It must be some lunatic, someone unable to cope with life over there. Suddenly the mercury-vapour stage was bare, and Bowring resisted scanning the dark: whatever the figure was up to had nothing to do with him. He was inclined to ignore the graffiti too, except that next morning, when he turned from the blackboard several of his class began to titter.
He felt his face stiffen, grow pale with rage. That provoked more titters, the nervous kind he’d been told you heard at horror films. “Very well,” he murmured, “since you’re all aware what I want to hear, we’ll have complete silence until the culprit speaks up.”
“But sir, I don’t know—” Clint began, pulling at his earlobe where he’d been forbidden to wear a ring in school, and Bowring rounded on him. “Complete silence,” Bowring hissed in a voice he could barely hear himself.
He strolled up and down the aisles, sat at his desk when he wanted to outstare them. Their resentment felt like an imminent storm. Just let one of them protest to his face! Bowring wouldn’t lay a finger on them – they wouldn’t lose him his pension that way – but he’d have them barred from his class. He was tempted to keep them all in after school, except that he’d had enough of the lot of them.
“Wait until you’re told to go,” he said when the final bell shrilled. He felt unwilling to relinquish his control of them, to let them spill out of his room in search of mischief, sex, drugs, violence, their everyday lives; for moments that seemed disconcertingly prolonged, he felt as if he couldn’t let go. “Perhaps on Monday we can get on with some work, if you haven’t forgotten what that’s like. Now you may go,” he said softly, daring them to give tongue to the resentment he saw in all their eyes.
They didn’t, not then. He drove across the bridge to be greeted by the scent of pine, of the trees the April sunlight was gilding. Hours later he lay in his reclining chair, lulled by a gin and tonic, by Debussy on the radio. Halfway through the third movement of the quartet, the phone rang. “Yes?” Bowring demanded.
“Mr Bowring?”
“Yes?”
“Mr Bowring the teacher?”
“This is he.”
“It’s he,” the voice said aside, and there was a chorus of sniggers. At once Bowring knew what the voice would say, and so it did: “Fuck off, Bow-wow, you—”
He slammed the phone down before he could hear more, and caught sight of himself in the mirror, white-faced, teeth bared, eyes bulging. “It’s all right,” he murmured to his mother in the photograph on the mantelpiece below the mirror. But it wasn’t: now they’d found him, they could disarray his home life any time they felt like it; he no longer had a refuge. Who had it been on the phone? One of the boys with men’s voices, Darren or Gary or Lee. He was trying to decide which when it rang again.
No, they wouldn’t get through to him. Over the years he’d seen colleagues on the teaching staff break down, but that wouldn’t happen to him. The phone rang five times in the next hour before, presumably, they gave up. Since his mother’s death he’d only kept the phone in case the school needed to contact him.
Sunlight woke him in the morning, streaming from behind his house and glaring back from the river. The sight of figures at the charred tenement took him and his binoculars to the window. But they weren’t any of his pupils, they were a demo lition crew. Soon the tenement puffed like a fungus, hesitated, then collapsed. Only a rumble like distant thunder and a microscopic clink of bricks reached him. The crowd of bystanders dispersed, and even the demolition crew drove away before the dust had finished settling. Bowring alone saw the figure that pranced out of the ruins.
At first he thought its face was white with dust. It sidled about in front of the jagged foundations, pumping its hips and pretending to stick an invisible needle in its arm, and then Bowring saw that the face wasn’t covered with dust; it was made up like a clown’s. That and the mime looked doubly incongruous because of the plain suit the man was wearing. Perhaps all this was some kind of street theatre, some anarch ist nonsense of the kind that tried to make the world a stage for its slogans, yet Bowring had a sudden disconcerting impression that the mime was meant just for him. He blocked the idea from his mind – it felt like a total loss of control – and turned his back on the window.
His morning routine calmed him, his clothes laid out on the sofa as his mother used to place them, his breakfast egg waiting on the moulded ledge in the door of the refrigerator, where he’d moved it last night from the egg box further in. That evening he attended a debate at the Conservative Club on law and order, and on Sunday he drove into the countryside to watch patterns of birds in the sky. By Sunday evening he hadn’t given the far side of the river more than a casual glance for over twenty-four hours.
When he glimpsed movement, insect-like under the mercury lamp, he sat down to listen to Elgar. But he resented feeling as if he couldn’t look; he’d enjoyed the view across the river ever since he’d moved across, enjoyed knowing it was separate from him. He took as much time as he could over carrying the binoculars to the window.
The clown was capering under the lamp, waving his fists exultantly above his head. His glee made Bowring nervous about discovering its cause. Nervousness swung the binocu lars wide, and he saw Darren lying among the fallen bricks, clutching his head and writhing. At once the clown scam pered off into the dark.
In the false perspective of the lenses Darren looked unreal, and Bowring felt a hint of guilty triumph. No doubt the boy had been taunting the clown – maybe now he’d had a bit of sense knocked into him. He watched the boy crawl out of the debris and stagger homewards, and was almost certain that it had been Darren’s voice on the phone. He was even more convinced on Monday morning, by the way that all Darren’s cronies sitting round the empty desk stared accusingly at him.
They needn’t try to blame him for Darren’s injury, however just it seemed. “If anyone has anything to say about any of your absent colleagues,” he murmured, “I’m all ears.” Of course they wouldn’t speak to him face to face, he realised, not now they had his number. His face stiffened so much he could barely conduct the lesson, which they seemed even less eager to comprehend than usual. No doubt they were anticipating unemployment and the freedom to do mischief all day, every day. Their apathy made him feel he was drown ing, fighting his way to a surface which perhaps no longer existed. When he drove home across the bridge, their sullen sunless sky came with him.
As soon as he was home he reached out to take the phone off the hook, until he grabbed his wrist with his other hand. This time he’d be ready for them if they called. Halfway through his dinner of unfrozen cod, they did. He saw them before he heard them, three of them slithering down the steep slope to a phone box, miraculously intact, that stood near a riverside terrace that had escaped demolition. He dragged them towards him with the binoculars as they piled into the box.
They were three of his girls: Debbie, whom he’d seen hold ing hands with Darren – he didn’t like to wonder what they got up to when nobody could see them – and Vanessa and Germaine. He watched Debbie as she dialled, and couldn’t help starting as his phone rang. Then he grinned across the river at her. Let her do her worst to reach him.
He watched the girls grimace in the small lit box, shouting threats or insults or obscenities at the phone in Debbie’s hand as if that would make him respond. “Shout all you like, you’re not in my classroom now,” he whispered, and then, without quite knowing why, he swung the binoculars away from them to survey the dark. As his vision swept along the top of the slope he saw movement, larger than he was expecting. A chunk of rubble half as high as a man was poised on the edge above the telephone box. Behind it, grinning stiffly, he saw the glimmering face of the clown.
Bowring snatched up the receiver without thinking. “Look out! Get out!” he cried, so shrilly that his face stiffened with embarrassment. He heard Debbie sputter a shocked insult as the binoculars fastened shakily on the lit box, and then she dropped the receiver as Vanessa and Germaine, who must have seen the d
anger, fought to be first out of the trap. The box shook with their struggles, and Bowring yelled at them to be orderly, as if his voice might reach them through the dan gling receiver. Then Vanessa wrenched herself free, and the others followed, almost falling headlong, as the rubble smashed one side of the box, filling the interior with knives of glass.
Maybe that would give them something to think about, but all the same, it was vandalism. Shouldn’t Bowring call the police? Some instinct prevented him, perhaps his sense of wanting to preserve a distance between himself and what he’d seen. After all, the girls might have seen the culprit too, might even have recognised him.
But on Tuesday they were pretending that nothing had happened. Debbie’s blank face challenged him to accuse her, to admit he’d been watching. Her whole stance challenged him, her long legs crossed, her linen skirt ending high on her bare thighs. How dare she sit like that in front of a man of his age! She’d come to grief acting like that, but not from him. The day’s problems squealed on the blackboard, the chalk snapped.
He drove home, his face stiff with resentment. He wished he hadn’t picked up the phone, wished he’d left them at the mercy of the madman who, for all Bowring knew, had gone mad as a result of their kind of misbehaviour. As he swung the car onto the drive below his flat, a raw sunset throbbed in the gap where the tenement had been.
The sun went down. Lamps pricked the dark across the river. Tonight he wouldn’t look, he told himself, but he couldn’t put the other side out of his mind. He ate lamb chops to the strains of one of Rossini’s preadolescent sonatas. Would there ever be prodigies like him again? Children now were nothing like they used to be. Bowring carried the radio to his chair beside the fire and couldn’t help glancing across the river. Someone was loitering in front of the gap where the ten ement had been.
He sat down, stood up furiously, grabbed the binoculars. It was Debbie, waiting under the mercury lamp. She wore a pale blue skirt now, and stockings. Her lipstick glinted. She reminded Bowring of a streetwalker in some film, that image of a woman standing under a lamp surrounded by darkness.
No doubt she was waiting for Darren. Women waiting under lamps often came to no good, especially if they were up to none. Bowring probed the dark with his binoculars, until his flattened gaze came to rest on a fragment of the tenement, a zigzag of wall as high as a man. Had something pale just dodged behind it?
Debbie was still under the lamp, hugging herself against the cold, glancing nervously over her shoulder, but not at the fragment of wall. Bowring turned the lenses back to the wall, and came face to face with the clown, who seemed to be grinning straight at him from his hiding-place. The sight froze Bowring, who could only cling shakily to the binoculars and watch as the white face dodged back and forth, popping out from opposite edges of the wall. Perhaps only a few seconds passed, but it seemed long as a nightmare before the clown leapt on the girl.
Bowring saw her thrown flat on the scorched ground, saw the clown stuff her mouth with a wad of litter, the grinning white face pressing into hers. When the clown pinned her wrists with one hand and began to tear at her clothes with the other, Bowring grabbed the phone. He called the police station near the school and waited feverishly while the clown shied Debbie’s clothes into the dark. “Rape. Taking place now, where the tenement was demolished,” he gasped as soon as he heard a voice.
“Where are you speaking from, sir?”
“That doesn’t matter. You’re wasting time. Unless you catch this person in the act you may not be able to identify him. He’s made up like a clown.”
“What is your name, please, sir?”
“What the devil has my name to do with it? Just get to the crime, can’t you! There, you see,” Bowring cried, his voice out of control, “you’re too late.”
Somehow Debbie had struggled free and was limping naked towards the nearest houses. Bowring saw her look back in terror, then flee painfully across the rubble. But the clown wasn’t following, he was merely waving the baggy crotch of his trousers at her. “I need your name before we’re able to respond,” the voice said brusquely in Bowring’s ear, and Bowring dropped the receiver in his haste to break the connection. When he looked across the river again, both Debbie and the clown had gone.
Eventually he saw police cars cruising back and forth past the ruined tenement, policemen tramping from house to house. Bowring had switched off his light in order to watch and for fear that the police might notice him, try to involve him, make an issue of his having refused to name himself. He watched for hours as front door after front door opened to the police. He was growing more nervous, presumably in anticipation of the sight of the clown, prancing through a doorway or being dragged out by the police.
Rain came sweeping along the river, drenching the far bank. The last houses closed behind the police. A police car probed the area around the ruined tenement with its head lights, and then there was only rain and darkness and the few drowning streetlamps. Yet he felt as if he couldn’t stop watching. His vision swam jerkily towards the charred gap, and the clown pranced out from behind the jagged wall.
How could the police have overlooked him? But there he was, capering beside the ruin. As Bowring leaned forward, clutching the binoculars, the clown reached behind the wall and produced an object, which he brandished gleefully. He dropped it back into hiding just as Bowring saw that it was an axe. Then the clown minced into the lamplight.
For a moment Bowring thought that the clown’s face was injured – distorted, certainly – until he realised that the rain was washing the makeup off. Why should that make him even more nervous? He couldn’t see the face now, for the clown was putting his fists to his eyes. He seemed to be peering through his improvised binoculars straight at Bowring – and then, with a shock that stiffened his face, Bowring felt sure that he was. The next moment the clown turned his bare face up to the rain that streamed through the icy light.
Makeup began to whiten his lapels like droppings on a statue. The undisguised face gleamed in the rain. Bowring stared at the face that was appearing, then he muttered a denial to himself as he struggled to lower the binoculars, to let go his shivering grip on them, look away. Then the face across the river grinned straight at him, and his convulsion heaved him away from the window with a violence that meant to refute what he’d seen.
It couldn’t be true. If it was, anything could be. He was hardly aware of lurching downstairs and into the sharp rain, binoculars thumping his chest. He fumbled his way into the car and sent it slewing towards the road, wipers scything at the rain. As trees crowded into the headlights, the piny smell made his head swim.
The struts of the bridge whirred by, dripping. Dark streets, broken lamps, decrepit streaming houses closed around him. He drove faster through the desertion, though he felt as if he’d given in to a loss of control: surely there would be nothing to see – perhaps there never had been. But when the car skidded across the mud beside the demolished tenement, the clown was waiting bare-faced for him.
Bowring wrenched the car to a slithering halt and leapt out into the mud in front of the figure beneath the lamp. It was a mirror, he thought desperately: he was dreaming of a mirror. He felt the rain soak his clothes, slash his cheeks, trickle inside his collar. “What do you mean by this?” he yelled at the lamplit figure, and before he could think of what he was demanding, “Who do you think you are?”
The figure lifted its hands towards its face, still white washed by the mercury lamp, then spread its hands towards Bowring. That was more than Bowring could bear, both the silence of the miming and what the gesture meant to say. His mind emptied as he lurched past the lamplight to the frag ment of tenement wall.
When the figure didn’t move to stop him, he thought the axe wouldn’t be there. But it was. He snatched it up and turned on the other, who stepped towards him, out of the lamplight. Bowring lifted the axe defensively. Then he saw that the figure was gesturing towards itself, miming an invi tation. Bowring’s control broke, and he s
wung the axe towards the unbearable sight of the grinning face.
At the last moment, the figure jerked its head aside. The axe cut deep into its neck. There was no blood, only a bulging of what looked like new pale flesh from the wound. The figure staggered, then mimed the axe towards itself again. None of this could be happening, Bowring told himself wildly: it was too outrageous, it meant that anything could happen, it was the beginning of total chaos. His incredulity let him hack with the axe, again and again, his binoculars bruising his ribs. He hardly felt the blows he was dealing, and when he’d finished there was still no blood, only an enormous sprawl of torn cloth and chopped pink flesh whitened by the lamplight, restless with rain. Somehow the head had survived his onslaught, which had grown desperately haphazard. As Bowr ing stared appalled at it, the grinning face looked straight at him, and winked. Screaming under his breath, Bowring hacked it in half, then went on chopping, chopping, chopping.
When at last exhaustion stopped him he made to fling the axe into the ruins. Then he clutched it and reeled back to his car, losing his balance in the mud, almost falling into the midst of his butchery. He drove back to the bridge, his eyes bulging at the liquid dark, at the roads overflowing their banks, the fleets of derelict houses sailing by. As he crossed the bridge, he flung the axe into the river.
He twisted the key and groped blindly into his house, felt his way upstairs, peeled off his soaked clothes, lowered himself shakily into a hot bath. He felt exhausted, empty, but was unable to sleep. He couldn’t really have crossed the river, he told himself over and over; he couldn’t have done what he remembered doing, the memory that filled his mind, brighter than the streetlamp by the ruin. He stumbled naked to the window. Something pale lay beside the streetlamp, but he couldn’t make it out; the rain had washed the lenses clean of the coating that would have let him see more in the dark. He sat there shivering until dawn, nodding occasionally, jerking awake with a cry. When the sunlight reached the other side, the binoculars showed him that the ground beside the lamp was bare.
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