleep, perchance to dream, he told himself, revisiting a phrase that had buzzed in his brain five hours earlier, when he had fallen on his bed and breathed in the deep dark aroma of solitude. In distant shadows he saw himself as a guilty penitent, kneeling before the pan, unloading wave after wave of apparently endless bitter amber vomit. But the telephone persisted, its machine-gun ring-rings drilling his eardrums and lashing a brain tortured by its exquisitely cyclical, clinical brutality. He dared to. Slightly raised his eyelids, which he then shut immediately: the pain entered via his pupils and he simply felt like dying, although grimly aware such a desire would go unfulfilled. He felt very weak, with no strength to lift his arms, support his forehead and exorcize the explosion each malign ring-ring made imminent, until he finally decided to confront the pain, raised an arm, opened a hand and grabbed the receiver, slipping it from its cradle in order to regain the state of grace that is silence.
That victory made him want to laugh, but he couldn’t. He tried to persuade himself he was awake, but he wasn’t at all convinced. His arm dangled down one side of the bed like a severed branch, and he knew the dynamite lodged in his brain was fizzing furiously, threatening to explode at any moment. He was afraid, an all too familiar fear, although one he always quickly forgot. He also tried to complain, but his tongue had dissolved down the back of his mouth by the time the telephone mounted its second offensive. Go away, fuck you! All right, all right, he groaned, forcing his hand to grip the receiver, and lurching like a rusty crane, his arm lifted it to his ear and lodged it there.
First there was silence: oh, blessed silence. Then came the voice, a thick resonant voice he found awesome.
“Hey, hey, you hearing me?” it seemed to say. “Mario, hello, Mario, can you hear me?” And he hadn’t the courage to say no, no, he couldn’t or didn’t want to hear or, simply, that it was a wrong number.
“Yes, Chief,” he finally whispered, but only after he’d taken a breath, filled his lungs with air, set his arms to work around his head, his hands spread, pressing down on his temples trying to curb the dizzy merry-goround unleashed in his brain.
“Hey, what’s up with you? What the hell is up with you?” retorted not a voice but an unholy bellow.
He took one more deep breath and tried to spit. Then felt his tongue had swollen or no longer belonged to him.
“Nothing really, Chief, a spot of migraine. Or high blood pressure, I’m . . .”
“Hey, Mario, don’t try that line again. I’m the one with the high blood pressure, and don’t keep calling me Chief. What’s up?”
“What I said, Chief, a spot of headache.”
“So you’ve woken up after the party, I suppose? Well, get this: your holidays are over.”
Not even daring to contemplate such a thing, he opened his eyes. As he’d imagined, the sunlight was flooding in through the big windows, and everything around him was bright and warm. Perhaps the cold had retreated outside and it might be a beautiful morning, but he felt like crying or something of that nature.
“No, Boss, hell, don’t do that to me. It’s my weekend. That’s what you said. You forgotten?”
“It was your weekend, my boy, it was. No one pressganged you into the police.”
“But, Boss, why does it have to be me? You’ve got loads of people,” he protested as he tried to sit up. The errant weight of his brain crashed against his forehead, and he had to close his eyes again. The nausea in his gut surged up; his bladder felt about to burst. He gritted his teeth and groped after the cigarettes on his bedside table.
“Hey, Mario, I don’t intend putting it to a vote. Do you know why it’s your turn? Because that’s what I damn well want. So shake a leg: get out of bed.”
“You’re not joking, are you?”
“Mario, that’s enough . . . I’m already at work, get me?” the voice warned, and Mario understood he was really at work. “Listen: on Thursday they informed us that a chief executive in the Ministry for Industry had disappeared, you hearing me?”
“I want to. I swear I do.”
“Well, want on and don’t swear in vain. His wife made a statement at nine that night, but the guy’s still not put in an appearance: we’ve alerted the whole country. I reckon it stinks. You know that chief executives at vice-ministerial rank don’t go missing like that in Cuba,” continued the Boss, making sure his voice communicated his concern. Finally seated on the edge of his bed, the other man tried to relieve the tension.
“And he’s not in my trouser pocket. Cross my heart.”
“Mario, Mario, you can cut the backchat right away,” and he switched to another tone now. “The case is down to us, and I want you here in an hour. If you’ve got high blood pressure, give yourself a fix, then get here quick!”
He found the packet of cigarettes on the floor. It was the first pleasant thing to happen that morning. The packet was grimy and had been trampled on, but he gazed at it optimistically. Slid off the edge of the mattress and sat on the floor. Put two fingers in the packet, and the saddest of cigarettes seemed like a reward for his titanic effort.
“Got any matches, Boss?” he asked down the telephone.
“Why you asking, Mario?”
“Nothing really. What’s your smoke of the day?”
“You’ll never guess,” and his voice sounded pleasantly viscous. “A Davidoff, a New Year’s Eve present from my son-in-law.”
He could imagine the rest: the Boss gazing at his cigar’s ultra-smooth skin, exhaling a slender thread of smoke and trying to sustain the half-inch of ash that made it the perfect smoke. Just as well, he thought.
“Keep one for me, right?”
“Hey, you don’t smoke cigars. Buy some Populares on the street corner and get your body here.”
“Yes, I’ve got you . . . Hey, wha
t’s the man’s name?”
“Wait a minute . . . Here it is. Rafael Morín Rodríguez, head of the Wholesale Import and Export Division within the Ministry for Industry.”
“Hold on there,” begged Mario as he watched his cigarette wilt. It was shaking between his fingers, although the cause was possibly not alcoholic. “I don’t think I heard you properly, Rafael what did you say?”
“Rafael Morín Rodríguez. Did it register this time? Well, now you’ve got fifty-five minutes to get to headquarters,” said the Boss before he slammed the phone down.
The belch crept up on him like his nausea: a taste of steaming fermented alcohol hit Detective Lieutenant Mario Conde’s mouth. He saw his shirt on the ground next to his underpants. Kneeled slowly down and crawled over till he reached a sleeve. Smiled. Found matches in the pocket and finally lit the cigarette that had gone moist between his lips. The smoke invaded his body, and after the redeeming recovery of the mangled cigarette, it became the second pleasant sensation of a day that had begun with machine-gun blasts, the Boss’s voice and a name he’d almost forgotten. Rafael Morín Rodríguez, he pondered. He leaned on his bed, pulled himself up and en route his eyes stared at the morning energy of Rufino on his bookcase, his fighting fish racing round the endless circle of his goldfish bowl. “What happened, Rufo?” he whispered as he contemplated the spectacle of his latest shipwreck. He wondered whether he should pick up his underpants, hang up his shirt, iron his old blue jeans or turn out his jacket sleeves. Later. He trod all over his trousers when he walked towards the bathroom after recalling he’d been close to pissing himself for ages. Standing in front of the bowl he contemplated the spurt creating fresh beer foam at the bottom of the pan, though it was nothing of the sort, since it stank, and the rotten stench from his offload reached even his benumbed nose. He watched the last drops of relief splash on the glaze, and his arms and legs felt weak like a broken puppet’s longing for a quiet corner. To sleep, perchance to dream, if only.
He opened his medicine chest and looked for the packet of painkillers. It had been beyond him to swallow one the night before, an unpardonable error he now regretted. He placed three pills on the palm of his hand and filled a glass with water. Tossed the pills down a throat sore from retching and drank. Shut the chest and in the mirror confronted the image of a face that seemed both distantly familiar and unmistakeable: the devil, he muttered, and leaned his hands on the washbasin. Rafael Morín Rodríguez, he thought, while remembering that in order to think he needed a large cup of coffee and a cigarette that he didn’t have and resolved to expiate all known sins under the caustic coldness of a shower.
“What a fucking disaster,” he muttered as he sat on his bed and smeared his forehead with the warm refreshing Chinese pomade that always brought him back to life.
With a nostalgia he found increasingly irritating, the Count surveyed the main street in his barrio, overflowing rubbish containers, wrappings from late-night last-minute pizzas blowing in the wind, the wasteland where he’d learned to play baseball transformed into a repository for junk generated by the repair shop on the corner. Where do you learn to play baseball now? He greeted the beautiful warm morning he’d anticipated, and wasn’t it a pleasure to stroll still savouring the taste of coffee? But then he saw the dead dog, its head crushed by a car, putrefying by the kerb and thought how he always saw the worst, even on a morning like this. He lamented the luckless destiny of those animals cut painfully down by a slice of injustice he couldn’t attempt to remedy. It had been too long since he’d owned a dog, since Robin suffered that miserably drawn-out old age, and he’d stuck to his pledge never again to become infatuated with an animal, until he plumped for the silent companionship of a fighting fish, which he insisted on calling Rufino, after his Granddad, a breeder of fighting cocks: plain characterless fish that could be replaced on death by similar beasts, also dubbed Rufino and confined to the same bowl where they could proudly parade the fuzzy blue fins of a fighting fish. He’d have preferred his women to succeed each other as easily as those fish without a history, but women and dogs were totally unlike fish, even the fighting kind: moreover, he couldn’t rehearse in respect of women the hands-off pledges he’d sworn in relation to dogs. At the end of the day, he predicted, he’d join a society for the protection of street animals and men who were out of luck with women.
He put on his dark glasses and headed towards the bus-stop thinking that the barrio must look like he did, a landscape after an almost devastating battle, and he felt some innermost memory stirring. The evident reality of the main street clashed too sharply with the saccharine image of his memory of that street, an image the truth of which he’d come to doubt, or had he inherited it from the nostalgic tales his grandfather told him or simply invented it in order to pacify the past? You can’t spend your whole fucking life thinking, he muttered, while registering that the mild morning heat was helping the painkillers in their mission to restore weight, stability and primary functions to whatever he carried in his head, as he promised never again to repeat such alcoholic excess. His eyes were still smarting from sleep when he bought a packet of cigarettes and felt the smoke complementing the taste of coffee; once again he was a being in a fit state to think, perchance to remember. He regretted saying he wanted to die and to demonstrate his regret ran to catch an unimaginable almost empty bus that made him suspect that the New Year was off to an absurd start and that the absurd wasn’t always so benign as to appear in the form of an empty bus at such a time in the morning.
It was twenty past one but everybody was there; sure, nobody was missing. They’d divided into groups, and there were some two hundred students, and you could recognize them from their appearance: beneath the majagua trees, against the wrought-iron fence, were the people from Varona, long-time owners of that privileged spot with the best shade. For them, high school was about crossing the street that separated them from their lower school and no more than that: they talked loudly, laughed and listened to a very loud Elton John on a Meridian transistor radio that picked up to perfection the WQAM Miami wavelength, and by their side they had the tastiest lookers of the afternoon. That much was beyond dispute.
The cocky contingent from the backwoods of Párraga was fighting the September sun in the middle of the Red Square, and I bet they were as nervous as anything. Their bravado made them wary; they were the type who wore heavy-duty underpants just in case; men are men and all else is pansy shit, they’d say, as they scrutinized everything and wiped a handkerchief over their mouths, said little and flaunted their polka dot scarves, a front crew with side tails and manliness. Their gals really weren’t at all bad, would make good dancers and more, and they chatted quietly, as if they were rather scared to see so many people for the first time in their life. The Santos Suárez crowd was another matter, seemed more elegant, blonder, more studious, altogether cleaner and better ironed, I reckon: they looked as if they were in the revolutionary vanguard and had powerful mums and dads. The Lawton lot were almost like the bunch from Párraga: most were brawny and eyed everything suspiciously, also wiped handkerchiefs over their mouths, and right away I thought those toughs would be fighting each other.
Those of us from the barrio were the most difficult to pin down: their haircuts and swagger made Loquillo, Potaje, el Ñánara and gang look to be from Párraga; their clothes perhaps made El Pello, Mandrake, Ernestico and Andrés seem from Santos Suárez; others looked to be from Varona because they smoked and talked so self-confidently; and I seemed a right idiot next to Rabbit and Andrés, my eyes trying to take everything in, searching the crowd of strangers for the girl who would be mine: I wanted her to be oliveskinned, long-haired, with great legs, a looker but no slut, nor someone too ladylike to wash my clothes on school trips to the country or else too ladylike, so that I always had to worry about getting laid and so on, after all I wasn’t looking for a wife; all the better if she was from La Víbora or Santos Suárez, those people threw terrific parties, and I wasn’t going to go bac
k to Párraga or Lawton and wasn’t impressed by what the barrio had on offer, they weren’t lookers, let alone hookers, and went to parties with their mothers. My girl had to fall in my set: there were more females than males on the register, almost double, I did a quick count and came up with 1.8 per male, a whole one and another headless or titless, remarked Rabbit, perhaps that slant-eyed creature, but she’s from Varona and they already have their dudes; and then the bell rang, and on 1 September 1972 the high school gates opened in La Víbora, where I would experience so much.
We were all almost enthusiastic about entering the cage, ah the first day at school; as if there weren’t enough space, some ran – mostly girls, naturally – towards the playground where wooden posts carried numbers to indicate where each group should line up. I was in number five, and only Rabbit joined me from our barrio, and he’d been with me since fifth grade. The playground filled up. I’d never seen so many people at the same school, I really hadn’t, and I started to look at the women in our group, to start preselecting a likely candidate. Reviewing them made me forget the sun, which was fucking burning it down, and then we sang the national anthem, and the headmaster climbed on the platform that was beneath the arch in the shade and began to speak into the microphone. First he threatened us: females, skirts below the knee and the right hem, that was why you were given the paper about buying the uniform when you enrolled; males, hair cut above the ears, no sideburns or moustaches; females, blouse inside the skirt, with a collar, no frippery, that was why . . .; males, standard trousers, no drainpipes or flares, this is a school not a fashion parade; females, stockings pulled up, not rolled down round the ankles – although that really suited them, even the skinny ones; males, first spot of indiscipline, even if it’s nothing serious, straight before the Military Committee, because this is a school and not the Torrens Reformatory; females and males: no smoking in the lavatories at break or any time; and yet again females and males . . . and the sun started to roast me alive. He went on talking in the shade, and the second thing he did was to introduce the president of the SF.
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