by Gaby Triana
Backstage Pass
Gaby Triana
Contents
Chapter One
Day One. Let’s see how long it takes before the…
Chapter Two
“Her Royal Highness has arrived!” My voice echoes throughout the…
Chapter Three
I scan over my English homework before class starts. If…
Chapter Four
Funny, Dad and the guys love to say how being…
Chapter Five
At South Beach Sounds, later that night, things suck.
Chapter Six
Holy cow. Becca lives here? Looks like the butt end…
Chapter Seven
Late in the afternoon Mom enters the kitchen, interrupting my…
Chapter Eight
“I could tell you, but then I’d have to destroy…
Chapter Nine
This woman is getting on my nerves. Since when does…
Chapter Ten
Right as I finish my homework, and I’m about to…
Chapter Eleven
Is it me, or are people staring? I’ve gotten way…
Chapter Twelve
Remember that madness I said would start soon—the one where…
Chapter Thirteen
this week’s been the pits. situation here’s getting desperate, not…
Chapter Fourteen
Since Liam told me about Marie two weeks ago, I…
Chapter Fifteen
The memory of our kiss has been distracting me for…
Chapter Sixteen
Becca’s quiet today. A little too quiet. Could she still…
Chapter Seventeen
Obviously J. C. didn’t get it when I said Becca…
Chapter Eighteen
It’s been a week since Becca’s disillusionment at the studio.
Chapter Nineteen
I’ve never seen him on the verge like this. On…
Chapter Twenty
i have no freakin’ clue why I’m still writing to…
Chapter Twenty-One
I called Liam last night after the wonderful news about…
Chapter Twenty-Two
This interview is my chance. My chance to be heard.
Chapter Twenty-Three
Halloween. What a totally useless holiday. Exactly why should we…
Chapter Twenty-Four
If there’s anything that should take my mind off Becca…
Chapter Twenty-Five
“Rebecca Reese?”
Chapter Twenty-Six
Liam yanks the emergency brake, throws open the door, jumps…
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Mangrove Cemetery. So that’s what this place is called. I…
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Click.
Chapter Twenty-Nine
“What was that for?” Mom asks, bewildered by my impromptu…
Chapter Thirty
Why can’t I take Moonlit Park with me? All these…
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Other Books by Gaby Triana
Credits
Copyright
About the Publisher
Chapter One
Day One. Let’s see how long it takes before the madness begins. Because it will, you know. It always does. The fake smiles, the wannabe friends, the can-you-get-me-backstage-passes? I just got here and already I want this to be over with.
“Careful, okay?” Mom pulls to a stop at the corner of Palm Grove High.
Sigh. “Will you stop it?”
“Sorry, hon. Sorry.” She glances around, looking for paparazzi that aren’t there.
“Everything’s going to be fine,” I tell her. I know I need to watch my back, but it’s not like everyone is out to get us. Nobody even knows I’m here, for Christ’s sake.
“Desert, I was just wishing you luck, that’s all,” she says, pushing buttons on her cell, flinging back her tangled mess of brown hair.
“I know, Mom. See you later.”
“Do I pick you up?”
“No, I’ll walk.”
She raises an eyebrow at me.
“I’ll walk!” I repeat. “Now, go. Leave! Adios, ciao, buh-bye!”
She kisses her fingertip and touches my cheek right before I get out of the car. Then she’s off, adjusting her earpiece, leaving me alone with this whole new school, whole new situation to deal with.
But I asked for it. To get away from my old life on the road, tour tutors, and recent death threats at St. Alphonsus—my last school in LA, and the one that I attended the longest. Cut short after three whole months. All because my dad said “pro-choice” in an interview with Rolling Stone. So freakin’ what? No need to get testy, people.
So while the rest of the band is renting here in Miami during the recording, we’re staying for good. I insisted on public school because I want to meet real kids for a change. At St. Alf’s, everyone was just so ultrafake. This one’s dad is a writer for Newsweek, this one’s mom is a personal chef to the stars. How about a mother who types from nine to five in an office? Or a dad who cuts grass? That’d be so cool. So normal.
When I walk in the school’s main office, some kid is on his way out. I recognize his T-shirt. On the front it says “Crossfire—Insanity Tour.” Yep, I remember that tour well, having tagged along for six months. This is going to be way harder than I thought.
“Hi, I need my schedule please,” I tell the front desk secretary.
“Name?” She looks about as friendly as an ice bucket.
“Desert McGraw.”
“Desirée?” she winces, leaning her ear closer to me.
“Desert,” I repeat. Good Lord. “Like the sandy place with the camels?” My parents should fry for naming me that. I mean, I was only a baby for crying out loud.
The secretary seems confused. “Oh,” she says and types “McGraw” on her keyboard.
That’s one good thing. Few people ever recognize my last name, because my dad only goes by one name—Flesh. Like Cher or Madonna, only a lot dumber. His real name is Richard.
“What grade?”
“Eleventh.” I glance around and see a kid sitting in a chair, holding a bag of ice to his bruised temple. Into a fight already, buddy?
“One second, it’s printing,” Ms. Secretary says. Then she rips the sheet at the perforation and hands it to me.
Honors English Lit, first period. Cool, I can deal with that. English has always been my favorite subject. At least it’s not physics or calculus. Honors English means you’re a poet, a spirited soul, not some dorkus trying to come up with a way to clone superheroes in case we lose Spider-Man to Big-Boobed Evil Woman in Black.
I’ll be late, though. Shoot. I hate walking in late to class. English is in Room 214, second floor. I studied the map the night before, so I wouldn’t look like a complete buffoon searching for my classes. When I get to the door, I hear the teacher already taking roll.
“Ow-ray-lee-o Gonzalez.”
“Here.”
Aurelio. Okay.
“Jesus Christian?”
“Here.”
Jesus Christian? Holy…That’s too funny!
She goes on while I slip in undetected and slide into the last desk in the second row. The girl next to me in the third row has a guitar. Not in a hard case, but in an old gig bag. Her eyes scan over my very normal and, might I add, very clever outfit—jeans and a T-shirt. Ha! Nobody will ever suspect me now!
“Nice shoes,” she whispers.
I look down at my Prada platforms with the tan embroidered flowers. Damn, I knew I shouldn’t have worn these. Dead giveaway.
“Thanks,” I say, glancing at her and trying really, really hard to find something about
her ensemble worth praising. Hmm…no makeup, stringy hair, black baggy shirt and pants, rotting black sneakers. My eyes land on the floor. Her guitar case. “Cool gig bag.”
Cool gig bag? At least I said something nice.
She turns her face to me and stares for a second. “Thanks. It was my mom’s.”
I smile. Whatever. It’s not like I asked.
The teacher, who I figure is Ms. Smith judging from the SMI printed in the name column of my schedule, pauses in the roll taking.
“Desert…McGraw?” she says hesitantly.
“Here.”
And the heads whip around, as usual, so that everyone can look at the freak show with the geological name. What are the chances that someone knows me? I smile a yes-may-I-help-you smile and the faces turn back around. Except for one. A real nice one with blue eyes. Hoo!
“Liam.” Guitar Girl speaks again.
“Huh?”
“The guy looking at you. His name’s Liam.”
“Oh.” I give Liam a quick glance, trying to take in as much as possible about him without staring. All I get in one and a half seconds is…brown hair…really cute…and…He faces the front of the class again. Bummer.
She flips a page in her notebook and begins doodling. “I’m just telling you ’cause I figure you don’t know him.”
“Why would you figure that? We might be great friends.” I mean, really.
Then her pale green eyes—something so sad about them—are on me. “Everyone in this class was in the same Honors English last year. Except for you. So I’m sorry for assuming you’re new.” She glares at me for a split second before going back to her scribbling.
Okay, now I feel bad. Why am I being such a craphead? Didn’t I say I wanted to meet real kids, and now I’m acting like a friend-repellant? “No,” I say, pausing until she looks at me again. “I’m sorry. I’m just stressed out from moving, first day, new school.”
“Moving from where?”
“LA.”
“Wow. That’s a big change. LA to Miami.”
“Well, it may only be temporary, but so far I like it here.”
“Ladies,” the teacher calls from the front of the room. “We’ll have plenty of time to get to know each other in just a moment. Could you please hold back on the chatter?”
Well! Aren’t we quite the authoritarian?
“Sorry,” Guitar Girl says aloud, then continues doodling.
“Ms. Smith” then smiles and introduces herself as Ms. Smigla. Imagine that, someone with a weirder name than me. She talks a lot and hands us our course outlines. After we review them and the books we’re required to read this year, she actually gives us time to socialize! All teachers should strive to be so cool.
“So why’d you move from LA?” my nameless friend asks.
Let’s see, I have lots of choices here. Do I say it’s because I wanted a normal life away from cameras, reporters, and the red carpet? Or because a deranged fan-slash-classmate threatened to blow up our house if my dad didn’t apologize to the pro-lifers who’ve always supported him?
Or the real reason, according to Dad? “We need a change, Desert, and Miami’s the perfect place to record the new album. Energy, color, culture…just the essence our last album desperately needed.” Essence, my butt. Personally, I think he just wants to veg on the beach. Why else would they have picked South Beach Sounds, a recording studio two steps from the sand?
“My dad had to relocate,” I tell her. Yes, lies always work better.
“What does he do?” she pries.
Oh, whatever. Everyone’s gonna find out eventually, anyway…but at least I’ll have some time to fake normalcy until they do. “He’s an artist,” I say, playing with the zipper on my backpack.
“Cool. I’m Becca, by the way.”
And she could care less! Excellent.
“Becca? Like Rebecca? I’m—”
“Desert. I know.”
For a moment I stare at her. She knows everything. She’s been playing me all along. She can see right through me and is about to tell me so. Run, Desert! Get out while you still can!
“Ms. Smigla called your name, remember?”
Oh. Doy. Living with a famous dad will do that to you. Sometimes I get paranoid. Just a little.
“You see that guy over there?” she asks, pointing to a decent-looking kid wearing a Dolphins jersey, number thirty-four, Williams. Seems harmless enough.
“Yeah?”
“His last name’s Kuntz, so don’t feel too bad about your name.”
I think I spit my laughter into the hair of the guy in front of me. Becca lowers her forehead onto the desk and does everything in her power not to laugh out loud. Cool, I’ve met someone I can be friends with…well, maybe. Too soon to tell. When our giggles finally die out, Ms. Smigla announces the homework assignment and we copy it down.
“What other classes do you have?” Becca asks, looking over at my printout.
“Next one is physics,” I say without much enthusiasm.
“Liam’s in that one too, I think.”
I guess she has a thing for Liam. “Want me to get his number for you?”
“No, I’m not into him,” she says. “I’ve known him since fourth grade. He’s like a brother to me. Trig with Ms. Gallo, awesome.”
“What? Oh, we have third period together. Good, I guess I’ll see you later then. Nice meeting you, Becca.”
“Yeah, same here. By the way, I know you probably don’t like your name, but I do. It’s different. Your parents must be totally unique people.”
“Thanks,” I say with a smile. That’s only the tip of the iceberg as far as different, sweetie. If you only knew the rest.
The bell rings, and thirty of us get up not a second too soon. Becca closes her notebook, and as she moves to put it away I spot them—her scribblings all over the front.
Crossfire Rules! Flesh is a god!!!
Wonderful.
Chapter Two
“Her Royal Highness has arrived!” My voice echoes throughout the empty house. I look at the boxes still lying around unpacked. Nobody answers, but I hear some laughing coming from the room my dad’s been using as an informal studio. I throw my backpack onto the couch, walk through the living room, and open the door.
“Hey, girly!” Dad says when he sees me. I like his new casual look with the jeans and the buzz cut. The long hair just wasn’t working anymore. Especially since his scalp shows more now than when he was twenty-five.
“Hey, Dad.”
He’s sitting with his acoustic guitar in front of a stack of sheet music, a sight I’ve known all my life. There’s a girl no older than twenty-one opposite him, someone I recognize but can’t pinpoint. She smiles at me.
“Des, this is Faith Adams, from The Madmen,” he says. Oh. Right. I’ve never seen her in person, so I didn’t recognize her without the clown makeup and freaky hairdos.
“Hey, I liked your video for ‘Real.’ It was cool,” I tell her.
Actually, it sucked.
“Thanks,” she says, and looks at my dad kind of funny. I don’t know how to explain it. It’s like she’s sending him some sort of message and will probably tell him something about me when I leave the room.
So I walk in and make myself comfortable on the couch. “Where’s Mom?”
Dad fingers a chord then points his pick behind him. “She’s out back, getting sun, I think. How was school?”
I shrug and look at Faith. I don’t know why it bothers me that she’s here. I’m used to my dad working with different musicians and having them over, but it’s usually other men. “It was okay, I guess. You’ve got fans there.”
“Is that a bad thing? You say it like it is.”
“No, of course not. It’s just that I don’t know how long I have before they find out, you know?”
“Well, they shouldn’t find out. I don’t think it’s out yet that we’re here, so you should be okay for a while.”
“Hope so. There’s a girl I m
et who seemed real nice, but now I don’t think I can be friends with her.”
“Why not?” Faith asks.
Who invited her into this conversation? I look at her long nails, obviously acrylic, since one of the pinky ones is missing, showing an ugly nail-bed. “’Cause she’s a big-time fan. It’s all over her notebook.”
Dad presses his lips together and gives me a sympathetic look. I know he feels bad sometimes. Like he’s putting me through something I don’t want to go through. It is his fault, in a way, but I know there’s not much he can do about it. Which is why I just try to deal with it the best I can.
“Well, how can anyone not be a fan of your dad’s?” Faith asks, batting her eyelashes at him.
My jaw almost drops. What the hell is that supposed to mean? She must think I’m retarded to not see what she’s doing. Why is Mom out back, anyway? Shouldn’t she be in here making sure this tiger chick doesn’t pounce on her man?
Dad is staring intently at his hands, forming one chord after another and humming quietly to himself. Good, he didn’t even see the bait. Maybe Faith will realize he’s not biting and give up fishing altogether.
I shoot her a look, the same one my mother gives the hard-bodies who line up backstage after each concert, and get up to leave.
“Love you, babe,” Dad sings, and I know he’s talking to me.
“Love you, Dad.” He’ll be fine. My dad doesn’t ever seem to get distracted by all the women who sometimes surround him, but still it’s annoying. I don’t know how Mom deals with it.
The house is freezing. They must’ve turned the temperature down to like fifty or something. I open the French doors to the patio and feel the burning heat roast my eyes. Could Miami be any hotter?
My mother, Crossfire’s manager from the very beginning, from even before she hooked up with Dad, is lounging on the deck, slathering sunscreen on her perfect skin. She’s with Marie, her assistant for the last ten years. Assistant and friend. Marie’s the one who makes calls, answers calls, denies, accepts interviews, etcetera. She also serves as my personal counselor sometimes, so I love her like a sister. Especially since I’ve got no siblings.
